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    Chapter 31 Chapter 31 Dolls and Hugs

    The two of them failed to drink the soup in the evening. Pei Yan wanted to try harder, but Wen Yelan had already picked up the soup and poured it away.

    After the meal, Wen Yelan insisted on washing the dishes.Pei Yan didn’t object this time, he just leaned on the kitchen door frame and looked at him.Wen Yelan’s movements were not very skillful, but he was very careful. Even if water splashed on his face occasionally, he didn’t care.

    After cleaning up the kitchen, it was just after seven o’clock in the evening.Today seems to be an extremely long time.

    “Would you like to watch a movie? Or play games?” Pei Yan suggested, but immediately denied it, “Forget it, we have just finished eating, so don’t sit still. Do you want… to go downstairs for a walk? There is a small garden in the back. There are few people at night, so it is quite clean.”

    Wen Yelan thought for a while and nodded.

    Pei Yan brought him his own coat, which looked a bit too big for Wen Yelan. Pei Yan was afraid that he would be cold, so he took a scarf and put it around him.The night air was cold and dry. They walked side by side along the gravel path for a while. Pei Yan stopped in front of a bench by a small pond and asked, “Sit down for a while?”

    The two sat down on the bench, this time no one deliberately kept their distance.The pond was covered with thin ice and glowed faintly in the moonlight.

    “Is it cold?” Pei Yan asked sideways.

    “It’s not cold.” Wen Yelan shook his head.

    “The vacation is so long, is there any place you want to go?” Pei Yan looked at the pond and asked, “If you don’t leave Beijing, you can just go shopping around. Or… is there a place you have always wanted to go, but you don’t have time?”

    Wen Yelan was silent for a moment.There are many places he wants to visit, those geological wonders, those distant mountains and lakes.But what Pei Yan was asking at this moment was obviously not this.

    “It seems… not.” He finally answered.His life has always been simple to the point of poverty, and he rarely arranges entertainment activities for himself.

    Pei Yan was not surprised.”That’s just right. I don’t have a particularly clear plan. We can think about it slowly, or… we can just stay like this.” He paused, his voice low and magnetic in the night, “Anyway, it will take a long time.”

    Wen Yelan’s heart trembled slightly.It’s still a long time.This sentence was like a small pebble, thrown into the lake of his silent heart, causing ripples in circles.He suddenly realized that Pei Yan seemed to be really planning a vacation for them, rather than trying to persuade him to stay on a whim.

    “You… don’t have to accompany me.” Wen Yelan whispered, “You have your own things to do, friend…”

    “I can deal with those things at any time. Friends?” Pei Yan chuckled, “Lin Mo and the others are just drinking and bragging together, which is meaningless. It’s better…” He turned to look at Wen Yelan, with a smile that couldn’t be hidden in his eyes, “It’s better to look at you.”

    Wen Yelan’s cheeks felt hot when he saw him, she shrank her neck and buried her face in her scarf, not knowing how to respond.

    “Wen Yelan,” Pei Yan’s voice came closer, “I told you, I’m chasing you. When chasing someone, doesn’t it mean spending time with them? I think this is good.” He stretched out his hand and lightly touched the back of Wen Yelan’s hand on his lap with his fingertips, with a hot temperature. “Don’t feel pressured. Just be… multiple roommates? Dining companions? Walking companions? Whatever makes you feel comfortable. But let me accompany you, okay?”

    I don’t know when he started to face Wen Yelan with careful probing and discussion.Wen Yelan clearly felt this change.

    The night wind blew by, bringing a slight chill.The burning sensation from the brief touch lingered on the back of my hand.Wen Yelan’s heart was beating fast and chaotically, just because Pei Yan’s eyes were too serious at the moment, full of cherishment.

    He nodded very lightly and quickly, then quickly turned away, looked at the frozen pond, and smiled softly.

    Wen Yelan’s smile was so beautiful that it was more dazzling than the reflection on the ice of the pond.Pei Yan was dazed for a moment. He leaned back in his chair again, looked up at the sparse starry sky, and couldn’t help but raise the corners of his mouth.

    The two sat on the bench for a while, until the chill gradually deepened, then they got up and walked back.

    When I got back to the apartment, the heating came on instantly.Pei Yan went to pour hot water for the two of them. Wen Yelan took off his coat and sat down on the sofa. His body felt warm and his heart felt chaotically warm.

    Pei Yan handed him the hot water and sat down next to him. He turned on the TV and randomly tuned to a channel that was playing a documentary. The sound was not loud, more like background sound.

    Wen Yelan held the hot water cup and looked at the TV screen, but his mind was not on it at all.He quietly glanced at Pei Yan beside him with his peripheral vision.Pei Yan leaned on the sofa, his long legs crossed, and he couldn’t hide his superiority.

    This person forcefully broke into his life, helped him, protected him, angered him, and forced him.Now, with this kind of companionship like boiling a frog in warm water, it is eroding his boundaries little by little.And he seemed… becoming increasingly difficult to resist.

    Wen Yelan sighed in his heart. He admitted that the worst outcome was to be abandoned again. He gambled again, one last time.

    The phone vibrated in his pocket, breaking Wen Yelan’s thoughts.He took it out and saw that it was a message from Bai Yu.

    [The best brother in the world]: Xiaolan, do you have any plans for the holidays in the next few days?The weather has been cold recently, please keep warm.I have just taken over some domestic affairs here and am a bit busy. I will meet you for dinner in two days.

    He hesitated for a while and replied: [Thank you Brother Yu, please also pay attention to rest.I don’t have any plans for the holidays, just rest.Let’s talk about the meal after you finish your work.】

    After the message was sent, he looked up and found Pei Yan looking at him and casually asked: “Is something wrong?”

    “No, Brother Yu asked me about my holiday arrangements.” Wen Yelan said truthfully.

    Pei Yan said “Oh” without any change in his expression, “Did he invite you to dinner?” Pei Yan asked after a while, but his tone showed no emotion.

    “Well, I told you two days ago.”

    “Are you going?”

    “…It depends on his time.” Wen Yelan answered a little vaguely.

    Pei Yan didn’t speak anymore, just picked up the remote control and changed the channel.Wen Yelan felt that he might not be happy, but Pei Yan didn’t say anything, and he couldn’t take the initiative to explain anything.After all, there seemed to be no need to report or explain to Pei Yan when he met Bai Yu.

    This delicate standoff lasted only a few minutes.Pei Yan quickly returned to normal. He even pointed to a funny variety show clip on TV, chuckled twice, turned to Wen Yelan and said, “Do you think this person is stupid?”

    Wen Yelan was stunned by his sudden change of topic and looked at the screen subconsciously. It was indeed a bit funny, and the corners of his mouth curled up unconsciously.

    The atmosphere calmed down again.The two of them watched the TV, occasionally commenting on the content of the program, but remained quiet most of the time.Wen Yelan relaxed. This state of not having to think about anything and just being there was very comfortable.

    When it was almost eleven o’clock, Wen Yelan began to feel a little sleepy, so she covered her mouth and yawned slightly.

    “Go to bed when you’re sleepy.” Pei Yan immediately turned down the TV sound, “Master bedroom or guest bedroom? It’s up to you.”

    This question made Wen Yelan’s newly awakened sleepiness dissipate a little.He glanced in the direction of the master bedroom and then at Pei Yan.Last night was an accident, so we shouldn’t stay overnight. Do we still have to sleep together tonight?

    “I…I’ll go to the guest bedroom.”

    “Okay.” Pei Yan stood up, “The sheets and quilts in the guest bedroom are all new, and there are clean bathrobes and towels in the bathroom. If you need anything, call me.”

    His thoughtfulness made Wen Yelan feel a little uncomfortable, so he thanked him in a low voice and walked to the guest bedroom.

    Wen Yelan opened the guest bedroom door.When he turned on the light, the sight in front of him instantly froze him on the spot.

    The spacious bed was not the simple hotel-style layout he had expected.On the contrary, there are all kinds of plush toys of different sizes piled beside the pillows, under the quilt, and even on the beanbag next to the window.There were half-human brown bears, chubby penguins, rabbits, small dinosaurs, and several cute cartoon characters that he couldn’t name.

    This was exactly the same as his habit of always having a few soft pillows and dolls on the bed in his small apartment.

    Wen Yelan stood there, his throat seemed to be choked by something, and he couldn’t make any sound.He didn’t expect to see such a scene at all.Pei Yan…how could he know?When was it prepared?

    “I sent you back last time,” Pei Yan’s voice came from behind, unhurriedly, “I caught a glimpse of it.” He walked forward and stopped half a step away from Wen Yelan, without getting too close, and his eyes fell on the stuffed toys.”Seeing as there is one next to your bed, I guess you are probably used to sleeping with something in your arms, otherwise you might not be able to sleep well.”

    He paused and turned his head to look at Wen Yelan, “I know you will most likely choose this house tonight. When I went for a walk just now, I had someone bring some clean ones over. They are all newly disinfected and cleaned, don’t worry.”

    He said it lightly, as if it was a trivial matter.Prepare these, figure out his habits, even anticipate that he may choose to sleep in a separate room because of shyness or restlessness, and then arrange everything silently, just so that he can sleep better.

    Wen Yelan’s heart seemed to be gently grasped by an invisible hand. It didn’t hurt, but it was so sore and swollen. A warm current flowed uncontrollably from his heart to his limbs, and even his fingertips were slightly numb.He was used to facing the coldness and emptiness alone, used to wrapping himself in a hard shell, and used to the details that no one paid attention to.But Pei Yan can always accurately capture these dependencies and needs that even he himself may not be clearly aware of.

    He slowly turned around, raised his eyes, and looked at Pei Yan.Pei Yan was also looking at him. His figure was clearly reflected in his eyes that were usually playful or sharp at this moment, and there was also a hint of unnoticeable anticipation waiting for his reaction.

    No “thank you,” no words.Wen Yelan took a small step forward, put his arms around Pei Yan’s waist, and then buried his face in his shoulder.

    This is a deep hug.

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