Nanke Yifu Chapter 40
byLiving in the Wind and Staying in the Rain (12)
Let’s talk about utilization. After all, no one can watch their own cabbages being stolen. Lin Yuyou still wanted to give it a try and asked: “Brother, how about you stay at my house for two days? The Chinese New Year is in a week, so we should go back early. I’m afraid Sister Yuesheng won’t be busy.”
“Well, let’s go back earlier to help.” Yan Laixi said, “I don’t mind going to your house. I’m fine here… As long as Feng Su doesn’t find it troublesome, I will have somewhere to go if it does. Don’t worry.”
Lin Yuyou rolled his eyes quietly, thinking that Feng Su, that dog, would never pick you back unless he was particularly interested in you and wanted to keep you, let alone think you were troublesome.
I don’t know whether I should be happy or unhappy now. I am happy that Yan Laixi found a simple temporary haven not long after being forced to separate from Chi Fu, but I am unhappy that his brother is going to be in trouble again.Does it have to be Fengsu?Can’t anyone else?Well, at least he is a familiar person, which is a good option. If they really develop into lovers, and she quarrels with Feng Su in the future, her dear brother will turn to her, right?
When Feng Su came back, he saw Yan Laixi washing dishes in the kitchen and Lin Yuyou looking at him maliciously.
Feng Su: “Why are you still bullying the patient?”
Lin Yuyou: “You still bully people with disabilities.”
“It’s not a sick patient.” Yan Laixi turned off the faucet and interjected, “I just had a fever for a while and I’ll be fine a long time ago.”
Feng Su glanced at him and thought to himself, you think you look so healthy, what are you covering up?
“We’ve eaten, we’ve met people, we’ve picked up Xiao Xi, let’s go.” Feng Su said to Lin Yuyou, “It’s getting dark, I’ll take you back.”
Lin Yuyou looked at the time and rolled her eyes. Now she started to pretend to be a good person in front of her brother to gain favor?I didn’t expect that even a person like Feng Su could only do those things.
My eyes feel a little tired. I rolled my eyes too much today. I need to restrain myself or stay away from the source that triggered this action as soon as possible.
“Wow, then I’m really flattered.” Lin Yuyou said in a pretentious manner.
“I’ll go.” Yan Laixi wiped his hands and came out of the kitchen.
“One is disabled and the other is sick. One may fall and be unable to get up, and the other may fall and be unable to wake up. Neither of you is safer than the other.” Feng Su said, shaking his coat at Yan Laixi, “And I don’t need to change clothes when I go out.”
“It’s not easy for his conscience to find out once, brother, please don’t stop him.” Lin Yuyou said, pulling away Feng Su who was blocking the door, turning around and waving to Yan Laixi, “Then I’ll go, see you in two days.”
Feng Su followed suit and said to Yan Laixi before closing the door, “I’ll be back in a moment.”
After walking out of the house and then out of the building, exposed to the night sky and air-conditioning, Lin Yuyou asked: “What do you want to ask?”
What a joke, even if it was just to gain favor, if he didn’t want to say something to her alone, this guy wouldn’t insist on sending her home.
“What about you? What do you want to ask again?” Feng Su asked, “If you would have left by yourself, there would be no need for anyone to send you away.”
The other party asked him to ask, so Lin Yuyou asked first: “You don’t like my brother, do you?”
For some reason, Feng Su suddenly remembered the scene when Yan Laixi misunderstood the relationship between him and Lin Yuyou, and said, “You two are really brother and sister. But it’s really possible, I’m not sure, let’s give it a try. Anyway, he is your brother, so that means he is not a suspicious person.”
Lin Yuyou put on a serious face and warned: “Not sure? Try it? I tell you, I don’t care if you chase others like this, not my brother.”
No matter how many children come and go, she and Yan Laixi, who grew up together, will always be particularly close.
“Then I just give up? But I think your brother likes me more now.” Feng Su said. He had never seen Lin Yuyou look so serious. After thinking about it, he asked again, “But I heard that he has a lover. If we are like this now… won’t you stop me?”
“Why are you like this now? Maybe it’s your wishful thinking. My brother only regards you as a magical creature.” Lin Yuyou finished speaking angrily, curled his lips again, and continued, “I won’t follow you around. You have fallen in love with my brother, and my brother regards you as the person in his dream. Well, I want toBecause of your status, my brother let go of Chi Fu, so we are now on the same side.As for Chi Fu, you may know more about their current situation than I do, not to mention you are not the kind of person who feels guilty about taking advantage of others. As for my brother… then it depends on you.”
Chi Fu… Feng Su sneered in his heart. In his opinion, if one party doesn’t remember or the other party gives up, it means a complete breakup.He just happened to meet someone who piqued his interest. How could he take advantage of someone’s situation?
“Who is such a united front with you?” Feng Su said, “Didn’t you say that you don’t let me try with an uncertain attitude? Then whoever I like, I must make him like me, instead of pretending that I am in some dream. I don’t care whether the result is the same, since it is my person, it can only be mine.”
Lin Yuyou glanced at Feng Su. She could vaguely feel the man’s paranoia hidden in his body before, but this was the first time that he had such obvious possessiveness.Not only can he let go of Chi Fu, but he can also not doubt that he is dreaming. Anyway, Yan Laixi’s character… the two of them can be regarded as matching the pot with the lid, so that’s okay.
Lin Yuyou: “Anyway, my brother is here with you now. If his health doesn’t get better, I only ask you.”
Feng Su raised his eyebrows and said, “Who just cooperated with the patient and pretended to be dumbfounded, as if he was blind and couldn’t see anything?”
“As long as he’s not blind, you can tell that he’s not in good condition.” Lin Yuyou sighed and said, “He wants to pretend that nothing happened. He doesn’t want us to know or worry, so just let him act. If he really doesn’t cooperate, he will have to think about it again.”
The place where Lin Yuyou moved was very close to Feng Su’s house, and he didn’t have much time on the way. After finishing one question he wanted to ask, it was now the turn of the next one.
He knew some things well, but Lin Yuyou didn’t necessarily know some things. After going through the whole process, Feng Su asked, “Yan Laixi seems to be very resistant to the hospital. Do you know why?”
Back home, Yan Laixi was watching the tutorial on his mobile phone folding the puppy with a towel.There used to be Xiao Xi, but now he is alone at home. It is difficult for him to become a lonely old man at such a young age.
The towel puppy was placed next to the pillow. Yan Laixi sat on the sofa with his knees bent and looked at Feng Su, as if he was sure that he had any questions to ask.
Feng Su did have a problem, but he just wanted to talk to Yan Laixi more and get to know each other better. With him staring at her like this, he couldn’t ask any more questions… I don’t know if he would care about those past events being mentioned.
“Just ask whatever you want. I also want to tell you about myself.” Yan Lai smiled thinly and patted the sofa next to him. “As long as you don’t feel bored, it would be even better if you are willing to tell me some of your affairs after listening to it.”
Feng Su was brought back to normal by his smile. He sat over and thought for a while before deciding to listen to Yan Laixi’s own confirmation of the answer he already knew: “Are you the same as Lin Yuyou?”
“Yes.” Yan Laixi nodded, “I am also a child who grew up in an orphanage.”
There is no dodge, no resistance, no helplessness. Just like Lin Yuyou, when you mention the place where you grew up, it’s like your whole person is enveloped by a thin layer of warm sunshine.
Yan Laixi: “Since you and Xiaoyou are friends, then I shouldn’t need to explain?”
“Yeah.” Feng Su nodded and said, “Lin Yuyou said that if she had the chance to grow up beside her father or mother, she would crawl to the orphanage on her own.”
“Then she has to find the right direction before crawling. After all, not all deans are as good as mom.” Yan Lai said with a faint smile, “Xiaoyou is somewhat resistant to being adopted. In fact, most children still want to have a home other than an orphanage.”
“Is it because of you?” Feng Su asked.
The smile on Yan Laixi’s face froze for a moment, leaving only a faint smile, and said, “Have you asked Xiaoyou?”
“I want to hear you say it again.” Feng Su said.
The past, after all, does not happen in the present. Time has passed, and it may have left traces, or there may still be feelings, but after all, it is different from the experience. Events that still exist in the memory can always be regarded as stories and jokes by many people, and they are told without a care. But Feng Su knows that Yan Laixi cannot do it. No matter how normal he behaves, his heart cannot be without waves.But there was something he wanted to say to Yan Laixi, who told Yan Laixi about his past.
“Then where do you start? At the very beginning?” Yan Laixi asked.
Feng Su nodded.
“At the beginning… I don’t remember it myself. I was still a baby at that time. I don’t know what happened specifically. In short, I almost died. I was sent to the hospital for rescue and was brought back from the hospital by the director’s mother.”
Anyway, it is too much to let people uncover their own scars, so in order to solve it all at once, there is no way to go any further.Feng Su said: “Lin Yuyou said that it was your biological mother who wanted to kill you.”
Yan Laixi did not refute or confirm, but just said: “Maybe it’s because I cry all the time, and babies are fragile. My brothers and sisters said that when I was a child, I would cry when I woke up, and I couldn’t be coaxed well. Especially when I was a few years old, I would stop crying every time when I ran out of energy.”
Feng Su interrupted to stop him from blaming the problem on himself: “Babies and young children cry and are fragile. This is not the reason why she almost killed you.”
This obstruction made him feel very upset. He heard Yan Laixi mutter in a low voice: “Chi Fu said the same thing.”
Feng Su was not very happy that Yan Laixi suddenly mentioned someone else at this time. This person seemed to be his love rival, but he was not justified in his rightful name, so he had nothing to be unhappy about. He could only say: “That’s what anyone with a normal mind would say.”
Yan Laixi smiled and continued: “Later, when he was five or six years old, he was adopted once, and he was accidentally burned, so he went back. Xiaoyou was only three or four years old at the time, and his first concept of being adopted went astray. He is still very resistant to it now. Every time a child wants to be picked up, he has to worry for a long time.”
Feng Su was silent. The version he heard from Lin Yuyou was not that simple.
Yan Laixi was adopted by a heterosexual couple. It seemed that one of them was infertile and wanted a child, but did not want to use technological means.Abnormalities can only be confirmed, but cannot be directly found out. Therefore, although there are very few people like Chi Fu who only discover the abnormality in their twenties, many people do not know their abnormalities from birth.
When Yan Laixi was adopted, we didn’t know that children of different ages had limited expressive abilities. When asked what was wrong with him after he woke up, he would only say that he didn’t like it or feel uncomfortable. Adults subconsciously thought it was a physical problem. In addition, he was not able to distinguish between reality and dreams at that time, and he occasionally talked nonsense in the eyes of outsiders, which pushed the suspicion towards a disease.
In the orphanage, there were only a few children who could guarantee that abnormalities would not have a big impact on their lifespan. The two of them saw that Yan Laixi was a healthy and sound child, and they did not even consider whether the unknown abnormality would be a big trouble, let alone reminders such as “This child’s abnormality may be related to sleep. He cries hard every time he wakes up and is not easy to take care of.”
He is probably the kind of person who is fine with everything when he talks about it, but is annoyed when he gets home.
As for the burns… Lin Yuyou didn’t say anything and didn’t seem to know much.
“Is that why you don’t want to go to the hospital?” Feng Su asked, “because you were thrown into the hospital twice.”
“I wasn’t left in the hospital.” Yan Laixi shook his head, “It was the dean’s mother who took me back.”
Feng Su frowned: “How did you get burned?”
For a five- or six-year-old child, if he is not careful, the probability of only injuring his thigh is low, and he will “go back”.
“The mother who adopted me spilled the water on the coffee table,” Yan Laixi said, “and spilled it on my legs.”
Feng Su asked: “Why did it fall over? What happened after that?”
“I…” Yan Laixi was stuck, as if she didn’t know where to start, and her eyes were a little evasive, “I always made her sleep hard at that time, and I took her to the hospital several times, but no problem was found. I was not sensible at that time, and I didn’t care whether the adults were busy or annoyed. I just knew that my brothers and sisters would come to comfort me when I woke up, so I leaned over to ask her to comfort me, saying that she was unwilling to wait, and even tugged on her sleeve. She waved her hand and knocked over the boiling water on the table.”
The more he spoke, the tighter Feng Su’s brows furrowed. Just as he was about to open his mouth, he realized that Yan Laixi had held back his words before he finished speaking. As a result, he almost choked to death with Yan Laixi’s next words.
“Her own hand was also burned at the time, but she only helped me treat the wound and took me to the hospital. Thanks to this, there were no obvious scars.”
Feng Su took a deep breath, suppressed the anger in his heart, and asked, “Do you still want to thank her?”
Yan Laixi saw that his face was not very good, and he didn’t know what he said wrongly to make him unhappy.He has never told anyone this, and no one will ask about these things, not even Chi Fu. If he knows the general outline of the matter, if Yan Laixi does not take the initiative to say it, Chi Fu will ask others, but even Zhu Jiu, even the dean who asked Yan Laixi to come back, can only know the general story of what happened, and cannot know what Yan Laixi was thinking.
Yan Laixi didn’t know how others would react after hearing these words, let alone how he should respond. He slightly shrunk his neck and asked cautiously: “Shouldn’t…?”
“Do you really want to thank her?” Feng Su’s tone rose unconsciously, and Lin Yuyou said that before her brother was adopted, he was different from most children. He couldn’t cry and shout at the same time. After he came back, he didn’t even open his mouth. He covered his mouth with his little hand and just shed tears. How tight can such a child pull his sleeves?I’m afraid that if I don’t have that cup of water, I will inevitably fall down.
Seeing that the other party shrank subconsciously, Feng Su realized that he had not controlled his emotions well. He pursed his lips and paused for two or three seconds to make sure that his voice had returned to calmness before continuing: “She was irresponsible. She lost her temper at you casually and hurt you. Where should you be allowed to say everything is your fault like now, and thank her for the little conscience she discovered after she made a mistake?”
“It was really annoying when I was a kid. She kept saying she was feeling unwell all day long, and nothing happened when she went to the hospital. It would be annoying for anyone. And she didn’t mean to hurt me, she was just careless.” Yan Laixi said, “At that time, her hand was clearly hurting, but she only looked after me, crying and anxiously apologizing and saying she was sorry.”
“So is this the reason why you don’t want to go to the hospital?” Feng Su asked. He looked at Yan Laixi’s hand hanging by his side and let himself hold it, trying to understand and practice the four words “follow the guidance”. “When the premise of going to the hospital has already happened, nothing is the best result. This should not be the reason why you are unwilling or even afraid to go to the hospital.”
The cold fingertips gradually warmed up in the other person’s palm. Yan Laixi wanted to say something, but Feng Su beat him to it.
“And you said she helped you treat your wounds and she apologized to you. No matter how she was feeling or what she did at the time, it was all because she knew she had done something wrong and that she had caused trouble. As for apologizing,” Feng Su sneered disdainfully, “Apologizing is the most useless thing. Can an apology make you feel less hurt? Can an apology transfer the hurt or loss? This thing is just a formality, onlyThe actual function of one is to lower your posture and make yourself more pitiful, aggrieved, and more like a victim. When necessary, you can make the other person appear unreasonable.If you apologize, you must forgive. If you don’t forgive, the positions of the victim and the perpetrator will be reversed. This sounds unreasonable, but this is the fact. There are countless examples in reality, and there are a lot of them.
“Lin Yuyou said that after you went back, she heard you ask the dean, asking if your mother doesn’t want you this time, asking if you can see her again, wanting to say I’m sorry, and asking if her hand still hurts.He said that you were very afraid of water for a long time after you went back, but you were obviously trembling, and you still reached out to touch it obediently.He said that after you went back, you suddenly stopped crying and weren’t picky about food. It wasn’t until you vomited yourself after eating that you found out. You were afraid that if you were disobedient, the orphanage wouldn’t want you.Feng Su didn’t give him a chance to interrupt. He spoke quickly and clearly and asked, “Have you seen her for the last time?”Did she visit you again?”
Yan Laixi lowered his head for a long time and said softly: “Maybe the dean’s mother doesn’t want her to see me again and is worried…”
“Don’t always make excuses for others.Feng Su interrupted him and said, “You can always find a way to put the mistakes on yourself, so why not put them on others?””
“After I returned to the orphanage.Yan Laixi did not answer his question, but talked to himself, “My mother found out that I was afraid of water, so she guided me patiently, telling me that water is not scary, and taught me how to tell whether water will hurt me. My sister was next to me, and she touched it with her hands first to show me.”After I woke up, I hid under the quilt and cried secretly. My brother opened the quilt and told me to cry out when I was sad and to tell others. When he found that I didn’t listen, he simply slept next to me.Afraid of being disliked by her picky eaters, she would forcefully swallow food she didn’t like. Xiaoyou would sit next to me and stare at me as I ate. When she saw that I didn’t chew it, she wanted to swallow it and told me to spit it out.”
“Dean’s mother, older brothers and sisters, younger brothers and sisters, Chi Fu… and you.Yan Laixi turned his head and said with a smile, “The people I met are obviously very good, why should I put the mistake on you?””