Nanke Yifu Chapter 29

Living in the Wind and Staying in the Rain (1)

The brain is completely empty, and I don’t know what is controlling the body. Anyway, this thing is quite intelligent. Although it doesn’t know the destination, it at least knows how to avoid obstacles.

The tears kept flowing, leaving water marks on his face, and were dried by the cold wind passing through the hood. When Yan Laixi came back to his senses, he looked around and felt that something seemed familiar.

When he found the familiar source, Yan Laixi turned back decisively.

A three-year-old child, crying for his mother when he is sad?

Standing on one foot and moving his sore calf, Yan Laixi didn’t know how long he had walked. He only knew that he had reached the edge of the nest area, so he planned to walk back to Chaozhi, near the temporary nest he had a few days ago.

There is no other way, Yan Laixi is a coward who dare not leave the nest.When I moved out for the first time, I didn’t dare to go too far. When I and Chi Fu chose a new home, we only considered Chaoyuan and Chaozhi areas. Last time I ran away quietly and didn’t even leave Chaozhi area. Even now, when I have made up my mind to leave Chifu, I still subconsciously walk in a familiar direction. When I regain my consciousness, I still don’t dare to go to places I’m not familiar with.

Yan Laixi returned to the hotel where he stayed last time, but he was just passing by and had no intention of checking in.At three or four o’clock in the morning, the young man sitting at the front desk was drowsy, and the elder sister opposite who had made the breakfast had already started preparing.People follow their own schedules and do whatever they want to do as time progresses. Yan Laixi thought, what should he do now on his schedule?

They should find a new place to live, they should go back, take away their things, clean up their traces, and they should get back on track as soon as possible. It is not difficult to adapt to life without Chi Fu, as long as it is like five or six years ago, like when they didn’t know each other’s name, like when they didn’t meet each other.

But the fact is that Yan Laixi just found a place where there was no one around and sat on the steps with his forehead propped up.

The tears were uncontrollable. He obviously felt that he had no emotional ups and downs now, and his brain was clearly awake. It should be okay for him to do something now, but the tears just couldn’t stop.Yan Laixi hugged his knees and put the heels of his palms between his eyebrows. He had a severe headache, which hurt from the center of his eyebrows to the bridge of his nose. His stomach had been churning for a while. He knew that what he needed most now was to go to a warm place, lie on a soft bed, and have a good sleep.But not to mention that he couldn’t sleep in the first place, nor that he didn’t want to go anywhere now, the headache alone was enough to prevent him from falling asleep.

The winter nights are relatively long, and before dawn, there are already leisurely or hurried pedestrians on the streets.I don’t know how long it took, but the back of my hand was rubbed by something hot and wet, and a slight scolding that was not harsh came into my ears. The voice was very familiar.

“Xiao Xi!”

It was Feng Su’s voice.

Are you calling yourself?

Yan Laixi turned his head, and it turned out that the hot and wet thing was the puppy’s nose. The fluffy white dog still wanted to get closer to him, but was pulled by the leash and couldn’t get over. Looking further up, it turned out to be the face that had appeared in his dreams countless times.

With his head still hurting, Yan Laixi sat up, rubbed his eyebrows, and muttered to himself: “Did I fall asleep?”

Once again confirming that the person standing next to him was indeed the person who had grown up with him in the world of sleep, he sighed and said lightly: “I hate lucid dreams.”

It’s the same scene as before going to bed, even the time has not changed, so what is it this time?disease?Accident?Or… abandoned?

“Are you okay?” The man’s voice was very soft, as if he was afraid of disturbing anything. He leaned over and picked up the puppy, held it in his arms and patted it twice. The little guy who had been struggling to jump down immediately calmed down and settled in his arms.

“I’m fine.” Yan Laixi said, this dream was a bit strange. Lucid dreams have happened before, but this time it was too lucid.

He had a headache, nausea, and dry eyes. The world around him and his senses were so clear, but he knew nothing about this dream. He didn’t know what his relationship was with Feng Su this time, he didn’t know what would happen next, and he didn’t know what happened in the past in the dream.

He tried to stand up first, but found that his body was a little weak. He reached out to the person next to him and said, “Feng Su, give me a hand.”

The person who was called seemed to be stunned for a moment before reaching out his hand. The strong and strong hand grasped it, but he did not directly pull him up from the ground. Instead, he waited for him to support himself on the ground and was ready before pulling him up.

The moment their palms clasped together, Yan Laixi was thinking of Chi Fu.

The same warmth, the same invisible caring, but Chi Fu’s hand was softer to hold.

When he walked out of the house, he didn’t even dare to look up at Chi Fu, fearing that he would be unable to leave.

Perhaps it was punishment for him being in a dream and thinking about people in another world. Yan Laixi heard the words he least wanted to hear: “Do we know each other?”

The chill that originally only enveloped him instantly penetrated his flesh and blood and eroded to his bones. Yan Laixi almost fell back to the ground, but the hand that had not yet been withdrawn helped him.

He staggered back two steps, leaned against the flower bed, and stared at the person opposite.The man’s figure is not too tall, but even when he is wrapped in heavy clothes, it can be seen that he is at least much stronger than him. His short hair is neatly managed, and his sharp eyebrows are slightly covered by bangs, which makes the whole person’s temperament more gentle.

It was impossible to admit his mistake, it was Feng Su.

Each dream is not necessarily related to each other. Maybe there was a situation before where they just met when the dream started, but Yan Laixi didn’t remember it.It just happens that it is in a new story, it just happens that the dream this time starts from the beginning of the story, but it happens that this time it is a lucid dream.

But, just, Yan Laixi still asked tremblingly: “Are you going to forget me too?”

It was that look again, that look that he never wanted to see again in his life, that look that he wanted to forget, but was forced to deepen the impression again and again, only this time it appeared on another face.

Fear, confusion, anxiety, and negative emotions that swept over him like huge waves overwhelmed him, poured into his mouth and nose, and took away his breath. In a trance, it seemed as if a pair of warm hands lifted him up and put him on a small boat. The sea had calmed down before he knew it, and he lost consciousness.Before he knew it, Yan Laixi felt as if he had returned to his childhood bed, curled up in the warm quilt, holding the plush doll given to him by his sister in his arms, his hand held by his brother lying beside him, and his mother sitting by the bed and patting his shoulders to coax him to sleep. He had a dreamless night.

“Xiao Xi, come.”

Feng Su arranged his coat, put on his shoes, stood at the door with a leash, and called to the little white dog lying on the sofa.

The puppy rolled his eyes and turned his head to the other side, not looking at him.

“Come on.” Feng Su said patiently, coaxing a child, “If you obey today, I will take you to your mother when you are not busy.”

After hearing “Looking for mommy”, the puppy changed his previous attitude of “not understanding or invisible”, turned over in a hurry, jumped off the sofa, ran over wagging his little tail, and even licked Fengsu’s hand affectionately while he was tying the leash.

Xiao Xi was picked up by Lin Yuyou in the winter two years ago. It was said that it was raining that day, and if it were later, she might freeze to death. Probably because of this, Xiao Xi once particularly resisted taking a bath.It was also because of this that Feng Su met Lin Yuyou.

The first time we met was in the market. It was almost time to close the stall and there were not many customers. The young girl held a dirty puppy and let the little guy leave small paw prints on her clothes.

Perhaps it was due to occupational diseases. Feng Su couldn’t stand it anymore and planned to go up and ask. He thought that if it was a stray puppy, he could just take it home and raise it.As I got closer, I realized that although the puppy looked dirty, its hair was combed smoothly, and there was no mud or dirt that would rub on people. It was probably just from running around on the ground when it stepped on it, and it was in good spirits.

To put it bluntly, it is probably like a white shirt that has been soaked in stains and has not been washed properly. The marks are left on it. Just wiping it with water will not help, but it is not impossible to wash it out.

So, the unspoken question became: “Is it afraid of water?”

The puppy is very dear, and apart from being a bit “old”, it seems to have been well taken care of. There is a high probability that this furry little guy doesn’t want to take a bath for some reason.

“Hmm.” The girl glanced at the stranger who suddenly came up to talk to her, nodded, walked closer, sniffed the puppy, and said to it, “Look, people can see that you don’t take a bath. Just wiping is not enough. You stink, and the dog is still growing. What if you smoke yourself to death in the end?”

Fengsu actually wants to say that before it smokes itself to death, it should first cause a few skin diseases that will cause pain to your wallet.

He left an address for the other party, borrowed the other party’s mobile phone and entered it in the memo – there was no way, he was here to buy groceries, not to promote business, and he didn’t have any business cards or advertisements on him – he told the girl that if she was willing to give it a try, she could come to him, and specifically added that he was just curious about whether the puppy would be pure white after washing, and that there was no charge, so as not to be regarded as a convulsive businessman who came to the market to find customers for pet beauty salons.

The store door is right next to the main road, and it is very out of the way. After the market stalls were closed, it was not the time when everyone went home to wash up and go to bed. Feng Su felt that there was nothing to worry about, but he did not expect that the girl was so mobile. On that day, within two hours after they met, Feng Su was still packing up the kitchen utensils and tableware used for dinner in the small kitchen he separated, when he heard a female voice outside asking if anyone was there.

He didn’t lock the door of the store and could just come in. Just when he was wondering, when he saw the person outside the door, the answer was obvious in front of him.

The girl was holding a puppy and sitting in a wheelchair. There were three steps at the door. The platform after going up was not very wide. It was really difficult for her to climb the stairs and push open the store door in a wheelchair.

Feng Su opened the door for her. After waiting for someone to come in, he bent over and stretched out his hand to put it in front of the puppy’s nose. After making sure that the little guy was friendly to everyone, he raised his head and asked the girl holding it: “What’s his name?”

The girl blinked, as if a little confused, and said, “Lin Yuyou.”

This time it was Feng Su’s turn to be confused. There were people who gave small animals such meaningful names, but judging from the girl’s reaction, he had a guess.

Feng Su spread his hand, scratched the puppy’s chin, and said, “I mean what’s its name.”

“Ah.”

Sure enough, Lin Yuyou was not this little white dog, but this silly girl.

“It’s called…”

The person who just now had a clear voice and articulate words suddenly began to chirp like a mosquito. Feng Su didn’t hear it clearly and asked, “What’s it called?”

“Little…”

Feng Su still didn’t hear clearly: “Why don’t you write it to me.”

“Xiao Xi.” Lin Yuyou suddenly said with a brave and heroic expression, “It’s called Xiao Xi.”

Feng Su didn’t understand, what happened to the name Xiao Xi?As for being so hesitant and unable to speak out?

He took Xiao Xi from Lin Yuyou’s arms, and the other party almost wrote the word “worry” on his face. He babbled and told Xiao Xi that she almost froze to death in the rain when she was wandering. She was particularly afraid of water. If she couldn’t do it, she wouldn’t wash her. Don’t scare it.

Feng Su agreed one by one, combed Xiao Xi and put it in the pool. The little guy must have been to other stores before and knew what the pool was for. Feng Su stroked it gently on the head. Soon, the puppy, which was originally uneasy and wanted to jump out, relaxed and lay down in the pool. Waiting for Feng Su to turn on the shower little by little, he slowly approached it and even took the initiative to sniff it.

Lin Yuyou, who watched the whole process from combing to washing to blow-drying, was stunned, “What?”Is that her Xiao Xi?Didn’t her Xiao Xi scratch the door outside even when she was taking a shower?So good?So obedient?So peaceful?This man knows magic!

Fengsu doesn’t know magic, but Fengsu’s anomaly – soothing – can’t be classified as magic.

All in all, in short, Lin Yuyou accidentally knew a way to make her puppy white, fragrant and clean every day, and Fengsu also accidentally got a regular customer.Gradually, the two of them became familiar with each other. Lin Yuyou had inconvenient legs and feet, and the distance was not far. When he was not busy, Fengsu would provide a “dog delivery” service. The girl was not polite. Today, she would detain the person to help look after the stall, and tomorrow she would leave the dog to help take care of it for two days.No, he said it was inconvenient to move, so he asked me to help take care of Xiao Xi for a few days.

If it were any other person, Feng Su would have to ask politely, “Do you need help moving?”, but this was not the case with Lin Yuyou. Whenever she needed help, she would definitely tell her directly.

It was still dark, and there were very few people on the street. After strolling around for a while, Feng Su wanted to take Xiao Xi directly to the store, but halfway there, the little guy suddenly started to compete with him.

Although Xiao Xi doesn’t object to bathing much anymore, she still shows off a little harmless temper towards him, the first person to give her a bath.Feng Su thought it would be the same this time, until Xiao Xi turned around, bit the leash and pulled it in one direction.

He followed and walked over. There was a small sunken square at that location, and flower beds were made on both sides of the steps.As I got closer, I realized that there was a person sitting at the bottom of the steps.

The man buried his head in his arms and sat curled up in the corner. If it wasn’t for Xiao Xi, Feng Su probably wouldn’t have noticed him.

The puppy didn’t have that much thought. While the human was still thinking about this and that, hesitating whether to care about it, the puppy had already jumped down the steps and touched the back of the man’s drooping hand with its wet little nose.

“Xiao Xi!” Feng Su pulled the rope to signal the puppy not to disturb strangers. Just as he was about to apologize, he saw the man tilting his head, revealing his face buried in his arms.

He first looked at the puppy, then raised his face and looked at Feng Su.

Just one glance made Feng Su forget that he had any unsaid words. He thought, he was so beautiful that he seemed to have stepped out of poetry and painting.

Her skin was so fair that it was almost transparent, and her eyes were tinged with gray. The amber eyes were slightly blocked by the messy and fine hair, making them hazy but breathtaking.The thin lips are light and slightly pursed, and there seems to be a trace of lingering fatigue between the eyebrows, as if he is enduring something. The tail of the eyebrows is slightly drooped, with a bit of bitterness, pale, fragile, and pitiful.

It might sound like a corny and boring way to strike up a conversation, but Feng Su always felt like he had seen him before somewhere.But this idea was quickly rejected by himself. Beautiful things are always easier to impress others. If they had really seen them, how could he not remember them at all?

Amber eyes looked at him and stayed for a moment. It seemed that his master had not recovered yet. The man rubbed his eyebrows and murmured: “Am I asleep?”

The beautiful eyes looked over again, and for a moment Feng Su felt a little overwhelmed. He heard that clear voice again, but this time it was softer, as if a little wind could blow his words away, but Feng Su heard it, and he said: “I hate lucid dreams.”

Not sure what the situation is now, or why the other person is sitting here alone, so Feng Su can only ask an obvious nonsense: “Are you okay?”

He unconsciously lowered his voice, as if he were treating some extremely fragile and exquisite work of art, and even specially picked up Xiao Xi and patted her little head to calm her down.

“I’m fine.” The nice voice sounded again. He leaned on the ground and seemed to want to stand up. Perhaps he was frozen here for too long, but failed. A slender and bony hand stretched out towards him and said with a familiar attitude, “Feng Su, give me a hand.”

The moment he heard his name, Feng Su was stunned at first, and then recalled it. After confirming that he really could not find the person in front of him in his memory, he began to wonder if he had a childhood friend that he had forgotten because he had not contacted him for too many years. After all, the other person called his name accurately, and he also felt an unexplained sense of familiarity from the other person.

For a moment, Feng Su also thought about whether this could be some new type of deception, but he was rejected in just a moment. First of all, he did not think that the inexplicable sense of familiarity could be artificially created. Secondly, he was brought here by Xiao Xi, and there are many people who bring their pets for walks nearby.And every time Xiao Xi was given to him to take care of, the time and route he took Xiao Xi for a walk were not fixed. In other words, whether it was for him or Xiao Xi, it was not easy to achieve a fixed goal. Since the goal could not be fixed, it was very difficult to blurt out his name.

Although there are many other possibilities after careful consideration, Feng Su doesn’t want to think about it carefully. Well, he has to admit that he has an inexplicable trust in the person in front of him, even though he is not a person who easily trusts strangers, nor is he a “face control” who throws his brain out of his head when he sees a beautiful person.

Of course, while his head was busy, Feng Su reached out his hand first and held the piece of coldness.

The other party knew him. Even though such a straightforward question would most likely cause the other party to be unhappy, Feng Su still couldn’t wait to know the answer in the most direct and quick way: “Do we know each other?”

Words such as “accident” and “accident” should be renamed if they can be anticipated.

The man’s figure slumped obviously, Feng Su quickly held his arm hard, and almost dropped Xiao Xi in his arms in a panic.

The man retracted his supported arm and staggered back to the flower bed. Feng Su put Xiao Xi down, fearing that he would fall, and wanted to step forward, but was pinned to the spot by that look in his eyes.

There was a moment of panic and helplessness, followed by disbelief, doubt, sizing, and then certainty, and then returned to the initial bewilderment, even tinged with a little fear, as if wanting to escape. Finally, a soft voice trembled, like a question, but also asked in disbelief: “Are you going to forget me too?”

Maybe they really have a past that he has forgotten, but it should never be a past that would make the other party react so hugely to his forgetfulness. His memory is not that bad.Besides, Feng Su couldn’t understand why he said it.

He wanted to say something to make the other person calm down so he could figure things out, but it seemed that it was too late.

Even the large winter coat couldn’t hide the violent rise and fall of his chest. The white steam he exhaled quickly was particularly obvious under the street lights. It also clearly told Feng Su that his current state was very wrong and he could no longer stimulate him.

He took two steps forward, cupped the other person’s cheek, wiped away the tears that had fallen unconsciously with his fingertips, murmured and repeated “It’s okay”, and reached down to grab his cold and stiff hand with his left hand, pressing it gently.

The not-so-bright light in the pair of amber completely dimmed, his eyes were hollow, and his eyelids kept falling. Finally, he could no longer hold up and fell together with his limp body.