MRFD Chapter 43
by VolareHe had suppressed himself for too long.
His feelings for Chen Ke Yao had unknowingly transcended the realm of simple infatuation. Even if he deliberately ignored and avoided facing them, they wouldn’t simply disappear. Those emotions gradually swelled and thrived in his chest, and by the time he had to confront them, they had already occupied all of his thoughts.
Rong Yi couldn’t control them anymore. He could only be controlled by them.
But impulsiveness is ultimately a bad habit.
Chen Ke Yao’s lips were as soft as he remembered. But unlike before, his whole body was stiff.
The pleasure brought by the unrequited kiss vanished in an instant.
Rong Yi quickly pulled back.
He thought in a panic that it wouldn’t be strange if Chen Ke Yao was frightened by him because he was even scared by himself.
But when he saw Chen Ke Yao’s expression at that moment, even that bit of mental preparation was useless.
Chen Ke Yao’s face was pale. In the few seconds they stood there staring at each other, he seemed to be trying his best to endure something, but soon, he lowered his head unnaturally and covered his mouth with his hand.
In Rong Yi’s helpless gaze, he seemed to want to say something, but in the end, he couldn’t open his mouth. He just waved his hand and walked quickly to the trash can on the side of the road.
As he uncontrollably squatted on the ground, retching, Rong Yi stood there quietly watching him.
He felt his palms turn cold.
Chen Ke Yao still couldn’t throw up anything, just like the previous few times. He tried to endure it but couldn’t control the physiological nausea. Soon his eyes became red, and tears welled in the corners of his eyes because of the discomfort.
He looked pitiful.
Rong Yi thought, “This seems to be my fault.”
So he looked around and found a convenience store, went in and bought a bottle of water. When he came out of the convenience store, Chen Ke Yao had already stood up, looking a little lost, as if he was looking for him.
Chen Ke Yao was visibly stunned when Rong Yi walked up to him and handed him the water.
As he took the water, they both said at the same time: “Sorry.”
Rong Yi hesitated, then smiled at Chen Ke Yao: “I harassed you, why are you apologizing to me? It’s not like it’s the first time you’ve thrown up at the sight of me.”
Chen Ke Yao was obviously completely unprepared for his reaction, and carefully asked while holding the water bottle: “…Aren’t you angry?”
“No,” Rong Yi shrugged, “You can’t control this kind of thing yourself.”
“For now,” Chen Ke Yao looked at him, “But if you don’t mind, I’ve actually…”
“Learned your lesson, right?” Rong Yi said.
Chen Ke Yao was stunned.
Rong Yi turned his head and stopped looking at him: “I find you annoying, so I deliberately scared you.”
He waited for a while after he finished speaking, but Chen Ke Yao remained silent. So he frowned and continued: “Now that you know, don’t come and provoke me again.”
Chen Ke Yao took a step towards him: “Rong Yi, I…”
“I suddenly remembered I have something to do,” Rong Yi interrupted him, “I’m leaving first.”
Rong Yi felt that if he stayed for even one more second, he would break down.
He fell into the same pit for the second time. The first time was a slip and fall. What about now?
During these days, he circled around this pit, carefully looking inside, deceiving himself that he wasn’t attracted to it, and then, inadvertently, he fell in again.
He jumped in on purpose. But it’s also possible that he never really climbed out from the start.
Rong Yi belatedly realized that he might have been clear about it all along subconsciously, but he just didn’t want to admit it. After all, if it were any other person, why would he have endured it all this time without over-interpreting the other person’s behavior?
He had been in love with many people in his imagination. Fantasy itself is a pretty happy thing. He can imagine how any pleasing person would spend their life with him, and then, when facing reality, he would at most sigh for a while and not take it too seriously.
Just thinking about it, there’s no loss, and it doesn’t hurt anyone, it’s self-amusement, what’s wrong with that?
But it doesn’t work with Chen Ke Yao. He doesn’t dare to. He’s afraid that if those sweet fantasies are shattered, he will really be sad.
It’s hard to say exactly what’s so good about him, but he is just that different person.
Rong Yi didn’t get home until very late.
He was especially careful when entering the door, for fear of making a sound, and he didn’t even turn on the lights in the corridor. Only after he finally tiptoed into the house and closed the door did he finally breathe a sigh of relief.
Chen Ke Yao didn’t notice him. But it’s also possible that he did notice, but didn’t think it was necessary to say hello, so he ignored him.
Either way is fine, just don’t let him see this person again for the time being.
After wandering aimlessly outside for a few hours, he didn’t realize how sore his legs were until he finished washing up and got into bed. He was clearly very tired, but he couldn’t fall asleep at all when he closed his eyes.
The things that had happened in the past two days floated before his eyes one by one.
Chen Ke Yao said that he would look especially good in a white suit, and also said that he wanted to eat the pickled radish he made. He smiled at him and held his hand.
He’s so shameless.
And so cute.
Rong Yi buried his head in the quilt, feeling a buzzing in his ears. He suddenly felt a little regretful. Why was he so impulsive? Wouldn’t it be better to continue getting along like this without anything happening? He could still cook for him every day, listen to his praise, talk to him often, occasionally quarrel, be angry with him but quickly make up. Chen Ke Yao was also willing to tell him about those sad childhood experiences without reservation. That should be a proof of intimacy, right?
…Did he ruin everything?
Rong Yi crawled out of the quilt, staring blankly at the dark room.
He couldn’t sleep like this, and his brain would explode. After tossing and turning a few more times, he simply picked up his phone.
He opened his Moments and scrolled through it casually, and found that, except for him, everyone in this world seemed to be immersed in happiness.
Some friends were posting photos of their new house halfway through renovation, some were traveling with their lovers, and some were posting weekend dinners with their families. Yu Wenluo, whom he had just met not long ago, posted a photo a few hours ago. In the picture, a little girl of about four or five years old was sleeping peacefully in his arms.
He wrote: Thank you for your concern, my little princess is finally okay.
Chen Ke Yao liked it below. So Rong Yi immediately liked it without showing weakness.
Scrolling further back, he saw that Zhou Li had also posted a Moment not long ago, thanking everyone for their concern. But the content was a bit alarming.
He said that Mimi, who had been secretly thrown out by his grandma, had finally been successfully found.
Before lamenting that this snake was really ill-fated, he suddenly made a surprising discovery. Underneath this Moment, a familiar but unexpected person appeared.
Liu Yuan, who should have no contact with Zhou Li in private and had not exchanged contact information, gave a heart and left a message.
“It was so hard today, rest early.”
What’s even more terrifying is that Zhou Li actually replied.
“You too.”
Rong Yi was a little dazed for a moment. These two people, who he had always secretly hoped would develop, actually had progress quietly in a place he couldn’t see. This should have been a happy thing, but before Rong Yi felt happy, he couldn’t help but think of his own miserable self.
Zhou Li, who also had difficulty getting into a relationship, was completely different from him.
This Omega is beautiful, cute, full of charm, and is eagerly pursued by countless Alphas. As long as he is willing, he can start a romantic relationship at any time.
Rong Yi has always been envious. But at this moment, he felt that he might be a little jealous.
Fortunately, this self-loathing emotion didn’t last too long. Because he suddenly realized that he didn’t need to be liked by too many people.
He just wants to be liked by one person now.
He wants to be in love with that person again, and he can even pretend to be an Alpha for it. Compared to Zhou Li, he is more jealous of the deceased ex that Chen Ke Yao mentioned.
This person is so annoying. He had such a good lover, but he didn’t know how to cherish him.
So good. Making people feel useless, but also feeling that everything is good.
Even if it’s uncomfortable, he still has to go to work.
Rong Yi, who didn’t get enough sleep, was groggy all day. It wasn’t until near the end of work that he began to think about whether it would be too awkward to sit face-to-face with Chen Ke Yao at the dining table tonight.
Salvation came from a message from Zhou Li.
He looked particularly broken down, sent a series of frantic little yellow emoticons, and then said: “I can’t take it anymore! I want to resign!”
Rong Yi only hesitated for a second before replying.
“What’s wrong? If you’re not happy, do you want to get together and have a meal?”
That’s right, he also wanted to ask how he and Liu Yuan got involved.
After righteously ordering a takeout for Chen Ke Yao, he and Zhou Li met at a restaurant in the middle of their two companies.
As soon as Zhou Li sat down, he started frantically complaining, and the focus of his complaints was actually his boss again.
Rong Yi was shocked that Li Xiao Ran was still Unstoppable set on Zhou Li after so many things had happened. But at the same time, he couldn’t help but feel a little Sigh.
After this person had gone through the transformation from a male god to a jerk in his mind, he now became a little pitiful.
Clearly, he was also a high-Flower of the sacred back then, spirited and vigorous, but he was designed by someone who didn’t love him at all and was forced to marry because of pregnancy. In such a blow and long marriage that was like a cage, it’s not surprising how much a person’s mentality can change.
“This person actually told me that he wants to divorce his other half for me,” Zhou Li said in disbelief, “I Depend on, he’s actually married, I didn’t even know! What does his divorce have to do with me? He said it as if I was the other woman? I’m obviously running away from him as fast as I can!”
Rong Yi was a little surprised. It may not be a bad thing for these two people to separate. He just didn’t expect that Li Xiao Ran seemed to be quite serious about Zhou Li.
“Why don’t you help me scold him!” Zhou Li angrily slammed the table.
Rong Yi didn’t know which angle to start from for a moment. The Li Xiao Ran in his mind suddenly became even more miserable. He finally decided to get rid of his past mistakes and embrace a new spring, but the object of his affection avoided him. Judging from this Weirdpursuit method, his real love experience in life may also be a wasteland.
It makes people want to light a candle for this former A huge fan.
“I’ll write my resignation report when I get back,” Zhou Li said, “Fuck it. I want to find an opportunity to travel, do you have any places you’re interested in? We can go together!”
Hearing this, Rong Yi suddenly remembered something.
Not long ago, he bought a round-trip plane ticket to attend his idol’s fan meeting, which is this weekend.
Too many things have happened recently, and he almost forgot.