Mixed Chapter 71

truth

“Who cares…” The last word “you” was blocked by Song Shixue with the crisp sound of the door closing.

Things that have been impulsive for a long time do not require consideration and reaction, and the same is true for Song Shixue’s kiss.

After a thousand days and nights, Chi Nuan can no longer remember the real warmth and softness between her lips.The soft pink lips wrapped around her again, and the sweetness she received stimulated her brain like an electric shock. The overflowing thoughts broke through her whole body from a kiss, and her blood was so active and boiling that every inch of her skin turned red.

Just like a big red cherry.

Chi Nuan’s eyes were as big as copper bells, and she completely forgot about closing her eyes when kissing.If it weren’t for Song Shixue’s guidance, I’m afraid her kissing skills would be even worse than when they first kissed her. It would be like a wooden stake stuck there.

Song Shixue gave Chi Nuan a kiss that lasted for more than ten seconds, but it was not enough for Chi Nuan to sort out the messy ball of wool in her head.

Chi Nuan licked her lips, and there was still the aftertaste of her thoughts on them.The tip of his tongue curled up and he swallowed the sweetness just now into his stomach.

Chi Nuan pushed her away: “Song Shixue, we have been separated, and we shouldn’t be like this again.”

The sweetness is digested, and what comes out is the tooth-shattering sourness.

“I’m sorry, please forgive me?” Song Shixue restrained her impulse and leaned forward to grab Chi Nuan’s fingers, but missed.

Chi Nuan’s pupils shrank and he took two steps back.

Chi Nuan thought there would be some breakthrough change after the kiss ended, but she still said an apology in a fluttering voice.Sorry, I said it too many times and said it too lightly. The initial sweetness turned into sourness and finally rose to bitterness and grief.

“Song Shixue, you know what I hate most is when you say sorry.” She stared straight into her eyes, feeling bad. “You can do whatever you want, right? Leave me if you want to leave me, and kiss me if you want to kiss me. Do you think that because I suddenly came to you and was worried about you, you think that we can go back to the past?”

Her breathing began to become difficult, her hands began to tremble uncontrollably, and her sunburn began to jump as if she was tired.

No one understands Chi Nuan’s current somatization symptoms better than Song Shixue.Ignoring Chi Nuan’s resistance, she went to hug her, pat her back smoothly, and comfort her.

The sharp tiger teeth pierced Song Shixue’s soft lips, and a bright red color half dyed the mouth and half flowed down the chin.Song Shixue just frowned and let Chi Nuan vent.

Chi Nuan’s eyes were scarlet red from the hot tears. She pinched Song Shixue’s cheeks, kissed her randomly, then gently licked the wound on her lower lip, and bit her sensitive earlobe.

Song Shixue groaned and her body trembled slightly.

“If Teacher Song only uses me as a tool to vent his desires, then I will always accompany him.” Chi Nuan’s gritted teeth whispered in his ear.

Song Shixue’s upper body trembled as she felt Chi Nuan’s long, smooth fingertips penetrate her thin shirt and linger on both sides of her waist.When the brief teasing was over, the five fingers and the palm of the hand pressed together with warmth. With another exertion, I wished I could crush Song Shixue alive on the spot.

She raised her head and couldn’t help but let out a cry of pain.

“Aren’t you very tolerant?” It took three years of forbearance before you showed up. Even now, you still say I’m sorry to get rid of it.

“Chi Nuan, can we go to bed?” She could hardly stand.

“Right here.” Her eyes became cold, and her tone of voice refused to be rejected.

Chi Nuan stubbornly unbuttoned every button on his shirt.

When the stitched scars on her abdomen were unreservedly displayed in front of her eyes, Chi Nuan could no longer take the next step.

She lowered her eyes, and her trembling fingertips were only a knuckle away from the seven-centimetre-long scar, but she did not dare to touch it any further.

“What…is going on?” Chi Nuan’s tone finally stopped being paranoid, and she felt extremely distressed.

Song Shixue was so complacent that she completely forgot about the scar on her abdomen. She pulled up and buttoned her shirt guiltily.

“Speak, speak, Song Shixue! Such a long and deep scar can kill someone!” Chi Nuan raised her eyes with tears in her eyes, facing Song Shixue’s confusion. “If you continue to be a mute like this, I will never care about you again in this life!”

“I scratched it accidentally.” She panicked, but this explanation was so feeble. “I’m fine, Xingxing…”

“Accidentally? Did you scratch it? Do you think I’m stupid?” Chi Nuan bit the inner wall of his mouth, “Are you still unwilling to tell me the truth?”

The two were in a stalemate for several minutes. Chi Nuan put his hand into his bag, caressing Ye Zhi’s business card, and stared at the star bracelet swinging on Song Shixue’s wrist.

Without saying a word, he rushed out of the door.

She stood in the consulting room and knocked politely on Ye Zhi’s office door.

“Dr. Ye, please tell me what happened to Song Shixue in those three years.”

“If I said that she almost died three years ago, would you believe it?” She capped her pen and looked at Chi Nuan seriously.

“What does it mean to almost die?” During the days when Song Shixue disappeared without a trace, Chi Nuan almost never thought of linking death to Song Shixue.She hated her, but she never wanted to be separated from her.

“In the most serious year, Xiaoxue couldn’t sleep all night long, and PTSD would haunt her every once in a while. Almost those days were spent in pain. Under the influence of pain, she began to be unable to distinguish between reality and hallucinations, and began to commit suicide. She cut herself countless times.She grabbed her neck with her wrist, stabbed her chest, and even stood on the top of the building ready to jump off.Several times, she almost succeeded.”Ye Zhi’s eyes moved to a small photo frame on the table, and she chuckled, “But she was saved by the doctor every time.”

Chi Nuan’s palms kept sweating, and she tightly grasped the corners of her clothes to relieve the pain in her chest that was already beyond the normal range.She only saw the longest and most obvious scar, but she never thought that for countless days and nights, Song Shixue was tortured in places Chi Nuan couldn’t see.

She personally left dense scars on her covered chest and wrists. Did she guess early that Chi Nuan would feel guilty and sad after seeing them?

“Do you know how she spent the rest of her life?” As a psychiatrist, Ye Zhi certainly saw Chi Nuan’s physical discomfort, but was indifferent. She wanted her to experience Song Shixue’s pain, even if it was only one ten thousandth of what it was like at the time. “Besides various medications for psychological relief, the most important factor is because of you.”

“She read the two letters you wrote for her over and over again, and after she got better, she started painting again. In those paintings, you were happy, crying, and facing the sun… The drawing papers were piled higher and higher, and she missed you more intensely.”

The tinnitus began to appear continuously, and Ye Zhi’s voice suddenly became high, low, far away, and close. Each word made Chi Nuan feel as if he was in the deep sea and unable to breathe.Every word formed a picture, turning into salty and wet seawater that choked her nose and throat until she suffocated.

Chi Nuan found that her nasal cavity was no longer enough to inhale more air. She opened her mouth to breathe greedily, her chest rising and falling violently.I don’t know how long it took for him to calm down, but his pale face and cold hands and feet finally felt a little warmer.

Her hoarse voice broke through her throat like a sharp spike: “Who, who made her become like this?”

“Her father.”

“How could her father?” She was very impressed with Song Shixue’s father, Chi Nuan, and had heard Rong Niang mention that he was about to be released from prison.She remembered that she had said it would take at least half a year, but she never expected that the beast would be released in advance.

Ye Zhi opened the cigarette case in the drawer and picked up a cigarette: “Do you want to smoke?”

“I don’t smoke.” Chi Nuan waved his hand and added: “You can just smoke, I don’t mind.”

The lighter lit the cigarette core, and Ye Zhi blew out a long, thin smoke from his mouth and said: “Song Maoye went to the casino to gamble within two days after he was released from prison, and owed a huge debt. I don’t know where he learned Xiaoxue’s contact information, address, and your existence, and threatened Xiaoxue with your life again and again to get her to pay back the money for him.”

“Why… didn’t you call the police?” Why didn’t you tell her at that time and then the two of you faced it together?

“Oh, do you think calling the police would be useful for this kind of person?” She shook the ashes from her cigarette. “If it was useful, she wouldn’t have to fight to the death…”

The chat lasted nearly an hour and a half, from the initial risk of taking a risk for love to the final victory over oneself and planning to meet.Everywhere is proof that Song Shixue thinks about Chi Nuan from beginning to end and loves Chi Nuan deeply.

But the mute was so tolerant that he would rather bear everything silently than tell any of his grievances.

If the three years of Chi Nuan without Song Shixue were difficult and slow, then listening to Ye Zhi talk about Song Shixue’s dark three years was difficult and slow, and at the same time he had to endure a thousand times the heartbreaking pain every second.

“Chi Nuan, she has died too many times in order to see you in her best condition.” Ye Zhi finally said to Chi Nuan.

So, please cherish Song Shixue.

So, don’t let Song Shixue down.

So, please love the one you love and don’t let her wait too long.