Mixed Chapter 25

hate

Song Shixue used her waking state to feel Chi Nuan’s remaining warmth and listen to her love words.Love grows more and more wantonly – it grows into a sea of ​​flowers and a towering tree.

She thought that even if there was no result with Chi Nuan in the end, she would still love her as a friend for the rest of her life.

With the fragrance of Song Shixue’s body, Chi Nuan gradually fell into a deep sleep. The hand originally placed on her left ear also slipped down while her mouth was still murmuring: “Song Shixue, I like you so much… How long will it take before you can be with me?”

Song Shixue carefully turned sideways and gazed at Chi Nuan affectionately.

“Well, I like you very much too.”

“When I’m ready, we’ll be together.”

Song Shixue’s voice was as low as an ant’s.

She stretched out her index finger and touched the tip of her nose; then her philtrum; and finally it rested on her lips.

The warm breath that Chi Nuan exhaled from his nose would fall on Song Shixue’s fingertips every two seconds.She couldn’t help but get closer, allowing her touch and hearing to further feel the rhythm of Chi Nuan’s breathing.

Very gentle.

But the frequency of his heartbeat gradually increased until his body turned into a drum—dong-dong-dong-dong.

I want to kiss you, I want to own you completely.

Adults can always bury their desires quietly in their hearts, but Song Shixue is like a counterexample.

She wanted to “eat” Chi Nuan every moment; every minute; even every second.The desire/fire that had been suppressed for twenty-seven years was now on the verge of exploding.

Song Shixue lowered her eyes and pecked Chi Nuan’s lower lip.But she was not satisfied and began to attack her chin and neck.

As expected, you can’t sleep in the same bed with the person you like.

Song Shixue couldn’t help it anymore.

In Chi Nuan’s dream——

Song Shixue kissed her from her mole slowly downwards, finally stopping at her navel: “Do you like it? Chi Nuan.”

Song Shixue monopolized Chi Nuan’s senses with a voice full of desire: “Answer me, Chi Nuan.”

Chi Nuan raised his head and drooped his eyebrows: “I… like it.”

“It’s so itchy.” She gradually regained consciousness.His eyes were empty and his vision was a little blurry. He could only vaguely see a person kissing his neck intently and tenderly.Chi Nuan blinked his eyes in disbelief to refocus.

“Song, Teacher Song?”

Song Shixue heard movement above her head and looked up.The eyes were no longer clear, replaced by boundless desire.

“Mr. Song…” Song Shixue blocked Chi Nuan’s mouth with actions.

“Hmm…”

The kiss was long and hard, both restrained and wanton.Chi Nuan felt that he could hardly breathe, and his face turned red from holding back.

Chi Nuan used her remaining strength to push Song Shixue away, breathing heavily, staring at her with a blush on her face.

“Teacher Song, why are you doing this suddenly?” Puzzle flashed across her eyes, and Chi Nuan wanted to get a reasonable explanation.

Song Shixue lowered her eyebrows, the light in her eyes dimmed, and she turned her head slightly to the side, looking disappointed: “I’m sorry, I… was a little sleepy, and my mind wasn’t very clear… I couldn’t restrain my desires for a while.”

“Have you not restrained your… desires?” Chi Nuan repeated, her voice so soft that it was almost inaudible, as if she was afraid of being shocked.

“Go to sleep.” Song Shixue pulled the quilt and lay down.

Facing Song Shixue’s back, Chi Nuan asked with an angry tone in his voice: “If Teacher Song has those thoughts about me, why don’t you admit it——”

“Do I have to make it clear? I just happened to have physical desires today, and you happened to be by my side.” Song Shixue interrupted her in time, her tone already full of alienation.It seemed as if everything that had just happened had nothing to do with her, and Chi Nuan was just a tool for her to vent her anger.

Every word Song Shixue said was like a needle tempered with ice, accurately piercing Chi Nuan’s softest heart.

“So, I’m just a tool for you to vent your desires, right?” Her throat was dry and tight.

In the invisible darkness, Chi Nuan distanced herself from Song Shixue.Suddenly her nose felt a little sore, she wrinkled it, and her broken tears immediately wet the pillow.

Of course Song Shixue heard Chi Nuan’s sad words, but she still chose to remain silent.

Chi Nuan understood that Song Shixue’s silence had already revealed the answer, and his heart dropped.

She recalled all the intimate behaviors Song Shixue had done. If a few hours ago she had thought it was because Song Shixue liked her.That’s not the case now. Chi Nuan will only think that every intimate act before is a prelude to Song Shixue’s desire to vent.

Song Shixue felt that the breathing of the person next to her became evener. She got out of bed quietly and walked to the balcony in despair.Song Shixue regretted everything that had just happened, and now she wanted to cut herself into pieces.

She raised her hand and slapped her face hard twice.A slap mark immediately appeared on the right side of his face.

Since Song Maoye was imprisoned, he has gradually become busier with his studies and work.Song Shixue hasn’t done anything to herself for a long time.Generally, when you are irritable, you will only smoke as a way to relieve yourself.

And tonight, she once again chose to punish herself with pain after a few years.

The physical pain may allow Song Shixue to temporarily save the self who hates herself in the dark.

Song Shixue did not go back to the bedroom for the rest of the night. She was afraid that Chi Nuan would hate her if she continued to stay in the bedroom.For Song Shixue, the sofa is the final destination for all the fatigue today.

Early in the morning, Chi Nuan opened his eyes drowsily in bed.She looked around for a week but didn’t find Song Shixue.

Ridiculous.

Chi Nuan laughed at herself. She had made her words so clear last night, but when she woke up early in the morning, her first reaction was still to look for her.

Chi Nuan packed up, walked out of the bedroom with regret, and walked into the living room, where Song Shixue was sleeping on the sofa.

Moving uncontrollably towards the sofa, Chi Nuan squatted on the edge of the sofa and looked at Song Shixue who curled up into a small ball.

The bridge of the nose is very straight, the skin is smooth and fair, and the eyelashes are very light and long.It also casts a light shadow due to the sunlight.

Hey, how can I not like you?

Song Shixue frowned, opened her eyes slowly, and her voice sounded hoarse after just waking up: “Chi Nuan.”

She felt aches all over her body and turned her head with a slightly uncomfortable expression.After Song Shixue slowly sat up and her cheeks were exposed together, Chi Nuan also noticed the slap mark that had not completely dissipated.

“Who hit you?” Chi Nuan, who was thinking about how to not like Song Shixue one second, was unconsciously filled with eagerness the next second.

Song Shixue turned her face to the other side and said nothing.

Helpless, Song Shixue didn’t want to talk, and Chi Nuan rarely continued to ask.After all, he is just a tool man, so what qualifications do he have?

Chi Nuan packed up her things and wanted to leave. Song Shixue witnessed the whole process.When she was about to open the door, she spoke slowly: “Chi Nuan, I’m sorry… I shouldn’t have done that yesterday…”

“It’s all over, isn’t it?” Chi Nuan straightened his back, bent forward and sighed, “Song Shixue, am I really just a tool for you to vent your desires?”

She wanted to confirm it with her own mouth again and give the tough talker a chance.

Another expected silence.

But fortunately Chi Nuan gave her enough time. In the fifth minute of silence, Song Shixue ended this silent battle with two words – no.

Chi Nuan has been a heart-warmingly sensible child since he was a child, but he is not an easy child to coax.Most of the time, her ideas are stubborn and easy to get into trouble. Unless she thinks otherwise, neither Chi Sangzhi nor Chen Zhiyu can understand her.

In the exception of Song Shixue, Chi Nuan was really easy to coax, and just a “no” was enough to dispel all the haze accumulated last night.

She turned back from the door to the sofa and pinched Song Shixue’s cold palm: “Teacher Song, please don’t say anything against your will next time, okay? We just agreed the day before that we would take our time, didn’t we? Since you promised me to take my time, you can’t go back on your word.”

Chi Nuan can’t be cruel, but she can be Song Shixue’s guide, willing to give him steps, calm down and communicate well.

Song Shixue’s eyes flashed, and her voice was full of apology: “I’m sorry.”

“It’s okay.” Even if there are still only three words “I’m sorry”, it doesn’t matter.

Take your time, as everything should be done slowly.

Chi Nuan pushed Song Shixue’s hair away from the front and stroked her right cheek: “So, can you tell me?”

About the cut on your cheek.

Song Shixue pulled Chi Nuan’s hand away, “It’s okay, I just touched it accidentally.”

Looking left and right, such a big slap mark doesn’t look like it was accidental.

Looking around, the doors and windows were closed and intact, and Song Shixue had no enmity with anyone else, so there would be no third person in the house.After calming down, Chi Nuan focused on the panic in Song Shixue’s eyes and had vague suspicions in her heart.

“Because of me, right?” She did not try to expose Song Shixue’s behavior, but just summarized it in a short sentence.

Chi Nuan knelt on the ground, half-clenched her hands into fists and placed them on Song Shixue’s thighs.Her eyes were filled with the word “heartbroken”, and she was eager to get Song Shixue’s next answer.

Chi Nuan’s one-man show was going on, but she was looking forward to Song Shixue joining her on stage.

Song Shixue put her hands on the back of Chi Nuan’s hands and said in an uneasy tone: “I hate myself, and I’m afraid you will hate me.”

Fortunately, this time, Song Shixue agreed to the invitation to appear on stage.