Lao Zi From An American School Was Raped By A Mixed-Race Daddy Chapter 23

Chapter 23 Promise (Three in One) Ruan Siyu held it, in the water…

The caller ID was idling on the phone screen. Schneider lowered his eyes and frowned at the frightened person approaching him.

Cold and wet, Ruan Siyu’s touch felt like freezing rain in early winter, almost breaking at the touch.

Schneider put down the phone and raised his hand to hold the back of Ruan Siyu’s neck with a very light force, like rain falling off the feathers of a water bird.

He didn’t know how to deal with Ruan Siyu like this. He even breathed softly. Countless noisy thoughts were fighting in his mind, full of divided questions, confusion and anger. He wanted answers.

But not now.Any move could trigger a panic attack in Ruan Siyu, and Schneider didn’t want to make tonight worse.

“We don’t do this,”

He stroked the back of Ruan Siyu’s neck, unbuckled his seat belt, and took the still shivering person out of the driver’s seat:

“If you’re not going to see a doctor, get some rest.”

Sweets, alcohol, food.Schneider dug out all the knowledge he had about panic attacks. After putting Ruan Siyu on the small sofa in the restaurant and watching him huddle up with his knees in his arms, Schneider pursed his lips and walked into the open kitchen.

Countless thoughts were tumbling in Schneider’s mind. All the doubts about Ruan Siyu were listed one by one, and each view was overturned one after another, leaving only a bigger hole.

If he was better at reading Ruan Siyu’s mind, and if their original separation and reunion were not so ugly, he could try to communicate with Ruan Siyu.

Unfortunately, their relationship has always been one of confrontation, suspicion and exploitation.Schneider thought he knew what kind of person Ruan Siyu was.He is a liar with a heart as hard as stone. He has a bad nature, is very articulate, and is extremely good at deceiving. He also likes to see people in a state of embarrassment.

And Schneider is no better than Ruan Siyu.He had character flaws, especially after a serious illness in adolescence, which made the sharp and cynical side of his character more apparent.He believes that most people in the world are idiots. This arrogance comes from his innate intellectual talent and his acquired self that is overly nourished by power and money.

Ruan Siyu had hurt him, and he wanted revenge, control and destruction.He wants Ruan Siyu to end up worse than he did before, to repay the wounds that have been unhealed for many years.

He may have been manipulated and used by Ruan Siyu, ridiculed by his own psychiatrist, or complained about by Jessica, but Schneider has always known what the core of the problem is.

Ruan Siyu can never escape him. Identity, status, money, power, and even race, these things can completely trap Ruan Siyu, and no matter what Ruan Siyu does, they can’t change the insurmountable chasm given to them by society.

Therefore, of course, he can indulge Ruan Siyu’s little calculations, bad temper, and provocations. Those trivial things are the false autonomy he gives Ruan Siyu, some breathing space for Ruan Siyu to stop his hysteria.

But he never thought that Ruan Siyu would have such a broken side.

Is there any trace of all this?

Schneider frowned, and while stirring the soup in the pot, he observed Ruan Siyu’s movements with his peripheral vision.

Since the other party said “Fuck me” in the car, he has been compliant and silent.He seemed to be still in the aftermath of a panic attack, unable to maintain the impeccable façade of the past. His deer eyes were wide open and rarely blinked, like a small animal desperately trying to narrow its range of activities to avoid attracting the attention of a predator.

Schneider frowned again, poured the thick soup that had been crushed by the food processor out of the pot, and garnished it with sour cream and basil leaves.

He looked at Ruan Siyu again, cut the baked baguette into small pieces with a table knife, and soaked the crispy part into the soup.The aroma of mulled wine mixed with cinnamon and orange juice spread in the kitchen. Schneider took down the wine in seconds and poured it into a ceramic cup.

“Maria went home on vacation and had some food.”

He didn’t mention what happened before, for fear of irritating Ruan Siyu and triggering a second panic attack, even though he desperately needed answers.

Ruan Siyu buried her palm-sized face in her arms and sat with her knees crossed, leaving only the top of her hair exposed.When he was touched by Schneider, he raised his confused eyes and stared at Schneider for a while, as if he couldn’t distinguish between reality and thoughts.

“Okay, sir.”

He lowered his knees, picked up the spoon, and put the spoon into his mouth regardless of the temperature of the soup.

The hot soup burned his lips, tongue and esophagus, causing his eyes to blink uncontrollably, but as if he didn’t notice anything, he took a second spoonful until Schneider snatched the spoon away.

Schneider frowned, walked across the dining table, held Ruan Siyu on his lap, and stirred the soup for Ruan Siyu to dissipate heat as if dealing with a child.

Throughout the whole process, Ruan Siyu just accepted the situation.Like a truly weak and gentle lover, he melted into Schneider’s arms, asking for everything, swallowing every mouthful of food he was given, along with the dignity and autonomy that he once valued so much and defended to the death.

He has no will to resist, like a doll, like a pet.Neither a sharp-tongued sarcastic nor a roundabout critic, he is what Schneider wanted him to be in his worst dreams, and he is the ending after receiving the punishment he deserves.

But Schneider couldn’t feel any joy at getting what he wanted at this time. He only felt absurd and out of control, and the cold and depressed anger slowly sank into his heart.

This is not what Ruan Siyu looks like, this is not Ruan Siyu.No matter who made Ruan Siyu like this, it was not him and had nothing to do with him.

Someone went behind his back and got involved with Ruan Siyu, shaping him into this look.

This is not allowed. This is the deepest shame and the most vicious declaration of war.

Schneider fed the mulled wine with most of the alcohol evaporated into Ruan Siyu’s mouth, and unconsciously trapped the person with his arms. He felt Ruan Siyu’s body slowly warming up. With the flow of blood, the faint cold fragrance seeping out of him, which made Schneider more addicted than anything else.

His, all his.

To encroach upon, to covet, to spy on.

All must die.

He didn’t care if it was Ferens or someone else behind him.

He carried Ruan Siyu into the bathroom on the third floor. For the first time, without asking or hesitating, he personally opened Ruan Siyu’s suit and shirt.

Ruan Siyu didn’t move, as if his limbs were still sore from the afterglow of a panic attack, or maybe he really thought they should have some real relationship between sugar daddy and sugar baby, just like he had proposed many times.

He is prepared to face the consequences of multiple provocations and is also prepared to be a sweet, shameless pet.

Schneider stripped him naked and got into the bathtub with him for the first time.Before starting the jacuzzi, he took a closer look at Ruan Siyu’s body in the clear water for the first time.

The scars on the back of the waist and sides of the legs did not escape his eyes.

Schneider’s pupils shrank suddenly.He had guessed that the plagiarist’s words might be true, but he was not ready to face this naked truth.His hands clenched in stiffness, until a thin, whimper-like sob filled the air, and he woke up as if from a dream and started the jacuzzi.

The rolling water and steaming water vapor blurred their eyebrows and covered up old scars.After Schneider settled Ruan Siyu, he picked up his phone and sent a few messages and replied to Dr. Lane.

Suddenly, two soft arms wrapped around her.

“Sir, do you want me?”

Schneider barely stabilized his phone, paused for two seconds, then put it down and turned around.

“I thought we agreed on this, Josh. I don’t need you to sacrifice your body to maintain my gift relationship with you.”

He said it as gently as possible, not wanting to exacerbate any kind of reaction, he wasn’t good at dealing with that.Ruan Siyu is like an undecipherable fog to him, a code that always reports errors, and every byte must be dealt with carefully.

Perhaps before tonight, he still had some thoughts of violence and tameness, but now they disappeared.

He couldn’t afford the price. After seeing the possibility of Ruan Siyu being broken, what he felt was not pleasure, but confusion and fear.

“But I want it, sir. I want you to fuck me. I am useful and I will make you happy, please.”

Amidst the sound of water flowing, Schneider watched Ruan Siyu’s slender white waist rise and fall in the water, sticking to his waist and abdomen. He held his breath for a moment, suppressing the irritating reaction and feeling restless.

If Ruan Siyu hadn’t had that less obvious panic attack, Schneider might have turned him away at this moment or asked him what he wanted.

Yes, all Ruan Siyu’s teasing and intimate contacts were intentional and planned, at least Schneider firmly believed this.He is Ruan Siyu’s biggest victim. He has been since he was 16 years old. He knows very well how far Ruan Siyu can tease a young man who does not know how to love, and how cruelly he can leave a mark of shame on his heart with a branding iron.

Just because he wants to.

After the identity was reversed, Ruan Siyu still couldn’t change his behavior.He manipulated Schneider’s mood at will, and just this morning, he used this trick to get Schneider to let him work a part-time job, and killed two birds with one stone, luring Schneider to the restaurant tonight.

Schneider was not a fool. He knew that Ruan Siyu didn’t really want to “date” him in a high-end restaurant.He may have known that people who plagiarized his works would impress Hollywood directors in this restaurant. He had wanted to use a well-timed appearance and a little bravado to easily retaliate against those who dared to offend him.

He has always had this kind of temperament that requires revenge.

Schneider may have suffered deeply, but he never thought about asking Ruan Siyu to “correct” or even condone Ruan Siyu’s bad behavior.

He would rather put up with it.

But Ruan Siyu certainly didn’t expect that his plagiarist, the follower he once trampled under his feet, a dog who carried his master on his back, would actually reveal such a big secret.

Thinking of this, Schneider frowned deeply again, and Ruan Siyu’s soft lips pressed against him, which was a little warmer than before in the car.

Schneider kissed him perfunctorily, his hands not directly touching his naked body.He waited for Ruan Siyu to leave him in embarrassment and embarrassment after a while, put forward some requirements that Schneider could complete for him, and obtained Schneider’s services.

But this time, Ruan Siyu supported it and sat down stiffly in the buffer of the water flow.

Schneider suddenly grabbed Ruan Siyu’s waist to stop his movement, and looked up in the water vapor at Ruan Siyu, who looked pale and looked particularly naked after losing his smile.

No.

Schneider frowned and felt the trembling of Ruan Siyu’s waist, recalling that Ruan Siyu was unusually obedient and obedient tonight, revealing the secret of the tip of the iceberg.

The congestion made him feel stinging, and Ruan Siyu’s teasing was not really exquisite, but Schneider had never been good at enduring him.He said in a low voice:

“Why do you do this?”

In the mist, Ruan Siyu’s deer eyes were full of panic like a small animal, and his waist spasmed uncontrollably in Schneider’s palm. It was fear that made Schneider’s heart sink to the bottom again.

“I…I want to do this. Please, sir, don’t kick me out now. I am useful, I am useful…”

He stumbled and said, pulling up the corners of his lips to reveal a flattering and obedient smile, without any hint of resistance or provocation.

He was nothing like the surly Ruan Siyu, which made Schneider’s heart tighten.

“…You don’t have to do this.”

Schneider repeated it again, but Ruan Siyu didn’t know whether he heard it or not.He was still like a dodder, trying his best to wrap around Schneider. Even with all his strength, he was not much more difficult than the cat, but Schneider was helpless.

He could feel that Ruan Siyu’s body didn’t react at all. The so-called “want” was bullshit to deceive him, but Schneider couldn’t get angry with him at all.

“Please, please.”

Ruan Siyu murmured in Schneider’s ear, and his fear penetrated the tumbling hot water in the bathtub, shaking into Schneider’s heart.He had to endure the reaction of his body, wiped Ruan Siyu’s body, wrapped it in a bath towel, and carried her out of the bathroom intact.

As soon as she sank into the mattress, Ruan Siyu quickly curled up into a small ball, squeezing against the down pillow.Schneider frowned, once again hesitating between sending him to the hospital and leaving him at home.

His hesitation was interrupted by an unmistakable sob.

The CEO of the technology company opened his eyes wide and stared at Ruan Siyu as if facing an enemy. He stretched out his hand to touch Ruan Siyu’s cheek, but was held by a warm hand.

“Sir, don’t go.”

Knowing that it was a lie, Schneider still stepped onto the mattress and carefully covered Ruan Siyu with his arms.Dr. Lane had just said that sweets, weighted blankets, and comfort animals might have a soothing effect, but he didn’t have any of these at home.

He hugged Ruan Siyu and turned off the light after a few minutes.

“Sir, why don’t you want me?”

Ruan Siyu turned around, her black eyes reflected only a faint light in the darkness, but her light blue pupils were particularly obvious.Schneider lowered his eyes and said after a moment of silence:

“You don’t want to be fucked by a man.”

This time, Ruan Siyu did not refute.He buried his face into Schneider’s chest, his nose digging into the gap between his chest muscles, suppressing the trembling in his breathing.

“…Then what use am I to you?”

Schneider endured the itching on his chest and the endless body reaction, closed his eyes, and then opened them again:

“You don’t need to be useful to me or anyone else. Don’t be afraid, you are mine and will never be driven away.”

His palm covered Ruan Siyu’s left waist. There was a light scar there, which he only discovered today.

Ruan Siyu was quiet for a while.

“Sir?”

“Yeah.”

“Don’t you want to ask me? What Wu Anqun said…is true.”

“I’m not afraid of Ference, if that’s what you’re worried about.” Schneider paused and then said:

“I wouldn’t do what they did to you either. Whatever it is, you don’t have to be afraid.”

Ruan Siyu was afraid of being fucked by a man. Schneider knew very well that if the reason why he had been sticking up tonight was not to provoke and manipulate, there was only one explanation.

That is, Ruan Siyu is afraid of something more terrifying than men doing it.This had happened to him before, but after the truth was exposed, Ruan Siyu could no longer maintain his pretentious façade. He desperately tried to attract Schneider’s attention and satisfy Schneider in order to quell other malice that might befall him.

To avoid the possibility of returning to his nightmare.

In the darkness, Schneider’s cold eyes shot out with wolf-like ferocity.

His arms gently circled Ruan Siyu until the other party stopped shaking and fell into intermittent and restless sleep.

*

“Sir,”

Ruan Siyu was lying on the long table drawing drawings, and smiled the moment Schneider appeared.

The smile almost seemed sincere, leaving Schneider dazed for a moment.He placed lunch in front of Ruan Siyu. The content was unexpectedly Chinese and should have aroused Ruan Siyu’s vigilance.

However, Ruan Siyu seemed oblivious. He kissed Schneider on the cheek, picked up his chopsticks and ate the steamed eggs, stir-fried vegetables and steamed dumplings on the plate.

Schneider sat across from him and stared at him.

Ruan Siyu ate half of it, blinked his eyes and said with a smile:

“Why don’t you eat, sir?”

Schneider finally broke his gaze, lowered his head and emptied his plate.They quietly ate the breakfast Schneider made strictly according to the instructional video at the dining bar in the master bedroom.

After putting the dishes in the dishwasher, Schneider did not hug Ruan Siyu’s body, which naturally leaned into his arms, but walked onto the terrace under Ruan Siyu’s harmless and puzzled eyes.

“…He behaved very abnormally. He has been in a stress reaction after a panic attack and cannot think normally. He seems to think that I will abandon him or do something that will hurt him more deeply. He cannot accept any explanation.”

He said on the mobile phone that Dr. Lane opposite asked:

“None of you mentioned what exactly happened that night?”

“No, I don’t think that’s necessary, Doctor, he won’t tell me the truth.”

“What do you think is wrong with him?”

“He took too much initiative.” Schneider frowned, as if remembering something unbearable:

“He thinks he knows what I want. What scares him is still unknown, and in order to prevent me from doing to him what Ferens did to him, he has been pretending to be a qualified bed partner and lover. I hired three private investigators to investigate Ferens, but Ferens is not an ordinary family.”

“Do you think that his obedience now is a forced disguise, while the sharpness and surliness before were his true nature?”

“Yes, doctor.” Schneider was a little impatient:

“I know what he is. Except for his mother, his feelings for everyone else are disguised. He can maintain friendships, but the feelings beyond friendship are beyond the scope of his understanding. He is driven only by instinct, and fear is one of them. He is not in love with me, if that is what you want to express, doctor.”

“I didn’t say that, Robert.” Ryan sighed:

“You continue to try to get him out of the current stress state, okay? Your Josh has gone through a lot of things that are beyond your understanding. Maybe the relationship that broke down between you at the beginning has hidden reasons. You think he has a self-righteous attitude towards what you want, but your judgment of him is not based on arrogance? Young sir, I will fly back to Boston from Miami after Christmas. If he is willing, you can bring him to see me.”

“I don’t want to over-understand what happened back then.”

Schneider’s voice was cold: “He will not refuse any of my requests now, which makes me tired. I don’t know what to do for him. He has experienced two panic attacks in the past three days, one that night, and another an hour after I went out to contact the private investigator. I saw him sitting on the sofa in a daze on the surveillance camera, maintaining the same posture without moving. I rushed home quickly, and he tried to pretend that nothing happened. I was not sure whether I should send him to the hospital.”

“You should probably listen to him, Robert.”

Dr. Lane paused, seeming to think of Robert’s cold face on the other end of the phone, and sighed:

“He needs you more than you think, Robert. Protect him. I’ll go back to Boston after the holidays.”

After hanging up the phone, Schneider turned back in the cold wind on the terrace and saw a pair of frightened deer eyes behind the glass door.

Ruan Siyu was holding a camel hair coat and standing in the attic behind the glass door. She was looking over with a pale face, and there was a kind of fear in her expression that made people’s hearts tremble.

Schneider immediately returned to the house, took the coat from Ruan Siyu’s hand, and asked in a deep voice:

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.”

Ruan Siyu answered quickly, lowering her eyes to hide her fragile look:

“It’s cold outside, I just want to give Mr. a coat.”

Schneider frowned and didn’t ask any more questions.He had been exercising all year round, and his body temperature was higher than that of ordinary people. He was not chilled by the cold wind at all for a while. On the contrary, it was Ruan Siyu’s inseparable look that worried him.

“Go back.”

He held Ruan Siyu’s hand and found that after being outside for ten minutes in the cold wind, his hand was still warmer than Ruan Siyu’s.

“Sir,”

Ruan Siyu said softly.After the panic attack that night, Ruan Siyu always addressed him with honorifics, and it was not for the sake of being weird.This made Schneider very uncomfortable, but he did not correct Ruan Siyu’s cautious behavior of please, as long as it made the other person feel safe.

He used to be so tired of Ruan Siyu’s domineering attitude of controlling everything, but now he is so indulging in his temptations.

“I’m not going to be sent away, right? Can I stay with you?”

“No. Of course you can stay with me, you can only stay with me.”

Schneider stopped and held Ruan Siyu in his arms in the corridor leading to the attic, letting Ruan Siyu bury his face in his favorite position recently, against his shoulder.

“…Then can I ask you something?”

“Okay.”

When this permission was given again, Schneider actually felt relieved – he had been waiting for Ruan Siyu to make a request, and he could agree to any request and do it for him.

This seems to be an innate instinct, an irresistible centripetal force.

“…Can you please not sue Wu Anqun?”

After the pleading words fell, Schneider’s mind went blank for a few seconds.Then, he tried his best not to overreact and still held Ruan Siyu firmly, but he couldn’t control his heart shaking his chest in anger.

“Give me a reason.”

“…”

Ruan Siyu’s body began to tremble, his fingers tremblingly climbed up Schneider’s broad back, and he desperately retracted into Schneider’s arms before Schneider took him out of his arms to take a closer look.

“He knows…He knows I…”

He didn’t say what Wu Anqun knew.Schneider suppressed his anger:

“He’ll shut up, and I’ll shut him up.”

Ruan Siyu said nothing and resisted silently.Schneider slowly stroked his back with the palm of his hand, and in the infinitely prolonged silence, he finally compromised in a deep voice:

“…I can promise you, Josh, but you also have to do something for me.”

A small face as big as a palm poked out from his arms, and a pair of soft lips pressed against the corners of his lips, but Schneider avoided it:

“That’s not it. You have to answer a question for me, Josh, and you know it’s been bothering me for a long time. What exactly are you afraid of?”

This is a very broad question that gives the respondent a lot of freedom, and is the communication method Dr. Lane recommends.

Ruan Siyu looked at Schneider, her always fearless and provocative eyes filled with timidity, making Schneider never want to let go of the hand that held him captive:

“I’m afraid of dogs.”

Ruan Siyu muttered, and Schneider frowned, knowing that this was not the whole truth, but at least it was a good progress.

He picked up Ruan Siyu, letting Ruan Siyu’s arms hang around his neck and her legs wrapped around his waist.He carried the person back to the master bedroom, turned on the Netflix series that Ruan Siyu often watched, and asked when the other person was drowsy:

“You’re not afraid of dogs, are you? You once ran away from home to work part-time as a dog walker. What were you afraid of were groups of dogs? Have they ever bitten you?”

Ruan Siyu’s sleepy eyes blinked, and then she buried her face in Schneider’s arms.

Schneider ruffled his hair:

“I don’t know what you are feeling now. Maybe it’s like walking in a maze with no exit. You are very scared and feel that you can’t live without me. But remember, two weeks ago you were desperately trying to leave me.”

Ruan Siyu’s breathing was very shallow, and her fingers tightened Schneider’s cashmere sweater stiffly and flatteringly. The clothes were untied with her fingertips, like an overly clumsy cat.

“I’m sorry, I’m sorry, I…I shouldn’t have left you, I couldn’t…can’t live, it’s too cold outside, I…”

There was a whimper in his arms, and Schneider hugged him tightly, his broad palms covering most of Ruan Siyu’s back, tracing his spine little by little:

“I’m not going anywhere. I’m just here with you. I’m not going anywhere until you get better. By then, it will be impossible for you to leave.”

Schneider comforted her with a gentle voice, and every word was unadulterated.He is overly arrogant and disdains lying most of the time, especially in front of Ruan Siyu.

He placed kisses on the top of Ruan Siyu’s hair and on the ears one by one. They were as light as feathers and meant more comfort than intimacy. After about half an hour, Ruan Siyu stopped trembling. His shallow breaths floated on the side of Schneider’s neck, still hooking on the hem of Schneider’s clothes while he was half asleep and half awake.

It was still some time before dusk, so Schneider turned off the TV and put Ruan Siyu back on the bed.After covering him with a blanket, he hugged Ruan Siyu from behind, trying to keep the other person wrapped and supported as much as possible.

*

When Ruan Siyu broke free from the strange dream, the clock passed six o’clock, it was completely dark outside the window, and only one light was on in the house.

The smell of Schneider’s cologne lingered around him, lulling him into a false sense of security for a while, until he realized that Schneider was not in the room.

Ruan Siyu’s body stiffened instantly, his muscles tightened and twitched slightly. He struggled to get out of the blanket and stared in horror at the master bedroom that was mostly swallowed up by darkness. The familiar space seemed weird and unfamiliar.

Schneider returned quickly. He put down the dinner plate and quickly took the stiff Ruan Siyu out of the blanket and held it in his arms.

“I’m going to pick up takeout from the restaurant.”

The aroma of fried fish filled the air, but neither of them had time to pay attention.Ruan Siyu hung in Schneider’s arms, her fingers desperately grabbing Schneider’s hoodie, as if she was holding on to her own lifeline.

“Okay, okay, nothing happened. I’m just here and I’m not going anywhere.”

Schneider held Ruan Siyu’s butt with one hand, and clasped the back of his neck with the other hand, covering him in a completely controlling posture, but Ruan Siyu actually enjoyed it.

He forced a smile to cover up his absurdity and brokenness, but it was not successful.He couldn’t expect Schneider to find anything sexy or seductive in his suspiciously useless look. He had lost that usefulness to Schneider.

He was useless, and it wouldn’t have been surprising if Schneider had driven him into the streets.There was no way he could survive in his current state, but what did that have to do with Schneider?A product that disappoints has no value.

Knowing his past, he wouldn’t even be a valuable commodity to be cherished in Schneider’s eyes.

Panic gnawed at Ruan Siyu’s mind all the time. He began to be unable to distinguish between the past and the present. It was difficult to concentrate and everything became bizarre. Schneider was the only living thing around him, the only reminder. His existence showed that Ruan Siyu had not completely fallen into the abyss of memories.

He hasn’t returned to hell yet.

He can also pester Schneider like a life-saving straw until the other party gets tired of it.

…But Schneider wasn’t bored.

This fact has been repeatedly verified in Ruan Siyu’s remaining consciousness.Schneider was not bored. He fed, accompanied and pampered Ruan Siyu, satisfying Ruan Siyu’s unreasonable needs at all times.He is like an anchor, deeply embedded in Ruan Siyu’s world, stationed firmly in the storm with huge waves and deep water.

He seemed to really hope that Ruan Siyu would recover and would not let him fall.

Why?Ruan Siyu didn’t know where his goodwill came from and when his patience ran out.But in a turbulent and subversive world, he felt safe in Schneider’s controlling embrace full of masculine power.

At night, Ruan Siyu’s consciousness regained some clarity. His ridiculous behavior after falling ill in the past few days flashed through his mind. His body was still numb and exhausted. He didn’t want to move a finger. He just closed his eyes and felt Schneider’s strong chest pressed against his back, and the soothing woody fragrance filled the air.

“Thank you.”

He suddenly spoke:

“I know that my behavior in the past few days was very abnormal and my mental state was also very bad. But I assure you, this is not a frequent attack. In the past twenty-one years, it has only happened three times in total. It is a small probability event that will cause you trouble.”

Schneider’s arm around him moved, but he didn’t speak. Ruan Siyu closed his eyes, still feeling dizzy and weak, but he forced himself to continue because Schneider deserved an answer:

“That day, I deliberately blocked Wu Anqun. I know that I admitted plagiarism for money when I was desperate, but I… didn’t want my work to be used by people like that to flatter themselves in Hollywood. It’s one thing to be a shooter, but it’s another thing to be Wu Anqun’s stepping stone. My jealousy and hatred made me do something extraordinary and take advantage of you. I’m sorry.”

“You think I’d mind this? Josh, you know I-”

“I know, sir, you won’t.”

In the darkness, Ruan Siyu’s hands rustled out of the blanket and held several of Schneider’s bones.The warm fingers exuded a reassuring warmth in his palm. Ruan Siyu exhaled and said softly:

“I don’t understand why you are extra indulgent to me, which is far beyond the limit that a funder should have for a foster child, but thank you, really thank you… you saved me.”

Schneider’s blue eyes widened silently. He had never expected to hear such words from Ruan Siyu. The gratitude just now was enough to make him shake, but rescue?

“You don’t need to thank me, you are mine -”

Schneider stopped talking. With his heart beating violently, he didn’t know what he wanted to say.Boy friend?Lover?wife?

He was too stupid to screw everything up with another confession.

“…The sugar baby I keep, you are my responsibility.”

Schneider held Ruan Siyu’s fingertips, and their fingers intertwined with each other in the dark, and finally stopped with their fingers intertwined.

“You never cease to amaze me, sir.”

Ruan Siyu smiled silently, her voice soft:

“I admit, I originally thought you were the worst kind of person, someone who likes to stand down and watch humble people kneel and beg for mercy. I… was afraid of this kind of person, so I was overly harsh on you.”

Ruan Siyu paused and then said:

“I have a naughty nature, and it is my fault that I am alone and without friends. After the farce in the restaurant, I embarrassed you. It would not be surprising if you drove me away. But you caught me, and I will repay your kindness.”

Schneider frowned. He didn’t like Ruan Siyu’s rational politeness and alienation. He didn’t want to let go, even if he lost his dignity:

“You can’t repay me enough, Ruan Siyu. Staying with me is the only thing you can do. Promise me that you will never leave and accept my care. I know this is not easy for you. You don’t trust anyone, especially people of my class, but you have no choice. Promise me that I will take care of everything for you.”

Silence spread in the bedroom, and time was like a stretched string. Schneider realized that he had pushed too far. After all, Ruan Siyu had just escaped from a continuous somatic reaction. His fear still could not be eliminated. He should not have pushed Ruan Siyu too much. It would not be good for either of them.

At this moment, he also realized that this was the closest he had ever been to Ruan Siyu.Even three years ago, he had never glimpsed this side of Ruan Siyu, and that indestructible appearance opened the door to him for the first time.

As long as he holds on to the weakness of being delivered, he can really get Ruan Siyu and make him his wife, a prisoner who cannot break free.

But he couldn’t push too hard.What he wants is not broken porcelain, but a complete Ruan Siyu.

“Forget it——”

“—Okay.”

He was interrupted and felt Ruan Siyu turn over in his arms, her soft forehead brushing against his chin, and her soft cheeks burying themselves into the crook of his neck – this was the position Ruan Siyu particularly liked recently.

Schneider felt that Ruan Siyu was like a cat that marked its territory. It liked to build a nest in the warmest part of the human body, or maybe the neck was connected to the lifeblood. This little immature liar was always ready to bite back when he was bullied.

“I promise you, sir. I will stay with you voluntarily and accept whatever you do to me until you get tired of it.”

His soft breath brushed against Schneider’s neck, instantly raising a vein.He tightened his embrace, ignoring the pounding heartbeat that almost made his chest hurt.

“Never.”

He whispered that he had made a promise first.

Ruan Siyu was in a daze for a while in the steaming temperature. The sense of security made his thinking slow down. Schneider’s heartbeat penetrated his world through his arms. The noisy sounds in his ears receded. He could not hear the bite of dogs or the howling of the cold wind in the cold night.

He buried his face deeper into Schneider’s chest.

A few months ago, if someone had told him that he would find security in the arms of a strong mulatto man, he would have smiled sarcastically in response.He was still convinced that he hated people like Schneider, who came from old money, enjoyed all the privileges, used money to trample everything and sold everything on credit.He hated Schneider’s arrogance, sharpness, and ruthlessness, even though he recognized that Schneider was gifted.

He didn’t like the determined look in Schneider’s eyes when he looked at him. He was not prey, he was not Schneider’s captive doe, waiting to be conquered.

But it was this person who caught him firmly when he had a panic attack and allowed him to land safely.

Ruan Siyu has many bad qualities, just like his bad father who deceived the world and stole his reputation.He is greedy, mean, ungrateful, hypocritical and domineering. He has no friends. Anyone who knows his true face will not have sympathy for him, except for his mother, except for the one friend he once had.

Lin Huaian.

Ruan Siyu has not thought of this person for a long time, the only friend he has ever had.After a sudden confession, he was expelled, leaving only a customized watch, which often hangs on Ruan Siyu’s wrist.

He relied on this watch to survive many moments when he was on the verge of emotional collapse.The more difficult he is in, the less he can show his weakness and frailty. This is something he has learned since he was a child.

But he miscalculated in the end. The accumulated pressure and collapse never really left his body. He became a container, and the negative emotions waited until the other boot dropped and broke out irrevocably.

Wu Anqun knew.

Ruan Siyu didn’t know how Wu Anqun saw the photos at Ference’s home. It was an accidental coincidence or Jacqueline’s deliberate arrangement. But no matter which way it was, Ruan Siyu’s most feared secret was exposed.

For a moment, he seemed to be back in the kennel at Ferens Manor, huddled naked among the dogs.There were fresh teeth marks hanging on his legs and waist. The hierarchy of the wolves was strict, and the dogs were no less generous.

The children with weak limbs whimpered and squeezed into the dogs to keep warm, but they were kicked out again and again, threatened and bitten by sharp teeth.

Ruan Siyu was six years old that year, and she didn’t know human language or how to bark like a dog.He was eventually taken into the arms of the mother dog who gave birth to her puppies, huddled together with the gray-black puppies, and spent that harsh winter.

He doesn’t hate dogs because the kindness and warmth of the bitch and puppies keep him alive.He was afraid of the dogs because he was reminded countless times of his fate at the hands of Carol and Jacqueline Ferens.

He was the Ferens’ pet, he was their dog.

He couldn’t go back there again.

At night, he fell asleep in Schneider’s arms.There were no dogs in the dream, no barking dogs, and for the first time after a panic attack, he had company and landed safely.

For this, he will always owe Schneider a debt, and he will do everything he can to pay it back. No matter what Schneider wants from him, it doesn’t matter.

*

Christmas came as promised, but Schneider didn’t go home. He just answered the phone call from his parents in front of Ruan Siyu.

They cooked a table of dishes at home. Schneider strictly followed the instructions to measure the weight of the ingredients, accurate to two decimal places. His appearance was weird and ridiculous, which made Ruan Siyu’s mood inexplicably better.

His smile interfered with Schneider’s strict mixing ratio. A large amount of bell pepper powder was mixed into the sauce dish. Schneider frowned and took out another dish to weigh, but Ruan Siyu snatched it away.

“Pimento powder only adds color and is not spicy. It’s okay to add a little more.”

Schneider silently poured the sauce dish into the pot, without any trace of his previous rigidity and precision.Ruan Siyu lay on his back and rubbed his earlobe, her heart softened inexplicably.

It may sound ridiculous, but the CEO of “Thumping Heartbeat” is preparing dinner for him seriously. When disturbed, he just remains silent and tolerant, like a well-tamed and emotionally stable giant dog.

“It’s not like you’re raising a sugar baby, but like a baby. I’m in good health, you don’t need to take care of me like this.”

He said, his body hanging on Schneider’s back.Ruan Siyu didn’t know that he could still have such a clingy side. He had always been very concerned about other people’s touches, especially those from men.Lin Huai’an was the only exception in high school. He was very attached to his only friend at that time, which may have given him the illusion of love.

But that was also because Lin Huai’an was ill. His body was swollen like a giant pillow. His swollen limbs were spliced ​​to the torso, and his facial features were almost squeezed out. It was weird and ugly, but very harmless, like Frankenstein coming out of a fantasy novel, which just made Ruan Siyu let down his guard.

Schneider is another story entirely.He is tall, silent and full of masculinity. Ruan Siyu knows how much he has. With a clear mind, he does not think he would be willing to take the risk of his body being split open.

Banxia novel, a lot of fun