AMTBYIGA Chapter 106

Chapter 106: It’s Really Good

Gu Nian heavily returned to the bedside. The youth, who was previously unconscious, had somehow woken up. He was silently staring at the ceiling, his pale and thin fingers tightly clutching the blanket, his light blue veins slightly bulging. His eyes were dim.

After a long while, a tear traced down the youth’s temple, disappearing into the pillow without a trace.

Gu Nian froze, belatedly realizing that the door wasn’t closed. In such a quiet environment, it was easy to hear the noises outside.

In other words, Lin Sui had heard everything.

He’d heard his parents’ disgust for him with his own ears.

He’d heard that he was being abandoned with his own ears.

What could be more cruel than this?

Especially for a child who craved love.

Gu Nian bit back his tears, walking over to embrace the youth who was drowning in despair. However, his fingers passed through him the moment they made contact, reminding him that he was just an observer, unable to save Lin Sui or accompany him through this time.

Ah.

That’s right.

This was just a dream.

Gu Nian suddenly understood, but the pain in his heart didn’t lessen.

Could there really be dreams this real?

In the darkness, a voice told him that all of this was real, that it had actually happened in another world he didn’t know.

It was Lin Sui’s biggest secret, one he had always carefully hidden.

Gu Nian quietly watched Lin Sui fall asleep again. He leaned down and placed a precious kiss on his forehead.

After the idea that this was a parallel world sprouted, Gu Nian clearly felt the “dream’s” flow speed up, like watching a movie, but with a frightening sense of reality.

He watched Lin Sui lie on the operating table again and again, then be disappointed each time.

He watched him force a smile to please his parents, just to get a little more love.

He watched him punch his weak legs in the dead of night when no one was around, passing out from exhaustion with his face full of tears.

He watched his trembling body when he fell to the ground in a mess.

He watched the youth, who should have been lively and cheerful in his memory, become silent day by day, locking himself in the dark ward, refusing entry to all outsiders.

Just like his world.

Gu Nian wanted to hug him countless times, even just a touch would be enough. He wanted this Lin Sui to know that he wasn’t alone, that someone in the future would love him very, very much, and that someone was secretly with him during these painful and torturous years.

But he couldn’t do anything.

He could only be an observer, watching Lin Sui curl up in a corner, not knowing whether he was unconscious or asleep.

Gu Nian watched Lin Sui grow from a boy into a delicate and sickly young man. He didn’t know when, but the gloomy youth suddenly began to accept the cruel reality, trying to accept the kindness of others and embrace the world.

Smiles gradually became the most common expression on the young man’s face. Even though he still had to take very bitter medicine every day and do very hard rehabilitation, Lin Sui’s eyes were bright. Like everyone his age, he looked forward to tomorrow and yearned for the future.

Gu Nian didn’t know who had changed all of this, but he sincerely thanked that person.

Just when he thought everything was getting better, an accident happened.

On Lin Sui’s twenty-fifth birthday, Gu Nian was still talking to Lin Sui by himself, enjoying it even though he didn’t get a response.

Lin Sui was leaning against the headboard, reading a book on painting theory. Compared to his youth, the young man was now more calm and determined, with a gentle aura that made people want to approach him. The way he lowered his eyes could soften anyone’s heart.

Gu Nian was staring at him blankly when he was suddenly interrupted by a series of messy footsteps.

Why would anyone be here at this time?

Gu Nian frowned. When he looked back, he saw someone he didn’t expect.

—Lin Sui’s parents.

When he saw these two people, Gu Nian was stunned for a second before recognizing them. Because apart from that first unpleasant conversation, the couple really rarely came, just as they said they would. If he calculated it carefully, in the nearly ten years since then, they had only met four or five times.

And those were all before Lin Sui came of age. In the seven years since he came of age, it seemed like they had forgotten about Lin Sui. They didn’t even have a single perfunctory greeting.

Gu Nian unconsciously stood in front of Lin Sui, looking at them warily.

He had no good feelings for these people, Lin Sui’s so-called parents. No, it wouldn’t be an exaggeration to say that he hated them.

Lin Sui’s father and mother couldn’t see him, so naturally they wouldn’t have any reaction. Lin Sui’s mother, carrying a designer bag, walked up to Lin Sui’s bedside, a rare touch of warmth on her face.

It was just that the smile looked awkward and ugly because she wasn’t used to it. Lin Sui smiled and softly said, without much emotion, “Mother, is there something you need from me?”

The tone was still the usual polite and gentle one, but the content was as cold and hard as a stranger, no longer the adoring look from the past. Lin Sui’s mother froze, surprised by her eldest son’s change. She felt a faint discomfort in her heart.

But soon, thinking of the purpose of her trip, Lin Sui’s mother put this discomfort behind her. She sighed and said with a melancholy look, “Sui Sui, your younger brother is sick, very sick, he might…”

Halfway through her sentence, Lin Sui’s mother couldn’t help but choke up. This time, it was truly sincere. Her eyes were red, and even Lin Sui’s father, known for being ruthless, looked sad.

This was a look they had never shown when facing Lin Sui.

Lin Sui quietly watched the couple compose themselves, then expressed his concern at the right time, “How is my younger brother now?”

“The doctor said that if we can’t find a suitable kidney source, he might…” Lin Sui’s mother couldn’t say the last word. She looked at Lin Sui with eyes full of grief, but her pale lips uttered chilling words, “Sui Sui, the doctor said that your kidney is a match for your brother’s. So, so, can you give your brother one of your kidneys?”

As if afraid that he would disagree, Lin Sui’s mother quickly continued, “Don’t worry, we’ve found the best hospital, and we’ll give you the best doctors afterward. When you and your brother have recovered, we’ll take you back, and our family will live a good life together. Don’t you like the braised fish that Mom makes the most? I’ll make it for you every day, okay?”

“Bastard!”

Gu Nian couldn’t help but punch the wall hard, his eyes bloodshot as he looked at the couple like enemies. He wished he could eat them.

How could they have the nerve to ask Lin Sui?

How dare they say these things to Lin Sui?

What right did they have to use Lin Sui’s feelings to fulfill their dirty wishes?

That child’s life was a life, but wasn’t Lin Sui’s life a life too?

With Lin Sui’s health, it was impossible for him to get off that operating table.

They knew that, they should know that.

Wasn’t this the same as using Lin Sui’s life to exchange for that child’s life?

Gu Nian was in so much pain that he couldn’t breathe. He rushed forward and punched Lin Sui’s father and mother in the face, each punch hitting the air. He couldn’t even vent his anger.

Gu Nian’s chest rose and fell sharply, and tears streamed down his face.

He turned around, not even daring to look at Lin Sui’s expression.

His Sui Sui, his sun, the person he cherished in his heart.

Lin Sui calmly looked at the parents who had gradually faded from his memory. He suddenly realized that these two people were far from as good as he had remembered.

Nor were they as bad as he had imagined.

At least, they would put aside their pride and ask him for the sake of another child.

It was just that those good things and that love were not for him.

Lin Sui’s silence made Lin Sui’s father and mother anxious. Just as Lin Sui’s father couldn’t help but want to start pressuring him, Lin Sui’s light voice rang out.

“Can I ask if you usually look at my test results?”

Lin Sui’s mother froze for a moment, then eagerly said without thinking, “Of course, of course, we carefully looked at your test results every time.”

Lin Sui was stunned for a moment, then laughed with relief, lowering his head with a sense of loss hidden in his eyes.

Lin Sui’s father and mother looked confused, not understanding what was wrong with their words.

But Gu Nian clearly knew that anyone who had seen Lin Sui’s test results would never blatantly make a kidney transplant request.

Even if they just asked one more question, they would know that Lin Sui’s body was already at its limit and couldn’t withstand any damage.

Not to mention such a major surgery.

Every request and flattery from Lin Sui’s father and mother was a sharp sword that fiercely slashed at Lin Sui’s heart.

Those seemingly beautiful promises were honey-coated poison. As soon as you touched it, you would be doomed.

In an instant, Gu Nian suddenly understood why Lin Sui had resolutely withdrawn after misunderstanding him.

Why he was still so determined after talking things out, unwilling to give him a chance.

Why he was always so uneasy after he recovered, so much so that he didn’t dare to get close.

The truth of all of this suddenly shattered Gu Nian’s reason with Lin Sui’s light “okay.”

So that’s how it was.

His Lin Sui had lost the ability to trust little by little in this way.

Yes, how could someone who had been cruelly abandoned and hurt by their closest relatives not be affected at all?

It was his fault, he hadn’t given Lin Sui enough sense of security.

The good things he thought he was doing for him might not be any different from what Lin Sui’s father and mother had done.

Beneath the seemingly gentle and considerate surface was the cold reality of never truly understanding Lin Sui.

How could he be worthy of Lin Sui’s love?

Gu Nian knelt on the ground, large drops of tears falling.

Everything around him began to fade away. Gu Nian cried until he had trouble breathing, his consciousness blurring. Then, in the haze, he heard a familiar voice anxiously calling his name.

“Gu Nian? Gu Nian!”

“Wake up!”

“What’s wrong with you!”

The voice seemed to be coming from a distant place, intermittent. Gu Nian, like a person about to drown, desperately grabbed at a life-saving piece of driftwood, trying to swim upward.

He really wanted to wake up, but his body was too heavy to move. He heard low sobbing nearby. Gu Nian’s spirits lifted. He didn’t know where the strength came from, but he forcibly broke through the viscous and stagnant feeling and struggled to open his eyes.

The harsh sunlight made him squint instinctively. In his blurry vision, he saw Lin Sui beside him, his face filled with surprise, shining brightly in the sun.

Lively, beautiful.

It’s really good.

Gu Nian couldn’t help but smile, crying as he smiled.

His Lin Sui was still fine.

It’s really good.