AMTBYIGA Chapter 105

Lin Sui was seeing someone make an apology as seriously as if they were holding a meeting for the first time. But for some reason, even without any sweet words meant to soften his heart, he felt warmth in each of those stiff words. His numb and aching heart gradually unfolded, revealing its softest core once more.

The night wind carried the unique scent of the grasslands, giving people the impulse to throw caution to the wind. Moonlight, like scattered water, cascaded down, coating Gu Nian’s silhouette with a hazy glow. Lin Sui tilted his head, a smile he didn’t even realize was there gracing the corner of his lips.

After speaking for a full ten minutes, Gu Nian exhaled, finally daring to look up at Lin Sui’s expression. His back was already soaked with sweat from nervousness. He made a final summary, “I have fully recognized my mistakes and will take them as a warning in the future, to be a competent lover, so…”

He paused, a hint of entreaty in his tone. He raised his eyes to look into Lin Sui’s dark eyes, which carried a humbleness that was both incongruous with him and yet felt perfectly natural. “Lin Sui, can you not divorce me?”

As he said these words, Gu Nian’s hands clenched unconsciously, watching Lin Sui’s eyes with fear and stubbornness, unwilling to miss any flicker of emotion.

Lin Sui was stunned, his throat dry and unable to make a sound. His heart was shaken by the deep sense of unease he felt. He vaguely sensed something shattering. He looked blankly at the person in front of him, realizing for the first time that this person could also be afraid.

But why?

Gu Nian was so wonderful, whatever he wanted he could get just by reaching out his hand, why would such a person be afraid of being abandoned?

His legs were healed now, he was no longer the person who needed to rely on him.

Perhaps one day in the future, he would realize that he wasn’t that good after all, and then, after their feelings were exhausted, he would cast him aside like his parents did.

Gu Nian was too good, as long as he wanted, there were plenty of people around him who could replace him.

Lin Sui was lost in his thoughts. He knew that it was ridiculous to deny reality based on these unfounded assumptions, but the nightmares of the past always overlapped with reality, and he didn’t know how to answer Gu Nian.

He even occasionally felt that it would have been better if Gu Nian hadn’t recovered. That way, they could still live happily every day, and wouldn’t it be a kind of happiness to see the future at a glance?

The gentle wind unknowingly became fierce, blowing his hair into a mess, obscuring his reddened eyes.

In the long silence, Gu Nian’s face paled little by little in the darkness, but he was still smiling, pretending to be relaxed, “Even if you don’t forgive me, it doesn’t matter. I will pursue you again until you like me again.”

He said each word clearly, his eyes sparkling even in the darkness.

“Lin Sui, I won’t let go.”

“…”

The two sat facing each other on the grass, facing Gu Nian’s persistent face. Lin Sui finally found his voice, trembling and mumbling, “What are you afraid of?”

His voice was so low that it was almost inaudible, more like a soliloquy, almost blown away by the wind, but Gu Nian still heard it.

He didn’t quite understand why Lin Sui asked this, but he still answered seriously, “I’m afraid you’ll abandon me.”

“…” Lin Sui was even more confused. How could he abandon Gu Nian? He loved this person so much that he couldn’t even get enough of him.

Gu Nian didn’t continue this topic, he looked up at the moon that was already in the middle of the sky, and said softly, “Let’s go back to sleep, we have to get up early tomorrow.”

Lin Sui gave a wooden “oh” and almost fell when he got up, his mind wandering. Gu Nian supported him, preventing him from getting hurt.

He subconsciously turned his head and ran straight into Gu Nian’s black eyes filled with love. It was as if two little people were tearing at each other in his brain, one saying, *He loves you so much, how can you bear to make him sad*, and the other saying, *People are always changing, loving you now won’t affect his leaving you later.*

The two voices were equally matched, arguing back and forth, making Lin Sui’s head hurt. He looked listless. Gu Nian thought he was sleepy, and pursed his lips with self-reproach. He wanted to say something, but ultimately restrained himself and retracted his hand that was about to hug Lin Sui.

The two returned to the yurt, and everyone else was already asleep. Lin Sui quietly climbed into bed and immediately wrapped himself in the blanket, shrinking into the corner of the wall with his back to Gu Nian, not moving.

Gu Nian sighed and lay down next to him.

In order to facilitate movement, the beds inside the yurt were not big. It was a bit of a squeeze for two grown men, plus a row of pillows in the middle. Gu Nian could only lie on his side, staring blankly at the pillow blocking his view.

Just having been silently rejected, even Gu Nian felt a little frustrated. He didn’t know what he could do to win Lin Sui back. Although they were separated by less than half a meter, he felt that the person on the other side of the pillow was slowly drifting away from him.

The fatigue of the past few days swept over him in an instant. He listened to Lin Sui’s breathing and gradually fell into a dream.

Gu Nian had a dream.

He looked at the completely white space around him and his transparent body, and clearly realized this.

This feeling was very strange. He knew he was dreaming, but he couldn’t wake up no matter what he did. After trying various methods without success, Gu Nian had no choice but to wander aimlessly in this empty space.

There was nothing in this space except white. It was so big that it felt like it could only exist in a dream. After walking for an unknown amount of time, Gu Nian finally saw a hazy light, like a door in a fairy tale connecting to another world.

In that instant, Gu Nian seemed to suddenly feel some strange summoning, and quickened his pace to walk into that light.

After a brief blank, Gu Nian’s vision gradually cleared. The sound of beeping accompanied him, and a unique smell of disinfectant from the hospital filled his nose, causing him to frown involuntarily.

Before long, the mist in front of him completely dissipated, and Gu Nian found himself standing in a hospital room. It was somewhat similar to the strange blank room before, except that this place was full of various medical devices, and low voices of conversation came from outside the door.

Gu Nian walked towards the door and lowered his head as he passed the hospital bed, his eyes instantly freezing.

A teenager who looked to be in his teens was lying under a thin blanket, his face paler than the bed sheet beneath him, his eyebrows tightly furrowed together in pain, curled into a ball. Covered by the wide blanket, only a small face was exposed, his breathing so weak that it was almost imperceptible. No wonder Gu Nian hadn’t noticed there was someone there just now.

But what made Gu Nian freeze was not the sudden appearance of this person, but the teenager’s face – it was almost exactly the same as Lin Sui’s.

Gu Nian’s breathing instantly became heavy, but he forcibly held it back in the next second, carefully approaching and carefully looking at the teenager’s face.

It was more immature and weaker than he remembered, but it was indeed Lin Sui’s appearance.

But, how could Lin Sui be lying in a hospital room?

Gu Nian had investigated Lin Sui’s life. Before marrying him, the other person had always been very healthy and had hardly ever been to the hospital.

It was even less likely to be in this sickly state now.

Even if it was a dream, it was too inexplicable.

Moreover, Gu Nian’s gaze shifted to the wheelchair placed next to the hospital bed, and his heart ached fiercely.

How could he not have noticed that everything in this hospital room was specially customized to facilitate the activities of people with disabled legs, after all, he also had similar things.

Why would he have such a dream? Could it be that recent events had unconsciously left such deep traces in his heart that he had even begun to have such nonsensical and completely illogical dreams?

Gu Nian had doubts in his heart and tentatively reached out his hand, wanting to touch the weak young man on the bed, but passed through him the moment he was about to touch him.

Gu Nian was stunned, looked at his hand, and realized the biggest thing that was wrong.

If this was his dream, how could he be watching all this from a completely observer’s perspective?

Rather than a dream, he was more like a wisp of soul floating here.

In an instant, various rumors of parallel worlds flooded into Gu Nian’s mind.

However, this alone could not prove anything.

Gu Nian got up and walked out of the hospital room, just in time to hear the end of the conversation outside.

“So there’s no possibility of recovery?”

A woman who looked four parts similar to Lin Sui asked calmly. A man in a suit stood next to her, also expressionless, occasionally glancing at the expensive watch on his wrist, a hint of impatience between his brows, as if the person lying inside at this moment was not his son, but someone unimportant.

The doctor was choked by this almost cold attitude, and slowly said, “There is still a certain probability. If he cooperates with the treatment, perhaps…”

“We don’t need to hear such unsecured words.” The woman interrupted in a faint voice, “If there’s nothing else, we’ll leave. You don’t need to tell us about this child’s affairs in the future. Contact the assistant for the expenses required for treatment.”

“But…”

The doctor hesitated and wanted to say something, but the man and woman had already turned around and left without looking back.

The corridor was as silent as death. The doctor muttered a few words about being cold-blooded and turned back to the office.

The invisible Gu Nian stood where the middle-aged couple had stood, his eyes filled with gloom.

He had always been a very smart person. Even if it was just a few words, he could piece together the general truth.

Lin Sui in this world was not in good health, and for some reason, his legs were disabled. After determining that there was no way to treat him, his parents…abandoned him without hesitation.

The hand hanging at his side clenched, the veins bulging on the back of his hand. Gu Nian coldly looked at the elevator where the middle-aged couple had disappeared, and for the first time, he felt such great hatred for two complete strangers.

He didn’t dare to think about how painful Lin Sui in this world would be if this place was really as he guessed, another ordinary world.

In comparison, his past despair seemed insignificant.

At least he still had his grandfather who loved him, and later, Lin Sui accompanied him.

But what did Lin Sui have?

When Lin Sui was in despair, who was there to accompany him?

How did he become the person he was later, giving him warmth, like a little sun?

Gu Nian closed his eyes, tears almost welling up in his eyes.