I Have To Love【Abo】 Chapter 41

have to love

“Come here.”

Xie Qiao opened the door and entered the house, his thoughts still lingering on the shock of Han Zheng’s confession. He only turned on the light in the entrance hall to change his shoes. After taking two steps, he heard a familiar voice coming from the darkness in front of him.

It’s Sutai.

He turned the corner and saw Su Tai leaning on the sofa with his head raised. The sparks from the cigarette flickered in the darkness, and a faint hint of licorice pheromones came around. Xie Qiao tightened his breath, took a deep breath, and walked to Su Tai.

“Why did you come in?”

Su Tai spread his legs and rolled up his black shirt to expose half of his forearms. He rubbed his fingertips to put out the cigarette and put it in the ashtray.

“Have you been playing for so long? Have you taken your medicine?” Su Tai’s voice was a little hoarse, not sure whether it was because of smoking or something else.

“No, you don’t have to worry about it.”

“Don’t want to see me?”

Xie Qiao was silent, standing there looking at Su Tai’s face in the darkness, “Don’t you have an answer?”

“If you want to rest here, I won’t stop you. I’m going to bed now. The guest room has everything. I haven’t used it, and it doesn’t smell like me.”

Su Tai chuckled, grabbed Xie Qiao who was about to leave, threw him on the sofa, and pushed him up. He lowered his head and moved closer to Xie Qiao. Before he made any move, Xie Qiao took the initiative to raise his face and followed the pheromones to find his lips.

“Han Zheng kissed you just now, were you happy?”

Xie Qiao suddenly woke up from his trance, and heard Su Tai’s voice again, “Wear the ring I put on you, send me messages every day, give me medicine for you, but let another man kiss you, are you sincere or fake?”

Su Tai’s hand groped along his back, and his hand went in along the short sleeves, causing Xie Qiao’s body to tremble.

“Can’t you?” Xie Qiao held back his voice, “You can do it, but I can’t?”

Xie Qiao bowed in Su Tai’s palm like a lamb waiting to be slaughtered. He clearly understood that he longed for this person.Su Tai touched it enough, stopped his hand, and then slowly came close to Xie Qiao’s lips. The moment he came closer, Xie Qiao turned his face away.

He was afraid, afraid that he would become more and more accustomed to it, and Su Tai just thought it was fun.

Su Tai seemed to be irritated by his actions. The smell of licorice in the darkness became stronger and stronger. Only then did Xie Qiao realize that something was wrong. Su Tai clamped his jaws on his chin and kissed him, forcing him to open his mouth to welcome the alpha’s kiss.

The attraction between AO was engraved into the bone marrow as early as the first temporary mark. It only took a little bit for Xie Qiao to find it difficult to break free.

Xie Qiao’s tears fell from the corners of his eyes. They were physiological tears and inner tears. They seemed to never dry up and kept flowing until Su Tai found out.

“Why are you crying?”

Xie Qiao followed his desire and wrapped his arms around Su Tai’s neck. His throat was shaking so much that he couldn’t help but let out a little cry. Su Tai stood up and asked someone to sit on his lap.

Xie Qiao’s voice became louder and louder. In Su Tai’s ears, it seemed that no amount of sound could vent his years of pain.

“Why don’t you want me?”

Xie Qiao asked this question again. Here in Sutai, Xie Qiao would never feel safe and would never be able to communicate with him on an equal footing.

Su Tai remembered that when Xie Qiao was ten years old, he was so hungry that he ran to the kitchen to steal something in the middle of the night, but he knocked him into the face. The ten-year-old child was not tall and had a thin face. He was so frightened by him that he hid in a corner and did not dare to come out.

“Come out.” The eighteen-year-old Su Tai spoke to the ten-year-old Xie Qiao in a tone that sounded like a gun and a stick.

Perhaps because he was hungry, or perhaps he had been wronged in some way, Xie Qiao showed such strong emotions for the first time in front of Su Tai. Hunger easily emptied Xie Qiao’s body, and he started crying without caring about anything else.

Su Tai was startled, turned on the light, and saw the little man huddled in the corner, burying his head in his lap and crying. Su Tai was speechless for a moment, “What do you want to eat?”

Xie Qiao slowly raised his head to look at him, looking at him with a pair of watery eyes.

“Whether you want to eat a sandwich or not, it’s just bread and eggs.”

While Xie Qiao was stunned, Su Tai had already put the bread in the microwave, started frying eggs, searched for ham in the refrigerator, and put it in.

“Get up, go to the refrigerator and get yourself a drink, and come over for dinner.”

Xie Qiao’s legs were numb from squatting. He almost jumped out when he got up. Su Tai rolled his eyes and said, “Get up slowly. Didn’t Xie Renqing teach you that your legs will be numb if you squat for a long time?”

Xie Qiao opened the refrigerator and took out a bottle of coconut juice, “Brother, do you want to drink it?”

Su Tai frowned and said, “I won’t drink.”

Xie Qiao and Su Tai were sitting in the kitchen, eating simple sandwiches. Xie Qiao’s eyes sparkled after eating, and Su Tai seemed to have never forgotten it.

Su Tai hugged the person and opened the clothes around Xie Qiao’s neck. He saw two scars on the glands, one deep and one shallow, and a small wound made by scissors. After looking at it for a long time, Su Tai kissed him.

Xie Qiao seems to have never learned how to take good care of himself since he was a child.

“What should I do with you?” Su Tai’s face was close to Xie Qiao’s ear, and the two hearts were tightly pressed together. “I wanted you to leave me and try to live on my own, but I found that… we are not living a good life.”

Xie Qiao fell asleep, and Su Tai carried him to the bedroom. On Xie Qiao’s bedside was the rag doll he bought, which was incompatible with an adult male’s bedroom.

He lifted the quilt, put Xie Qiao into bed, sat on the head of his bed and watched him sleep.

Xie Qiao was still easily frightened in his dreams. His eyes were rolling around, and he kept dreaming. He didn’t know what he was dreaming about, and he curled up like a snail.

Still can’t forgive?Su Tai asked himself, Xie Qiao seemed to have done nothing wrong except deceiving him and letting him bear the sin of murder for six years. Is this unforgivable?

Didn’t he also hide it from Xie Qiao?During the six years when he was still the murderer, he never told Xie Qiao the truth. In the final analysis, neither of them could complain, so why didn’t he dare to face Xie Qiao?

Why?

Su Tai looked at Xie Qiao. In his sleep, Xie Qiao held his hand. He had no doubt that Xie Qiao loved him, so should he give it to him?

Give it to him.

Give it to him.

There was always a voice hovering in Su Tai’s mind, like a spell from the depths of his soul, a cause and effect that could not be changed. It was fate, it was fate that made them come together.

“Brother.”

Xie Qiao murmured in his sleep, and started to cry again as he shouted.

“I’m here.”

He seemed to always regard Xie Qiao as a child, maybe because Xie Qiao appeared in his life when he was eight years old. Watching him from elementary school to college, watching a child grow up, he couldn’t help but have a parental mentality, as if Xie Qiao would not live well if he left him, even if he had arranged everything.

“Ah Qiao, I always think of you when you were a child these days. I wonder if I did something wrong. I left you in the Su family. If you didn’t fall in love with me, would your life be easier?” Su Tai said to himself, “If you fell in love with someone else, would you hide next to me and cry, and treat me as your brother for comfort.”

“Brother, is it wrong?”