I Have To Love【Abo】 Chapter 40
byhave to love
Xie Qiao hated being hospitalized. After staying for more than ten days, he finally couldn’t stay any longer. It was too boring to live alone.
In the morning, he asked the doctor that he was almost fine and suggested discharge. The doctor said that he would ask Su Tai and give him an answer in the afternoon.
“Mr. Xie, Mr. Su said it’s okay.”
Xie Qiao sat on the bed and looked at the doctor, “Did he say anything else?”
“No.”
Xie Qiao nodded and said no more. Su Tai had never been here since that day. He had already guessed this outcome. The ring on his ring finger was just a cold metal and could not represent anything.
After the internship ended, it was a long summer vacation. Xie Qiao sat on the balcony in a daze.This is the house that Su Tai bought for him. It is five or six subway stops away from Hengling. Standing in the house, you can see the sign of Hengling Building, although it is a bit blurry.
Xie Qiao was sitting on the balcony enjoying the breeze. The sun was making him warm. He opened his mobile phone and flipped through the messages sent to Su Tai. It showed that he had read them but there was no reply.
He held his phone and looked at it for a while. The sun’s rays made him drowsy. The phone vibrated. He woke up from his drowsiness, only to find that it was news from Han Zheng.
“I finished my internship today, would you like to go out for dinner?”
Xie Qiao was bored and simply agreed, “Okay, you can choose the restaurant.”
“Why do you feel you are unhappy today?”
Xie Qiao was stunned for a few seconds after looking at the message. He walked indoors with his phone in hand, opened the refrigerator and found a bottle of ice water. He drank several sips before replying to the message, “I just sent a few words.”
“If you’re not happy, do you want to have some fun?”
“What?”
Han Zheng leaned against the black car door, crossed his legs, and smiled: “Go to the ktv to show off your singing voice, go to the golf course and hit the ball a hundred meters away, buy more than a hundred arrows to shoot the target into a hedgehog, and then enjoy the wind by the river. What do you think?”
“Okay.”
“Then go downstairs.”
As soon as Xie Qiao came in, he hurried to the balcony. He stood on the balcony and leaned down to look down. He found that Han Zheng had already been standing downstairs, waving to him.
“Give me five minutes to change.”
Xia Qiao changed clothes quickly, and it took Xie Qiao less than ten minutes to run downstairs.
Han Zheng came over with a smile and straightened his hair, “I ran so fast that my hair got messed up.”
Xie Qiao flinched and said, “It doesn’t matter.”
“Let’s go eat first and then play.” Han Zheng opened the car door and raised his right hand to invite him, “Get in the car.”
Xie Qiao sat in the passenger seat and fastened his seat belt, “Why did you come to my house suddenly?”
“It’s not sudden. It has been planned for a long time.” Han Zheng started the car. “I have been busy with internships recently. I am too tired at the construction office. I have to draw pictures until midnight. I don’t have time to talk to you. You didn’t take the initiative to come to me, so I had to come to you.”
Han Zheng’s tone was reproachful. Xie Qiao didn’t know how to answer the question for a moment. He rubbed his clothes with his fingers and said, “I’ll treat you to dinner later.”
“I agreed to treat you.”
Han Zheng smiled and turned to look at him. His eyes finally fell on his ring finger and paused for a moment. A trace of loneliness flashed in his eyes. “Why did you suddenly put on the ring? Is it a new decoration?”
Xie Qiao’s fingertips curled up, “…No” he stopped as soon as he started. A ring that no one wants is no different from a broken piece of metal. “…Yes, it is a decoration.”
Han Zheng raised the corner of his mouth but said nothing. Xie Qiao kept rubbing the ring with his fingertips. He could see that the ring was of great significance.
“I met your brother at a cocktail party a few days ago. He brought a female companion to the party and said he was his girlfriend.”
“Really?”
“Don’t you live together? I thought you would know before me.” Han Zheng continued, “It’s not necessarily a real girlfriend. That party requires a female companion.”
“I don’t know either.”
“Are you still worried that your brother will find his other half?” Han Zheng thought of what Xie Qiao confided to him on that snowy night.
“I’m not afraid anymore. I’m not afraid a long time ago.”
“Well, Ah Qiao is very brave.”
Xie Qiao was amused by his coaxing tone, “What kind of coaxing tone are you using to coax a child?”
“Haven’t you heard a song?”
“What song?”
“Lovers are like children.” Of course Han Zheng would not say it out loud.
“Stupid kid, have you ever heard of it?”
Xie Qiao shook his head, “I rarely listen to music.”
“I’ll tell you later.” Han Zheng parked the car, “Now we have to get out of the car to eat.”
Han Zheng and Xie Qiao walked in together. They found a Yunnan restaurant. The private rooms were full, and they sat in the lobby. The interior decoration was simply tropical. The indoor flower pond and large plant leaves looked full of life.
“Mint pork ribs, oil-braised chicken, and mushroom braised rice are all very good. There are also some vegetables and drinks. You can choose more.”
“Have you eaten here before?”
“I came here once with my colleagues. I thought it was delicious and I wanted to bring you to eat, but I didn’t expect that it took a long time.” Han Zheng said, “What activity do you want to do first after eating?”
“I don’t know yet.” Xie Qiao pushed the menu over, “Would you like to try the rose bean curd?”
“Okay, there are other desserts. Would you like to order some more?”
“Too much to eat.”
“Am I still here?” Han Zheng raised his chin and said proudly, “Don’t underestimate the alpha’s appetite.”
Xie Qiao burst out laughing, “What’s wrong with the alpha’s appetite? Is it very big?”
“Why are you laughing? This is not funny at all. I’m serious.”
“You just look like a child now.” Xie Qiao stopped smiling.
“You are so vindictive. Don’t you allow people younger than you to call you a child?”
“I don’t…” The word stuck on his lips. Xie Qiao looked through Han Zheng’s shoulder and saw the person behind him, and Han Zheng also turned his head.
Su Tai was standing two steps away looking at them.
“Brother Su, are you eating here too?” Han Zheng stood up first.
Su Tai walked over, glanced at Xie Qiao, and then looked at Han Zheng, “I’m doing business here.”
“Then let’s eat together. Do you have any friends coming?”
“No, then I’m welcome.” Where the four of them were, Su Tai sat next to Han Zheng and looked directly at Xie Qiao.
Why don’t you smile when you see him?
Xie Qiao handed the menu to Su Tai, and Han Zheng added at the side, “We just selected a few dishes to see if any of them suit your taste.”
Su Tai ordered a few dishes, and after placing the order, the waiter left.
The atmosphere between the three of them was strange. Xie Qiao remained silent for a long time. He raised his head and said to Han Zheng, “I’m going to the bathroom to wash my hands.”
Han Zheng nodded, “Go.”
Su Tai looked at Xie Qiao’s leaving figure and took a sip of the tea in the cup, feeling a little bitter.
“Why are you together today?”
Faced with Su Tai’s inquiry, Han Zheng answered truthfully: “I just finished my internship. Ah Qiao seemed unhappy, so I took him out.”
Su Tai looked at where Xie Qiao was sitting, “Have you confessed your love to him?”
Han Zheng blushed and said nervously: “Not yet, I want to wait until he is happier. He is in a bad mood.”
“Yeah.”
Xie Qiao washed his face with cold water, stimulating him to relax. This was the first time they met since Su Tai left. Those hidden longings were running rampant in his body, and his heart ached.
A dinner party ended hastily with the three of them having their own concerns. Han Zheng went to drive, leaving only Su Tai and Xie Qiao.
“I’ll take you home.” Su Tai said to Xie Qiao.
“No, Han Zheng and I are going out to play.”
“You are not in good health. Why do you want to go to the hospital?” Su Tai looked displeased.
“You’re not worried about me, why are you yelling at me!” Xie Qiao stared at Su Tai’s face. What was Su Tai unhappy about?
“Aren’t you the one who never came to see me once? Aren’t you the one who forced me to sign the contract and separated my household registration when I was hospitalized? You have stopped wanting me a long time ago. Didn’t I get what you wanted? What else do you want me to do? How can you let me go back?”
“Do you want to discuss with me now whether I am qualified to take care of you?” Su Tai was stunned by Xie Qiao’s roar. He closed his eyes and suppressed his anger, “Don’t make me angry, Xie Qiao.”
“I didn’t mean to make you angry, I just did what you wanted me to do. You never came once when I was in the hospital, and you never replied to my messages. You don’t want me anymore, so why do you care about me again? If I fall in love with Han Zheng, shouldn’t you be more happy? The only stain in your life is gone,Aren’t you happy?” Xie Qiao clenched his fists and tears slowly came out. He still looked at him and said harsh words, but in his heart he wanted to carve the image of the person in front of him into his mind and think about it slowly when he went back. “I heard Han Zheng said that you brought your girlfriend to the party, why did you come to care about a stranger again.”
“I’m going to find Han Zheng.” Xie Qiao turned around to leave. Su Tai grabbed his wrist. The omega’s wrist was so thin that it seemed like it would break with just a little force. “I don’t want to say it again, if you still want to see me in the future.”
Xie Qiao stood on the steps lower than Sutai and looked up at him. After a long time, the huge stone in his heart was willing to give way, and his eyes were red, “Brother.”
For so long, this word stabbed into his body like a dull knife. If he pulled it out, he would die. If he didn’t pull it out, the pain would be unbearable.Xie Qiao’s voice was very soft and he told Su Tai, “I will fall in love with others, and I will live a good life without you.”
“Then why are you still wearing the ring I gave you?”
Xie Qiao said nothing, broke free from Su Tai’s wrist, and ran to find Han Zheng.
Han Zheng took Xie Qiao to play them all. He sang at the ktv at the top of his lungs. He ran over and handed the microphone to Xie Qiao: “It’s so refreshing. Try it now. I feel like all the pain I’ve suffered in the past six months has been released.”
“I don’t know what to sing.”
Han Zheng always knew that Xie Qiao was bored, so he took the initiative and said, “Then you close your eyes, I will slide the playlist here, you say stop, how about singing that song wherever you stop?”
Seeing Xie Qiao’s hesitation, Han Zheng encouraged: “Don’t be afraid, I will sing with you, you close your eyes first.”
Xie Qiao closed his eyes obediently, “Three, two, one.”
“Which one.”
“Love business.” Han Zheng smiled and narrowed his eyes, “Not bad, not bad, let’s listen to this one too.”
Han Zheng sang 80% of a song. He almost ruined his voice when he sang the chorus, “It was you who wanted to break up in the first place. If we break up, we will break up. Cough cough cough cough.”
Xie Qiao looked worried and handed him a glass of water. Han Zheng touched Xie Qiao’s hand and took the water with a smile, still singing.
“Aqiao.”
“Huh?” Xie Qiao looked into Han Zheng’s eyes, those affectionate eyes, and felt nervous for a moment.
“Let’s move on to the next one and strike while the iron is hot.”
Han Zheng’s archery skills… if you say he’s bad, he can accurately shoot all the arrows on Xie Qiao’s target, but if you say he’s good, not a single arrow hits his own target.
“My target is almost yours.” Xie Qiao had only cum a few times himself.
“You use mine.”
Xie Qiao couldn’t stand it, “You did it on purpose.”
After being exposed, Han Zheng’s face turned red and his heart skipped a beat, “No, don’t be so stingy.”
It wasn’t until after eight o’clock in the evening that Han Zheng sent Xie Qiao home.
“Han Zheng, thank you today.” He didn’t know how Han Zheng could tell that he was unhappy in one sentence. He just thanked him very much for taking him out when he felt lonely and telling him that besides Su Tai, there were others in his life. He was abandoned in the house and someone picked him up to see the vast sky outside.
It was a quiet night with no one around. Han Zheng stood at the door of the unit and looked at Xie Qiao. His body was still hot despite the recent river breeze, “Why don’t you leave and you can’t bear to leave me?”
“I’ll watch you leave.” After experiencing happiness and suddenly having to return to a cold house, Xie Qiao couldn’t tell how reluctant he was to let go of Han Zheng.
I don’t know if I really don’t want to let go of Han Zheng, or if I am afraid that I will miss Su Tai again when I go back and can’t sleep.
“Then you can’t bear to leave me.” Han Zheng walked up in two steps and looked down at the man who was happy and unhappy along the way. Now he looked lonely. He didn’t know what happened to Xie Qiao, and he didn’t know why he was unhappy. He just wanted him to be happy.
“What’s wrong?”
Han Zheng lowered his head and kissed Chaosi Mu’s lips. Xie Qiao didn’t even react before he left.
“You…”
“I thought I could hide it for a long time, but when I saw you were so unhappy, I just… I like you, Xie Qiao. From the first time I met you until now, I don’t know if you will also have a crush on me, but I like you. I don’t want you to agree to me right away. I just want to tell you that I am always here.”
“Always there?” Xie Qiao read these words and remembered that Su Tai said the same thing a long time ago, but he couldn’t remember how many years ago.
“I’ll be here as long as you need me.”