I Fell In Love With Qing Leng Xue Shen Chapter 44

Chapter 44 Together

Lu Jin looked at Xie Shuhan lowering his head to sip water, and his fingertips unconsciously rubbed the palm of his hand, where the delicate touch from when he touched his skin still remained.

He took a deep breath, his heart beating wildly in his chest, as if it was about to burst through his chest, and the words he had accumulated for a long time were stuck in his throat, and they were so hot that they almost overflowed.

Can’t wait any longer.

Whether it’s the honesty under the influence of drugs, or the stares at each other in a sober state at this moment.

He would say all the words hidden in his heart, even if he would be rejected in the end.

Lu Jin clenched his palms, his fingertips turning slightly white due to exertion. His originally hoarse voice seemed particularly solemn at this moment: “Xie Shuhan, I have something to say to you.”

Xie Shuhan paused while holding the water cup. The warm wall of the cup sent warmth through his fingertips. He could clearly feel the tight breath of the boy opposite him.

The tips of his ears were still reddish. He raised his eyes slightly, his long eyelashes trembled slightly, his eyes fell on Lu Jin’s face, and his voice was hoarse: “Say.”

In fact, he could probably guess what Lu Jin was going to say.

From the words blurted out in the bathroom, “I love you so much, I’m going crazy”, to the cautious concern just now, to the uncontrollable tension and heat in my eyes at this moment.

All the emotions were laid out in front of him, but he just wanted to hear them.

Lu Jin’s Adam’s apple rolled, and his eyes locked tightly with Xie Shuhan’s, as if he wanted to carve his appearance into his bones.

His voice had an imperceptible tremor, but was extremely firm, and every word condensed the deep affection that had been suppressed over the years: “I like you, not the kind of love between friends, nor the loyalty between brothers, but the kind of love that I want to be with you for the rest of my life, want to see you every day when I wake up, want to give you all the good things, and want to protect you for the rest of my life.”

He paused, as if recalling those secret times, with a hint of tenderness and a hint of bitterness in his eyes: “I don’t know since when, you can no longer be erased from my heart.”

“I thought about confessing to you,” Lu Jin’s voice lowered, with a hint of helplessness and cowardice, “but it seems that there is always another person in your heart. The words in your notebook, the look on your face when singing, and every lyric seem to express your sadness. You openly like boys because of that person. You care about him so much that I don’t dare to get close to him.”

“I also thought about giving up,” he raised his hand and scratched his silver hair, with a hint of self-mockery in his tone, “I told myself, as long as you can be happy, even if the person beside you is not me, but I can’t do it. Every time I see you, all my reason will collapse, and all my giving up will turn into unwillingness.”

Lu Jin’s eyes became hot again, and he looked straight into Xie Shuhan’s eyes, filled with strong love and a hint of cautious expectation: “Xie Shuhan, you…can you give me a chance?”

After saying these words, Lu Jin felt that all the strength in his body had been drained. He looked at Xie Shuhan nervously, waiting for his answer, and every second seemed to be torture.

Xie Shuhan’s fingers holding the cup tightened slightly, and his fingertips rubbed the smooth cup wall. His eyes slowly lowered, and his long eyelashes cast a faint shadow under his eyelids, making it difficult to see his emotions at the moment.

There was a brief silence in the living room, only the clock on the wall was ticking, hitting the tense nerves of the two of them.

After a long time, Xie Shuhan slowly raised his head. His eyes were covered with a layer of light mist, as if they contained undried tears. He looked directly at Lu Jin, and his voice was as light as a gust of wind, but it carried a heavy weight: “Even if I love the person in my heart very much, won’t you give up?”

These words were like a basin of cold water, pouring on Lu Jin’s heart in an instant, making his whole body stiffen, his heart suddenly sank, and dense pain spread.

However, even though he knew the answer might not be satisfactory, he still didn’t want to give up.

Lu Jin took a deep breath, his eyes became extremely firm, and without any hesitation: “Don’t give up.”

He looked at the mist in Xie Shuhan’s eyes, and his voice was gentle but with unquestionable persistence: “I can wait, wait for you to slowly let go, wait for you to see my sincerity, no matter how long it takes.”

Xie Shuhan’s eyes turned red instantly when he saw Lu Jin’s firm eyes and the undisguised love and care in his eyes.

Seven years.

Seven whole years.

From his ignorant boyhood to his current youthful years, he seems to be chasing a beam of light that is out of reach, carefully guarding an unresponsive relationship, and bearing all the grievances and losses alone.

He thought he would wait like this until the light was completely extinguished, until he exhausted all his enthusiasm.

But he didn’t expect that his light also liked him.

Xie Shuhan slowly put down the cup in his hand, leaned forward slightly, gently held Lu Jin’s face with his hands, and felt a slight tremor when his fingertips touched his warm skin.

His eyes were very red. He looked straight into Lu Jin’s eyes and said clearly and firmly, word by word: “Lu Jin, I like you.”

Just six words, like a thunder, instantly exploded in Lu Jin’s ears.

He was stunned in place. Was what he said just now true?Xie Shuhan said he liked himself?

He stared blankly at Xie Shuhan’s red eyes and the strong love in his eyes, his throat tightened and he could hardly speak.

After a while, Lu Jin suddenly came back to his senses. He held Xie Shuhan’s hand that was holding his face tightly, and rubbed his slightly cold fingertips with his fingertips. His voice was full of choking and anticipation: “Can you say it again? I didn’t hear clearly.”

Xie Shuhan looked at his lost look, as if he was amused, and finally couldn’t hold back the tears in his eyes, but they didn’t fall.

Instead, he slyly raised the corners of his mouth, and his originally cold brows and eyes were instantly dyed with vivid colors, like the ice and snow melting, and spring flowers blooming: “Don’t say good things a second time.”

This willful look made Lu Jin’s heart instantly soften into a puddle of water.

He could no longer suppress the joy and love surging in his heart, and suddenly threw Xie Shuhan down on the soft sofa.

She propped herself up above him, pressing her hot body tightly against his, feeling his warm body temperature and steady heartbeat.

Lu Jin was not wearing any clothes, and his exposed skin was tightly pressed against Xie Shuhan’s body in soft pajamas. The hot temperature was transmitted through the fabric, making Xie Shuhan’s body tremble slightly.

Lu Jin buried his head in the crook of Xie Shuhan’s neck, greedily smelling the faint fragrance on his body. It was his smell, the smell he dreamed of.

His silver hair rubbed against Xie Shuhan’s neck, causing a slight itch. His voice was filled with a thick nasal sound and irrepressible ecstasy, and he murmured over and over again: “Hanhan, I like you so much, I like you very much.”

There was a hint of grievance, a hint of joy, and a deep sense of cherishment in his voice, as if he was telling all his forbearance and expectations.

Xie Shuhan was pressed by him and was slightly out of breath, but she did not push him away. Instead, she stretched out her arms and hugged his broad back tightly, feeling the trembling and hot temperature of his body.

He laughed silently, and a crystal tear finally slipped from the corner of his eye, dripping down his cheek and falling on the sofa, leaving a small trace of moisture.

There is only this drop of tear, but it contains too many emotions, including grievance, relief, joy, and full happiness.

Seven years.

Ajin, I’ve finally waited for you.

Xie Shuhan patted Lu Jin’s back gently, as if comforting a small animal that had finally found its home, his movements gentle and caring.

He could clearly feel Lu Jin’s body trembling, and knew how excited and happy he was at this moment.

And he himself is the same.

So many years of waiting and suffering, at this moment, turned into full happiness.

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