I Fell In Love With Qing Leng Xue Shen Chapter 15

Chapter 15 Are they friends?

The night light spread through the window lattice, dyeing the bedroom a soft dark blue.

Xie Shuhan was awakened by the chirping of insects outside the window. When he opened his eyes, his brain no longer felt the dull pain of early morning.

Although his limbs were still a little weak, the burning heat had faded away, replaced by a faint sticky feeling after he was wet with sweat.

He sat up propped up on the mattress, his hair messy in front of his forehead, and his eyes still looked as if he had just woken up.

His eyes inadvertently glanced at the bedside table. A piece of light white note paper lay quietly there, with a soft outline outlined by the light at the corner, which made his heart move inexplicably.

Reaching out to pick up the note, familiar handwriting jumped into view. The pen was sharp and bold, with an unruly energy. It was Lu Jin’s handwriting.

“Take your medicine on time, drink plenty of water, and contact me if you have any questions.” It was a few numbers, but they seemed to be warm, pressed against his cool fingertips.

He has been here.

Xie Shuhan’s fingertips tightened slightly, and a shallow wrinkle formed on the edge of the note paper.

My heart seemed to have been lightly hit by something, causing fine ripples to appear, with a hint of imperceptible sweetness mixed with a bit of sourness.

He sat in bed and stared for a long time. The night outside the window was getting darker and darker, and the room was so quiet that he could hear his own heartbeat.

Finally, he lifted the quilt and got out of bed, stepped on the cool floor with his bare feet, walked to the desk and picked up his phone.

Unlock the screen, and the chat box pops up automatically, staying at the minimalist conversation from a few days ago.

He sent “Classroom 4032, Duzhi Building”, and Lu Jin replied with the word “good”.

After hovering his fingertips on the screen for a long time, Xie Shuhan took a deep breath and slowly typed out a line of words, deleting, modifying, and finally leaving only the most concise expression:

Xie Shuhan: Thank you for taking care of me.

A notification that the message was sent successfully popped up. He put the phone on the desk and stared at the moon outside the window, but his mind was as messy as catkins blown by the wind.

On the other side, the barbecue stall on the back street of the school was filled with smoke, the charcoal fire was sizzling, and the aroma of barbecue skewers filled the air.

Lu Jin and Yu Yifan were sitting at a table in the corner, with a few skewers of grilled meat and two bottles of cold beer in front of them.

Lu Jin supported his chin with one hand and poked the roasted eggplant on the plate with chopsticks in the other hand.

There was no expression on his face, and there was a lingering depression in his eyes, like an abandoned large dog.

Xie Shuhan’s nostalgic murmurs and hugs during the day were still clearly echoing in his mind. Every time he thought about it, his heart felt like being pricked by a needle.

“Brother Jin, are you sure Xie Shuhan really has someone he likes?” Yu Yifan took a big bite of grilled pork belly and asked vaguely, “Think about it, Xie Shuhan’s temperament is as cold as ice. He only spends time in the library studying, how can he hide someone he has liked for a long time? Could it be that you misunderstood?”

He really couldn’t believe that someone like Xie Shuhan, who rejected people thousands of miles away, could have a deep love buried deep in his heart.

“Yeah, sure.” Lu Jin picked up the beer bottle in front of him and took a big sip. The cold liquid slid down his throat, but he couldn’t suppress the heat and sourness in his heart.

The words “If steel is ground into a needle, as long as you are willing to wait, as long as you are willing to love deeply” are still clearly imprinted in his mind at this moment, like an insurmountable gap, leaving him without the courage to confess.

Yu Yifan was about to say something more when Lu Jin’s cell phone suddenly rang.

He picked up the phone and saw the message popping up on the screen. His heart skipped a beat and his fingertips were numb. It was from Xie Shuhan.

He took a deep breath, clicked on the chat box, and the line “Thank you for taking care of me” came into view.

Six simple words, but he hesitated for a long time.

After struggling for a long time, I finally replied.

Lu Jin: You’re welcome, we are friends.

Lu Jin looked at the word “friend” and curled his lips with self-mockery.

Yes, it’s better to be friends, or at least to stay by his side, and to see him occasionally, than to become a complete stranger.

After sending it, he threw the phone back on the table, picked up the beer bottle and took another sip. The bitterness of the wine spread on the tip of his tongue, just like his mood at the moment.

He couldn’t avoid Xie Shuhan completely like this. Even if he could only be friends, he would accept it.

Xie Shuhan’s phone vibrated. He quickly picked it up and took a look. When the word “friend” came into view, his fingertips trembled uncontrollably.

Friends?…

That’s fine, Xie Shuhan comforted himself in his heart. He was better than a stranger. At least he could still contact and see each other occasionally.

He didn’t reply, put the lock screen of his phone aside, got up and walked into the bathroom.

The warm water sprayed down from the shower head, washing away the sticky feeling on the body, and also trying to wash away the sourness and loss in the heart.

The hot water slid down his hair and dripped on the floor, making a tinny sound, as if silently telling his grievances.

After taking a shower, he put on a loose cotton home clothes and sat at his desk.

The moonlight outside the window shines in through the gaps in the curtains, and falls on the glass jar filled with stars at the corner of the table, reflecting tiny rays of light.

He took out a piece of pink star paper, ran his fingertips across the smooth paper, and slowly wrote:

“On the 2559th day, he said we were just friends. That’s fine, it’s better than strangers.”

The handwriting is still beautiful, but with a subtle tremor.

After finishing writing, he carefully folded the note into a star, held the star with his fingertips and remained silent for a long time before gently throwing it into the glass jar.

With a soft “ding” sound, the stars fell into the dense cluster of stars, crowded together with other stars, as if they had found a home, and seemed to be wrapped in endless loneliness.

Xie Shuhan looked at the stars in the glass jar, with complex emotions surging in his eyes, including loss, grievance, and a hint of unwillingness.

At the barbecue stall, Lu Jin and Yu Yifan ate until late at night.

Lu Jin drank a lot of wine, his cheeks were flushed, his eyes became a little blurred, and his steps were sloppy.

Yu Yifan spent a lot of effort to help him back to the dormitory.

“Brother Jin, lie down and I’ll get you a glass of water.” Yu Yifan put Lu Jin on the bed and shook his head helplessly.

Lu Jin hummed and closed his eyes, but his consciousness became increasingly blurry.

Alcohol quickly took over his brain, causing him to fall into a deep dream.

In the dream, he stood in the white mist and saw Xie Shuhan smiling at a blurry figure.

That smile was so gentle that he had never seen it before.

Xie Shuhan stretched out his hand, gently hugged the figure, then stood on tiptoes and kissed the other person’s lips.

The scene was so dazzling that Lu Jin felt as if his heart was being pinched tightly by an invisible hand. The pain was so painful that he couldn’t breathe.

He wanted to rush forward, push the blurry figure away, and tell Xie Shuhan not to do this, but he couldn’t move and could only watch it all happen.

“Don’t…” He murmured subconsciously.

The dormitory was quiet except for Lu Jin’s muffled voice.