Hate The Bright Moon Chapter 95

Chapter 99

Zuo Yifan didn’t know what happened, but he saw Chi Huang buried in the pile of cardboard boxes, tearing up the boxes, pulling out the clothes inside and throwing them on the ground.

“There’s nothing else, it’s just clothing, I checked it.”

Chi Huang obviously couldn’t listen, and kept pulling the clothes out, piling a pile in the living room until a small box fell out.

Chi Huang picked up the box and opened it. As if he saw something that made him the most angry and frightened, even the objects in the box were smashed against the glass wall.The broken parts rolled to Zuo Yifan’s feet, and he realized it was a watch.

Combining the clothes and watch with Chi Huang’s current state, Zuo Yifan had some guesses about the identity of the person who came in the afternoon.He couldn’t ask anything, he could only look sadly and sadly at Chi Huang, who was venting madly, and at himself reflected in the glass wall behind Chi Huang.

It wasn’t until Chi Huang lit a fire in the middle of the pile of clothes that he woke up as if from a dream and was shocked. He quickly poured water from the vase to put it out, and hugged Chi Huang’s waist to stop him: “If you hate these things, I will take them out and throw them away immediately. Don’t do this. If the police and firemen are alerted, you will be on the news again.”

“Go away, go away! Leave me alone, all of you fucking leave me alone…”

Chi Huang yelled and cursed, but his body was completely powerless.Despite this, Zuo Yifan still dragged him into his bedroom with great effort: “You rest in the room for a while, and I’ll clean up the living room.”

After being forced onto the bed, Chi Huang’s tears welled up from the corners of his eyes. The gray quilt was dyed dark, and the wetness gradually expanded.

Seeing his tears, Zuo Yifan was completely panicked, but he stared blankly, not knowing what to do, until Chi Huang yelled at him: “Get out!”

Zuo Yifan went out and gently closed the door.

When he finished cleaning up the living room and came in with a cup of hot water, Chi Huang was still lying still, but he didn’t shed any more tears.

He brought the water glass to Chi Huang’s mouth: “Drink some water?”

Blocking it with his arm, the whole glass of water was poured onto him. Chi Huang said in a hoarse voice, “I told you to get out. Don’t you understand human speech?”

After rolling around for a while, Zuo Yifan came into the house in the evening, turned on the light for him, and asked him what he wanted to eat at night.

Chi shook motionless and didn’t speak.

At around ten o’clock, Zuo Yifan came in again, helped him take off his shoes and cover him with quilt, told him to have a good sleep, and turned off the lights on the way out.

In the dark night, Chi Huang couldn’t sleep at all. He didn’t know why Chen Shilu went so far and was so cruel to him.

Every day in the past, he thought that he was going crazy. He wanted to hear his voice and see his person, but he didn’t dare, because he knew that what he could hear and see was Chen Shilu’s more indifferent and firm rejection.For this reason, he did not hesitate to block all his contact information and did not allow people around him to contact him.Just for this last layer of relationship – his clothes are still with Chen Shilu, and he has one last reason to return to him.

Now this last reason has been ended by Chen Shilu himself. As expected, he will not give him the slightest chance. They have not even met.

In the middle of the night, Zuo Yifan was awakened by the sound of clattering. When he got up, he saw Chi Huang rummaging through boxes and cabinets in the house, pulling out drawers one after another and dumping all the contents on the floor.

“What are you looking for? Let me help you find it.”

Chi Huang turned a deaf ear and ignored him at all.

“I have packed everything in the house. Just tell me what you are looking for and I will find it for you right away.”

Chi Huang’s eyes were red and he didn’t speak. He just searched all the way.

Zuo Yifan had no choice but to follow him, picking up and packing away.

It wasn’t until early in the morning that he searched almost all the rooms thoroughly before he saw Chi Huang take out a plastic piece with a leather cord from the pocket of a coat deep in the cabinet.

He didn’t know what the plastic disc was for, but Chi Huang held it in his hand and returned to the room.

By the time Zuo Yifan had arranged everything, it was already dawn.He went to the room and saw that Chi Huang had opened his eyes. He didn’t know whether he was awake or had not slept all night, so he went to cook some porridge and bring it in.

“You haven’t eaten anything all day and night. How much should you eat?”

Chi Huang didn’t speak, but seeing that his expression had softened, Zuo Yifan put a spoon to his mouth, and Chi Huang opened his mouth.

After Zuo Yifan finished feeding him a bowl, he asked him again: “There is still porridge, do you still want to eat? Or do you want to eat something else?”

Chi Huang shook his head, slowly gave up the seat next to him, and patted him.

Zuo Yifan understood, put down the bowl, and sat on the edge of the bed.

Chi Huang patted the bed again and said hoarsely, “Lie down too.”

Zuo Yifan followed his words and lay on his side next to him, the two facing each other.

Chi Huang’s voice was hoarse, and he suddenly began to apologize in a low voice: “I’m sorry, these days I always yell at you, be cruel to you, and treat you badly. But you have always been very kind to me, meeting all my reasonable and unreasonable requirements…” When he said these words, he was almost crying, “… It must be very hard for you to get along with someone like me.”

Zuo Yifan shook his head: “It’s not hard, being with you is the happiest time in my life.”

“If this can be considered happiness, how unhappy must your previous life have been?” After Chi Huang finished speaking, he lowered his eyelashes as if he regretted it, “I’m sorry, I said something unpleasant again.”

Zuo Yifan saw Chi Huang’s lowered eyebrows, his eyes were all gray, and his face was as pale as a piece of paper, filled with brokenness, which made him feel heartbroken.

However, besides this love and pity, there were also emotions that he had never experienced before and that were difficult to describe.

He told Chi Huang: “My previous life was indeed unfortunate. My parents were a pair of lunatics, and all my memories are of their abuse of me. The bad kids in school were even more evil. But if I had to go through all that to become who I am today and have the chance to meet you, I don’t regret it at all. If I could do it again, I would choose such an unfortunate life.”

“Do you love me like this?”

“I love you more than anything in this world.”

“Then give me a hug.”

Zuo Yifan opened his arms, and Chi Huang pillowed his arms and buried his face in his arms.

There was no body odor on Zuo Yifan’s body, neither good nor bad, only the fragrance of laundry detergent on his clothes.But a person’s embrace, no matter who it is, is always warm.

Chi Huang sought this kind of warmth, but it was unbearable when he touched it. He almost choked with sobs: “Zuo Yifan, I am so sad. I have been in so much pain these days. I have forgotten what happiness feels like…”

“I know, I know everything,” he gently followed Chi Huang’s hair, listening to his crying and calling his name as if asking for help, his heart trembled unbearably, making his whole face turn red, “But it doesn’t matter, it doesn’t matter, it will get better, it doesn’t matter…”

“It won’t get better, it will never get better again. I’m about to die. I’m in so much pain that I’m about to die. I really want to die, Zuo Yifan.”

Zuo Yifan suddenly tightened his arms and held Chi Huang’s face tightly in his arms. The blush on his face was like an orgasm: “I will accompany you. If you think that is better, I will accompany you.”

The sobs and murmurs in his arms were gone, and he seemed to be holding his breath.After a while, Chi Huang gently pushed him away.

He had just cried, his eyes were red, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes. He raised his face and stared at Zuo Yifan blankly. Those wet eyes were like a frightened deer, and they were simply the most beautiful thing in the world.

Zuo Yifan swallowed his throat, took a shaky breath, and couldn’t help but confess his feelings completely: “I will love you with my life. No matter what you ask me to do, I will do it. No matter what you want to do, I will always be with you.”

“Including accompanying me to death?”

“Including accompanying you to death.” When he said this, he was filled with so much affection that the words could no longer bear it. Substantial love gurgled out of his eyes, and his eyes were so tender and sticky that they almost swallowed up Chi Huang.

Zuo Yifan subconsciously raised his hand to touch Chi Huang, but before he could touch it, Chi Huang slapped him away.

The crisp sound that hit the back of his hand seemed to wake up two people at the same time.Chi Huang’s face was full of panic. He shrunk his arms and stepped back. He retreated too quickly and rolled from the other side of the bed to the floor.

Zuo Yifan didn’t know what happened, so he quickly got up and helped him.

As soon as he touched Chi Huang’s arm, Chi Huang immediately dodged and scolded him loudly: “Don’t touch me!”

His hands were frozen in mid-air, and his expression was forlorn.Although Chi Huang is always fickle on weekdays, he is nothing more than angry and disgusted with him.However, today, it was the first time that I saw avoidance and fear in his eyes.Zuo Yifan didn’t know why, but he was stabbed a little.

“Chi Huang, what’s wrong with you?”

Chi Huang got up from the ground, put on his clothes and walked out.

Zuo Yifan followed him: “I did something wrong, can you tell me?”

When he walked to the door, Chi Huang took the car keys hanging in the entrance. When he turned around and saw Zuo Yifan’s face, he couldn’t help but shuddered: “Psycho, stay away from me!” After that, he closed the door hard, never wanting to see that face in the room again.

It wasn’t until the car drove out of the basement and was illuminated by the warm sunshine of the spring morning that Chi Huang felt that the coldness all over his body was getting better.Zuo Yifan was so scary. He didn’t know how to explain the sudden feeling of fear, but the hairs on his back stood up instinctively.

He had just recovered from that fright, and the overwhelming pain overwhelmed him again.

Still sad, still in pain, still wanting to die.

He didn’t know what was wrong with him.Chen Shilu was unwilling to obey his demands, but Zuo Yifan listened to them all. Zuo Yifan also gave him all the infinite tolerance and favor that Chen Shilu was unwilling to give him.

Zuo Yifan gave more.Regardless of his shortcomings or strengths, he accepts them all and dotes on them equally.No matter whether he was good or bad to Zuo Yifan, he could not shake the slightest bit of his complete care and love for himself.

He was even willing to give his life to him.

These clearly exceeded the love he wanted, but instead of feeling it was enough, he felt terrible.

Why does such complete love make him timid?And what is enough to satisfy his never-ending demands so that he doesn’t have to be so empty and painful?

And his never-ending pursuit is not love, so what is it?

He drove aimlessly on the highway.There were roads everywhere, but he seemed to have nowhere to go. He could go anywhere. He had been driving all day and still had nowhere to go.

When it was getting dark, he got mixed up in the traffic going home during the evening rush hour and drove downstairs of Chen Shilu’s house without realizing it.

The electronic keycard that had been in his hand for a whole day was almost deeply embedded into his flesh.

He thought that even if he was going to die, he would not be with Zuo Yifan.After he died, Zuo Yifan will still remember him forever, miss him forever, and suffer forever.

Chen Shilu would definitely not do it. If he died, Chen Shilu would forget about him and continue his comfortable and happy life.

Chi Huang couldn’t reconcile himself to the thought that he was so happy, could feed fish and flowers, drink wine and taste tea, and hang out with countless men.

Even if he died, he would still be with Chen Shilu.Even if he couldn’t get him in this life, at least the moment they died together, he had Chen Shilu forever.