Hate The Bright Moon Chapter 91

Chapter 95

“Did you hear everything?”

Chen Shilu walked quickly in front, and Han Xiao followed behind him, scratching his head: “It’s the door to your house. As long as my hearing is normal, it’s hard not to hear it.”

He hurriedly caught up with him: “When you went to college, you told me that you wanted to break off your relationship with your family, but you haven’t broken up yet? Are your parents kidnapping you with emotions and morals?”

It just so happened that his parents didn’t kidnap him emotionally or morally, and they never asked him for money. It was as if they knew very well that they weren’t very kind to him and didn’t dare to ask for anything in return.That’s why Chen Shilu never had the opportunity to ask them about “love or not”.Sometimes when I think about the fact that his parents did not physically abuse him and raised him, I feel that there is kindness in it.

“Emotional issues are complicated,” he prevaricated.

Han Xiao seemed to have listened and said calmly: “Yes, emotional issues are very complicated.”

The two walked into a street park. Chen Shilu walked straight to a bench and sat down. Han Xiao followed and sat next to him.

At this moment, he seemed to have regained his composure and looked at Han Xiao several times: “When did you come back?”

“Last week. I saw it was approaching your birthday, so I took two days off.”

“You said you went to my house to look for me when there was no one at home?” After hanging up the phone, Chen Shilu also felt something was wrong. Generally speaking, domestic couriers should not be able to contact foreign senders.It was just an unimportant thing, he didn’t think deeply about it.

“Not welcome?”

“I would be embarrassed if you stir up trouble like this.”

“What I want is that you are embarrassed and will rack your brains when you give me a gift in return.”

“Please spare me.”

Knowing that he was not in a joking mood at this time, Han Xiao also put away his wisecracks and handed over the gift: “This is your favorite cheesecake, and this is your favorite band’s record.”

Chen Shilu first took the packaged square sheet and asked while unpacking it: “Why didn’t I know I had a favorite band? All the bands I like are treated equally.”

“See for yourself.”

Chen Shilu knew right away that he already owned this most classic record.It wasn’t until he took it apart and turned it over that he opened his eyes wide.

The string of English above was as incomprehensible as an earthworm, but the words “To Chris Chen” were so familiar that even though they looked like earthworms, he recognized them.

“Band autograph?”

“Boss Dai signed it, can you understand it?”

Chen Shilu shook his head.

“Wish you enternal joy,” Han Xiao put his arm on his shoulder, “Be happy.”

Chen Shilu knew that it was not easy for him to get this autograph. The band was also a band he liked very much. If it were another time, he would probably laugh out loud, but today, his mood was too heavy.

“I’m sorry, I really can’t be happy today.” Chen Shilu looked at him seriously, “I think I will be happy when I see this gift some time in the future when I feel better.”

Han Xiao stared into Chen Shilu’s eyes, thinking that he couldn’t help but give him things all the time just to see his expression when he received the gifts.

He almost couldn’t help but leaned over. Chen Shilu’s eyes turned to the cake. He didn’t eat a bite of lunch: “I’ll eat the cake now, I happen to be hungry.”

Seeing how delicious he was eating, Han Xiao swallowed: “I came all the way here and I haven’t had lunch yet.”

“You want to eat too?”

Han Xiao opened his mouth, and Chen Shilu put a new plastic spoon in his hand.

He put the cake on Han Xiao’s lap, got up and went to the small supermarket nearby.When he came back, he was carrying a bag of snacks and a bottle of Erguotou.

Seeing Chen Shilu unscrewing the Erguotou and taking a big sip from the bottle, Han Xiao was startled: “Don’t be like that, if you want to drink, let’s go to another place and eat some hot food first to cushion your stomach.”

“I’m 33 today, do you want to care about me?” Chen Shilu’s eyes drifted over, making Han Xiao’s heart beat faster.

“I…”

“I know you care about me, but there are some problems that can’t be solved by caring. Only wine can solve them.” Seeing that Han Xiao was really worried, Chen Shilu smiled at him and said, “Don’t worry, I’m sensible.”

Han Xiao was so confident in his assurance that he drank half a bottle of Erguotou with peanuts and spicy strips, and his eyes became blurry.

He pressed his bottle: “You are wrong, wine can’t solve any problems, it will only amplify your discomfort.”

“I know I was wrong, but it’s so hard to do the right thing, it’s really hard.”

As he spoke, Chen Shilu took another sip of wine: “I know that I will never be able to find an ideal family and affection in my life, but I still can’t help it. When I’m vulnerable and injured, that kind of thought will come up if they will accept my idea. It’s really ridiculous. Knowing that there is no way out behind me, and there is no place for me to curl up and lick my wounds, people will still want to return to their original nest in an attempt to get some warmth.”

Hearing what he said, Han Xiao raised his chin: “Alu, are you in trouble?”

Chen Shilu shook his head to avoid Han Xiao’s hand, and lowered his head again.

“Is it something at work? You were transferred, which made you very frustrated?”

“…”

“Or is it too stressful to work and live in such a super first-tier city?”

“…”

Seeing that he didn’t want to say anything, Han Xiao didn’t force it. He put his arm around Chen Shilu’s shoulder and squeezed twice to express comfort: “Everyone is vulnerable and injured sometimes, but this is all temporary, whether it is pressure or sudden depression, as long as you grit your teeth and get through this period, everything will be fine.”

“How long will this period last? One and a half years or three years and five years?” Chen Shilu looked at him, sorrow filling his eyes. “I thought so before, but I’m not sure now. I feel like I can’t hold on any longer.”

Because he discovered that as time passed, the wound did not heal gradually as he expected, but instead tended to gradually spread and blood flowed turbulently.

He didn’t know why this happened. It was clear that when he finally drove Chi Huang away, although he felt a little sad and regretful, he felt more relaxed and relieved.He sticks to his principles and only by doing the right things in life can he stay on the right path.If you are swayed by temporary emotions and blindly choose according to your heart, you will end up in a doomed situation.This time he returned home and proved this truth again.

So when the imaginary forgetfulness and letting go did not happen as expected, Chen Shilu became truly panicked.

Seeing the always calm Chen Shilu’s appearance, Han Xiao also realized that the matter was not that simple. He emphasized his tone: “What happened?”

Chen Shilu drank all the wine in the bottle in one breath, as if it was difficult to say: “I drove Chi Huang away.”

“Chi Huang?” Han Xiao searched for this name in his mind.After knowing each other for so many years, he knew some of Chen Shilu’s friends, such as Fu Lei.But the name didn’t impress him deeply. Just as he was about to ask who it was, in a flash of lightning, he remembered the young man he had met once before.

He couldn’t believe that Chen Shilu was like this because of a man.

An inexplicable anger surged into his heart: “So are you in love with him?”

Chen Shilu shook his head, as if to get rid of some complicated thoughts, leaving his purest heart: “I don’t know.”

He really doesn’t know.When it comes to liking, of course he likes Chi Huang, just like he has liked Han Xiao, Fu Lei, and even Bai Shengguang, but no matter whether these relationships begin or end, they have never caused him such pain.

In terms of deep relationship, he and Han Xiao have been together for more than three years.But when Han Xiao was going abroad and they had to separate, Chen Shilu only took some time to adapt to single life.

Why is Chi Huang so different?He couldn’t figure it out.The only thing he could think of was that he and Chi Huang were not in a formal relationship, so he hadn’t had time to withdraw his feelings habitually.They ended abruptly at the peak of devotion and attachment, so he couldn’t help but sink in.

“Just because he is young and beautiful? I don’t think you are the type to fall in love with such superficial things.”

“So I don’t know. He has always had a strange ability to get into people’s hearts unconsciously, like some kind of parasitic plant. When you pull it out, the pain will let you know how deep its roots have touched.” When Chen Shilu described this, his breathing was trembling slightly.

“Alu, this idea is just something you impose to explain your own pain. It is not the case. We are all just ordinary people. The better you imagine him, the more painful you will be.”

“You want to say that my pain is self-fiction? I am not such a person. You should know very well that I am the type who is least willing to fabricate pain and indulge in it.”

“But you can’t explain that you really love him.”

“Maybe ‘love’ itself cannot be explained. If you ask my parents why they prefer the eldest son who is selfish and even enslaves them, they can’t explain it, but they are willing and willing to suck the last drop of his blood.”

“In that case, just go find Chi Huang and make peace. If you can hook up with him the first time, there’s no need to hook up with him the second time.” Han Xiao could no longer hold back his smoldering anger.

Chen Shilu drank and was trapped in his own emotions. His feelings became dull. He didn’t notice Han Xiao’s anger at all and just thought about himself: “But I don’t want to. I’m not my parents, and I don’t want to let others destroy my life. A life is so long, even true love is too short compared to life.”

They sat in the park all afternoon.I don’t know if it was because of this vomiting talk, but Chen Shilu felt a little more relaxed.

But Han Xiao came all the way to help him celebrate his birthday, but he treated the person as an emotional trash can. He couldn’t help but feel regretful and invited him to the best restaurant to eat their local specialties in the evening.

At the table, he raised a glass to Han Xiao: “Thank you for giving me gifts, celebrating my birthday with me, and listening to me. If it weren’t for you today, I would really… really…” Chen Shilu’s emotions were a little out of control about family affairs and Chi Huang’s affairs. He simply drank it all and hid those emotions with alcohol.

Han Xiao drank the wine in his glass without saying a word.

When they returned to the hotel, both of them were a little drunk.Chen Shilu had just drank in the afternoon and was even more drunk.

The room on the same floor as his was already full, so he only helped Han Xiao find the room upstairs.He has stayed in this hotel for two nights, and he is walking in front: “This is the best hotel in our county, you can just stay for one night.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

“Come to my room first, and I’ll get you shampoo and body soap. Don’t use the ones from the hotel. They use bottles of the same brand, but I don’t know what’s actually in them.”

Chen Shilu opened the door and just inserted the card into the battery slot. Han Xiao followed, closed the door and suddenly pulled out the card.

Before he could react, Han Xiao was pressed behind the door, breathing fast and hot. Han Xiao gritted his teeth, not knowing whether it was anger or emotion: “Alu, what do you think I am?”