Difficult To Raise Chapter 19

Chapter 19 Four Years Four years later, S was in college.…

Four years later, S was born.

After a cold winter, warm sunshine seems particularly rare.S city has always only had winter and summer, and spring and autumn are very short, so it is even more rare.

There were several well-dressed girls standing on the cherry blossom path behind the library. They had made an appointment to take pictures here today.The cherry blossoms bloom brilliantly at this time, with large swathes of them connected together, almost dyeing the skyline a light pink. They look gorgeous and dazzling. The scenery alone is very eye-catching. Taking photos here will certainly be very photogenic.

The girls held the camera, pointed out each other’s postures, and laughed together.A girl with short hair took a step back under the guidance of a friend, but accidentally bumped into a figure hurried by holding a book.

The moment they collided, the book in the man’s hand flew out instantly.

Also falling down like the books was the girl who hit someone.The short-haired girl screamed in panic. In just a few seconds, a thought flashed through her mind. It was over. This time she was destined to fall so hard that her butt exploded.

She closed her eyes in despair, but the expected pain never came.

At the critical moment, the girl felt an arm reaching out and gently grabbing her.

She opened her eyes a little and was about to say thank you, but the moment she saw the boy’s features clearly, she forgot what she was going to say.

The boy in front of him has an extremely handsome face, with a straight nose, bright eyes, and smooth and beautiful facial lines. He is very handsome, but he is not only handsome, he even makes people feel… a little beautiful.

It may be strange to call a boy beautiful, but girls with short hair think of this word the first time they see him.Beautiful but not effeminate, just like his temperament, distant but not indifferent.

The short-haired girl stared at him in rapt attention, her heartbeat speeding up slightly, and a strange feeling gradually spread, making her cheeks turn red.

The boy immediately let her go as soon as she stood still, without any intention of taking advantage.

If it were normal, the girl would be very happy.But facing this face, she felt a strange regret in her heart.

The girl was startled by her thoughts. She touched her cheeks that were radiating heat, feeling that she was probably crazy.

“Are you okay?” the boy asked casually.

The girl blushed, “No…it’s okay, thank you.”

The boy nodded to her, with a polite smile on his face. Probably seeing that the girl was fine, he bent down and picked up the book that fell on the ground, turned around and walked forward.

A thin white arm suddenly stretched out and grabbed his cuff.

“Sorry.” The girl held her phone and said cautiously, “Can I add a WeChat account?”

The boy was startled for a moment. After he came to his senses, he smiled apologetically at her and said politely but distantly: “Sorry.”

The girl let go of her hand in disappointment.

The boy nodded to her, said nothing, and strode away.

“Oh, don’t be sad.” Seeing the disappointed look on the short-haired girl’s face, the companion put his arm around her shoulders to comfort her: “Don’t you know that person just now? He is Jiang Ran, a sophomore in the Department of Mathematics. It’s definitely not going to work if you start a conversation with him.”

“Huh? Why?” The girl was still staring at the boy’s back, and turned her head curiously when she heard this.

“You really don’t know him.” The companion was a little surprised. “He is quite famous. He looks like that. He was chased like crazy when he entered the school as a freshman. It’s a pity…”

The girl asked: “What’s the pity?”

“I heard he likes men.”

“Ah?” The girl was really sorry this time, “That’s a pity.”

…

Jiang Ran knew nothing about the discussion behind him. He was admitted to this university two years ago.It’s funny to say that he sent Jiang Jin away in such a tough manner. About a year later, old man Chen also passed away.

He left without pain. He was still talking to Jiang Ran the night before, but he stopped breathing early the next morning. Jiang Ran calmly took care of his funeral.Then he took the initiative to go to school to find his previous teacher and expressed his desire to study again.

The teacher was very happy and used some of his connections to re-enter him into the third grade of high school.

During the year he took a break from school, although he was working and taking care of Old Man Chen, he still read books whenever he had free time. After returning to school, he studied even harder. Every day when he opened his eyes, he would answer questions. Reading took up all his time, and finally he got a pretty good grade in the exam.

Although S University is not a top-notch school, it can still do well. It is just that it is very different from the school Jiang Ran originally wanted. He broke his original plan and changed to a different city.

That city made him so sad. Jiang Ran almost lost all the important people in his life there.Later, he was alone, and it didn’t matter where he went.

The reason why I chose S City was because I mentioned to Jiang Jin once that I wanted to take him here to see the sea. In the final analysis, I just had some expectations.

It’s not that Jiang Ran hasn’t tried to contact Jiang Jin in these years, but he left his original school. He doesn’t know where he went, and he doesn’t have any contact information with him. The heavy rain took Jiang Jin away and buried all traces of Jiang Jin. It was like he had never appeared in this world.

He could never find him again.

Jiang Ran sometimes thinks to himself, wondering how Jiang Jin is doing now, would he be happier?Did he…ever think of him?

When I returned to the dormitory, none of my roommates were there, and it was extremely quiet inside.Jiang Ran opened the computer as usual and called up a folder inside.The folder is named with only two words.

He put on the headphones and pressed the mouse skillfully, his eyes a little excited and nostalgic. After a few seconds, a young man’s figure suddenly appeared in the center of the screen.He held his guitar and smiled brightly at the camera.

“Brother.” The young man’s voice was very pleasant. He said softly with a smile: “Today is your birthday. Are you happy?”

Jiang Ran moved his lips and answered silently, happily.

“I think you will be very happy because I have prepared such a special gift for you. Do you remember this song? I only wrote half of it before, but now I have finally finished it.” At this point, he seemed a little shy and his ears turned slightly red, but he still insisted on finishing the sentence, “This song is called Burning Embers. I wrote it specifically for my brother. I hope my brother will like it.”

After the young man said this, he put his slender hands on the guitar. He plucked the strings slightly, and his five fingers danced nimbly on the strings.A prelude poured out from the young man’s fingertips, and the tune was very, very gentle, as if all the warmth in the world was packed into it.

Then he started singing, with a very unique and cold voice that sounded very clean.When he sang this song, whether it was his demeanor, movements or timbre, he seemed to be conveying one word, cherish.

No one can sing this feeling but himself.Jiang Ran tried to sing, but he couldn’t either.

He heard the boy holding the guitar singing:

Even if the sun falls into the sea.

Even if the rain extinguishes the lights to ashes.

I’m still standing there.

In place.

I am willing to do it for you,

Burn this last spark.

“Brother.” The young man raised his head, his eyes were already red, and he said softly: “Happy birthday! You must be happy in the future, you know?”

Jiang Ran nodded, smiled and said, Got it.

“Are you stupid?” Suddenly, a fat hand patted the head of the boy on the screen.”You can just sing. Why are you crying? Will your brother be happy after watching this?”

The young man turned around and cursed with a look of worry: “Get out of here, I’m warning you, little fat guy, I have to cut the last part off, and you must not let my brother see it!”

“Okay, okay.” Xiaopang agreed repeatedly, but there was a sly flash in his eyes.Obviously, he kept the last part.

Jiang Ran burst out laughing.

After laughing, he felt melancholy. He felt that wind was passing through his chest, and it was empty inside, as if something was missing.

He has watched this video thousands of times, but no matter how many times, it is still not enough, otherwise he would not know how to face this lonely world.

Jiang Ran thought for a while and took out a diary from the cabinet under the table. He had just written two words when a voice suddenly came from behind him.

“Are you watching this video again?”

Jiang Ran was startled and suddenly closed the diary in his hand. He turned his head and saw his roommate.

This man’s name is Tang Qin, and he is in the same major.He had been in the army for a year, so he looked very manly.Although his facial features are not particularly handsome, his temperament is very eye-catching.

Tang Qin is a straight man with a bit of a big nerve. Fortunately, he is generous and has a cheerful personality. Jiang Ran has been in the same dormitory with him for more than a year, and the relationship is not bad.

“Yeah.” Jiang Ran responded and closed the video.

“Don’t you get tired of watching it so many times?” Tang Qin didn’t understand. He had always known about the video of his roommate’s baby, and had glanced at it a few times out of curiosity. When he saw a scene of a young boy holding a guitar and singing, he suddenly lost interest.

“If you’re not tired, how could you be tired?” Jiang Ran said softly.

“Isn’t that a little star here? Are you chasing stars?” Tang Qin thought about the boy’s outstanding appearance and made some guesses.

“Of course not.” Jiang Ran laughed, “Do you think I am a star chaser?”

“It doesn’t look like it to me.” Tang Qin also smiled, “Then who is here? Every time I ask you, you don’t say anything. It’s mysterious.”

“Stop asking.”

Jiang Ran’s expression was a little gloomy. He didn’t want to mention to others that this was his younger brother.Because he had abandoned him with his own hands, every time he mentioned it, he would feel a little guilty. Even now, he would not regret making that decision, but the pain could not be erased.

Seeing his depressed expression, Tang Qin wisely stopped talking and changed the subject: “Would you like to have a dinner together tonight? Mouse’s girlfriend has also been admitted to our school. He is very happy and wants to treat us to dinner.”

Mouse’s full name is Jiang Haodong, and he is also one of Jiang Ran’s roommates. He has a childhood sweetheart girlfriend who is three years younger than him. The two have been in a long-distance relationship for a long time. Jiang Haodong has been waiting for her to pass the exam, and now he finally got his wish.

Jiang Ran was also happy for him and said with a smile, “Okay, where to eat?”

“It’s near a high school. It seems to be called Chengshui Middle School.” Tang Qin scratched his head. “The rat’s girlfriend ordered it. She praised that restaurant to the extreme. It must be delicious.”

“In this case,” Jiang Ran curled his lips and said, “Then we will be in a good mood.”

“It’s just expensive.” Tang Qin said: “That high school is an international private school, and the annual tuition fees are astronomical. The restaurants outside the school make money from the students. Is it not expensive?”

Jiang Ran shrugged, “Since it’s so expensive, I can only eat it once. Be prepared to eat enough.”

The author has something to say:

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Ranbao: Today is also a day when I miss Xiaojin… I can only watch videos and chat for comfort and cry.

Jin Bao (holding hands): Brother…