Chew Slowly Chapter 83

Chapter 83 Chapter 83

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Chen Zongqian went to the law firm to sign the termination contract, returned the office key, and went to Yao Can specifically. He invited her to dinner.Yao Can teased and said, “I’ve only heard of promotion and salary increase, and you treat people to dinner. It’s quite grand for you to fire the boss.”

He had been thinking about terminating the contract for a long time, and Yao Can was not surprised.Chen Zongqian has such a glorious resume. No matter which door he knocks on, someone is willing to open it, and he will not be reduced to drinking the northwest wind.

“It’s not a celebration, it’s a thank you.”

Not able to escape in the hospital some time ago, Chen Zongqian entrusted the marshal to Yao Can.She was so happy: “That machine can automatically produce water and cat food, but the kitten needs someone to accompany it. I can take care of it for a while.”

“No, I have to rely on it to accompany you now.” Chen Zongqian refused.His eyes seemed to be smiling but not smiling. Behind the glass lenses, all his emotions became blurred.Yao Can shook him off with his bag, why were he pretending to be pitiful?He looked lost, like a loser and a bitter lover.Chen Zongqian didn’t pretend to be innocent, he just said he was.

Since there was a treat, Yao Can was determined to kill him severely, but when Chen Zongqian mentioned Western food or Japanese food, her interest waned, and she finally decided to eat porridge and hot pot.I made an appointment for a private room on my phone. The boss had some friendship with her and knew that she was bringing friends, so he offered an extra serving of hand-baked meatballs, which Yao Can happily accepted.

Within a few moments of being seated in the store, all the dishes were served.The rice porridge soup is simmered until the small round bubbles explode with a muffled sound, and the rippling water patterns open like flowers.Pick two chopsticks from the oil dish and put shredded ginger into the pot. Not only does it enhance the freshness and remove the fishy smell, but it also adds a hint of crispness to the mellow rice aroma.When serving, add the seafood first. The shrimp and crab meat are sweet, the shellfish are tender and juicy.

She is used to taking a bite first without any sauce. It is refreshing and fresh, with natural sweetness, but not at all fishy.Then season it, sprinkle half a plate with soy sauce with chili rings, add two drops of sesame oil, a little oyster sauce, add chopped green onion and shredded ginger, chopped peanuts and cooked sesame seeds.Mix it together, and the flavors will be layered, rich and not overpowering.

Don’t eat the meat until you finish the seafood. The beef slices are thin and tender and only need to be rinsed for two or three seconds. The meatballs need to be cooked for a while.Don’t pay attention to the ups and downs. When you pick it up, it is covered with a layer of shiny rice soup.

At halftime, the rice soup became thicker. Yao Can was a little tired from eating, so he put down his chopsticks to rest.The waiter came in to refill the soup. He first adjusted the heat of Yao Can’s pot and let the soup cook slowly. He also told Chen Zongqian secretly that there were flowers in the store.No matter how bland the porridge hot pot is, there will inevitably be some smell on your body after eating it, which will make women dissatisfied.If you don’t want to spoil your mood after having a good meal, you will definitely look for something romantic, and flowers will be great.

“Don’t be romantic, let’s be practical. Is there a money tree?” Yao Can knew that this place would give guests refreshing spray after their meal.The waiter said there was no money tree, but she bought flowers anyway.A cluster of red and pink butterfly peonies, paired with a few tender orange gladioli, was given to Chen Lu, wishing him prosperity and promotion.

The ambiguous atmosphere was instantly diluted, and the waiter followed up with a few blessings.After he left, the box became quiet again, and small bubbles slowly bubbled up in the pot.Chen Zongqian took off his glasses. He looked very soft in the hazy mist, but Yao Can knew that he was cold at all.

“You look very depressed. I didn’t see which girl you were dating. Is it Mr. Du or Xiaoran? Xiaoran, I guess. Yao Lu specializes in marriage and family affairs. It will be easier for you to consult me.” Yao Can smiled.

“I seem to be very bad.” Chen Zongqian rubbed his brows and didn’t know where to start.

“What are you doing? You finally realized that you are a bad person, do you feel guilty?” She joked heartlessly, and she was not shy at all when others saw her. “You are really an asshole. Fortunately, we are tolerant enough.”

Chen Zongqian didn’t feel offended, but his introspective consciousness was a bit poor and he couldn’t quickly understand where he was as a bastard.Yao Can couldn’t help laughing, and quickly said seriously: “You spent so much effort to find the person, but Xiaoran doesn’t want to recognize you?”

His eyes swayed, Chen Zongqian never allowed himself to lose his temper too much, and restrained his sorrowful thoughts in the blink of an eye.Yao Can knew that he had guessed correctly and was a little proud.She also disliked Chen Zongqian’s look of not eating enough oil and salt, so she heated some food and smiled without saying a word.

“What kind of temperament do I have that makes people intolerable?”

When Lao Ben finally spoke, Yao Can scolded him for being arrogant and self-righteous, then waved away the light heat and drew people to look at him, “Look at me, three seconds.”

She remembered that they were born in the same year and grew up next to each other. They were relatives who did not need blood certification and never considered each other as lovers.This dining table minus half of it was the most comfortable distance between her and Chen Zongqian. Once it was exceeded, neither of them would feel comfortable.

Human iris has pigmentation. As long as you get close enough and are fully illuminated by the light, you can see the clear light brown color. That is a clear and real eye.But across this distance, there is only monotonous black.Chen Zongqian is used to using this kind of darkness to hide himself and cover up his sincerity.If you don’t get close, you won’t know that the tenderness in those eyes is actually meaningless, and the more you will be attracted to her.Those eyes are very deceptive. She has known Chen Zongqian for more than 20 years and knows his character deeply.

“Xiaoran was deceived by your eyes and thought he was very close to you.”

Yao Can suddenly stood up, supported the table and moved forward, reaching out to touch Chen Zongqian’s face.He frowned before they even touched her. The resistance was not obvious but it was real.At this time, Chen Zongqian thoughtfully told Yao Can that the pot was still boiling, so be careful not to burn it.

Beyond a safe social distance, one enters the realm of intimacy.For people with strong self-awareness, this leap has an offensive meaning and is very dangerous.Those who can safely enter an intimate distance are either family members who have lived together for decades and have a tacit understanding that allows them to ignore this discomfort.Or he is a lover who is obsessed with love and loves himself to the point of forgetfulness.Once the tacit understanding fails and the passion fades, they will instinctively resist and reject those who infringe on their own territory.

Chen Zongqian smiled bitterly. He had let go of all his boundaries. Both physically and mentally, they were so close that they couldn’t tell each other apart. What distance was there between them?It was Xu Qiaochuan who resisted and rejected, but it was Xu Qiaochuan who first expressed love.

“Huh? What do you think.”

“I think he’s fine.”

Yao Can felt something was wrong after hearing this.She had only met Xu Qiaochuan a few times, and she felt that he was sensitive from the only contact she had.Xu Qiaochuan didn’t like the eyes that looked at him, because he couldn’t stop others and could only avoid them himself.

But he was also secretly looking forward to being looked at seriously.Xu Qiaochuan liked to look at Chen Zongqian, but among the countless times they looked at each other, he was the first to look away and avoid his gaze.Chen Zongqian once thought it was shyness. It wasn’t until the fifth electrotherapy was over, Xu Qiaochuan accidentally fell off the bed, and Chen Zongqian covered his eyes with his hands, that he realized that it was the most straightforward resistance.

“Compassion and hope, these things can burn people if they are looked at openly, especially for such grown-up children.”

Yao Can had gone through a divorce lawsuit before, and the couple fought for the custody of their child, but no one wanted to take the child.He ran away from home, and when Yao Can found him at the breakfast shop, he was staring at a bowl of porridge in a daze.In the summer, he wore long clothes and long sleeves, which could not hide the bruises on his face. He drank porridge to avoid sight.

The white porcelain spoon was put into his mouth, cracking the bloody scab at the corner of his mouth. Yao Can thought to himself that he was considerate and didn’t want people to suffer more when eating.She handed over a pair of chopsticks and said that you can also drink porridge with chopsticks.The child didn’t answer or raise his head, letting his tears fall into the porridge.Compared to the injuries all over his body, the pain was nothing.

“When I saw the photo at Lu Xiaoyun’s house, I hesitated whether to tell you or not. After all, I was also afraid that the second Xu Ni would appear and that you would be like that in vain.” Yao Can no longer smiled playfully, she breathed a sigh of relief, “You don’t know that during that time, every time my senior and I watched you go upstairs, we were extremely nervous.”

Fortunately, fortunately, it was Xiaoran.

What surprised Yao Can was that after meeting Chen Zongqian for the first time, he only helped him a little with things in school, but nothing was gained about what he really wanted to know.Later, she thought clearly that it was enough to reach that level, otherwise empathy would overflow into sympathy and create a new relationship.

Yao Can mocked him: “‘I want you to be well’ is a very domineering statement. Coming from the mouth of a self-righteous person like you, I am really not surprised at all.”

Before he knew that Xu Qiaochuan was Xiao Ran who had been abducted and missing for fifteen years, Chen Zongqian had the empathy that a normal person should have for this child who was bullied by his classmates.He will not interfere too much, even if Xu Qiaochuan’s behavior is not what he thinks is the best choice.When he knew that Xu Qiaochuan was Xiaoran and what had happened in the past fifteen years, guilt and regret made it difficult for him to stay rational. His biased “emotion” overflowed his sympathy and turned into an excessive helping complex.

“You actively want to change him and introduce him to what you think is right, but how can a self-aware person let you dictate everything?”

His knowledge and understanding of the world, his current situation and lifestyle lose their meaning under one person’s close attention.

Just because his spirit was in jeopardy and he was sick, he completely distrusted his feelings and judgments in a state of confusion and confusion.The more eager Chen Zongqian is to save him back on track, the more brutally he denies his existing existence.Xu Qiaochuan is not a dead thing without knowledge and feelings. When he is hugged by the person he likes, he will take the initiative to hug him back.

“Your kindness will make him feel powerless. It’s not that he is a coward. If someone wants to forcefully change me into something, I will run away.”

When Chen Zongqian thought of Xu Qiaochuan’s eyes that night, his whole heart fell and was completely destroyed. He reluctantly pieced it back together, but it was only in appearance, and the pain continued unabated.He pressed the corners of his sour eyes, feeling like a sponge that had absorbed too much regret and guilt.

“But I can’t do nothing, what should I do?” Chen Zongqian was eager to be kind, but he was unable to change the situation. The more proactive he was, the more irreversible it would be.

His younger brother is just an identity related to him, and Xu Qiaochuan is a specific person.He was trapped by the obsession of “finding his younger brother”, and what he gave was not love, but mental abuse and control.After discovering that he could not save Xu Qiaochuan, in order to save Xu Qiaochuan, he took the initiative to abandon himself and indulged and catered to Xu Qiaochuan without any bottom line. Xu Qiaochuan did not want those things.

They are bound by blood, but the fifteen years of separation have caused them to lose the time basis for establishing an intimate relationship, and then they are tied together forcefully.Yao Can keenly felt something was wrong. Why was it like the divorce cases she handled?

Marriage is a contract of value exchange and interest connection, which allows two people to maintain an intimate distance for a long time and form the smallest unit of production – home.Even if they are physically and mentally distant, they will still maintain passive intimacy because of the interests and values ​​involved.A large part of her job is to terminate contracts and liquidate interests for secular men and women.

Yao Can doesn’t believe that love is eternal. Even the sun will burn out one day, let alone a vow.

People who are not in love can live together for decades, but people who have loved each other to the point of death can turn into resentful couples six months after marriage, and come to divorce consultation with the words “not suitable”.

What is the measure of fit?Yao Can has seen so many men and women, but he still can’t distinguish them based on experience.Marriage binds two people who are not naturally related by blood together.Living together is actually a process of shaping a family. If you can tolerate the other person always being in a close distance, maybe it is appropriate to truly become a family.

“You are trying to turn him into a family member…just like getting married. He couldn’t bear it and left because you are not suitable for marriage. It is difficult to find love from you.” Yao Can can’t imagine what his love is like. “Life is very tiring. Do you want people to find evidence of love like solving a case?”

What she said was astonishing, and this analogy made Chen Zongqian’s heart tighten.

After being criticized, he began to reflect again, and Chen Zongqian found that he was indeed bad.He claims to be deeply in love, but he always considers others, but it is wishful thinking. He has never seen Xu Qiaochuan’s heart clearly.He wanted to stay, just to satisfy his desires. What Xu Qiaochuan wanted from him was love.

“Where can I find clues about love?” Chen Zongqian’s thoughts were confused. He wanted to find some love from desire, remove the impurities, and give it purely to Xu Qiaochuan.

Yao Can sat up straight. She knew that Chen Zongqian must love Xiaoran, looking lost and sad, confused and mourning.Chen Zongqian, who has always been able to deal with people and things with ease, is here today.

She sighed quietly, she knew so clearly how arrogant and arrogant this man was.Before the firmly closed self-order constructed by Chen Zongqian was broken, that clue was the only chance for him to understand what love is.

But to recognize love among “care, responsibility, respect, and understanding”, one opportunity is not enough.