Chew Slowly Chapter 37

Chapter 37 Chapter 37

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“He doesn’t want to.” As soon as Chen Zongqian finished speaking, he saw that Du Hongwei was a little depressed.There was still a slight smile on his face, which was not as funny as his eyes, but seemed a bit forced.

Chen Zongqian’s hand was held tightly by her. Du Hongwei wanted to say something, but pursed his lips and remained silent.She lowered her eyes to cover up her sadness, but tears fell as soon as her eyes turned.

The tear fell on the back of Chen Zongqian’s hand, almost burning through the flesh.Hot, painful, sad, many feelings swept over me, making people suddenly don’t know what to say.

“Are you blaming me? Blame me for leaving him, blaming me for treating him badly.” Du Hongwei couldn’t hold back her emotions. The bones gnawed by cancer cells made her more painful, and the physical and mental burden increased for a while. She could only hold on to Chen Zongqian to stabilize her body.

Earlier, she had glanced at him from a distance in the hospital, but she didn’t dare to recognize him because she was afraid that her words would scare people away.Chen Xingran has grown up, but he is so thin and sickly.Du Hongwei remembered that he used to love crying and laughing, and his emotions were clearly visible, but now everything has changed.His eyes were gray, as if he didn’t like anything or care about anything.

Du Hongwei always regretted sending him away, and also hated himself for being too greedy and selfish.She had Chen Zongqian back then and insisted on keeping her second child.

She brought this child into the world without educating him.Because she was afraid that her job and her husband’s future would be affected by the birth, she sent her children to another family early.

The child is ignorant and cannot choose where to stay, and the name that truly belongs to him is not recognized by the law.

Because she was fostered in the Xie family, Xiaoran was not close to her.And everything that happened later was her fault and it was all her fault that the child had to bear.Chen Zongqian was afraid that Du Hongwei would be upset if he said too much, so he stretched out his hand to wipe away her tears and said a few words of comfort.

He only mentioned the identification results. Xu Qiaochuan was the Chen Xingran he had been looking for.Chen Zongqian didn’t dare to say much about the rest. Chen Zongqian didn’t mention much about Xu Qiaochuan’s experiences over the years, nor did he mention the reasons why he was hospitalized during that period.He only said that Xiaoran was now living at home, right next to him, and he didn’t dare to mention what happened to him and his brother.

Chen Zongqian missed it once because of his naivety and recklessness. He was afraid that another tragedy would happen, so he always wanted to find a suitable time and a gentle way to confess.Thinking too much made him indecisive, and he made a big mistake again.

Xu Qiaochuan hated him for being related to Xu Jian and even took revenge.There was an embarrassment between them, and Chen Zongqian still blamed himself.Xu Qiaochuan was in a morbid state both physically and mentally. He didn’t know the truth or what those things meant.As an older brother, he has reason and sobriety, but he cannot prevent these unethical things from happening.

It was so wrong. Chen Zongqian had imagined that if he hadn’t concealed it at the beginning, would it still be like this?It couldn’t be changed at the beginning, and there was no answer to the hypothesis.He knew that he should not hide anything and tried to explain the relationship to Xu Qiaochuan, but the development of the matter was beyond his expectation.He had previously worried that Xu Qiaochuan’s mental state would find it difficult to accept this, but he did not expect people’s reactions to be so extreme.

The way forward and the way back were blocked, and he was helpless in front of Xu Qiaochuan.Chen Zongqian could not find a better choice and no solution.

He suddenly understood why some people in law firms always complained that marriage and family matters were the most difficult cases.Things as big as sesame seeds and mung beans will be entangled for decades with no result because of human relationships.Everyone’s destiny is different, and their predicaments are also different.This is not like a lawsuit, where you cannot seek experience from similar cases.

Du Hongwei took the medicine and rested. He spent too much time in the ward. When he went out, the sky was dark, the air was dull and humid, and there was a hint of rain about to fall.No one was seen in Xu Qiaochuan at the agreed place, and WeChat was also silent.Chen Zongqian looked around and dialed a number.

After two rings, the call was hung up immediately after being connected. The call lasted only one second.

Xu Qiaochuan no longer pretends to be a good boy, but has a strange personality that he can’t guess and can’t figure out.The slight gap between them made him feel that something was wrong. Xu Qiaochuan was deliberately stabbing him to get away from him.

There were already signs that he could escape at any time. Xu Qiaochuan said he wanted to leave when he was emotional. His tone was so true that Chen Zongqian didn’t dare to think it was nonsense.This person was like smoke, making it difficult for him to catch and retain him.

Since you have said that you like her and will stay by your side quietly, why do you still want to leave?

The phone hung up quickly, and Chen Zongqian knew that his phone was not turned off. He didn’t want to pay attention to him for a moment, and he didn’t want to call him again.

Chen Zongqian’s fingers repeatedly slid on the screen. The hospital’s network was very poor and the positioning points could not be refreshed for a long time, which made him a little anxious and agitated.

He finally got the real-time location of Xu Qiaochuan. Chen Zongqian carefully zoomed in on the punctuation point, and his eyelids suddenly jumped when he saw the place name clearly.

19:30 is the departure time of the last bus from here to Beiguan Town. Xu Qiaochuan stood motionless on the stone steps, watching the car leave like a wooden man.The car left, but the person stayed where he was, and his electronic ticket was invalid.

To buy tickets online, you only need to remember the numbers on your ID card, but you need to swipe your card when entering the station.Xu Qiaochuan had no ID card in his pocket, and it was useless to have the ticket.

Pingzhou Port is prosperous. He has studied and worked abroad for several years, but he still feels strange here.After leaving school and factories, the most familiar place was the station where he could go home.It takes two hours to get to Beiguan Town by car, and Xu Qiaochuan even remembers the time.He hasn’t taken a ride here for a while. The last time he came out of Beiguan Town, Chen Zongqian saw him off.Thinking of this person, Xu Qiaochuan’s heart felt tight and painful, as if he had been squeezed hard.

There were many people renting out and looking for customers. People around Xu Qiaochuan kept asking him where he was going, but he refused them all.

He said he didn’t know where he was going, but also said that maybe someone would come to pick him up.His words were inconsistent. Outsiders didn’t understand what Xu Qiaochuan wanted to express, and he couldn’t explain it because he couldn’t think clearly either.

It was raining at night, and he didn’t have an umbrella at hand. Fortunately, his coat had a hat.The moisture on his dark clothes was not obvious, so he walked to the fast food restaurant decently.The aroma of fried chicken and burgers was very direct. This strong and cheap aroma of fried food made him get out of the cold quickly.The food on the electronic screen was very tempting. He used to like it very much, but now he is hungry and has no interest in it.Xu Qiaochuan hesitated for a long time and ordered a small cup of ice cream.

When his mind is confused, he doesn’t know what he is doing. The doctor asked him to try to focus on one place, and he focused on this mouthful of ice cream.The only impression I have of eating in the past is “delicious”, which is delicious, not overly sweet and saccharine.

His tongue was numb from the cold, and he gradually stopped feeling sweet. Xu Qiaochuan’s memory became more vivid.

He used to live with Lu Xiaoyun and Xu Jian. Children are easy to coax, but cheap and simple things are also happy.They take the shuttle bus to the mall on weekends and can spend the whole day shopping.Lunch was a Family Bucket at a fast food restaurant. At that time, Xu Qiaochuan felt that there was a lot of food in the carton and he couldn’t finish it.Lu Xiaoyun couldn’t finish the meal, and was finally finished by Xu Jian.

Later I found out that there was nothing there at all, it was all left to him by the adults.

He was obviously happy for a while, Lu Xiaoyun always hugged him, and Xu Jian was not stingy about buying him anything.He has a mother and a father, just like other families.

Xu Qiaochuan looked out through the glass. It was raining heavily outside and the night view was hazy.Looking closer, he saw his face.There are many reasons for family misfortune, and Xu Qiaochuan later realized that he had a share of the reasons.He grew up too fast, but he didn’t look like anyone else, not like Xu Jian or Lu Xiaoyun.

Does he really look like Chen Zongqian?Xu Qiaochuan raised his head and looked at the person in front of him.It’s hard for him to see other people’s faces clearly, and it’s hard for him to remember a face. He even doesn’t know what he looks like.

Only Chen Zongqian’s face is the clearest in my eyes. That face is so beautiful and fascinating.It was like a face that he had tried his best to remember. As long as it was about Chen Zongqian, Xu Qiaochuan would feel infinite joy and sadness in his heart. It didn’t taste good, but he couldn’t help but dislike it.

“Did you come to see me?” Xu Qiaochuan felt his eyes were misty, and he brought the night rain outside into his eyes.

“Yes.” Chen Zongqian walked quickly to Xu Qiaochuan. He was frightened all the way, but he relaxed a little when he saw him.

Xu Qiaochuan’s position stopped here and stopped moving. After all, he still didn’t really leave. Chen Zongqian could still find the person.He was a little angry and helpless, and stretched out his hand to stroke Xu Qiaochuan’s head.

The movement was not heavy, Xu Qiaochuan did not feel his emotions, but instead took advantage of the situation and pressed his head against his palm.The person stopped moving and returned to his previous well-behaved state.Chen Zongqian took him into his arms, and Xu Qiaochuan did not resist, which made him think that today’s rejection and alienation had disappeared.

“Come home with me.”

The man in his arms moved, shaking his head.This resistance made Chen Zongqian frown, and he exerted a slight force on his hand, pressing the back of his head to restrain his movement.

Xu Qiaochuan couldn’t move, but he could still speak: “If you don’t come back, that’s not my home.”