An Yao’S Observation Diary Chapter 34
byExtra: An Yao (5)
Lin Qingyan confessed to Anyao.
The usually mature and steady young man rarely seemed extra clumsy when he spoke, “I’m telling you this just to let you know what I mean. I don’t want to embarrass you, let alone make you feel any burden.”
He said he was afraid of burdening An Yao and hoped that An Yao would be well, even if he didn’t agree.But An Yao’s head was buzzing at the moment, and his face and ears were red.
Anyao blinked and did the bravest thing he had ever done in his life.
He kissed her directly.
The lips came together and then parted quickly.The time was not long, but it was stretched infinitely at the moment of contact.An Yao could clearly feel the other person’s breath, the touch on his lips, and the gradually rising temperature.
He felt like his brain was going to be burned out.
“Qingyan,” An Yao heard herself say, “I, I won’t force it.”
How could you force it?Lin Qingyan pulled him back from the abyss and carefully nourished himself again.He was grateful to the other person and wanted to repay the other person, but as time went by, this gratitude turned into a strange secret of joy.He was happy that he had become Lin Qingyan’s partner, but at the same time he felt uneasy, fearing that someone would steal his happiness.
But Lin Qingyan said that he liked herself.
An Yao couldn’t help but laugh into the crook of the young man’s neck, laughing so hard that all the depression in his chest disappeared, leaving only the feeling of relaxation all over his body.
Why did such a good thing happen to me?He secretly smacked the joy.Maybe my mom and dad are blessing me.
An Yao smiled and was surrounded by Lin Qingyan for a sweet kiss.
Their lives together seemed to have changed and stayed the same.The way the two get along has not changed, but there are many, many more kisses.
An Yao liked the feeling of kissing Lin Qingyan very much – gentle, comforting, smiling, long, one after another, gentle or passionate, so happy that it made him feel like crying.
“Yaoyao, baby Yaoyao.” Lin Qingyan smiled and kissed him, “Why are you so good?”
Really?An Yao thought drowsily after being kissed.But you are obviously the best.You pulled me out of the mire, rebuilt my body, and reshaped me into a real person.
But Lin Qingyan’s kiss was too lingering and too sweet. He quickly fell into the kiss and had no other thoughts.
They went to get off work and off work normally, walked through spring, summer, autumn and winter, kissed passionately at the belated wedding, and put more expensive rings on their ring fingers.
Lin Qingyan always wants to give him the best.
The young man even secretly planned a marriage proposal.When An Yao thought the lights were out in the clinic, he suddenly knelt down on one knee and raised the custom-made ring in front of An Yao amidst the cheers of his friends.
“Yaoyao,” Lin Qingyan smiled softly, “Before I met you, my life was like a straight but lonely track. It was you who made me know that my heartbeat can be affected by another person’s smile, and that the future can be full of expectations because of the simple word ‘us’. I want to spend every day of my life caring for you and making up for all the warmth you lacked in the past.”
He took a deep breath and said, “An Yao, will you marry me?”
An Yao threw herself into his arms, just like when he said I did.
That day, his eyes were still red and tears kept falling down his cheeks.But this time the tears will not be met with insults and beatings, but the soft coaxing and reassuring kisses of a lover.
“Yaoyao,” Lin Qingyan kissed his eyelids, “I’m here.”
An Yao buried his face deeply into the other person’s neck, his head blurred by the dizziness of happiness.
I’m really happy now.he thought.This is real, this is not a dream.
After proposing, Lin Qingyan took a long vacation and took An Yao to make up for the missing honeymoon trip.Although he could only go to surrounding cities due to the current situation, An Yao was still very happy, sitting on the train seat and curiously watching the scenes passing by outside the window.
“Qingyan,” he exclaimed in a low voice, “is there such a big jungle here?”
Lin Qingyan smiled and circled him, pointing in one direction, “There’s another place there, look quickly.”
They were talking and laughing, but after a while they stopped talking and secretly pecked each other’s lips.
“No one will see it, right?” An Yao buried his face into Lin Qingyan’s neck with embarrassment, lowering his voice unconsciously, “…Qingyan?”
Lin Qingyan also lowered his voice, “No, I’m blocking it.”
Anyao blinked, raised his head, and said abruptly, “Then, can I…?”
Lin Qingyan laughed and hugged his lover.
They exchanged a long and sticky kiss silently in the corner.
In the following time, the two of them visited countless places, walking hand in hand on the bluestone road and listening to the crisp sound of the wind chimes on the eaves.An Yao swung his braid around like a lively bird and studied the handicrafts curiously. From time to time, he uttered small exclamations. Lin Qingyan turned his head slightly and saw the sunlight falling on his smiling eyebrows, bright and vivid.
He smiled and raised his hand to ruffle Anyao’s forehead.
They walked along laughing and joking like this, not knowing who tripped whom first. They laughed and hugged each other, and An Yao was held firmly in Lin Qingyan’s arms.Breathing in suddenly, their eyes met for a moment, and the two people kissed each other naturally.
“Yaoyao,” Lin Qingyan asked vaguely while holding Anyao’s lips, “Are you happy?”
“Happy.” The person in his arms smiled and raised his eyebrows, “Very kind-hearted.”
He blinked and suddenly said, “I like you so much.”
Lin Qingyan also laughed, but this time he said “I love you”.
After the vacation, they embarked on the journey home together.
“The Omega Affirmative Action Act was officially passed today…” Today’s news was playing on the phone of the uncle next to the train seat. “The long-standing restrictions on education and political participation will be lifted, and society will be committed to providing equal development opportunities for all genders…”
“Why did you come up with this plan?”
“I heard that an Omega team attacked the center some time ago, forcing the higher-ups to make this decision.”
“Is it true?”
The crowd was still whispering. An Yao leaned in Lin Qingyan’s arms and looked up at him after hearing the words.The young man still had the gentle smile on his face as always. When he saw An Yao looking at him, he smiled and kissed the other person’s forehead, “What’s wrong?”
“Qingyan,” An Yao leaned close to his ear and whispered in a breathy voice, “Did you hear the news just now?”
“I heard it.” Lin Qingyan imitated him and spoke in a breathy tone, “Do you want to go to school in the distance?”
An Yao was stunned for a moment, “Me?”
“Yes,” Lin Qingyan said, “I happen to know of a cram school. I’ll sign up for one when the time comes, okay?”
“I…can I really do it?” An Yao lost his courage inexplicably, “It costs a lot of money to go to school.”
“Our family has a lot of money.” Lin Qingyan squeezed his face, “Yaoyao just needs to tell me, do you want to go?”
An Yao didn’t speak, but his face was full of confusion.
“Go if you want to.” Lin Qingyan encouraged him, “Just do what you want to do from a distance.”
“I’m here.”
So An Yao picked up the pen.
Because of his gender, An Yao never went to school and could only recognize some common words and addition and subtraction needed for daily life. Suddenly picking up a pen and facing the densely packed words with unfamiliar meanings made his mind dizzy.
But he still gritted his teeth and continued to learn.
Lin Qingyan provided him with help beyond imagination.Not only did he patiently help An Yao break down the obscure knowledge into pieces and understand it, but he also took the time to sort out the knowledge points with him. Whenever An Yao felt downcast, he would surround him with people and encourage him softly, and use kisses and praises to coax the wilting children to cheer up again.
“Our baby from far away is the best,” Lin Qingyan said with a smile, “come on, come on!”
An Yao blushed at the way he coaxed the child, “Qingyan…”
Laughing and fussing, they kissed again, leaving only the table lamp silently emitting bright white light.
The days were passed day by day in the pages of the book that An Yao turned.
During this period he also met Ranran.Ranran’s name is Bai Moran, and she is the daughter of Lin Qingyan’s friend.This little beta girl was comparable to Bigger and tortured her father so much that whenever Lin Qingyan was free, he would rush to throw this evil king into their home.
But An Yao has always felt that the little girl has a cute appearance and a mature personality. She can even seriously list out detailed solutions to questions that An Yao cannot write, which is completely different from the devil boy who others say is born.
“Maybe it’s because Yaoyao is quieter,” Lin Qingyan rubbed Anyao’s head, “so with Ranran she became a little quieter.”
Anyao blinked blankly, “Is that so?”
“Yes,” Lin Qingyan pinched his face, “That’s it.”
An Yao couldn’t figure out what it had to do with him, but Lin Qingyan seemed to be addicted to pinching his face. He always used warm palms to slowly rub the soft flesh on his face.
In order to save the poor soft flesh on her face, An Yao decided not to think too much.
Since Anyao was preparing for the adult college entrance examination, Lin Qingyan rarely asked him to go to the clinic to help.He stayed at home obediently, did some housework after studying, prepared meals at night, and happily waited for Lin Qingyan to come home every day.
One afternoon, he was cleaning the study room normally, but turned around and accidentally bumped into the bookshelf, and many books clattered to the ground.
It was at this time that An Yao picked up Lin Qingyan’s diary.
He originally thought it was just an ordinary work note, so he opened it when he picked it up, wanting to see what kind of markings doctors usually make. However, he didn’t expect that what he saw was every bit about the other person, and his hands holding the notebook suddenly trembled.
What to do?This is Qingyan’s diary.he thought frantically.I should just pretend nothing happened and put it back.
An Yao closed the book, but the book seemed to have a strange attraction. Even if he put the book back to its original place, it still attracted him to keep looking at it.
How about…just take a look?Just a little glance?
The moment this thought came to his mind, he shook his head vigorously.
No, no, this is Qingyan’s privacy.
But don’t you want to see what Qingyan is thinking about every day?There was a voice in my heart that kept ringing.What if he has something to worry about?If you knew, maybe you could share more for him.
An Yao turned his gaze to the book and swallowed silently.
The diary fell into his hands.
“Qingyan, I’m sorry…” An Yao murmured, “I’m sorry, I’m a bad person…”
He turned to the first page.
What An Yao didn’t expect was that this diary, which was supposed to record every detail of Lin Qingyan’s life, actually contained everything about himself.
From injuries to moods, daily life to favorite tastes… all kinds of notes are detailed, and there are even many little habits that I don’t even care about, all of which are neatly recorded by Lin Qingyan.
An Yao was surprised and couldn’t help but turn another page.
Lin Qingyan’s beautiful handwriting was drawn across the white paper, recording his thoughts.He discovered that the young man who always seemed to be omnipotent would actually worry about his injuries all night long and would clumsily prepare meals that suited his own taste.He turned page after page, watching Lin Qingyan’s gradually changing mood, watching the other person realize his own feelings, and couldn’t help but form a beautiful smile on his lips.
“Qingyan…” An Yao laughed, “Why are you so stupid?”
He touched the writing on it and couldn’t hide the smile on his face.
He suddenly wanted to see Lin Qingyan.I think about it so much.
An Yao carefully put the diary back to its original place and walked around the house anxiously a few times.Today’s time was extra slow, and it took a long time to slowly turn half a circle.
Qingyan hasn’t come back so early?An Yao looked at the clock on the wall and saw that it was actually just time to get off work.But he still couldn’t help but become anxious.
When he couldn’t help but get up and walk around for the twentieth time, Lin Qingyan came back.
The young man changed his shoes, took off his coat and opened his arms to him, “Yaoyao——”
An Yao threw herself into his arms.
“Do you miss me so much today?” Lin Qingyan picked him up, “I’m sorry for keeping us waiting for so long.”
An Yao rubbed the crook of his neck lovingly, and suddenly raised her head with a guilty conscience, “Qingyan, I accidentally did something wrong today, will you blame me?”
“No way.” Lin Qingyan said, “What’s wrong?”
An Yao’s voice became softer, “I, when I was cleaning up the study today, I accidentally knocked something off.”
“Well, then, I saw your -”
Lin Qingyan was stunned for a moment, “Is it my diary?”
Anyao nodded and buried his face again.
It’s over.he thought anxiously.Will Qingyan be angry?
But what answered him was a big hand covering his head.
“It’s okay, you can watch it if you want.” He heard Lin Qingyan say, “That’s it…”
Lin Qingyan sighed sheepishly, “A lot of the words in it are so sour that I don’t even want to read it myself. It’s so embarrassing.”
“No,” An Yao quickly pecked the corner of the other person’s mouth and arched his eyebrows nicely, “I like it very much.”
Lin Qingyan’s eyes softened and she deepened the kiss.They just cuddled up and kissed for a while in the fading light of the sky, mingling each other’s breaths lingeringly.
“Actually, I don’t have the habit of keeping a diary,” Lin Qingyan said. “At first, I just wanted to record your injuries… I just don’t know why it turned into a diary for no reason.”
They hugged each other stickyly, chatting from diary to daily life, and then from daily life to the past.An Yao lay in Lin Qingyan’s arms and slowly talked about his childhood.
Today, he can talk about his father and mother with a calm face, and no longer resists the pain of the past.
“I’m actually a little regretful,” An Yao said, “That brother protected me at that time, but I failed to take good care of his books.”
“If possible, I would like to return the book to him and say thank you seriously.”
“And, I also want to tell him…”
He turned around and looked up at the person in front of him.The young man’s eyes were filled with his own reflection, and his dark and deep pupils were full of tenderness.
“I’m really happy now.”