An Yao’S Observation Diary Chapter 33
byExtra: An Yao (4)
Lin Qingyan taught An Yao many things.
He taught An Yao how to relax his tense body, clear his mind, and fall softly into the other person’s warm embrace; he taught An Yao how to read the dosage and effects on the back of the pill box… The young man had a gentle voice and full of patience. Even if An Yao was clumsy and couldn’t figure out what to do, he just smiled, and then said warm words of encouragement.
“An Yao is already very good,” Lin Qingyan always said. “When I first started learning, I couldn’t even find the word anywhere. But you found it as soon as you looked for it. It’s really great.”
Anyao blinked in panic, clearly feeling the temperature on his face rising.He felt at a loss for a moment, but in the end he just scratched his face in embarrassment.
“Thank you…” he said softly, “Dr. Lin obviously taught me well.”
“But if it weren’t for your own excellence, no matter how good I am, I still wouldn’t be able to teach you.” The young man smiled and rubbed Anyao’s head, “You are a very good kid.”
An Yao looked at him blankly, her breathing almost stopping at this moment.
Am I really that good?Do I deserve to be treated like this?
Really?Is everything you said true?Could it be that you lied to me because you think I’m too pitiful?Could it be a white lie?Lin Qingyan, Doctor Lin, please, don’t be so nice to me, I don’t deserve it, I should have…should have…
He should have been miserable, he should have been rejected, he should have died.Died in that heavy rain, died in an unknown corner, died next to the smelly garbage dump.
He slowly lowered his eyebrows, and later he felt that his heart felt like it was being immersed in hot water. The pain and sourness that had been delayed for many years slowly surged up, wrapping around his eyes and making them numb.
An Yao wanted to cry inexplicably.
He didn’t say anything more, but quietly asked for a hug.
An Yao fell into a familiar embrace as she wished.
He closed his eyes and melted willingly into the tight embrace.The erratic soul was pulled back to the exhausted body by this simple embrace, mobilizing the breathing and gradually accelerating heartbeat, as if it was truly alive again at this moment.
He clearly felt Lin Qingyan’s arms gradually tightening, and the warm body temperature slowly spread through the overlapping fabrics of clothes.
Is Dr. Lin real?An Yao was in a daze.Why are there such good people in the world?
He stood firmly in front of him and fought off the vicious man, even risking his own life in order to escape from that hellish home.
“But I’m not worthy,” An Yao murmured, “I’m not worthy.”
He wanted to escape in the middle of the night and reduce the burden on the other party.Sometimes he really wanted to cry hysterically in front of the other person, shouting how could there be someone as stupid as you?Obviously I will only hurt you here, the most important thing you should do is to throw me away, please don’t be so nice to me again, I beg you.
But the young man’s eyes were too bright.
“An Yao, it’s okay.” He did not hug the frightened An Yao tightly, but his broad palm brushed the trembling back of the person in his arms inch by inch, “It’s okay.”
“You deserve the best in the world.” Lin Qingyan’s voice was very soft, “I am not the best choice, but…”
“But I want you to be well.”
An Yao buried herself in the crook of his neck and let out a muffled breath.
God, Buddha, Virgin Mary, above, he prayed randomly in his heart.If this is all a dream, please don’t let me wake up.
Even if I actually died on that rainy night, even if I have no life now… it doesn’t matter, these are not important, just let me stay immersed in this dream.
The previous days were too bitter and difficult, but now this sweetness is too heavy.
An Yao whimpered a few times.He couldn’t control his tears again.
Even if I die, I will admit it.An Yao thought.Just think of it as repaying your kindness to Dr. Lin.
He threw himself into Lin Qingyan’s arms decisively.
“I do.” He heard himself say, “Dr. Lin, I am willing to marry you.”
They received the certificates just like this, and there was an extra wedding ring on each other’s ring fingers.
Everything seemed no different from before.The two of them went to work in the clinic together as usual, ate together, and rode an electric bike in the evening breeze, slowly embarking on their way home.
Such a life is dull and happy.
If only it could continue like this.An Yao thought.
But many things are not static.His father left, his mother disappeared, and so did he and Lin Qingyan.
Now the relationship between them is completely different from before after receiving the certificate. Although Lin Qingyan comforted herself countless times and said that it doesn’t matter, how you got along before and how you get along now, as long as you are comfortable, An Yao still feels a little uneasy.
He never understood what a truly great partner should do, nor what he should do himself.
Am I too boring?An Yao thought.I have no hobbies, and even to chat I need Dr. Lin to take me with me. I am as dull as a piece of cold wood.
Will Dr. Lin dislike me?Will he feel unbearable in his heart?What should I do?What do I do?
What to do?What to do?
The only thing he is good at is housework, but there are robots at home, and Lin Qingyan is responsible for cooking. He can’t help, so he can only stand aside like an outsider, helpless.
Will he be abandoned again because he is useless?He didn’t want to. He finally came out of that place and finally met Lin Qingyan… He was unwilling to give in.
Huge fear and uneasiness overwhelmed Anyao at this moment.
If I am useful, I must have something else that I can give to Dr. Lin. I must——
He saw himself in the mirror.The young man has a slender figure and delicate features, but his face is pale at the moment.
An Yao quivered her eyelashes in a daze, and the eyelashes of the man in the mirror also trembled.
If…if this helps.He put his hands over his eyes.If that’s okay.
An Yao’s throat rolled and he let out a small whimper.
He climbed into Lin Qingyan’s bed.
The moment the other party discovered him, An Yao’s mind was filled with confusion.He turned around and saw obvious surprise on the young man’s face.
What will Dr. Lin think of me?An Yao thought in confusion.Will he think I’m slutty?Will he hate me?
But I just want to be closer to him, even just a little bit.
I don’t want to be separated from him.
Even if it’s a beating or insult, I can bear it. I’m used to it.An Yao thought almost masochistically.As long as Dr. Lin is by my side.
But what awaited him the next second was a deep hug.
“An Yao, Yaoyao, baby Yaoyao.”
“You don’t have to do this.” He heard the other party say softly, “We are already married and are each other’s closest family members, do you understand?”
Family members will never leave each other easily no matter what happens to them.
“You are the best baby, the best distant baby.”
Lin Qingyan coaxed him softly, wiped his tears, said it was not his problem, and praised him as the best baby in the world.
“Take your time,” An Yao felt a light touch on top of his head, “We are not in a hurry.”
He couldn’t help crying again.
That night, he curled up in each other’s arms, smelling the similar scent of the two and slowly fell into sleep.
An Yao rarely had a good dream.
In the dream, they went to an amusement park that was only available on TV.The tall young man played with him through many entertainment facilities, and then, like all romance novels, they entered the Ferris wheel together.
The Ferris wheel made a slight sound, lifting the two of them up slowly.
When we reached the top, the outside was filled with gorgeous fireworks.Anyao turned his head subconsciously and saw Lin Qingyan smiling so hard that his eyebrows curled up.
“Yaoyao,” he heard the young man calling his nickname lingeringly, “I love you.”
An Yao was stunned. At this moment, his heartbeat was so deafening, one after another, that it was so loud that it could cover up the sound of the whole world.