An Yao’S Observation Diary Chapter 31
byExtra An Yao (2)
When they opened their eyes again, they were back in the familiar house.
They were in hell again.
Only then did Liang Xin truly understand that Li Guoqiang had been addicted to gambling for many years.Not only did he sell off all his valuable things, but he also owed a bunch of debts that he couldn’t pay off. He even rented the house that he had vowed to have in his name.What’s even more hateful is that during the time they lived together, he also stole Liang Xin’s remaining savings.
Liang Xin was angry and frightened, and tremblingly went to confront Li Guoqiang, but was slapped so loudly by him that her ears buzzed.
“Even if you know, what can you do to me?” Li Guoqiang spat, “You loser who can’t live without a man, just accept your fate!”
he said, followed by a flurry of punches and kicks.
After the man vented his anger, he rolled his eyes and another thought came to his mind.
“Hey,” he kicked Liang Xin, who was curled up on the ground, with his toes, “take out the house book of the small shabby house left by your ex-husband. It’s empty anyway. Sell it for money.”
“No!” Liang Xin sobbed, “That was left by An Zhong… It was left to Yaoyao…”
“Cut the nonsense!Li Guoqiang interrupted her impatiently, “Who makes the decision in the family now?”Bring it here!”
Liang Xin struggled to get up, staggered back, and subconsciously protected the drawer where the documents were stored with her hands.
This action completely angered Li Guoqiang.
“It’s against you!”He shouted loudly and rushed over.
Muffled groans, loud noises, curses, wailing… An Yao wanted to step forward, but was protected by Liang Xin.
“Yaoyao, be good.”The woman trembled and covered the child’s ears, “Mom, it’s okay, close your eyes…”
She cried and begged, “Close your eyes, okay?”
An Yao choked and closed her eyes.
He could clearly smell the thick smell of blood filling the air, and his ears were filled with the muffled sound of penis impact, but he could only bury his face in his knees and could do nothing.
Time is stretched infinitely at this moment, and all the sounds seem to be far away from peace and quiet, hazy on the ears, making it difficult to hear or distinguish.
It seemed like a century had passed before this one-sided insult came to an end.
Perhaps because he was tired from the beating, or because he was afraid of causing trouble, Li Guoqiang stopped and straightened up while breathing heavily.
“Think about it for yourself!He spat, “Don’t blame me for being shameless then!””
Liang Xin didn’t speak, she just curled up on the ground and breathed softly and shallowly.
Li Guoqiang cursed and rummaged through every corner of the house, snatched away the last few crumpled pieces of cash, and before going out, he kicked An Yao hard, who was huddled on the ground.
“Bad luck!”He cursed, then slammed the door hard.
The room suddenly fell into deathly silence.
At this point, they are officially trapped in an endless cycle of suffocation.
Beating and scolding, patience, surrender, crying… After a short respite, it is always the beginning of the next round of explosion.An Yao grew silently in depression and fear, but he always felt as if he had been abandoned forever on the day his father died, standing alone in a deserted corner like a faded shadow, quietly letting the moist darkness engulf him.
An Yao tried to escape and seek help from others, but every time he was dragged back to purgatory by his stepfather, and was even forced into a corner by a gangster once.
“No money?They laughed and clenched their fists, “If you don’t have money, try our fists!””
The toddler curled up and prayed that the pain would pass quickly.
Anyao curled up in fear, waiting for the pain to come.
However, the expected punch did not fall.
He opened his eyes tremblingly and saw a tall figure standing in front of him.The man picked up his heavy schoolbag and slammed it at the nearest gangster.
“Who are you going to fight?The boy’s voice echoed clearly in the alley, “Say it again?”Who are you going to fight?!”
“No, no more fighting…” The gangsters showed fear on their faces and hurriedly rolled away.
The young man took a few deep breaths and silently put his schoolbag back on his shoulders.He turned around and looked straight at An Yao with a pair of deep black eyes, and then walked closer, one step after another, sounding in the silent alley.
An Yao closed her eyes tightly in fear.
But what surprised him was that what landed on the top of his hair was not a beating, but a gentle caress.The warm, broad palm gently covered the child’s head and rubbed it gently and slowly.
“Go home quickly.The young man said softly, “It’s getting dark and it’s not safe outside.””
An Yao raised his head blankly, his eyes burning.His lips trembled slightly, but the “thank you” was stuck in his throat and he couldn’t make a sound.He could only watch helplessly as the young man turned around and quickly disappeared from the alley.
I haven’t said thank you to my brother yet.An Yao thought in despair.
He lowered his head and saw an extra textbook on the floor. The footers were stained with water and the edges were curled up.It was obviously a textbook that the boy had left behind in a hurry.
An Yao picked it up carefully, gently wiped off the water stains on it, then twisted some pages and slowly opened them.The name of the book’s owner is clearly written on the title page. The handwriting is straight and strong, just like its author.
The young child recited those words softly and chewed them in his heart slowly.A very nice name.
I want to protect this book well.An Yao thought.Give it back to your brother next time you meet him.
And… and to make up for the unspoken “thank you”.
But the book didn’t last long, and was quickly pulled out by Li Guoqiang. It fell on An Yao’s eyes one after another, blurring the child’s sight.His freedom was restricted and the things he protected were destroyed.
In the end he couldn’t keep anything.
The days went by in countless pains.
An Yao always felt that his life was like the gloomy drizzle in the south, silent and continuous.The cold accompanied by the moisture soaked into the clothes, slowly eating away at the bones inside the body, soaking from the inside out until it was soft and rotten, slowly melting, and eventually turning into unpleasant mildew that grew on the land.
He couldn’t escape, couldn’t escape.
An Yao prayed to God, sought others, and asked her mother, but there was no solution.He had no choice but to immerse himself in the heavy housework day after day, fight the pain with numbness, digest the insults with silence, try to dry up the tears and dull the perception.
“As long as you don’t feel pain, pain doesn’t exist.”He said to himself.
Until the day An Yao turned twenty.
Li Guoqiang may have lost a large sum of money gambling outside. When he entered the house, he was filled with the choking smell of tobacco and alcohol, and his temper was visible to the naked eye.He cursed, turned his eyes, and stared at the house again.
“No…” Liang Xin gritted her teeth and said, “This is for Yaoyao, this is for Yaoyao…”
“Crack.”
An Yao didn’t even see what was happening. He looked up and saw a shrill wail erupting from his mother’s mouth, and she instantly fell down holding her twisted calf.
“Mom——!”
He rushed forward, trying to block his mother, but the man grabbed his hair and lifted him up like a rag. His forehead hit the hard corner of the table hard, making a dull impact.
The moment the severe pain exploded, An Yao suddenly fell into darkness.
The time was stretched infinitely, and I don’t know how long it had passed. The erratic consciousness was forcefully pulled back to the body by the dull pain and the pungent musty smell. The corners of my forehead jumped sharply, and my thoughts scattered and gathered like water-soaked cotton wool.An Yao was in a daze for a long time before slowly realizing that she had been stuffed into the closet.
He subconsciously wanted to get up, but at this moment, his whole body seemed to be falling apart, and every move caused sharp pain.Even so, he still struggled to open the cabinet door and rolled down through the gap to the ground.
An Yao ignored the pain and looked up hurriedly, only to see that the living room was full of mess: broken porcelain pieces, fallen tables and chairs, torn curtains… There were drag marks on the ground, and a few dazzling dark red spots.
“Mom?”
No one responded.
An Yao gritted his teeth and stood up, holding back the dizziness and severe pain and rushed towards the door. Just when he was about to touch the doorknob, the door lock started to turn from the outside.
It’s Li Guoqiang.
The man stood at the door, his clothes scattered, but his face was unusually calm.An Yao looked down and saw that the other party’s hand was wet, dripping water, and a small dark mark spread on the ground.
The moment Li Guoqiang saw An Yao, his expression was dull for a moment, but he soon returned to normal.
“…Where’s my mother?”An Yao heard his voice trembling.
Li Guoqiang wiped his face and said without looking into An Yao’s eyes, “Run away.”
His words were full of deliberate annoyance, “Your mother doesn’t want you anymore.But I have a kind heart, so I will just have to support you as a dragster from now on.”
An Yao didn’t speak, just lowered his head.
From that day on, he tried every means to escape, but could never seize the opportunity. Li Guoqiang stayed at home every day as if he had changed his gender, neither gambling nor drinking, and stared at the young man all day long.
——As if he was afraid that An Yao would go out and reveal some secret to the public.
This situation lasted for two years, until the man became addicted to gambling and went out again.
Naturally, An Yao would not let go of this golden opportunity.
He didn’t bother to pack his things, put on his shoes and ran out in a hurry. Unexpectedly, he was bumped into by the other gambler’s friend, and he was taken back to purgatory with a light phone call.
Fist, abuse, beating… Countless pain fell on An Yao like raindrops, almost killing him.He was curled up on the cold ground dying, with a thick fishy sweetness in his every breath, and his consciousness was floating on the edge of severe pain and darkness.
Maybe, this time he is really going to die.An Yao thought.
In a daze, he seemed to hear a knock on the door. He looked up and saw that Li Guoqiang had stopped moving his hands, looked panicked, and ran to open the door while crawling on the ground.
“…I owe too much,” someone seemed to be saying, “It will definitely not work this time.”
Debt collectors are coming.
“If you don’t pay back the money, I’ll pay for it with your life!”
Li Guoqiang trembled and fell to his knees, “Please, brothers…can you please give me a few more days?”Just a few days!”
“How many days?We are tired of hearing this.”The leader kicked him away impatiently, “How many times have you been granted grace?Do you really think we are doing charity?”
Li Guoqiang was kicked to the ground, his eyes darting around in horror, and finally landed on An Yao.
He almost crawled over on his hands and knees, dragged the almost unconscious An Yao up, and pushed it in front of those people as if displaying an object, with a flattering and twisted smile on his face.
“Brother!Look at this!He is an omega, and I have raised him clean since he was a child!Even the glands have never been touched!How about using him to pay off the debt?”
The debt collector was stunned for a moment, looking back and forth between An Yao and Li Guoqiang, with an expression of disbelief on his face, “…Isn’t this your son?”
“Stepson!Just a stepson!Li Guoqiang shouted, “His mother ran away with someone a long time ago. It’s because of my kindness that I raised him like this!”I have done my best to him!Now…now is the time for him to repay me!”
The debt collectors frowned, obviously shocked by his shameless words.
“You…” someone sighed, “What should I do?”
“Take it with you.”Others replied, “Otherwise there would be no way to deliver the work.”
They were about to make a move, but the moment they stretched out their hands, the young man suddenly dodged them.An Yao struggled to get up and stumbled towards the door.
“He’s running away!Someone shouted, “Close the door quickly!””
The door slammed shut.
An Yao was forced to stop. Seeing several hands grabbing at him again, he gritted his teeth, turned around suddenly, and rushed straight into the kitchen.He quickly rushed to the desk and hurriedly grasped the fruit knife on it in his hand.
“Little brother, don’t be stupid.”The leader said, “You alone and with a knife can’t deal with us at all.It’s better to be obedient and avoid suffering more.”
An Yao leaned against the cold wall, his chest rising and falling violently.
“I won’t.He murmured, “There is no way I can leave with you.””
He slowly put the fruit knife against the back of his neck.
“Death is impossible.”
Anyao’s wrist suddenly exerted force, and the next moment his skin tore, and blood spurted out instantly, soaking through his thin clothes, flowing down his neck, and spreading a bright red color on the dirty ground.
“Ah——!!!Crazy!You are fucking crazy!!Li Guoqiang roared, “My money!”My debt!It’s all over!”
An Yao laughed.
“I’m not an omega now,” he said, “and I’m of no use anymore.”
He pointed the bloody fruit knife at them, “Are you still arresting me now?”
The people in the casino were completely stunned, obviously they had never seen such a tragic scene.Upon seeing this, An Yao quickly bit the tip of his tongue, trying hard to maintain the last trace of clarity, and quickly rushed out of the gap in the crowd.
He didn’t dare to stop, so he could only run forward with all his strength.The cold night rain poured down, soaking him from head to toe.The wound on the back of his neck was repeatedly washed away by the rain, and there were waves of burning, heart-piercing pain, almost eating away all the little sanity he had left.
But he couldn’t stop.He must escape.
The coldness invaded the bone marrow along the soaked clothing. An Yao’s limbs were already so numb that they could no longer obey any control, and they could only move mechanically based on instinct.He staggered forward, leaving meandering traces of reddish water on the slippery ground.
I’m really going to die.An Yao thought.
Just die like this.Living was too painful and he didn’t want to struggle anymore.
“Mom…” An Yao murmured, “Yao Yao can’t live any longer…”
He choked, not knowing whether it was tears or rain on his face.
“Yaoyuan misses you and dad so much…” He said softly, “Let me go see you, okay?”
His consciousness became increasingly blurred, and his vision shrank into a dim ball.An Yao moved forward aimlessly, tripped over something, and fell heavily into the putrid garbage pile beside the road.
He was lying in the filth, not even feeling the pain.For a few seconds, he really wanted to close his eyes and sink into eternal darkness.
But something seemed to drive An Yao to stand up, prop up his scarred body and continue to stagger forward.
An Yao couldn’t remember how long he had been walking and how many times he had been knocked down. He walked crookedly until he hit a door panel.
With a muffled sound, he soon lost consciousness.