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    Chapter 47

    In the daytime course, there were too many questions that Xia Yize didn’t understand. He hadn’t written in a long time and didn’t even have a serious notebook.

    Xia Yizhe pieced together a few pieces of paper and began to search the entire Internet to solve the problems in his red circle.

    It was completely different from the public relations he imagined. After ten minutes of reading a large section of theoretical knowledge, he felt sleepy. Looking for Qi Ge now seemed a little impure.

    It was still early for bedtime, but he couldn’t keep his eyes open as long as he read a book, and became interested in everything around him. He even wanted to count how many floor tiles there were in this house.

    Thinking that there will be more questions when he comes back from class tomorrow, he feels overwhelmed.

    Xia Yize forced himself to sit at the desk, holding his head in his hands, and couldn’t help but wonder what Guo Shengfan and Qi Ge were doing now.

    Are they talking about college life, professional issues, or they are not just chatting.

    The more he thought about it, the more outrageous it became. Xia Yize turned his irritation about not wanting to learn on Guo Shengfan and began to draw a tortoise on paper.

    Finally, Xia Yize closed the book, took a deep breath, and couldn’t read a word.

    On Qi Ge’s computer is a journal, Guo Shengfan’s self-service activity.

    Guo Shengfan peeled an orange and handed it to Qi Ge. Qi Ge calmly moved aside to make way for a more spacious position, “You can eat it.”

    Guo Shengfan put the orange in his mouth, feeling a little sour. He sat next to Qi Ge, holding the fruit plate, looking straight ahead, and asked quietly: “What is your relationship with Xia Yize now?”

    The mouse in Qi Ge’s hand stopped, “It’s still developing.”

    The words were ambiguous. Guo Shengfan didn’t want to guess what to develop and where to develop, let alone believe in the possibility that he didn’t want to see.

    Guo Shengfan’s body was a little stiff, and the hand holding the fruit plate tightened slightly, “What do you mean, can you make it clearer?”

    Qi Ge didn’t shy away from anything. He even looked at Guo Shengfan and said firmly: “He is very good.”

    Guo Shengfan’s teeth were about to break. Unexpectedly, he accidentally let this person sneak in. He regretted that he had underestimated the enemy. Maybe Qi Ge was too bored, or maybe it was a way of provoking him. In short, he did not believe that this unlearned little bastard could get into Qi Ge’s eyes.

    “Qi Ge.” Guo Shengfan turned around and looked at Qi Ge.

    Qi Ge interrupted him and asked: “How was your blind date?”

    Guo Shengfan avoided his eyes and said vaguely: “There is no suitable one.” He ate another orange slice, and his whole body was sore. “Who you live with for the rest of your life is a big deal. You can’t just make do with it, right?”

    Qi Ge said: “That’s right.”

    “I think you…” Guo Shengfan didn’t finish his sentence, but was interrupted by Qi Ge again, “I have to go to work tomorrow. I’m going to wash up first, and you should go to bed early.”

    The next day, Xia Yize drove Qi Ge to school. Guo Shengfan was sensible enough not to follow him. Xia Yize was quite satisfied.

    After turning a corner and arriving at the place, Guo Shengfan had no intention of going down, “I don’t have work until the afternoon.”

    Xia Yize said to himself, why are you so crazy? Come here early in the morning.

    Guo Shengfan spoke first: “I want to talk to you.”

    Xia Yize vaguely knew what he wanted to talk about. The only common topic between them was Qi Ge.

    Guo Shengfan didn’t beat around the bush, “Qi Ge didn’t hate you for saying oh oh oh oh Ali.”

    Xia Yize had a gut feeling that he might not like to hear it, but he couldn’t help but be curious.

    “When I was in college, I was the director of the Propaganda Department of the Student Union, and it was all up to me to get sponsorship for publicity activities. It was great back then. I was young, lively and cheerful, and not as mature as I am now.”

    Xia Yize didn’t think he was very mature, but it was true.

    “At that time, I also liked all kinds of fashionable things and pestered him all day long. Even if Qi Ge didn’t like to participate in activities, I still dragged him to one event after another. At that time, if the students couldn’t find Qi Ge, they would come to me.”

    Xia Yize subconsciously frowned, and Guo Shengfan continued, “You should know about his family situation. I only found out after knowing him for a year. Because grandma got sick for the first time, I accompanied him on the green train to this city for more than ten hours. Grandma held his hand and called Qiqi’s name. Qi Ge agreed with red eyes.”

    “He drank a lot that day and told me about his childhood. It was the first time I saw him cry. As he grows older, such moments will become less and less. I have seen his vulnerable moments. I know his inner desires and fears, and I can always be by his side.”

    He looked into Xia Yize’s eyes as if declaring war, “I am the person who knows him best in the world.”

    Xia Yize felt a dull pain in his chest, and his whole heart and lungs seemed to be being stretched when he took a breath, but he remained calm and asked, “Then why are you not together?”

    Guo Shengfan just smiled and seemed to be a winner. “He is a little afraid of entering the family. I don’t want to push him too hard.”

    He looked at Xia Yize without kindness, “Of course I won’t let others confuse their eyes.”

    Xia Yize clenched his fists and chuckled, “Maybe he is afraid of entering the family with you.”

    “What did you say?” Guo Shengfan obviously couldn’t control his emotions.

    Xia Yize spoke every word slowly and clearly, “You know that he longs for a family, and you know that he cherishes your relationship, so you keep chasing him, without commitment or responsibility. You want to maintain your current relationship with him, but you don’t want to affect your career and life.”

    Xia Yize stared back, “How can such a good thing happen? You two have been together for a long time.”

    Xia Yize spoke very slowly and clearly, “He will not stand still forever. He knows what he wants. He is very brave. Whoever he walks with in the future will not be you.”

    Xia Yize’s mind was in a mess, but he had only one thought: he couldn’t lose at this time.

    Instead, Guo Shengfan smiled, as if he was laughing at a child who made a wish out of ignorance, “You are the only one I can take my eyes on and have a good chat with you. Do you know why?”

    Guo Shengfan asked himself and answered, “Because you and I are indeed very similar when we were in college. We actively pursued him and had lively and confident personalities, but we are different. I was working in the student union at the time, studying for a dual degree, and accompanied him on weekends to work-study. I only slept four hours a day, but I was full of energy.”

    Guo Shengfan looked him up and down and said, “You can’t do these things.”

    He paused and squinted his eyes to look at Xia Yize, “It’s just that Qi Ge hopes you can do it. He is trying his best to restore me as a student.”

    He looked at Xia Yize’s schoolbag and said, “He introduced you to work in the school because he wanted to relive the feeling we had at school. He encouraged you to further your studies, especially in media studies, because that was my second degree major. Is he interested in your stuff?”

    Guo Shengfan’s eyes gleamed, “You don’t have a book in your room. There is also a mobile phone holder and fill light. I guess you like live broadcasts.”

    Xia Yize felt cold all over as if he had been hit.

    “Qi Ge doesn’t want to understand these things. All he likes is my shadow, doesn’t he?” Guo Shengfan patted Xia Yize on the shoulder. Xia Yize subconsciously avoided it, with a buzzing in his ears.

    But Guo Shengfan didn’t think it was enough, so he whispered in Xia Yize’s ear: “We are going to have dinner alone tonight. Ask him if he is willing to tell the truth to you.”

    Xia Yize didn’t move, but his internal organs seemed to be burning dry. Guo Shengfan laughed and said, “The pair of glasses in his car are from Valentino. I gave them to him as a birthday gift last year. You probably didn’t know them at that time.”

    Xia Yize’s only feeling at this time was numbness.

    After Guo Shengfan got off the car, Xia Yize was left alone to recover. The moment the door closed, Xia Yize was like a fish out of water, frantically wanting to hear Qi Ge’s voice.

    He trembled uncontrollably and called Qi Ge, but the voice automatically hung up after a minute. Again and again, Xia Yize didn’t know how many times he called, and finally he slumped in his seat.

    He didn’t care what happened in Qi Ge’s past, but he wanted to know whether it was because of Guo Shengfan that Qi Ge was good to him.

    He sat in the car as if he couldn’t feel the passage of time, watching the pedestrians passing by outside the window for several hours.

    It wasn’t until the phone woke him up that Xia Yize answered the call immediately. The voice on the other side was a little anxious, “What’s wrong?”

    Hearing Qi Ge’s voice, Xia Yize’s tears fell down.

    Xia Yize asked almost eagerly: “Can you come back early in the evening?”

    “What’s wrong?” Qi Ge asked again.

    “I don’t have anything to do, just asking.” Xia Yize said hesitantly.

    Qi Ge said patiently: “It will be a little later today. I have to see an expert in the evening, but if something happens to you, I…”

    “I’m fine.” Xia Yize said quickly, but did not hang up the phone and asked: “Guo Shengfanmin is going back tomorrow, won’t you come back early tonight?”

    “It’s okay, he also has his own things to be busy with.” Qi Ge’s tone was sincere, not like he was hiding anything.

    Xia Yize held the phone and refused to hang up, “Qi Ge.”

    Qi Ge just waited for him to speak, “Huh?”

    “I have something to ask you.” Xia Yize’s nose felt sore. The better Qi Ge treated him, the more aggrieved he felt.

    “Say it.” Qi Ge didn’t rush him.

    Xia Yize took a deep breath and said, “Let’s wait until Guo Shengfan leaves.” He couldn’t explain it clearly in just a few words on the phone, so he asked again, “Should I pick you up tonight?”

    “No, it doesn’t matter what time it is tonight. I’ll go back by myself.” Qi Ge was no different from any other day.

    Xia Yize nodded towards the phone, “Then I’ll hang up.”

    Xia Yize had to go to class, so he drove out of this street and received a message from Guo Shengfan, at 7:30 in the evening, and the address of a hotel.

    Xia Yize rationally thought that he should believe Qi Ge, but his reason was almost exhausted at this time. If what Qi Ge said was true, then what if he went to see it.

    Xia Yize couldn’t do anything now, and his whole body seemed to be boiling with anxiety.

    He arrived at the door of the hotel early. He didn’t even have the intention to speculate whether Qi Ge would come, he just stared at the door.

    It was seven o’clock and Qi Ge was not seen. Xia Yize gradually cooled down.

    After he breathed a sigh of relief, he saw Guo Shengfan, and next to him was an older man. Going further back, he saw Qi Ge!

    Xia Yize’s pupils shrank slightly and his whole body felt cold. He felt like he couldn’t move and could only watch them approach.

    Music heard the elder say: “You have been procrastinating for so many years, don’t waste your good time.”

    Guo Shengfan smiled happily. Qi Ge didn’t say anything. He saw Xia Yize first.

    Qi Ge threw the two of them behind him and walked straight towards Xia Yize.

    Xia Yize felt a twinge in his heart when he saw Qi Ge approaching.

    Qi Ge knocked on the car window before Xia Yize got out of the car.

    “Didn’t you go to class today? The teacher called me.” Qi Ge raised his hand and pressed Xia Yize’s red eyes, but was blocked.

    Xia Yize looked at him for a long time and was speechless.

    “What’s wrong?” Qi Ge blocked his entire body, as if creating a safe space.

    Xia Yize suddenly said excitedly, “I’m not going. I don’t like studying. I’m not a top student. I can’t understand those classes. I’m not interested at all.” He put the car keys in Qi Ge’s hand, pushed him away, turned around and stopped a taxi.

    When Qi Ge came to his senses, he was grabbed by Guo Shengfan, “We agreed to have dinner together in the evening. I will leave tomorrow.”

    Qi Ge seemed not to hear it and turned around to drive.

    “Qi Ge!” Guo Shengfan gave him a strong tug.

    The third person lowered his head and went in first, leaving only Guo Shengfan and Qi Ge.

    Qi Ge shook off Guo Shengfan’s hand, and it was not difficult to think clearly about the whole situation, “What kind of talks did you ask someone to invite me here to attend? In fact, what did you say to Xia Yize.”

    Guo Shengfan tugged on his collar, looking into Qi Ge’s eyes with a desperate attitude, “I will confess when I get home. I can resign. I will come to your city. During this time, I have thought clearly. Nothing is more important than you. I am willing to give up everything for you. Let’s be together. I understand you and I support you. We will be the most understanding and harmonious couple in the world.”

    Guo Shengfan spoke faster and faster, and the more desperate he became, because he found that Qi Ge was not moved at all.

    Under Qi Ge’s calm eyes, Guo Shengfan finally couldn’t speak anymore.

    Qi Ge seemed helpless and said: “I thought I made it clear last time. Things between us are over. If you feel that there is no option to be friends, it’s okay not to contact you.”

    Guo Shengfan was in disbelief and asked with a trembling voice: “What did you say? You did it for him…”

    Qi Ge started the car and left without waiting for him to speak.

    Guo Shengfan was alone in the cold wind, looking at the direction Qi Ge was leaving, and murmured: “Qi Ge, today is my birthday.”

    Qi Ge dialed Xia Yize’s phone number while walking. No one answered and he kept trying over and over again.

    He shouldn’t have left Xia Yize and Guo Shengfan alone. Qi Ge went home and found no one. He went back to school and still found nothing.Qi Ge seemed to be standing in a maze and couldn’t find the exit.

    He suddenly remembered that when he was on a business trip before, Xia Yize drove to a bar.

    He dug out the address from the previous location record, and a staff member answered him at the door, “Sir, do you have an appointment?”

    Qi Ge said: “No, I’m looking for someone.”

    The man stopped him and said, “Why don’t you call first and tell me where it is and I will take you in.”

    This kind of rush to find someone is likely to cause a conflict. They have been trained not to let people in easily in this situation.

    Qi Ge looked at a series of unanswered calls and said, “I’ll go in and have a drink.”

    “You don’t have a reservation. It’s already full.” The man smiled gracefully.

    Qi Ge took out his wallet and stuffed a few pieces of cash into his pocket, “Please help me find a seat.”

    He patted his pockets and said, “Follow me.”

    As soon as you enter, the loud music hits Tianling Gai, men and women are twisting on the dance floor under colorful rotating lights, and the booths above are filled with wine bottles.

    Qi Ge looked around. He was not sure if Xia Yize would be here. Maybe he was too anxious. When he was hesitating to leave, a man staggered through the crowd carrying a wine bottle.

    Even though it was just a back view, Qi Ge recognized Xia Yize.

    Qi Ge ignored the obstruction and strode over to hold Xia Yize’s hand. Xia Yize took advantage of the strength of the drink and subconsciously shook it off. He turned around and saw Qi Ge. He was distracted for a moment, but subconsciously carried the bottle behind him.

    Qi Ge took the bottle from him and said, “Let’s go home.”

    Xia Yize felt a little dizzy and couldn’t stand still. He said vaguely: “Go home? This is my home. Before I met you, I would not go back before three in the morning.”

    Xia Yize pointed to the noisy environment around him: “Did you see it? This is the real me. I just like this kind of life. I have no culture or pursuits. I only know how to have fun.”

    Xia Yize almost cried as he said, “Guo Shengfan and I are not the same at all. You are wrong.”

    “You drank too much.” Qi Ge stretched out his hand to support him.

    Xia Yize hoped that Qi Ge could always be by his side. The moment he saw Qi Ge, he even wanted to rush over and hug him, but the person Qi Ge liked was not him. He threw Qi Ge away willfully and felt pain in his heart.

    “Don’t you want to accompany Guo Shengfan? What are you doing here?”

    Xia Yize stared at Qi Ge blankly, as if he wanted to imprint him in his heart. The music was still deafening, the lights were turning, but he was clearly the only one in his eyes, speaking harsh words.

    Qi La pulled Xia Yize into her arms by his collar, lowered her head and kissed his lips.

    Xia Yize’s eyes widened, and there was a burst of fire in his head, as if a wire was short-circuited, leaving only a blank.

    His hand rested weakly on Qi Ge’s shoulder, half pushing and half giving.

    Qi Ge stood up immediately, but Xia Yize didn’t want him to get up. His hands were still holding his clothes, and his big eyes were covered with moisture.

    “Going home?” Qi Ge asked.

    Xia Yize’s brain was already on fire and he couldn’t answer this question.

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