After Being Transformed Into Cannon Fodder For Death, The Heartthrob Chapter 69

Ye Qingyun’s voice echoed in Gu Shenyuan’s mind, leaving it blank save for the declaration of love revolving there.

…Likes him the most?

This was what Ye Qingyun chose to say to him after seeing that person’s photo?

Gu Shenyuan’s blood was boiling. He held Ye Qingyun’s waist, feeling the warmth of Ye Qingyun’s body.

“Qingyun…”

Ye Qingyun pondered, his expression still dissatisfied. He felt his previous words were inaccurate, so he corrected himself: “No, I was wrong just now. I shouldn’t have said I like you the most.”

Gu Shenyuan stiffened.

Ye Qingyun asserted, “It should be, I only like you! That’s right, I only like you.”

Look at his fake acting in the video—there wasn’t a shred of affection for Pu Tian. Someone must have threatened him from behind the scenes, forcing him to hold his nose and pretend to like Pu Tian.

Otherwise, how could he explain not staying put, but instead, following the book’s plot points, venturing out at specific times and staging a fake love-at-first-sight encounter with Pu Tian?

That was the only way the entire sequence of events made logical sense!

Furthermore, having Transmigrated and then Reborn, it would be strange if there wasn’t some mysterious force supporting him from behind.

Coupled with his understanding of himself after years of being single, he would absolutely not fall for Pu Tian, who was a Scum Gong to the extreme. Upon arriving in a new place, he should have focused on research.

All these inconsistencies pointed in one direction—the only person he had ever liked was Gu Shenyuan.

Perhaps his past self didn’t tell Gu Shenyuan this because that mysterious force prevented him from speaking. Now that he was living again, that restriction was gone.

Ye Qingyun felt confident. He looked at Gu Shenyuan, who was also staring back, looking like a volcano about to erupt, ready to completely swallow him whole, from head to toe, wrapping every single hair in scorching lava.

Ye Qingyun smiled, leaned forward, and kissed the corner of Gu Shenyuan’s lips.

Gu Shenyuan pulled Ye Qingyun tighter into his embrace, deepening the kiss.

He was satisfied; truly satisfied.

This was a luxury he couldn’t even voice, and now he had heard Ye Qingyun say it himself.

Even if he knew it couldn’t be entirely true, at least right now, Ye Qingyun only liked him.

Gu Shenyuan’s heart felt like it was soaking in warm water. He was flustered, like a child who had suddenly received a large jar of candy, only capable of holding Ye Qingyun close.

Gu Shenyuan buried his face in Ye Qingyun’s shoulder and mumbled, “…I only like you too.”

Normally, after two people confessed their feelings, joy and happiness should follow. But Ye Qingyun caught a hint of something amiss in Gu Shenyuan’s demeanor, tone, and expression.

Ye Qingyun felt frustrated. “Are you saying you don’t believe what I said?”

Gu Shenyuan didn’t answer. He straightened up and blocked Ye Qingyun’s mouth with a kiss.

Ye Qingyun: “…”

Did he think a kiss meant he didn’t have to answer? This definitely meant he didn’t believe him!

It made sense. He had amnesia now, so his words might not be credible. Moreover, Gu Shenyuan had personally witnessed his affection for Pu Tian. Trying to convince Gu Shenyuan that that affection was fake with just a few sentences was too difficult.

Ye Qingyun broke free from the kiss and tried to reason with Gu Shenyuan using facts. “Don’t you think my expression was very fake when I liked Pu Tian in the past?”

Gu Shenyuan was silent for a long time before finally speaking, his voice sounding squeezed out between his teeth: “…It was very passionate.”

Ye Qingyun: “…”

Passionate? It clearly looked fake!

Ye Qingyun was unconvinced. He selected the analysis from his mind, omitting the parts he shouldn’t mention, and explained the rest to Gu Shenyuan one by one, then looked at him expectantly.

Gu Shenyuan said flatly, “Everything has coincidences. Perhaps you didn’t want to follow the predetermined path, but something might have happened that day that forced you to go there. You don’t think you would like…” Gu Shenyuan’s tone held a hint of displeasure. He seemed unwilling to elaborate, simply stating, “But matters of the heart are the most illogical things.”

At that moment, Ye Qingyun almost gave up, wanting to wait until his memory recovered before explaining to Gu Shenyuan. However, as soon as the thought arose, Ye Qingyun realized something was wrong.

Even if he recovered his memory, would Gu Shenyuan truly believe the facts he presented?

What if Gu Shenyuan still thought he was twisting the truth and fabricating things to appease him?

…He had amnesia, but this amnesiac identity wasn’t entirely without benefits.

Ye Qingyun gritted his teeth and looked directly into Gu Shenyuan’s eyes. “I am not joking. Whether in the past, present, or future, I have only ever liked you.”

Gu Shenyuan stroked his cheek, the annoyance on his face receding, replaced by a flicker of a smile.

Ye Qingyun continued, “I don’t want to be the only one confirming this. I want you to tell me the same thing.”

This was easy for Gu Shenyuan. Gu Shenyuan replied, “In my past, present, and future, there has never been anyone else. Only you.”

“I’m not talking about that,” Ye Qingyun looked at Gu Shenyuan without blinking. His gem-like eyes were full of reliance and trust, mixed with a hint of grievance that was heartbreaking to see. “I don’t want to have liked that Scum Gong. I want to only like you. Please repeat that sentence to me, out loud, okay?”

Under such a gaze, even if Ye Qingyun asked for the stars and the moon, Gu Shenyuan would pluck them for him, let alone such a simple sentence.

And this strange wish, though seemingly simple to fulfill, genuinely revealed Ye Qingyun’s deep affection for him.

Gu Shenyuan opened his mouth to agree, but before the words could escape, another thought flashed through his mind.

…Wait.

Ye Qingyun didn’t want to hear him say that he had never liked anyone else; he wanted to hear him say that he had never liked Pu Tian.

It was true that saying these words wouldn’t matter if it made Ye Qingyun happy, but—Ye Qingyun was not normal right now. Ye Qingyun had a brain condition, and if he was deceived, he would develop an aversion to Gu Shenyuan once his memory returned.

If he did as Ye Qingyun asked and told him that he had never liked Pu Tian and only liked him, that action would constitute a serious emotional deception.

The doctor had reminded him of this later: even if it wasn’t active deception, but merely agreeing with and failing to correct false information conveyed by the amnesiac, it still counted as deception.

And a serious deception would only lead to one outcome—Ye Qingyun developing an undeniable, lasting disgust toward him.

This was a poisoned candy; sweet, but with severe consequences if consumed.

He couldn’t fulfill Ye Qingyun’s wish this time.

Gu Shenyuan said softly, “Qingyun, ask for a different wish.”

“Why should I change it? I want this one!” Ye Qingyun insisted, the grievance in his eyes intensifying.

Gu Shenyuan frowned slightly. “Qingyun, don’t play dumb. You know the consequences of doing that.”

Ye Qingyun knew more than just the consequences; he was doing this precisely for that outcome.

Ye Qingyun looked at Gu Shenyuan and said righteously, “Wouldn’t that be better?”

Gu Shenyuan’s frown deepened. Ye Qingyun continued, “Then let me ask you, how can you completely believe that what I’m saying is true? If I recover my memory and tell you I still only like you, will you believe it? Tell me the truth!”

Gu Shenyuan watched him silently for a long time, finally saying concisely, “No.”

Ye Qingyun sighed internally.

He knew it. Words were meaningless; seeing was believing. Given Gu Shenyuan’s cautious nature, even if his memory-recovered self explained things, even if Gu Shenyuan verbally agreed that they were each other’s only love, a seed of doubt would always remain in his heart.

Ye Qingyun encouraged Gu Shenyuan, “If I don’t hate you when I recover my memory, that will prove everything I said is true! This might be the only chance to prove the truth. Don’t you want to try?”

Ye Qingyun tugged on Gu Shenyuan’s clothes, looking at him with the most pitiful and saccharine gaze he could muster, tempting him. “Try it. Trust my judgment.”

Gu Shenyuan stared back at Ye Qingyun for a long time. It was undeniably easy for Ye Qingyun to tempt him.

Gu Shenyuan felt like he was split in two. One half, rational, told him absolutely not to do this. Ye Qingyun had amnesia and knew nothing, and as the one who knew everything, he shouldn’t indulge Ye Qingyun’s recklessness.

The other half, spurred by Ye Qingyun’s words, released the long-suppressed desires in his heart.

What if Ye Qingyun was telling the truth?

What if Ye Qingyun truly hadn’t liked anyone else and only liked him?

He yearned to possess Ye Qingyun completely, leaving no room for doubt. The blanks of the past and future should be filled by him. He never wanted Ye Qingyun’s gaze to linger on anyone else.

This was a high-stakes gamble. Win, and gain everything; lose, and lose the entire game.

Ye Qingyun could see Gu Shenyuan hesitating. He added fuel to Gu Shenyuan’s choice, suggesting, “If you’re worried and want a guarantee, I can try to research an Antidote first. If I really get sick and hate you then, you can just force it on me and help me break the state. Wouldn’t that be a happy ending for everyone?”

In truth, after the initial impulse, Ye Qingyun realized his idea was a bit rash. But if he could genuinely research the Antidote, then it wouldn’t be a rash plan, but a perfect one!

Surely, Gu Shenyuan couldn’t refuse now?

Gu Shenyuan didn’t speak. His dark eyelashes were lowered, and he remained motionless, like a perfect statue.

After a long pause, Gu Shenyuan raised his eyes. His deep, dark gaze held no hint of the sweet confession they were about to share, only a stubborn coldness. “I disagree.”

Ye Qingyun was stunned. He hadn’t expected that answer and couldn’t help but ask, “…Why?”

“Things are good enough now. I will not use you as a stake, nor will I accept the possibility of you hating me.” Gu Shenyuan’s voice held an obstinacy that no one could sway. “The information might be false, and the Antidote might be useless. Even if the chance of failure is only one in ten thousand, I cannot bear the consequences. I do not accept.”