Chew Slowly Chapter 42

Chapter 42 Chapter 42

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Xu Qiaochuan couldn’t remember when he started to suffer from this madness, but he knew that he had been ill for a long time. Otherwise, why would he have been called mad for so many years?

In the past, the symptoms were mild, occasionally causing disturbances in my stagnant life, but not much affecting others.But in the past six months, he had experienced Lu Xiaoyun’s death, a complete breakup with Xu Jian, and an entanglement with Chen Zongqian. Everything that had happened had made him emotionally agitated, and his illness gradually got out of control.

He was no longer able to maintain the balance between spirit and life by himself, and could only accept the intervention of doctors and drugs.He instinctively rejected these, so Chen Zongqian comforted him and cooperated.

Xu Qiaochuan carefully maintained the barrier of self-defense, but he was still affected by the doctor’s words and thought about the crux of many problems.

The spirit is always in a state of confusion, and the thinking becomes slow and the degree of forgetfulness is very high.He may be troubled by a thought for a long time, or he may just think of something and forget it the next moment.Fortunately, the disease did not completely affect his intelligence. Xu Qiaochuan was able to recall from the memo entry prompts, and then struggled with pain.

Part of the pain was related to the name “Xie Mingxiao”, which lingered in his mind for a long time like a self-abuse, trying to remember something with it.

Xu Qiaochuan is confused about many things. Is Xie Mingxiao him or someone else?Why did Lu Xiaoyun have to ask him to forget this name?

Even if Xu Jian beat and scolded him for more than ten years, he still raised him into an adult.Before the identification results came out, the “bastard” sound was just an outburst of anger after being drunk and losing money, but later it turned into real anger.The blood connection between them was lost, but Xu Qiaochuan was not disappointed or sad, as if he knew that this was how it should be.

The family was very poor, and Xu Qiaochuan decided to leave home very early when he became an adult.He did leave, but he didn’t expect it to be in a way that destroyed his family – Lu Xiaoyun died, and Xu Jian gave up on him.

From beginning to end, he just wanted to stay away from home.People are individuals with tangled contradictions. Xu Qiaochuan found neither more love nor absolute hatred in his heart.

What Xu Jian and Lu Xiaoyun gave him were not all pain and scars. The teachings were real and there was love. These things were made particularly clear by the pain, and he could never forget them.

Universal morality requires him to be grateful for this. He has less hatred and more fear.Xu Qiaochuan was so overwhelmed by nightmares that he could hardly breathe, and it was difficult to open his eyes.

Because of the medicine, his sleeping time is very irregular and he can fall asleep and wake up at any time.He woke up too quickly in the morning, and Chen Zongqian hadn’t even opened his eyes yet. He calmed down only after watching, and then felt sore and itchy again.After drying his tears, fearing that he would not be able to hold back the kiss, Xu Qiaochuan hugged the quilt and changed direction.

The relationship between him and Chen Zongqian is indescribable. They live together, eat together and sleep together.It seems a bit too much to be considered brothers, but something short of being considered lovers.Chen Zongqian could kiss him, but he had no deeper desire.

In addition to not leaving home at will and leaving the location software behind, Chen Zongqian showed enough respect and returned his ID card.

Not like a cute pet either… Chen Zongqian defines their relationship as “family”, a close family that lives together.

He has no deep obsession with “family” and doesn’t care about living a life without a father or mother. After finding out his sexual orientation, he also knows that he will not get any normal love.A madman is only suitable to live alone.Xu Qiaochuan is a bit extreme, feeling that lunatics have no talent for loving, and their emotions are either crazy, twisted, or stabbing people to the point of bleeding.

The little things that people around him turned over from time to time made Chen Zongqian slowly wake up.There were curtains between them, and the sky wasn’t very bright. Chen Zongqian didn’t care about the time.The days when he could be lazy were worth cherishing. He didn’t want to get up early, and seeing that Xu Qiaochuan had no intention of getting up, he closed his eyes again and was trying to get sleepy.But within two seconds, he couldn’t help but open his eyes and look at Xu Qiaochuan, who was talking to himself with his back to him.

After hearing all the words, Chen Zongqian couldn’t help but say: “Who has that kind of talent? You have to learn to love.”

That lazy and hoarse sound made Xu Qiaochuan’s heart skip a beat. He suddenly remembered playing with Chen Zongqian’s record player one day. The music was soothing and sounded like a lover’s murmur.

He felt that Chen Zongqian was very talented and good at loving people.Xu Qiaochuan asked for a lot, whether it was kisses, hugs, or physical comfort, Chen Zongqian was willing to give it to him.No matter how dull he is, he should understand that this is a kind of love, although he can’t quite tell which category this kind of love belongs to.

Xu Qiaochuan was speaking sincerely rather than teasing. Chen Zongqian laughed at first, and finally sighed: “I have no talent. I have been studying for more than ten years and I am still making mistakes.”

“Is it wrong to love me?” As soon as he asked, the quilt rustled for a while, and Xu Qiaochuan put a hand on his waist, holding him back.

His movements were faster than his answers. Chen Zongqian took the whole person into his arms, “That’s right.”

Being so close, he could smell the grapefruit aroma on Xu Qiaochuan’s body. It was the smell of a new shower gel, which he and Xu Qiaochuan picked in the supermarket.He has always found fruity and sweet scents in the past, so he doesn’t like to use this type.

It’s not a strong fragrance, but an unexpected light fragrance. I haven’t smelled it even after sleeping in the same bed all night. You have to touch your skin to feel it.The fruity aroma stayed overnight, and was made sweeter by the body’s body temperature. Chen Zongqian even forgot that he didn’t like this smell.

The first smell is a light green astringency, but over time it turns into the sweetness of ripe fruits, which goes well with Xu Qiaochuan.The fragrance lingers on the nose, and the lighter it is, the more inviting it is to feel it carefully.Desire is abstract, so using fragrance as a metaphor instantly becomes concrete.

He thought it was a still green fruit, but it had actually grown into a very sweet fruit.It’s juicy and incredibly soft. Xu Qiaochuan doesn’t hesitate to open himself up and reveal the most attractive parts.

Feeling a little itchy, Xu Qiaochuan shrank and wanted to retreat, but was hugged tighter.One hand lifted up his pajamas and slid them down his abdomen to his chest, making his body stiffen.Chen Zongqian always felt that Xu Qiaochuan was thin and had little meat on his body. He was no longer short for food and clothing after he brought him home.After raising it for a while, the weight has increased a little, but it still looks thin. I don’t know where the meat has grown.

The muscles in the waist and abdomen are soft and thin, and the bones are still obvious when you stand up.His hand reached up further, and the position of lying on his side made Xu Qiaochuan’s chest muscles relax, and Chen Zongqian squeezed his breasts.

It is also thin and soft here, but compared to the waist and abdomen, it can be considered plump.The small package can be completely held by slightly closing the palm of the hand, which makes people inevitably think of the ripe and soft pulp.

The tremor in his chest spread to the palm of his hand. Xu Qiaochuan’s body was obviously excited, and his heartbeat and breathing became rapid.Not only because of the teasing on his chest, but also because of the warmth that could be clearly felt through the cotton pajamas, there was something hard squeezing the base of his leg without any explanation.

“Brother.” Xu Qiaochuan has been trying his best to distance himself from Chen Xingran. He doesn’t like this title, but he knows that Chen Zongqian likes to hear it.Shouting like this can easily make people feel soft-hearted, and no matter what they ask for, they will not be refused.

The back of his neck and ears were filled with warm breath. Xu Qiaochuan licked his dry lips, his voice as soft and appealing as a ripe fruit.He said: “Brother, can I help you?”