Chew Slowly Chapter 36

Chapter 36 Chapter 36

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Xu Qiaochuan’s cheek was pinched and he could no longer get closer. He looked at the person through a layer of glass lenses.Chen Zongqian saw that he was very attentive, and his eyes were naturally smiling and affectionate, but they did not appear frivolous at all.So much so that Xu Qiaochuan really thought that the man’s heart and eyes were all about him. He was in a daze for a moment and soon woke up.

Tenderness is only on the surface, but if you look closely, you can see that there is a trace of coldness in the eyes.

This person is good at finding an appropriate social distance that is neither too close nor too distant.Chen Zongqian is too lazy to manage intimate relationships, and always sticks to the end of his interactions with others.

There is not much contact between work and personal life, and most of them can be clearly separated.He has very few close friends, and they have remained the same for many years.Xu Qiaochuan lived with him for a while and saw everything about him.

It is precisely because of seeing the whole situation that we know what special position we are in.

Facing Xu Qiaochuan, Chen Zongqian was rarely indifferent, but instead tried his best to become eager.From the first time they met, he had been getting closer to me.

Xu Qiaochuan is insensitive to pain, but he can clearly sense the thoughts of people close to him.Good intentions are always subtle, while evil thoughts are the most naked. People can be judged as good or bad based on subjectivity.And Chen Zongqian is very special. It was the first time that Xu Qiaochuan saw a person who was gentle and cruel. Because of this person, his heart became even more confused.

He had feelings for Chen Zongqian very early. It was not love at first sight, but like a relationship they once had that was broken and lost, and now it is continuing again.This emotion seemed to have no logic. Xu Qiaochuan thought about it carefully and thought that he had tried to pretend to be another identity to deceive others, and also deceived himself into confusion.

Chen Zongqian regarded himself as a child and a younger brother who needed to be taken care of. He would not blame him even if something like that happened.He consciously stood from his brother’s point of view and regarded Xu Qiaochuan’s offensive behavior as nonsense, which was so gentle that it was almost conniving.

This will not eliminate Xu Qiaochuan’s evil roots, but will only encourage him to become a monster.

Xu Qiaochuan has seen stray cats and dogs, as well as parrots that were abandoned and died of depression.These weak creatures lose their protection, and their endings are deplorable.

Although he has not yet fallen into a pitiable state, he is intoxicated with gentleness and neglects to be vigilant. Greed and desire are pressing closer and closer, and one day he will be rejected by others. How much better off will he be than cats and parrots?

The originally comfortable distance was broken, and it was impossible to tell who had crossed it.They wanted different things. Chen Zongqian wanted a relationship as close as family, while Xu Qiaochuan wanted something else.

The more he thought about it, the more confused he became, and Xu Qiaochuan couldn’t control his thinking.He was too close to Chen Zongqian, and what he saw was different from usual, which reminded him of last night’s dream for no reason.

In the dream, he was also very close to Chen Zongqian.Xu Qiaochuan was a little psychedelic. The breath spraying on his body was obviously very hot, and the contact of the lenses on his skin made him shiver with coldness.

Chen Zongqian was comforting him. At that time, all Xu Qiaochuan’s wishes would not be rejected.The dream is full of charm, but also extremely absurd.The spurted semen made the glass lenses very dirty. Chen Zongqian took off his glasses and wiped off the sticky bodily fluids with his fingers. He lowered his eyes and looked down at Xu Qiaochuan, but it was as if he was looking at another person through him.

He woke up suddenly, and the dream disappeared.Xu Qiaochuan’s heart was burning, and the air conditioning in the room couldn’t stop him from sweating profusely.With his eyes closed, his mind became clearer.He couldn’t sleep anymore, so he opened the door of the master bedroom in the middle of the night, relying on Chen Zongqian not to be angry with him.

What’s going on?Chen Zongqian asked him the same question at that time. Xu Qiaochuan felt his chest was tight and his heart ached, and he was so depressed that he couldn’t breathe.

Putting a hand on his chest, Chen Zongqian was not angry as expected, saying that it was a broken bone that was healing and growing.The soothing was gentle, but the pain was not relieved at all.Xu Qiaochuan shed two tears and slept directly next to Chen Zongqian’s bed for the rest of the night.He was shaking under the quilt, as if the pain was unbearable, so he was taken to the hospital for review today.

The film shows no problem, everything is clearly normal, so why does it hurt?

“Xiaoqiao.” Someone called him.

The mixture of dreams and reality made Xu Qiaochuan feel dizzy. He pushed the person away in fear, regardless of the pain from the hand pinching his cheek.The pain did not wake him up, but made him even more confused.

Xu Qiaochuan suffered from hysteria again and left the outpatient department without anyone else behind him. No matter how much Chen Zongqian shouted, he seemed to be unheard.As he walked outside, Xu Qiaochuan came face to face with the desolate autumn breeze, and the cold wind almost woke him up.

The boundaries between day and night in this city are blurred, but the fluctuations in temperature are obvious. Four seasons can be distinguished in one day.It’s late autumn and almost winter in the morning and evening, and it’s still midsummer at noon. It’s very troublesome to dress in this kind of weather.

Chen Zongqian buttoned the zipper on his clothes to the top and tucked in his hat.This hooded cardigan is a bit thin and velvety. Xu Qiaochuan was still too hot in the morning, but now the evening breeze has made me feel cold all over. My hands are so cold that I can’t even cover them to keep them warm.

Xu Qiaochuan took half a step back and put a little distance between himself and Chen Zongqian. If he got too close to Chen Zongqian, he would become weird.The body is weird, the brain is weird, and the heart is weird.This slight rejection did not escape Chen Zongqian’s eyes. He frowned slightly and made no further reaction.

“Aren’t you going to the inpatient department?” Xu Qiaochuan looked away and saw that it was getting late. Seeing Chen Zongqian nodding, he quickly said, “I’ll wait for you here.”

Xu Qiaochuan didn’t want to go up with him, not only because he was too lazy to walk a few more steps, but also because he wanted to leave Chen Zongqian aside and have some peace and quiet.

Chen Zongqian didn’t want to let people go.The bitter fruit of letting go last time gave him a taste of nightmare for more than ten years.Any second Xu Qiaochuan is not in front of him will make him worry, not to mention that he has other selfish motives.

Looking away from Chen Zongqian, Xu Qiaochuan pulled off his hat to cover half of his face in shadow, which made people look unreal.His tone was cold and there was a hint of sting in his words: “How should I introduce myself when I go up? Say I am the tenant whose ID card was taken away by Lawyer Chen… or am I my boyfriend?”

He pushed the person with his hand, and the distance between them became even further.Xu Qiaochuan tilted his head and spoke rudely. Every word was like a knife piercing people’s hearts: “I pretended that Chen Xingran only lied to you and not to others. But I don’t want to pretend now. Why is Lawyer Chen still taking it seriously?”

Chen Zongqian didn’t respond to those sarcastic comments and didn’t say anything when he left. He thought it was a bad breakup.Xu Qiaochuan waved his hand and pretended to say goodbye.

The place he went to for leisure was still the small garden in front of the inpatient department. He felt it was small when he was in a wheelchair, and even more so when he walked in person.But there are small benefits to being small, at least everyone can see them clearly.Xu Qiaochuan couldn’t distinguish faces very well, so he only relied on instinct to identify them. He was looking for a madman who looked very similar to himself.

No one likes to stay in the hospital, but her physical and mental condition forced Xie Ying to stay here.But compared to the hospital, she didn’t want to stay in an empty and lifeless home.

The last time she had an epileptic seizure in the small garden, her attending doctor and her relative Dr. Jiang did not allow her to run downstairs again.Xie Ying made trouble for two or three days before finally letting people loose.I ran to the small garden because I saw Xie Mingxiao here last time.She has a kind of pure persistence, which is similar to the fable of waiting for the rabbit.And she is luckier than the people in the story, because she really waited for “Xie Mingxiao”.

“Xie Mingxiao… who is it?”

“It’s my child, I lost it, I’m sorry, I’m sorry.” Xie Ying took a step closer, and the other party took a step back, as if she didn’t intend to forgive her at all, so Xie Ying had to repeat “I’m sorry” over and over again.

“You threw him away, didn’t you?”

Xu Qiaochuan felt chest tightness and palpitations, his muscles all over his body were stiff and unable to move, and his palms were wet with sweat.The reaction in his body was too intense, and a nightmare-like memory emerged. Lu Xiaoyun had forced him to forget it all a long time ago.

He underestimated Lu Xiaoyun’s influence on him and overestimated his mental endurance.Xu Qiaochuan still didn’t dare to think back to that time. He was feeling restless when he vaguely saw the woman reaching out to grab her.He originally wanted to ask something, but his calm appearance began to collapse even for a moment, and this woman became a new nightmare.

“Will you go back with me? Mingxiao, I only have you left!” There was clearly only a little distance left, and Xie Ying just couldn’t touch her.Her limbs suddenly felt like they were falling, and in an instant, she was twitching uncontrollably.Xie Ying was quickly held up and backed away from Xie Mingxiao, and she began to struggle more and more violently.

Foam kept pouring out of the corners of his mouth.A nurse skillfully stuffed something into her mouth to avoid biting her tongue.The nurse turned around and saw Xu Qiaochuan standing stunned and asked, “What stimulated her again?”

As if frightened by the sudden situation in front of him, it took the young man a long time to come to his senses.Xu Qiaochuan’s voice was slightly hoarse. He only said that he was passing by and was chased by someone calling “Xie Mingxiao”, but he didn’t know who this person was.

Xie Ying was quickly taken away for treatment, leaving Xu Qiaochuan standing there dripping with sweat.The probing eyes and gossipy whispers were all revealed without concealment.

“Her family was hit by a car not long after she got married. It’s so pitiful that she finally brought a child home, but he was abducted again a few years later.”

“Killing your father and your mother, your relatives and your children, maybe it’s the destiny of the evil god, doomed to live a lonely life.” Others often heard Xie Ying talking about it, and the same thing happened over and over again.

Xu Qiaochuan listened a lot, and he didn’t care whether that person’s life was really as bleak as the rumors said.The memory of Xie Ying faded quickly, and everything she said and did was forgotten.

I just remember that the man’s crazy look was exactly the same as mine, and the way he suppressed his father and his mother also looked like him.Xu Qiaochuan covered his mouth tightly, suppressing the feeling of nausea and vomiting. He was wondering why everyone is crazy?