Nanke Yifu Chapter 22

Wild Geese (3)

Yan Laixi got up from the bed. He didn’t know how long he had been asleep, what month it was, or even whether it was day or night, but he knew he had to go out. He was almost finished with the medicine. Oh, yes, eat. He also had to eat and drink something.

His throat was dry, his head was groggy, and he felt like vomiting. He did lie down by the pool and retched, but nothing came out. Maybe it was because there was nothing in his stomach.

He felt like he was hungover now, although Yan Laixi didn’t know what it felt like to be hungover, let alone being hungover. As a non-drinker, he didn’t even know what it felt like to be drunk.

I deliberately picked the heaviest clothes, and covered my face tightly with a scarf and hat. I was so confused that I accidentally dropped my room key when I was getting it, and bumped into the door frame when I went out.

The kind of sleeping aid he bought had serious side effects. No pharmacy anywhere could sell him too much at once. He could only go out every two days and pray that the clerk wouldn’t recognize him, or that the clerk would recognize him but not meddle in his business.There are only a few clerks in a drugstore. With the frequency that he is expected to visit now and in the future, it is impossible to pray, no matter the former or the latter.

In other words, he has to find different pharmacies and take different routes.Along the way, Yan Laixi stared at the screen of his mobile phone, unwilling to give a single glance to the street scenes on both sides. Several times, he was just one or two steps away from hitting some tree or pole. Only then did he catch a glimpse of an obstacle from the corner of his eye. After he stopped, he only took one wrong step to get out of the way. He didn’t even want to take a second look at what he almost hit.

It wasn’t until recently that Yan Laixi truly realized how many places he and Chi Fu had been together, how many things they had done, and how much time they had spent together.He felt that he was in a place on the edge of “strangeness”. Everywhere he looked on the street, a memory would play out in his mind.

Fortunately, I haven’t met Chi Fu again since last time.

This last time does not refer to the time when he ran away, but when he went out one time after that, Chi Fu seemed to be deliberately looking for him during that time.

When they met, he was standing on the street where they had met before, strolling slowly, looking around, moving his shoulders and shoulders, lifting his calf and hammering twice.The idiot stood there for who knows how long. It’s also true that “accidental encounters” are not so easy to create.

In a blink of an eye, Chi Fu had discovered him and was running towards him. It was already too late to hide.He frantically tries to keep him, asking him if he would return home if he could remember part of their past.

Of course he is willing, let alone if Chi Fu can remember part of their past, if Chi Fu can remember new memories, or if Chi Fu can just remember him as a person, he is willing to go back. As long as he still exists in Chi Fu’s memory, as long as there is still a little connection that does not need to be reestablished every day, Yan Laixi doesn’t want to let go.

Yan Laixi remembered that he nodded, probably yes. As for why he never met him again after that…Chi Fu probably wouldn’t come to see him again.

It’s embarrassing to say that he cried that day.

Yan Laixi was very sure that he really didn’t feel that he wanted to cry for any reason at that time. Maybe it was the side effects of the medicine that caused tear incontinence. Anyway, there must be some other reason.

It doesn’t matter for any reason, Yan Laixi now just hopes that Chi Fu will not record this incident in his little diary, and not put away all the items related to him because of this incident, and completely forget about him. After all, he still has something to do.

But the reality is that these two wishes and the current situation cannot coexist.

Since there was nothing recorded in the diary and there were still other things left, Chi Fu would probably continue to insist on looking for him.If he had to choose between two wishes, Yan Laixi hoped to realize the latter. After all, looking at the current situation, if Chi Fu was still squatting on him, the probability of him being squatted was really low.

Yan Laixi always felt that he was a lucky person, but sometimes he didn’t have to be so lucky.

Just when he was thinking that it would be better to simply stop looking for him or not squatting before Chi Fu than to completely forget him, when he came out of the drugstore, he saw the person he was very familiar with. Just in time, he raised his head, and the other person also looked over, and their eyes collided with each other.

Chi Fu had indeed not forgotten him completely. He just wrote the word “uneasy” on a piece of paper and stuck it on his face. Yan Laixi didn’t run away this time, he just forgot about the bag containing the medicine and hid it. Keep hiding was not an option.

There are memories everywhere here. If you don’t leave, you will encounter the jokes played by fate and joint memories on him, but Yan Laixi really doesn’t want to leave. He hates change and doesn’t want to accept that the surrounding environment has become completely unfamiliar. This is something he can’t change in a while, so Yan Laixi decided to solve the problem about Chi Fu himself first.

He had to know what Chi Fu was thinking, and he should also apologize for leaving without saying goodbye.He looked around, found a secluded corner, glanced at Chi Fu, and motioned for him to go there and talk.

Seeing Yan Laixi running away, Chi Fu spent all his life’s perseverance not to catch up with him. With such an expression, the other party must not want to see him.

He doesn’t look good. I don’t know whether he is better or worse than before.Is he avoiding him? Why, is he hated?Chi Fu didn’t want to be disliked by Yan Laixi, even though his understanding of Yan Laixi was limited to a few words in that little book.

The abnormality cannot be cured. Chi Fu doesn’t know what to do and can only speed up his process as much as possible – he is looking for everyone who knows Yan Laixi and learns about Yan Laixi from their mouths. If he is lucky, he can also learn something about his and Yan Laixi’s past.

It is not difficult to find people who know Yan Laixi. There are countless readers of Nanke who are willing to express their gratitude to him, but this is the only thing that is not difficult.

Chi Fu couldn’t remember anything about Yan Laixi. It was almost impossible for him to find people who knew Yan Laixi but had nothing to do with him. As for the people they knew in common, he naturally didn’t remember who they were, so he could only ask them one by one along the address book.

His brain resets every twenty-four hours or so, which makes the already extremely slow progress go back a step every day, but it is not completely without gains.

Nanke’s readers online told him that Nanke is very gentle and often responds to their comments.He previously posted a picture of folded leaf envelopes on social media, and someone commented that he wanted them. Later, he actually brought a large bag of leaf envelopes to his autograph signings. There was a bookmark inside each envelope with a sentence written on it. Some were blessings, some were thanks, and each letter was different.And it wasn’t just once, it was three times in succession. The first time, many people said that he gave the benefits too suddenly. It was a pity that he didn’t catch up, and they were envious and jealous. So he opened a poll and selected the approximate time for the other two times.And Nanke himself is the same as the words he wrote. Whenever I see him, I feel very calm. He is always smiling. As long as I stand opposite him, no matter what worries I have, they will disappear.

Neighbors in the same building told him that they had little contact with Yan Lai Xi. They felt that he did not go out much and would not talk to each other when they met each other occasionally. However, Yan Lai Xi would help block the elevator when the elevator door was about to close and someone had just entered the corridor and ran over to catch him. He would take the initiative to help press the floor when the other person was carrying something in his hand. He would always stand in the corner. When the elevator arrived, he would stand in place and let people on the same floor go out first.

The grandma who lived on the first floor told him that she didn’t know who Yan Laixi was, but she was sure it was the person in the photo.A long time ago, she went out and happened to meet the child coming out of the elevator, one step behind her.The width of the corridor was so wide that one could actually pass by turning slightly sideways, but the child followed her without speaking or urging her, and there was no impatience on her face.The old man had weak legs and knew that he was walking slowly, so he took the initiative to lean to the side and let him pass first. The child bowed slightly to thank her, trotted past her quickly, reached the door, pushed open the heavy door, but stood still at the door, looking at her, waiting patiently for her to come.She said it didn’t matter and let him go first. The child hesitated for a moment, but said he was not in a hurry. He let go of her hand after she stepped out of the door. There were three steps at the entrance of the building, and he kept standing next to her, one step slower than her, as if he wanted to help her but was too embarrassed to reach out.After seeing her step on the ground, she took steps to leave. From then on, although it was not many times, every time she met someone going in or out, the child would help her hold the door. Later, maybe because she felt that she was acquainted, he started to help her when going up and down the steps.

The courier boy who was in charge of door-to-door delivery in their building told him that Yan Laixi was not familiar with him, and every conversation consisted of the usual few words, such as “thank you” and “Sorry for trouble”, but he was very polite and a nice person. When the weather was hot, he would see him sweating profusely and would ask him if he needed iced mineral water. When the express delivery was too heavy, he would go downstairs in advance and help him move it together.

Although the sister selling ripe pear cakes didn’t know what Yan Laixi’s name was, she knew he was the handsome young man who was always with him.She told Chi Fu that Yan Laixi didn’t seem to be a very outgoing person. If she and Chi Fu chatted when there were no people around, he would pick up the conversation if the conversation fell on him, but he wouldn’t take the initiative to talk. When there were many people, he would stand in a corner and wait quietly.

The girl who visited the store next door from time to time told him that Yan Laixi would accompany him to the store on rare occasions. Every time, he would sit in the corner with a laptop and type away. He would always get tired of being next to Yan Laixi when he had nothing to do.

A regular customer of the bar told him that every time he walked away due to something to do, Yan Laixi’s eyes would follow him and he would look back at him. The two would look at each other and smile before continuing to go about their own business.

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From all kinds of people, Chi Fu pieced together a quiet, gentle Yan Laixi who always exuded his kindness quietly and without asking for anything in return.

I also got a glimpse of a Yan Laixi who loved him with all her heart and eyes, and kept conveying her love to him in her own way.

But it was not enough. He could get too little information about Yan Laixi when he was with him.

Chi Fu wrote down Yan Laixi’s reaction to Yan Laixi’s last encounter in his diary, but he was in a daze at the time, and there was no room in his brain for him to think too much, so he had some misunderstandings about himself, and his memory was not detailed. As a result, when Chi Fu saw that diary now, he wanted to explain to Yan Laixi, because he was afraid that Yan Laixi would hate him.

It was written in the diary that Yan Laixi was the same as him before, or should be said that he was the same as Yan Laixi before. In short, the day and night were reversed to the point that even a vampire would be ashamed. If he wanted to squat with Yan Laixi, it would be meaningless to go out too early. However, Chi Fu still went to wander early on the street where he met last time. Anyway, the business hours were changed back with his schedule, so he just took it as a long detour on his way to and from get off work.

Everyone who can ask has asked. Although he has not completely given up trying to understand Yan Laixi through other people, if he still wants to know the rest, he probably has to ask Yan Laixi to tolerate him for a few more days and give him this reliable method.

Maybe it was God who felt sorry for him wandering around in the cold wind every day in the cold winter. One morning, Yan Laixi’s figure suddenly appeared in Chi Fu’s field of vision.

He stood more than ten meters away and looked at him without running or hiding. This was already a very successful start.

As if he didn’t react, Yan Laixi’s face was blank until Chi Fu approached him and asked him if he would go home with him if he could remember part of their past, and if he would be willing to tolerate him a little longer and give him another chance to understand their past. Yan Laixi kept that expression, and then tears suddenly fell from the corners of his eyes.

Chi Fu was really panicked. He suddenly thought that he was doing something too excessive.

Yan Laixi cried quietly, only one tear fell, and he wiped away the rest with his sleeves before they fell out of his eyes.When the weather is good for skiing, will the tears streak your cheeks be so cold that they hurt if they are exposed to the air?

He cried quietly, just wiping away his tears and sniffing, but Chi Fu felt that he was crying very sadly.

Even Chi Fu now can know from those words that Yan Laixi is most afraid of losing.

Every day and every dream was giving him happiness and then losing it, and now even reality was playing such an exaggerated joke on him.

The person who can’t accept the loss the most is forgotten again and again, forced to lose his lover again and again, and his lover, Chi Fu, continues to create encounters and stalk each other after he finally makes up his mind to let him go. Yan Laixi in front of him is calm, but Chi Fu feels that he just seems to have too much collapse and confusion in his body, mixed together, and his brain can’t handle it and can’t respond.

Chi Fu felt that he should let Yan Laixi go, but his body kept telling him of love.He also believed that Yan Laixi’s body must be like his, still telling love.

He wants to understand Yan Laixi and the past between him and Yan Laixi, but this process cannot be a painful process for Yan Laixi, and this method cannot be a way that will hurt Yan Laixi.

After they were separated again, Chi Fu returned home and pasted two more pieces of paper on the bedroom door and the front door, warning himself not to disturb Yan Laixi until he knew enough.

He liked Yan Laixi so much that the feeling was engraved in his bones and unaffected by memory.He wants Yan Laixi to be by his side, and wants to spend every day together as his partner and lover, just like those forgotten pasts.But it is precisely because he knows that he still loves the other person now, and it is precisely because he still truly loves the other person, instead of just looking at that beautiful face and having a temporary attraction, that he has to consider Yan Laixi’s feelings.

This process may be slow. Maybe by the time he is ready and stands in front of Yan Laixi again, the other person will already have a new life, and even have new people and new feelings around him. It doesn’t matter.

If Yan Laixi could truly let go of him and their past, whether alone or choosing a new partner, he would bless him.If Yan Laixi can’t get out of those five or six years, he will try his best to give him a complete Chi Fu.

The turning point appeared on a video platform.

Chi Fu searched Nanke’s accounts on various social platforms and found every account that might have had private contact with him. On the premise of ensuring that Yan Laixi’s personal privacy would not be overly exposed, he tried his best to prove his identity and raise his inquiry.

The result can be imagined. Regardless of whether they believed it or not, many people simply ignored him.Until one day, Chi Fu found a co-created video, clicked on the homepage of one of the accounts named “Qiuye”, and clicked to send a private message.

Except for Nanke, the creative team actually has three accounts. One of them said they were not familiar with it, one refused to receive messages after saying it was inconvenient to disclose, and the other has ignored him.

The one who ignored him was Qiuye.The turning point was also Autumn Leaves.

Although the other party ignored him, he did not block or reject his messages. Chi Fu looked through Nanke’s account. This “Autumn Leaf” was the one who cooperated and interacted with Nanke the most. He did not want to give up easily.

And in the early morning of one day, Chi Fu was suddenly awakened by the sound of his cell phone.

He set up a separate message reminder to ensure that he would see it as soon as the other party replied to him.

The time on his phone showed that it was past one o’clock in the morning. Fortunately, if it were any later, there might be more trouble – he would forget Yan Laixi again, and he would have to “activate” his brain with a small book first.

Although sleep did not play a decisive role in his amnesia, it still had a certain impact. As Chi Fu’s routine changed, the time of his amnesia was gradually advanced.

He quickly unlocked his phone and opened the private message page, fearing that the other party would disappear if he replied a second too late.There was only a dialog box on the screen from the other party, which read: “You are not Xiaochi, are you?”

With just a few words, Chi Fu suddenly lost the last bit of sleepiness and his heart beat rapidly.

He seemed to have found the most crucial key.