Mixed Chapter 35

Chi Nuan’s letter 1

In fact, my confession is not over yet, there is too much to say, so I wrote this letter.By the way, you are still sleeping soundly in your room.

Don’t write too much nonsense, don’t write too much nonsense.

The first time I met you was last winter.I don’t like winter, but I have two reasons to like winter – I met you in winter, and you were born in winter.

I think, now there is one more thing to add, the time with you is in winter.

You are afraid, afraid of the story repeating itself, afraid of what others will think.You have no sense of security, will hug your head and cry in thunderstorms, and let indifference become your disguise.

So thank you for your bravery, thank you for your trust.

Do you remember that time I picked you up at the airport? I was angry and wanted to compete with Jiang Luohe, but I accidentally learned that you didn’t like anyone.

I thought, what do all the intimate encounters that happened before count?The moment I looked out the window, I no longer wanted to like you, I wanted to hate you, hate you.

But I can’t do it. If you don’t like it, there is always something tempting.I told myself to take another gamble, and luckily I got it right.

You ask me later, can we have sex?These four words “having a relationship” are too unfamiliar to me. Besides, you just said before that you don’t have anyone you like. My first reaction was that I thought you were a bit frivolous.

I am angry and annoyed, and I feel that in your eyes, it may be more appropriate to use a toy as a metaphor for me.Here is the second time I think, I don’t like you anymore.

The only two times, it never came true.

Because I really can’t, giving up on you is much harder than I imagined.

Now that I think about it, it’s impossible for you not to like me, you already liked me a long time ago.It’s just that you are tough-talking and stubborn.

Am I right?

So you choose to push me away again and again, and want to possess me again and again.

I checked, and if you are in an emotional relationship, it seems to be called avoidant attachment.It’s caused by many reasons including family of origin and life experience. I kind of want to ask you, but if you don’t want to say it, then let’s take it slow.

We still have a lot of time anyway, don’t we?

I will leave this paragraph blank for now, and I will hand this letter to you on our first anniversary in the future. I hope you can write “yes” at the end.

Must, only write “yes”.

Too far off topic, hehe.

Song Shixue, in the nearly half a year that I have known you, I have found that I really know very little about you.

At the beginning, I wanted to get to know you better and get to know you more as time went by.But it seems that the latter has achieved most of it, while the former has made no progress.

If possible, I hope you can talk to me more, talk about daily life, talk about what you like and hate, anything is fine.I’d love to be your emotional trash can!Don’t think I’m going to get bored.

On the contrary, if you don’t speak up, our problems will pile up, so we can’t remain “dumb”.

It sounds a bit ridiculous to say that I have already thought about the long-term future. Is this a common problem when loving someone?Probably so. It seems that my friend was like this when he was in love before.

Of course, I have also thought about the bad consequences in the future. After you see this, don’t be angry.

Mainly, I heard others say that when you think about something, you can’t just think about the good aspects, otherwise it will be counterproductive.

The most bad outcome is that we separate.But no matter what, I will get you back after we are separated. You have to give me some clues to let me find you then.

Otherwise, or I will die alone. You definitely don’t want to see me die alone, so in the end we have to be together. What is it called, locked for life.

Finally, I hope you are happy, healthy, and safe.

Well, let’s call this letter a sentimental confession letter for now, hahahahaha.

They say that falling in love makes people naive, and I feel like that’s a bit… Teacher Song, don’t dislike me.

Love you little black chai.

Love you star.

Love you Chi Nuan.

Well, quite childish.

Write it again, Song Shixue, don’t dislike me.