Red Line Resurrection Chapter 38
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◎Don’t apologize to me.◎
The door opened a crack, and Shen Lingjun’s low voice came out of the crack, “What’s the matter? I’m sleepy and want to sleep.”
He kept brainwashing himself in his mind. If you want to be an ostrich, just be an ostrich. You can’t escape the fifteenth day, but you can’t escape the first year of junior high school. He really doesn’t want to talk to Liang Jian face to face tonight. As soon as he sees him, his mind is filled with those embarrassing scenes, and he can’t shake them away.
He was still crying with a strong voice. Liang Ji’an frowned and handed the ointment through the gap, “Remember to apply the medicine.”
Just when Shen Lingjun was about to reach out and take it, the small gap was suddenly widened. Liang Ji’an directly grabbed his wrist and squeezed open the door. Shen Lingjun was too lazy to struggle and looked at him with red eyes, then lowered his head and said nothing.
His hair was still wet and dripping, and he was crying like a wrinkled and shrunken sponge. The eyes that usually looked at people with a smile were now swollen into walnuts, staring pitifully and aggrievedly in front of Liang Ji’an.
“What’s wrong with your forehead?”
Liang Jian didn’t care about anything else and quickly lowered his head to check the injury on his forehead. Shen Lingjun whispered: “It’s nothing, I accidentally hit it.”
The skin wasn’t broken and bleeding, but there was a small bulge. Liang Jian didn’t ask Shen Lingjun for his opinion anymore. He found a dry towel and rubbed it on his hair a few times, turning the person into a fried hedgehog. Then he squeezed out the ointment and applied it on him with his fingers.
Shen Lingjun’s butt hurt so much that he couldn’t sit down, so he had to stand with his face raised and let Liang Ji’an apply the medicine for him. Liang Ji’an was much taller than him, so he was inevitably very close when he lowered his head to apply the medicine.
Normally, Shen Lingjun wouldn’t think too much about anything, and he would probably feel very happy, but what he just experienced in the study was still vivid in his mind. Even if Liang Ji’an deliberately distanced himself from him, he felt that their posture looked like they were about to kiss.
Liang Ji’an had just finished taking a shower. The moist water vapor was like the wind blowing after a summer rainstorm, sultry and scorching.
Shen Lingjun’s mind went blank, he couldn’t feel the pain in his forehead, and his limbs were so stiff that he didn’t dare to move. It wasn’t until the coolness of the ointment stung his skin that he barely regained consciousness.
Liang Jian put the ointment back into his hand and warned, “Remember to apply the ointment later.”
Shen Lingjun nodded. He thought Liang Ji’an was leaving, but his brother just turned around and closed the door. It seemed that he still had a lot to say to him tonight.
Fortunately, there was no ambiguity in his tone. He listed one, two, three, four, and five points in a clear and organized manner, as if he was holding a meeting for Shen Lingjun. The central topics were to let Shen Lingjun not worry about being kicked out and to seriously and deeply reflect on what went wrong with the “video” incident.
Both men were standing.
The room was large, but the space seemed inexplicably cramped. Shen Lingjun calmly took half a step back, still listening to Liang Ji’an’s words very seriously.
“It’s an accident to find out that you have a special body, but it won’t affect my attitude towards you. Don’t think too much about it.”
“Has your mother taken you to see a doctor?”
Shen Lingjun pinched his palm unconsciously and said, “I’ve seen it.”
“The doctor said that surgery is not necessary and it will not affect your health.”
Moreover, all the money at home was used by my mother’s bastard ex-husband to pay off debts, so I couldn’t afford the surgery.
Liang Ji’an asked: “Is the other set of organs mature?”
There was no hint of intimacy in his tone. He was just trying to understand some basic information. Shen Lingjun gradually relaxed and answered honestly: “Fortunately…” his voice became smaller and smaller, “I won’t be pregnant anyway.”
Liang Ji’an continued methodically: “From now on, I will arrange regular physical examinations for you twice every year. The information will be kept absolutely confidential, so you don’t have to worry.”
Before Shen Lingjun could say thank you, he changed the topic and said, “Now let’s talk about another thing.”
“I was a little too anxious in the study just now and didn’t have time to say a lot of things clearly.” Liang Ji’an’s tone became gentler. “The thing about the video is not about who the money you earned is used, nor is it about whether you are wearing clothes, Junjun.”
Shen Lingjun lowered his head and stared at his toes, saying inconsistently: “But they will praise me…”
“And I didn’t hurt anyone.”
Not knowing how his brain circuit was constructed, Liang Ji’an was inexplicably choked by him, and he roughly pieced together what was wrong with the child from his answer.
You need to gain recognition from others and not care about your own situation.
Liang Ji’an said patiently: “You are not hurting others, but you are hurting yourself. You know which is more serious, don’t you?”
“Even if you just use video recording as a pastime or a platform to vent your emotions, you don’t know whether what you are approaching is a cliff or a road. If you really miss the mark and fall into the abyss, who do you expect to save you?”
Shen Lingjun may indeed be a fool, but at least he is not a self-righteous fool. He cannot understand what others say over and over again, but he understands it when the explanation is clear for the third time. And it is not that he does not understand sometimes, but he has developed a self-deception protection mechanism since he was a child, and his first reaction is always to escape first.
“I’m sorry.” Shen Lingjun apologized: “I won’t record it again.”
Liang Ji’an rubbed his thumb on his cheek, half forcing and half coaxing him to raise his face. He knew how to coax people, especially Shen Lingjun.
“Don’t apologize to me.”
“And why should you listen to others praising you?” Liang Ji’an said: “There are many people around you who like you. He Wen is good to you, and it’s not entirely because of me.”
Shen Lingjun knew that of course he could sense the kindness of people around him, but he was always afraid. He felt that he was sometimes terrifying, like a monster who needed to be constantly fed love to survive.
He wanted to say that if they knew what I actually looked like, they would think I was a freak and they would avoid me.
Liang Jian seemed to know what he was thinking, “There are some things that others don’t need to know.”
“You have no obligation to let everyone know everything about you,” he chuckled: “And you only showed this little, and they all already like you.”
He didn’t finish the rest of the words, but Shen Lingjun completed it himself.
That’s enough.
He was coaxed into submission by Liang Ji’an’s words, like a kitten confused by someone’s smoothness. His eyes became a little blurred. He once again deeply reflected on his mistakes and promised not to make them again.
Liang Jian touched his head and said, “Take the medicine and go to bed early.”
They all avoid certain things invariably. Avoidance or silence is indeed applicable at certain moments.
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