Hate The Bright Moon Chapter 20

Chapter 23

Chi Huang held Chen Shilu’s waist, his face shrouded in moonlight seemed to be smiling but not smiling: “Aren’t you saying that you want to end this relationship with me? If you continue, it won’t end, right?”

Chen Shilu panted for a moment, and his eyes dropped with contempt: “Isn’t this you who deliberately seduced me?”

“Is wanting to be your friend also seduction?”

Chen Shilu grabbed Chi Huang’s shoulders hard, breathing heavily like he was angry: “What are your advantages that make me worthy of being your friend?”

“There are no merits worthy of being friends, but is there anything worthy of being friends?” Chi Huang leaned on the back of the old and almost falling apart chair, listless and deflated, “What you said is really sad.”

“Don’t talk nonsense, that’s an advantage. Just shut up.” Chen Shilu was impatient and even frowned.

“I don’t understand what you are thinking at all, why don’t you just tell me.”

“Do we have to talk about this now?” He grabbed the hair on the back of Chi Huang’s head and pulled him up, almost viciously, “I don’t want to think about anything right now, can you do it?”

“How can you use the Jiji method in a place like this, Mr. Chen?”

Chen Shilu knelt on the sofa with one leg and supported the back of the chair with both hands. The starry sky in his eyes gradually blurred into one piece. The moon seemed to melt, and the milky white halo continued to flow downward and expand until the darkness dissipated and only a patch of starlight suddenly appeared in front of his eyes.

Chen Shilu also seemed to melt, and his consciousness disappeared for a while.

When he recovered from his selflessness, it seemed as if he had been washed away by the mountain moon and evening breeze, making his whole body translucent.

Thinking back to those childhood shadows and the trauma of not being loved, they have actually become Chen Guzi’s rotten past.

From the moment he knew that it was difficult for his parents to level a bowl of water, and that he was unlucky enough to not be the favored one, he knew that this would not change based on his own good or bad qualities, and he also knew that it was not his fault.The only thing he can do is to love himself firmly even if no one in the world loves him.

Even if I made such a determination, I would always feel wronged when I was young because of my powerlessness.He just thought that when he grew up and became capable, he would not let himself suffer any more injustice.

So after becoming an independent adult, Chen Shilu took good care of himself again.He strives to meet his material and spiritual needs, focus on himself, and find the joy of life.He began to become confident, optimistic and loving life, and all of this in turn nourished him again and made him favored by many people.

He was too lazy to bother hating his parents, and he didn’t bother to be upset and jealous because his siblings got more than him, because he had already given himself the best life.

Chen Shilu cleaned himself up, arranged his clothes, and asked Chi Huang: “How to get down the mountain?”

Chi Huang, who has always been casual, also expressed his dissatisfaction at this time: “You really just retreated when you were done. I originally took you to see the stars, why don’t you take a few photos as a souvenir?”

“I can’t take pictures without special equipment. At my age, I can’t stay up all night. It’s time to go back.”

Chi Huang had no choice but to start the motorcycle reluctantly: “Come up.”

Looking at the back seat, Chen Shilu remembered the lingering fear he had felt all the way up earlier, and asked him first: “Since this is an observation deck, there should be other ways to go down the mountain, such as a motorway or something?”

“Why do you think it became an abandoned attraction? The other lane was cut off by a landslide and has never been repaired. We have to go back the same way.”

“You mean riding a motorcycle down the mountain from the woods in the middle of the night?”

“What if?”

Otherwise, you are such an idiot. Chen Shilu just wanted to scold his mother: “If you don’t want me to kill you, I will. I’ve never seen such an unreliable person like you.”

“Why did you start swearing again? Chen Shilu, I noticed that you didn’t recognize your relatives after you had fun. You were not like this at all just now. Do you have multiple personalities?”

“I was in trouble when I encountered a lunatic like you in my life.”

“…”

Chi Huang was silent for a long time and then came up with an idea: “I’ll give you the light. You go down to the woods. I’ll wait for you on the road first. Okay.”

“Stop giving me bad ideas.”

“How could this be a bad idea…Hey, aren’t you afraid of walking at night?”

Chen Shilu thought, this is just a night road. In this dense forest, anything could come out at night.

He lowered his voice and said, “You should stay together until dawn.”

Chi Huang agreed to him and held the lamp in front of his eyes, as if he had discovered a new world, and said with great interest, “You are actually afraid of walking at night.”

“Is it childish?”

“You also have cute parts.”

“Get out of here!”

The two of them sat together for a long night with nothing to do. There was almost no cell phone signal, only a night light and the stars in the sky.

I don’t know what Chen Shilu is thinking, and he has no intention of speaking. Chi Huang has nothing to say: “You said you have a sister, do you want a brother?”

“No.”

“Never thought about it?”

“Why do you want a younger brother? What good thing is that?”

“That’s true.” Chi Huang laughed, “But if I had a brother like you, everything would be different.”

Maybe he won’t feel bored and uninterested in anything like he does now.

“Does the difference mean that you also mess around with your brother?”

Chi Huang put away his smile and said in a horrified tone: “What you say sometimes is really scary.”

“You want a brother just because your parents are dead and you think a brother can be responsible for your life. Then let me tell you, a brother will not be responsible for your life. He will only turn you into a top and whip you around in circles.”

Chi Huang was silent for a while before speaking: “Chen Shilu, are you telling some hell joke? Sorry, I can’t laugh.”

As soon as the words came out of his mouth, Chen Shilu realized that he seemed to have said the wrong thing.Listening to what Chi Huang said again, it was clear that his too straightforward expression hurt the other party.

But he does not intend to apologize for this: “When people become adults, they should live their own lives. You can choose to dwell on the trauma of the past, but if you want to live happily, it is best to tell all the misfortunes you have experienced in the form of jokes, even if it is a joke from hell.”

The moon has moved to the west, and the night is getting very deep. The chirping insects in the mountains and forests have become sparse and mute, losing the activity in the first half of the night.It was well past Chen Shilu’s usual bedtime, and he was so sleepy that he kept yawning and squeezed tears from the corners of his eyes.

Chi Huang took off his coat from the motorcycle and put it on Chen Shilu’s shoulders: “If you are sleepy, just take a nap.”

He wanted to sleep. He looked around and saw that the only thing on the entire platform was the rotten and damaged couch under their butts. There was no place to lie down.

Chen Shilu yawned again. He was too sleepy to blame Chi Huang, but just told him: “Don’t do this kind of thing again in the future.”

There was no place to sleep, but he couldn’t stop his eyes from closing, so Chen Shilu leaned back on the chair and began to close his eyes and rest.

After a while, Chi Huang caught his shaking head and put it on his shoulder.

After a while, he slid completely into Chi Huang’s arms and fell asleep with his head on his legs.

There was a comfortable coolness in the summer night on the mountain. Chi Huang picked up the coat that had fallen to the ground and covered Chen Shilu again.

He extinguished the hanging lamp and lost the only source of light. His originally beautiful and passionate eyes showed a sharp and gleaming light like a beast under the moonlight.

He stared at the person in his arms motionlessly, like a wild animal staring at its prey. He had already seen through him.

Chi Huang gently caressed Chen Shilu’s cheek. Under this seemingly inhumane mask, he actually had a gentle and kind heart.The slightest sign of weakness and injury would make him take it all in stride.

Chen Shilu was so kind, so kind that he seemed to be tempting him to possess him and devour him.

He had never been interested in this kind of thing before, but Chen Shilu aroused a new interest in him.Chi Huang didn’t know, maybe there was something he wanted in the other person, although he didn’t know what it was yet.

It’s just that he hasn’t wanted anything for a long time, so long that he almost forgot this desire.

When his parents were alive, he was considered a very pampered child. His family was financially well-off, and he could easily get whatever he wanted. Sometimes, he didn’t even need to ask, the thing would be delivered to him.Later, his parents were gone, and nothing in this world belonged to him, and he also lost the desire to “want”.

Chi Huang was pleasantly surprised to be able to rediscover this desire and impulse. As for what he wanted, it was too late to study it slowly after he fully obtained Chen Shilu.

When the sky was dim, Chen Shilu woke up.He looked tired and sleepy. After sleeping on the couch all night, his neck and back were sore. He was also contaminated by the early morning fog and sneezed several times in succession.

He couldn’t stay in this place any longer, and as soon as it was daybreak, he said he would go home.

He didn’t want to experience that kind of fear again. He grabbed the branches and slid all the way down the forest. Not only did he fall twice, but his valuable leather shoes were completely scrapped.

Although this trip was not worth the loss, it was indeed impressive.Chen Shilu thought that whether it was the thrill of climbing a mountain on a motorcycle or the confusion and infatuation of riding on Chi Huang, it was probably a once-in-a-lifetime experience.

Although Chi Huang repeatedly stated that he was not sleepy, Chen Shilu was still worried that he was driving tired and wanted to take a taxi when he reached the village at the foot of the mountain.

Unfortunately, the village was too small and there were no taxis. They arrived too early and couldn’t rent a car. Chen Shilu bought two bottles of expired coffee from a small shop and drank it for Chi Huang before reluctantly sitting behind him and returning home.

After all this tossing, both of them were very tired. Chen Shilu had no strength to drive Chi Huang out anymore and agreed to let him sleep at his house.

Chi Huang walked into the room where he was used to sleeping as if he were returning to his own home. Chen Shilu caught him and said, “Take a shower before going to bed.”

“But I’m so tired and I don’t want to move.”

“Then go back to your own home.”

“It’s a bit annoying that you would threaten me like this…” Seeing that Chen Shilu was about to have an attack, Chi Huang quickly gave in, “…don’t worry, I will clean up before going to your bed.”

Chen Shilu went to wash himself first.

After washing, he was still uneasy, so he came out again to see if Chi Huang did as he said.

The answer was no, but she didn’t get on his bed or even get on the sofa. She just lay down on the carpet in front of the sofa and fell asleep.

Chen Shilu was so angry that he wanted to go up and kick him, but he couldn’t maintain human upbringing.

Then he remembered that he had been sleeping on his lap for several hours. When he got up in the morning, Chi Huang was rubbing his legs beside him without saying a word. Chen Shilu went back to the room to find a blanket and threw it on him.