BC Chapter 185

After they had dinner together, it was dusk when Lu Ziming saw Yao Jinglin off.

It has to be said that Lu Ziming’s cooking skills were indeed impeccable, and the two of them thoroughly enjoyed the meal. They chatted while eating, taking the opportunity to gain a deeper understanding of each other. However, due to Lu Ziming’s personality, Yao Jinglin did most of the asking at the table, while Lu Ziming was responsible for answering.

And what Yao Jinglin talked about was none other than the first time she met Lu Ziming.

“Speaking of which, you still can’t remember what happened during that time?” Yao Jinglin picked up a piece of food and put it in her bowl. She moved her fingers but didn’t rush to eat, instead asking what was most important to her.

Lu Ziming shook her head, “I only remember things before the disaster, my company, my colleagues, and my family.”

Although Yao Jinglin had already learned about this situation from Xu Rubing, she couldn’t help feeling a little frustrated when she heard Lu Ziming admit it herself. “Okay.”

She knew how slow Lu Ziming was to warm up to people. Because she had no friends, she always seemed very distant when interacting with people around her. Whether it was conversation or casual contact, she would occasionally reveal a sense of indifference and alienation. And she didn’t know this when she confirmed her feelings. She thought that with their few life-and-death experiences, getting close to her and cultivating their relationship would be a natural progression.

But she didn’t expect “amnesia” to happen in the middle of it. Facing someone who only had one impression of her, all her plans were useless. It was difficult to deepen her relationship with her or confess her feelings. After all, Lu Ziming’s memory of her only remained on that one encounter.

Fortunately, she was clear that Lu Ziming wasn’t completely indifferent to her, otherwise, she, who was also pursuing someone for the first time, really wouldn’t know what to do.

Seeing the disappointment in Yao Jinglin’s eyes, Lu Ziming felt a pang of bitterness in her heart. Although she had amnesia, she wasn’t unable to perceive other people’s emotions. She saw Yao Jinglin’s frustration and disappointment. Coupled with the other party’s previous confession, she immediately understood about 70% to 80%.

In order to ease the low atmosphere between them and get Yao Jinglin out of her frustrated state, Lu Ziming took the initiative to bring up the first time they met, “Then… do you remember what happened when we first met? What exactly happened then…”

Hearing Lu Ziming mention the past, Yao Jinglin was slightly stunned, then a gleam flashed in her eyes, as if she was surprised that Lu Ziming would take the initiative to mention this topic. She perked up and recalled, “How could I not remember? We were at each other’s throats at that time, and neither of us thought much of the other.”

Speaking of this, Yao Jinglin couldn’t help but laugh, “However, even though I was the one who suspected your identity first, you still saved me without hesitation when faced with the attack of the giant zombie. I was really grateful in my heart.”

“Later, when I asked you to help me find survivors, although I pointed a gun at you, I actually didn’t mean to hurt you. It’s just that the time was urgent and it was a matter of life and death, so I had to use that disgraceful method to threaten you.”

“Even if you hadn’t turned back at that time, but had chosen to ignore it and leave directly, I wouldn’t have really shot and hurt you.”

“After that, if you hadn’t helped me save Lin Xiang and escorted us to reunite with the surviving students, given the danger at that time, Lin Xiang and I probably wouldn’t have survived either. By the way, speaking of this… I almost forgot, Lin Xiang also asked me to apologize to you, because she had just woken up at that time, and her mind was still confused. She felt very sorry for her malice towards you and for almost hurting you. She also wanted to find an opportunity to thank you for saving her life. I have already told her your current address, and perhaps she will come to visit you in a few days…” Yao Jinglin told Lu Ziming everything that had happened between them in one breath. To be honest, it seemed a bit too hasty, but after she started talking about the past, she inexplicably felt some resentment in her heart, always feeling that this series of events was clearly caused by Lu Ziming, but now she had withdrawn and become an outsider simply because of the word “amnesia,” leaving herself alone consciously trapped in this emotional vortex unable to extricate herself… This was really unfair.

“You said… I actually saved you several times at the risk of my life?” Lu Ziming successfully grasped the key point in Yao Jinglin’s entire narrative, but this fact really made her feel surprised. She had thought that there might have been some entanglement between her and Yao Jinglin that made the other party fall in love with her, but she didn’t expect that she had actually saved Yao Jinglin many times…

Wait, could it be that her feelings for Yao Jinglin at that time were already deep enough to make her reckless? She couldn’t help but re-examine her feelings for Yao Jinglin, as well as the strong, uncontrollable, and undeniable reaction her body had given when faced with Yao Jinglin’s touch before.

A wonderful feeling spread in Lu Ziming’s heart. She realized that her feelings for Yao Jinglin came earlier and were deeper than she had previously realized. Those feelings buried in her heart finally surged in her chest like a huge wave slowly pulled by gravity.

“Yes. You saved me, saved Lin Xiang, and saved others.” Yao Jinglin, who had just finished eating at this time, put down her chopsticks and looked at Lu Ziming firmly and solemnly. “You are the savior of all of us, and also the most special existence in my eyes. After you secretly left the survivor team, I have been thinking about you. At first, I thought I just needed your help to complete my rescue work, so I often thought that if you were still by my side, it would be great, but gradually, I always thought of you at various moments, but I had to try to persuade myself not to think of you anymore. At that time, I was very tired. At first, I thought it was the fatigue brought about by the work of settling and rescuing the survivors, but later, I slowly realized that it wasn’t, it wasn’t a work problem at all. I was tired because I had been suppressing my feelings. I didn’t realize one thing – I had actually fallen in love with you long ago.”

Many times, when you ask people in love for the reason why they love each other, you will get the answer “no reason.” And people who have never been in love always think that it is perfunctory.

Actually, it is not. When your soul chooses the person it recognizes from the beginning, there is indeed no reason. Perhaps before you met that person, you had clear mate selection criteria, clear judgment, and were even more sure that you could not be a so-called love brain, and had never had special thoughts about people of the same gender.

But when that person appears, you will find that your world, standards, and plans can be completely shattered in an instant, without reason, without foreshadowing, without preparation. Like a destined calamity, you have no right to refuse. After eye contact, your body, mind, and soul instantly become the other person’s prisoner. From then on, your eyes only want to look at that person, and all your attention will be unconsciously attracted by that person. In terms of emotions, you have completely lost your autonomy.

This is the case for Yao Jinglin, and isn’t it also the case for Lu Ziming? Otherwise, she would not have saved Yao Jinglin again without realizing it after she lost her memory. Obviously, her body had already realized her feelings before her rational consciousness.

If the situation they encountered at that time had not been too special, maybe they should have confessed to each other long ago. However, the situation at that time was too complicated, and by chance, it was not until this moment that both of them had a deeper understanding of their own and each other’s feelings.