BC Chapter 175

Yao Jinglin certainly didn’t expect that Lu Ziming’s current aloofness and wariness towards her stemmed from the fear that she would be captured and used as a “lab rat” for endless experiments.

However, in Yao Jinglin’s view, no matter what reason Lu Ziming had for wanting to distance herself, she would not give up easily. Just like she had gone to great lengths to use all sorts of connections to find Lu Ziming here, as long as she had the determination to do it, the twists and turns of the road were never a problem.

Moreover, not seeing Lu Ziming for the past few days made her feel like she lacked focus in everything she did, as if she couldn’t completely calm down. Now that she had finally seen Lu Ziming, she felt that her wandering soul had finally landed and returned to her body.

This feeling of her body being out of control because of someone’s existence was something she had never experienced before. It was novel to her, but she wasn’t afraid of it. It was as if she had reacquainted herself with herself and the world she existed in because of one person. From the moment she realized this feeling, she felt that everything around her had changed. In the past, she only knew how to rush forward in life, as if everything she wanted was ahead, and only ahead. But she didn’t know exactly how far ahead, and she wasn’t clear about what was ahead. It’s just that everyone around her lived like this, so she followed the direction of the crowd, being swept along and carried forward in a daze.

Even marriage, companionship, and love, things she had not yet experienced, were all in accordance with her family’s arrangements. If she wasn’t always so busy with work and didn’t have time to go home, she would probably already be at the stage of discussing marriage.

Therefore, she envied He Linglong in life’s choices. Linglong always had her own ideas and courage, dared to set her own goals and work towards them, and never blindly listened to the arguments of those around her, only insisting on her own ideas. Like taking the civil service exam, Linglong’s family also wanted her to live a so-called stable life and advised her accordingly. But in the end, she chose the research work she loved.

Yao Jinglin knew that He Linglong was very independent and brave before, but at that time she only envied her. Now… she wanted to actively learn from He Linglong for the sake of this feeling in her heart. Therefore, the day after leaving Qingshui City, she tried to contact He Linglong. On the one hand, she was worried about her safety. After confirming that she was still alive through various contacts, she tried to contact He Linglong. On the other hand, after the rescue team entered Qingshui City, clearing was the first thing to do, and only He Linglong knew what was inside the underground research institute that she had blown up. When the ground cleanup operation was over, the next step would definitely be to excavate the dangerous underground research institute.

After Yao Jinglin and He Linglong connected, He Linglong briefly recounted what happened after that to Yao Jinglin, and the two agreed on a time to go to the location of the research institute together again. Of course, this time they would bring excavation technicians from the government.

The reason why she was able to restrain the urge to come to Lu Ziming these past few days was also because the work these past few days was very important. She couldn’t leave unless she had fully handed over her work to the other staff members.

In the past, she was forced to accept her family’s arrangements because she knew that her family would never harm her no matter what, and she had never seriously thought about how life should be. It was as if even if she thought about it, she would still be at a loss – because she had never urgently wanted to get anything. Moreover, growing up in a family where she didn’t have to worry about food and clothing, even if she finally wanted something one day, she would find that her family had already prepared everything for her. Everything she wanted or didn’t want was readily available. This made her life lack any challenge.

It was not until she became a trainee soldier and lived a training life that others saw as hardship and hard work that she felt that life was lovely again. Because everything here was hard-earned, and she had to go through a long period of persistence and dedication to get a satisfactory result. This allowed her to see her own changes and growth, and she worked hard to become stronger every day. It also made her realize that even if she was separated from the seemingly omnipotent family protection, she could still do something and accomplish something through her own efforts. This sense of accomplishment in her heart strengthened her determination to do the work she wanted to do in the future. Although she still didn’t choose to resist her family’s decision after that and still took the civil service exam, she didn’t choose clerical work when filling out her desired work direction, but instead chose the front-line work she yearned for more.

Maybe it was from that time that she had some subtle changes, but she herself didn’t fully realize it. It was not until she felt the richer emotions surging deep in her heart on Lu Ziming that she strengthened her determination to overthrow everything before.

There are many people who believe in fate. But now Yao Jinglin is more willing to believe that everything is in her own hands. If the book of fate doesn’t have a place for her and Lu Ziming, then she will draw it on herself and make it happen herself.