RTIWTLITEOTW Chapter 79

Chapter 79: Worries

This morning, sunlight streamed into the room through the gaps in the curtains, and Jiang Xianchuan slowly woke up. He groggily felt a pair of strong arms wrapped tightly around him. He focused his eyes and saw that it was Li Lingyu.

Jiang Xianchuan tried to gently break free from the constricting embrace, but even the slightest movement seemed to touch a sensitive nerve. Li Lingyu instantly opened his eyes, a hint of vigilance and unease in his gaze. “Where are you going? To find Qi An?” His voice carried a clear note of interrogation.

Jiang Xianchuan was startled by the sudden question and quickly explained, “No, I just want to go to the bathroom.” Looking at Li Lingyu’s face, slightly distorted by nervousness, Jiang Xianchuan couldn’t help but feel a pang of pity and hurriedly reassured him.

Only after receiving a satisfactory answer did Li Lingyu slowly release his arms. Jiang Xianchuan, feeling as if he’d been granted amnesty, rushed to the bathroom. After taking care of his physiological needs, Jiang Xianchuan walked out of the bathroom, only to be surprised to find Li Lingyu following closely behind him like a shadow.

Returning to his desk, Jiang Xianchuan began to deal with the mountain of documents. Li Lingyu sat quietly beside him, sometimes flipping through the books in his hands, sometimes staring intently at Jiang Xianchuan’s busy figure, a subtle smile occasionally appearing at the corner of his lips.

Finally, Jiang Xianchuan couldn’t help but break the silence, asking with a puzzled expression, “Do you… have nothing to do today?” Li Lingyu gently shook his head, his gaze still fixed on Jiang Xianchuan, and softly said, “Watching you counts as something, right?”

Jiang Xianchuan was slightly taken aback by his words and sighed helplessly. “How did you learn that from Qi An?” As soon as he finished speaking, Li Lingyu instantly bristled like a cat whose tail had been stepped on. “Why are you bringing him up again!”

Seeing this, Jiang Xianchuan quickly raised his hands in surrender and coaxed gently, “Okay, okay, I won’t mention him. Be good, don’t be angry.” With that, he opened his arms and hugged Li Lingyu tightly, feeling the other’s warm body temperature and soft breathing.

Li Lingyu nestled in Jiang Xianchuan’s arms, looked down at him, and suddenly asked, “Do you coax Qi An like this too?” Jiang Xianchuan firmly shook his head, looked deeply into Li Lingyu’s eyes, and said solemnly, “I’ve only ever coaxed you.”

Hearing these words, a bright smile bloomed on Li Lingyu’s face, as warm and heartening as the spring sunshine. However, even he couldn’t explain why his heart was filled with such a sweet feeling at this moment.

“Why can’t you stand Qi An? Is it just because he’s a zombie?” Jiang Xianchuan blinked his large, bright eyes and looked at Li Lingyu with confusion, trying to find an answer on his cold and handsome face.

However, Li Lingyu pursed his lips tightly and didn’t say a word, seemingly unwilling to offer any explanation. But in his heart, he simply couldn’t stand Qi An. And it wasn’t just Qi An; he held an almost hostile attitude towards anyone who got close to Jiang Xianchuan.

Every time he saw Jiang Xianchuan smiling at someone else, a strong feeling of jealousy surged into his heart like a tide, almost swallowing him whole. He so desperately wanted Jiang Xianchuan’s smile to belong only to him. He longed to be the only one who could receive his wholehearted affection and make him happy.

At this moment, Li Lingyu’s originally handsome face became even gloomier due to the turmoil in his heart. Jiang Xianchuan keenly noticed the change in his mood and said softly, “Okay, I won’t mention him, okay? Don’t be upset!” Jiang Xianchuan’s gentle words were like a spring breeze, softly caressing Li Lingyu’s heart and instantly pulling him back to reality from his complicated thoughts.

Li Lingyu slowly raised his head, his eyes meeting Jiang Xianchuan’s. Looking at the person in front of him who made his heart flutter, he nodded slightly, but couldn’t help but wonder to himself, “When will you truly understand my heart? And when will I have the courage to hold your hand tightly and declare to the world that you are my lover?”

“Chuan Chuan, I’m going out for a walk.” “Okay, go ahead.” After Li Lingyu left, he found Lin Pianyue. After listening to Li Lingyu’s worries, Lin Pianyue shook her head, “I think you can directly tell him your feelings.” “I’m afraid he won’t like me, and we won’t even be able to be friends then.” “Are you willing to just be friends?”

Lin Pianyue’s words were like a thunderclap, resounding in Li Lingyu’s heart and stirring up layers of ripples, causing him to fall into deep thought.

Indeed, deep down, he was unwilling to remain in an ordinary friendship with Jiang Xianchuan. He longed to break this restraint and deepen the emotional bond between them, developing it into a more intimate romantic relationship. Faced with this tempting idea, he was hesitant and afraid to easily bet on this high-stakes gamble.

Because he knew that if he lost the bet, Jiang Xianchuan would likely develop a feeling of disgust towards him, and they wouldn’t even be able to be friends. Thinking of this, Li Lingyu couldn’t help but feel a chill rising from his spine.

“Think about it carefully.” Lin Pianyue left these words behind and turned to leave. Her light steps seemed to take away the last ray of hope in Li Lingyu’s heart. At this moment, Shi Yi, who was passing by, noticed Li Lingyu, who looked dazed and distraught, and asked with concern, “What’s wrong with you? You look so lost.”

Li Lingyu raised his head, looked at Shi Yi with somewhat dull eyes, and slowly uttered a few words, “I like Jiang Xianchuan.”

Upon hearing this, the corners of Shi Yi’s mouth slightly turned up, revealing a knowing smile. He said, “I know. Anyone with a pair of eyes can probably see it. He’s the only one who’s still in the dark.”

Li Lingyu sighed helplessly and continued, “I really want him to be my lover, but I’m afraid that if I say what’s in my heart, we won’t even be able to be friends.”

After listening to Li Lingyu’s heartfelt outpouring of troubles, Shi Yi chuckled softly. It turned out that Jiang Xianchuan had also approached Shi Yi a few days ago and poured out his grievances, complaining about Li Lingyu’s overly intimate behavior and that vague, ambiguous attitude.

Recalling these things now, Shi Yi felt that perhaps this was an excellent opportunity. So, he patted Li Lingyu on the shoulder and encouraged him, “Just go for it, I support you! Don’t always be so timid. Sometimes being brave might bring you unexpected happiness.”

Receiving Shi Yi’s support and encouragement, Li Lingyu felt slightly relieved, but he still couldn’t completely eliminate his inner worries and concerns, remaining hesitant. In the end, he decided to return to Jiang Xianchuan’s side first.

When he returned to the original place, he found Jiang Xianchuan chatting and laughing happily with Qi An. The two looked very happy and harmonious, and the scene before him was like a sharp dagger, piercing straight into Li Lingyu’s heart. The flames of jealousy instantly engulfed him…