SYLM Chapter 119

Chapter 119 “Gu Wan Jun, you dare to abandon me one more time and see what happens.”

Chapter 119 “Gu Wan Jun, you dare to abandon me one more time and see what happens.”

Having already taken a day off yesterday, it wouldn’t be justifiable to take another day off today.

The rarely worn beige turtleneck cashmere sweater was unearthed early in the morning, perfectly concealing the scattered red marks on her collarbone and behind her ears.

Fortunately, it’s autumn now, so wearing a turtleneck isn’t out of place.

Gu Wan Jun kept thinking this until she entered the office.

However, the reality was—

“Oh, Teacher Gu is wearing a turtleneck again today.”

Meeting the gossipy gazes of her colleagues, Gu Wan Jun was taken aback, then smiled and said, “Well, isn’t it autumn now?”

“Indeed.” The colleague nodded, but still seemed puzzled, “But our office is quite warm.”

“I’ve caught a bit of a cold recently and I’m afraid of the cold,” Teacher Gu lied without batting an eye.

“Oh right, right, the director said at the meeting yesterday that you took a leave of absence because of a fever, so you should wear more.”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun skillfully resolved her colleague’s gossipy intentions with a few words. No one saw the tips of her ears quietly turning red the moment she opened her teaching notes.

She seems to have a bit of a fever again now.

—-

In the evening after school, Chen Lu drove to pick up Gu Wan Jun.

After getting in the car, Chen Lu said in a very calm tone that she had arranged to meet Li Sa tonight.

The news came so suddenly that Gu Wan Jun blinked rapidly, stunned for a full few seconds.

Chen Lu smiled and asked, “What’s wrong, are you dumbfounded?”

Gu Wan Jun felt a slight tightness in her chest, wanting to say something, but not knowing what to say.

Say she wasn’t ready?

But she had clearly been looking forward to such a conversation for a long time.

Say everything was ready?

That would be too self-deceiving.

She simply hadn’t figured out how to face Li Sa.

Seeing Gu Wan Jun’s hesitant and tangled look, how could Chen Lu not understand her difficulties? She squeezed her palm and said in a voice as gentle as a feather brushing against her heart:

“Don’t worry, I’m here, you just need to show up.”

“No.” Gu Wan Jun shook her head decisively, subconsciously holding the little girl’s hand back, her tone firm: “We agreed to face it together.”

Chen Lu paused, her eyebrows curving into beautiful crescent moons. She leaned forward and kissed her lover’s lips: “Okay, together.”

A certain little turtle has made progress, no longer running away at the last minute.

This time is really different.

—-

The meeting place was set in a highly private restaurant booth.

Before entering, Gu Wan Jun took several deep breaths, so nervous that a thin layer of sweat oozed from her palms, but she never let go of Chen Lu’s hand.

“Don’t be afraid.” Chen Lu whispered in her ear, their fingers intertwined.

The moment the door opened, the imagined tension didn’t appear.

Li Sa had arrived early. When she saw the two of them holding hands as they entered, she beamed with joy, almost setting off fireworks on the spot.

“Finally! Finally! You two.”

Li Sa said while waving her hands, her eyebrows dancing. Gu Wan Jun was stunned by her words and froze on the spot. She subconsciously looked at Chen Lu, who was calm, even with a bit of composure as if she had expected this. Chen Lu led Gu Wan Jun to sit down, looking at Li Sa with a sincere tone:

“Thank you this time.”

“It’s nothing, just a small favor.” Li Sa waved her hand nonchalantly, the emerald pendant on her ear swaying into people’s eyes as she moved: “My days as a third wheel are finally over.”

“I know a few author studios that are releasing images recently. I’ve already given them your contact information, so someone should be contacting you soon.”

“Tsk, Chen Lu, what are you doing? Why are you being so formal with me? Are you being distant?”

Li Sa frowned symbolically, expressing her dissatisfaction, but in less than a second, her attitude took a 180-degree turn:

“But since you’ve taken the trouble to recommend me, I won’t decline. Don’t worry, my studio’s image packages guarantee customer satisfaction, and your recommendation will definitely not be wasted.”

“……”

Listening to the two of them chatting back and forth, this was completely different from the scene Gu Wan Jun had imagined.

Before coming, she had prepared herself to completely abandon her dignity and accept condemnation, scolding, and even slaps. But what is going on?

Does anyone break up this happily? What exactly is going on?

Everyone present was smart and saw the confusion and bewilderment in Gu Wan Jun’s eyes. Li Sa raised her eyebrows and chuckled, explaining:

“Teacher Gu, I apologize for any previous offenses. How was my acting? Pretty good, right?”

“Acting…?”

“Yeah, you probably guessed it, right? I’m not Chen Lu’s girlfriend at all. She has only ever had you in her heart.”

“……”

A single sentence stirred up a thousand waves. Gu Wan Jun’s heart jumped heavily, her face changing drastically. Seeing her shock, Li Sa continued to add fuel to the fire in a leisurely tone:

“Over the years, I’ve had many friends who wanted to get to know Chen Lu, but she—”

Chen Lu coughed lightly, glaring at Li Sa with a displeased expression: “That’s enough.”

Why is she still talking endlessly?

Receiving the warning look, Li Sa pouted, shrugging her shoulders somewhat aggrievedly.

What’s wrong? Isn’t what she said the truth? Many people do like Chen Lu.

Sure enough, it’s different after getting back together. Look, she’s only said one more sentence, and Chen Lu is already nervous.

Oh well, having a significant other these days is really untouchable.

—–

After the completely unexpected meal ended, Li Sa said goodbye to Chen Lu at the restaurant entrance. Before getting into the car, she joked with Chen Lu that she had to be at the main table when they got married. Chen Lu jokingly replied that the main table probably wouldn’t have enough seats, so she could just sit on the runway.

On the way home, Gu Wan Jun didn’t say a word.

In fact, she had been silent since she heard Li Sa say at the dinner table that she wasn’t Chen Lu’s girlfriend.

Li Sa is not Chen Lu’s girlfriend.

Chen Lu has never had anyone else.

For five years, the little girl has been alone.

Gu Wan Jun’s heart ached faintly. She suddenly wished that the words at the dinner table had been Li Sa’s lies, because she couldn’t imagine how Chen Lu had spent so many sleepless nights alone over the years.

Gu Wan Jun didn’t say a single word until they got home.

Chen Lu could tell that this person was throwing a tantrum, just like in high school when she was the first to say they should keep their distance, but then turned around and secretly sulked when she saw her eating with Qin Hao Yang.

How could there be such a person?

A sulky ghost.

Is it her fault about the Li Sa thing? It was clearly a certain little turtle who kept hiding in her shell and never asked her, and even made her stomach hurt for several days because she kept mentioning Li Sa.

Now the little turtle is getting angry first.

There’s no logic to that.

—-

After dinner, the two went to the study to prepare lessons and write, just like usual.

Since getting back together, Chen Lu’s desk has been moved back to face Gu Wan Jun’s. At this moment, that person was acting stubborn and not talking, so Chen Lu simply didn’t speak either. The two were immersed in their work, and all that could be heard in the study was the rustling of pen tips across paper and the light tapping of keyboards.

After who knows how long, the fingers typing on the keyboard stopped as if waking from a dream, a hint of helplessness flashing in her crescent eyes.

Well, she typed on the keyboard all night, and not a single word was usable.

Sure enough, people with worries are not suitable for work.

Chen Lu shook her head and simply pushed the computer aside. She rested her chin on one hand, her gaze unscrupulously tracing the outline of the person opposite her.

Slightly furrowed eyebrows, a straight nose, full lips, a chest rising and falling with each breath…

The hands of the clock just pointed to ten o’clock in the evening.

Chen Lu stretched languidly in a serious manner, gently tapping the opposite table with her fingertip, her voice a bit lazy: “I’m sleepy, let’s go back to sleep.”

The pen tip, which had been moving smoothly, suddenly stopped, and ink stained a small spot on the paper. Gu Wan Jun didn’t raise her head, her voice overly calm:

“I still have work to finish, you go to sleep first.”

An indifferent tone.

She’s still sulking.

Chen Lu narrowed her eyes. She got up directly, took three steps in two, and went around to the opposite side. Before Gu Wan Jun could react, her hands were already on the armrests of the chair, trapping her tightly in her arms.

The pen in her hand fell to the ground with a clatter. A trace of panic flashed in Gu Wan Jun’s eyes. Her body leaned back subconsciously, but that only made her sink deeper into the back of the chair. Chen Lu’s faint grapefruit wine scent overwhelmed her, and she had nowhere to escape.

“I can’t sleep alone.” Chen Lu leaned over, her nose almost touching the nose of the person in her arms, her voice soft and gentle: “You accompany me.”

From this angle, she could clearly see Gu Wan Jun’s suddenly contracted pupils and the slightly red tips of her ears.

Sure enough, as soon as the sleep problem was mentioned, this person immediately tensed up, turning her face away with some awkwardness, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible:

“You go take a shower first, I’ll go back in a little while.”

“No.”

Chen Lu pushed forward even further, deliberately breathing on the ear of the person in her arms: “I want you to come back with me now.”

“I said I’ll go back in a little while.” Gu Wan Jun tried to maintain her composure, but her trembling ending betrayed her.

Tsk, still stubborn.

The little turtle has turned into a little clam, hasn’t she?

Chen Lu’s eyes darkened, and she directly reached out and picked the person up from the chair. Gu Wan Jun was caught off guard, and before her exclamation could land, she was placed on the table. Chen Lu supported herself on either side of her, trapping her between the table and herself.

This height was just right for them to look at each other, and Chen Lu could clearly see the panic and shyness flashing in those peach blossom eyes.

“You, what are you doing?” Meeting those bright and hot eyes so close, Gu Wan Jun’s voice trembled, and her fingers helplessly grabbed the lesson plan paper under her: “I’m preparing a lesson.”

Picking up a strand of the person in her arms and lightly wrapping it around her finger, Chen Lu’s tone sounded a bit aggrieved:

“Does Teacher Gu have a lot of lessons to prepare?”

“Um…a lot.”

Gu Wan Jun tried to dodge backward, but Chen Lu grabbed her lower back with her other hand.

“So many that you’re willing to let me stay in an empty room alone?”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun stopped talking, her eyelashes fluttering as she lowered her head. She reached out and pushed Chen Lu’s shoulder, but couldn’t move her.

“Chen Lu.” Gu Wan Jun took a deep breath, trying to make her voice sound calm: “I said, I need to prepare a lesson.”

“Gu Wan Jun.” Chen Lu didn’t budge, silently increasing the strength of her arms around her waist: “I also said, I don’t like you hiding things from me.”

“This time it was clearly you—”

Speaking impulsively, Gu Wan Jun suddenly stopped, biting her lower lip in annoyance.

Finally pried open this clam shell.

Chen Lu’s eyes lit up, leaning forward, almost pressing Gu Wan Jun against the desk: “Clearly I what?”

“…Nothing—Hiss!”

Before she could finish speaking, a slight stinging pain suddenly came from her lower lip!

Chen Lu bit her again!

Gu Wan Jun gasped, subconsciously grabbing Chen Lu’s collar, pleading:

“Don’t bite, if you bite again, I won’t be able to teach tomorrow…”

“Teaching isn’t for me anyway.”

Chen Lu wrinkled her nose, her voice a bit aggrieved: “It’s not easy to say a word to me and you’re still being insincere, it’s just irritating.”

As she spoke, she deliberately bit lightly on those lips that looked a bit swollen, her tone leisurely:

“It’s better to bite them swollen, that way you won’t have to speak.”

“……”

Seeing that Chen Lu seemed to be getting serious, Gu Wan Jun’s voice immediately softened, with a hint of pleading:

“Don’t…”

“Then will you tell me or not?”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun lowered her head, and after a long while, she silently buried her face in the other person’s shoulder, her voice muffled:

“Why are you like this? It was clearly you who lied to me first…”

Finally willing to say it.

Chen Lu curved her eyes, subconsciously tightening her arms around the other person’s waist. She kissed the top of Gu Wan Jun’s head, her tone gentle:

“But you also came out to your parents behind my back.”

“…That’s different…”

“How is it different?”

The person in her arms stopped talking, and after a long time, suddenly rubbed against her neck, a burst of wet sobs scalding her heart:

“You’ve been alone for these five years, it must have been very hard, right? I’m sorry…I’m really sorry…”

Chen Lu’s smile froze, her heart trembling violently.

So this person wasn’t throwing a tantrum, but blaming herself.

Gu Wan Jun raised her head, holding Chen Lu’s face in both hands, the tenderness and gentleness in her eyes so strong that it was about to overflow:

“Lu Lu.”

“When I rejected you back then, I didn’t know if it was the right thing to do, but I felt that loving someone should mean sincerely wanting the best for them. If I really loved you, I should let you pursue a better life, instead of trapping you by my side…”

Her thumb brushed across Chen Lu’s slightly wet eyes, Gu Wan Jun blinked, her voice very soft. She would never have said these words before, but at this moment, she wanted to give Chen Lu everything she could give, including that heart that no longer belonged to her.

“Later, when I heard that you were studying abroad, saw that your published novels were being liked by more and more people, and saw that you were getting better and better, I would tell myself in my heart, see, the decision you made back then was right, Chen Lu was supposed to live this kind of brilliant life.”

“It wasn’t until I saw you again at the class reunion that I realized how selfish I was. I couldn’t let you go, I longed for you. I haven’t stopped loving you for a moment in five years, but what qualifications do I have to ask for your forgiveness?”

“Later, Li Sa appeared, and you said she was your girlfriend. At that time, I thought my life would just be like this. I shouldn’t, I had no right, but I despicably envied everyone who approached you. Every time I saw you smile at other people and talk to other people, I went crazy with jealousy, but how could I say these selfish thoughts?”

“The night you got drunk, I didn’t hold the line. I fled the next day. I felt like I had ruined your life. If I could do it again, as long as you could be safe and happy, even if there was no me in your life, I would—”

The words she didn’t say were sealed by a hot kiss, the muffled sound carrying an unprecedented sincerity and pain:

“Gu Wan Jun, you dare to abandon me one more time and see what happens.”

“I will die.”

“I really will die.”

“……”

Hearing these words, Gu Wan Jun’s nose felt even more sore, and her arms around her waist tightened even more, wishing she could knead the person in her arms into her bones. She didn’t know how to appease her insecure lover, so she could only hold the face of the person in front of her and offer herself.

The taste of tears spread on her tongue, but all the bitterness turned into sweetness.

No matter the past or the present, thankfully, they are still them.