SYLM Chapter 118

Chapter 118 “Sister, you never even coaxme.”

Chapter 118 “Sister, you never even coaxme.”

For Chen Lu to be able to say that Tang Ying truly loves Fu Yi Wen, it wasn’t easy. Her perception of Tang Ying has indeed changed.

In Chen Lu’s mind, Tang Ying had always been the kind of person who acted recklessly and would use any means to achieve her goals.

But not this time.

On such a deeply rooted matter, Tang Ying surprisingly became uncharacteristically cautious, which was completely out of character for her.

If this doesn’t count as love.

It was also because of this that, even though Chen Lu regretted revealing Fu Yi Wen’s whereabouts, if she could do it again, she would still make the same choice when she heard Tang Ying express her feelings.

Some things are missed forever, but some people are worth giving another chance.

This was something Tang Ying had said to her at the hospital before.

Who knows.

America is so big, whether she can find her really depends on fate. If love has its own destiny, then whether she can find her depends on how much Tang Ying truly loves her.

Some answers should perhaps be found by those who seek them themselves.

—-

Three hours after the video call ended, the sound of water trickled in the bathroom. Chen Lu, who came to the bedroom to get her pajamas, received another video request from her friend Jiang Zhen Zhen.

“Hey, Zhen Zhen?”

“Lu Lu, Teacher Tang has already booked the earliest flight to America.”

Jiang Zhen Zhen’s slightly hurried breathing came from the other end of the phone. Chen Lu’s crescent-shaped eyes flashed with understanding, and she sighed softly, nodding, “Yeah, I guessed it.”

“And…” Jiang Zhen Zhen paused, her tone sounding a bit complex, “Before leaving, Teacher Tang asked a lot of details about Fu Yi Wen, what colors she likes, what she loves to eat, even… she even asked which side she likes to sleep on.”

A trace of helplessness flashed in Chen Lu’s eyes: “Cramming at the last minute?”

Jiang Zhen Zhen shook her head: “I don’t think so. Lu Lu, I have a feeling… Teacher Tang actually knew all along, but never expressed it.”

Chen Lu was taken aback: “Really?”

“Yeah.” Jiang Zhen Zhen nodded seriously, as if she remembered something, her tone suddenly filled with a bit of worry: “By the way, Lu Lu, is Fu Yi Wen really okay?”

“……”

Thinking of those two unpleasant faces, Chen Lu’s jawline tightened instantly, but her voice remained calm:

“Don’t worry, she’s fine. Someone is taking care of her. I originally wanted to tell you when it happened, but I was afraid you would be too busy with schoolwork.”

“I understand.” Jiang Zhen Zhen smiled gently: “By the way, how are you doing lately? Are you okay?”

“I…”

Chen Lu opened her mouth, her throat a little dry.

How could she summarize the entanglements of this period in a few words, from reunion to probing, from pretending to be drunk to living together, those restless nights, those hesitant moments… Where should she even begin?

Just as Chen Lu was struggling with where to start, a gentle voice floated from the bathroom at an inopportune moment:

“Lu Lu, the bathwater is ready. Which scent of essential oil bath bomb do you want? Still the magnolia one?”

“……”

The soft voice landed, and the surrounding air froze instantly.

The hand holding the phone tightened suddenly, and Chen Lu responded almost reflexively: “Yeah, the magnolia one.”

Looking down at the screen again, she saw her friend in the video wide-eyed, her mouth slightly open, as if she had been paused.

Chen Lu: “……”

Jiang Zhen Zhen: “?!”

The two stared at each other for several seconds, and anyone who didn’t know better would have thought the video was frozen.

A surge of heat rushed from her neck to her earlobes, flushing Chen Lu’s entire face red. She lowered her voice, her tone a bit hurried:

“I haven’t had time to tell you yet, Gu Wan Jun and I are back together.”

“Um…” Jiang Zhen Zhen blinked, nodding a beat later, “I heard…”

Her originally gentle voice was now a bit erratic, clearly not having recovered from the shock.

She wasn’t deaf.

She heard it.

The vague but clear voice just now was clearly Gu Wan Jun’s.

Was today some special day? The things that happened in one day were more dramatic than all the years she’d spent in graduate school combined.

Jiang Zhen Zhen felt like her brain was a bit overloaded.

However, more than shock, her face was filled with unconcealable worry. This hesitant appearance softened Chen Lu’s heart.

“Zhen Zhen.” Chen Lu smiled and said softly but firmly, “I’m very happy right now.”

“Yeah, I know…” Jiang Zhen Zhen responded softly.

As a close friend who had witnessed Chen Lu’s entire emotional journey, she knew better than anyone what Gu Wan Jun meant to Chen Lu.

Gu Wan Jun was Chen Lu’s happiness.

But…

As if thinking of something, Jiang Zhen Zhen frowned unconsciously.

The rainy night five years ago trapped not only Chen Lu, but also the people around Chen Lu.

After the university acceptance letters came out, everyone went to study in different places. Chen Lu went to Canada. Jiang Zhen Zhen clearly remembered that for a long time after that, every time they video chatted, Chen Lu’s eyes were empty, like a broken doll who lost her soul. Later, she learned that Chen Lu often had acid reflux to the point that she couldn’t eat, couldn’t sleep all night, self-harmed from time to time, and even once…

Jiang Zhen Zhen’s lips trembled a little.

During one group video call, the person who answered the phone was Chen Lu’s mother, Chen Qing Yu. At first, Jiang Zhen Zhen and Fu Yi Wen wondered if the mother and daughter’s relationship, although improved, wasn’t close enough for them to answer each other’s phones, and how Chen Qing Yu, who was supposed to be in America, would appear in Canada?

But the next second, Chen Qing Yu’s words shocked Jiang Zhen Zhen and Fu Yi Wen in the video.

A few hours earlier, Chen Lu had been pulled down from the roof of her apartment by the landlord. The landlord was an old woman, who was so scared that she almost had a heart attack. After the incident, she contacted Chen Qing Yu as soon as possible. They found a pile of prayer beads, rosaries, crosses, and other religious items in Chen Lu’s room, as well as a diagnosis of severe depression.

It turned out that Chen Lu had been receiving psychological treatment since she first arrived in Canada.

Perhaps the treatment was so ineffective that Chen Lu placed her last hope for life on illusory gods.

Whether it was the Eastern Bodhisattva or the Western God, was there any god who could make her not so painful.

She didn’t love Gu Wan Jun anymore. She admitted defeat. She just didn’t want to be so painful.

Perhaps there was no way to ask for help, and in the end, only the god of death winked at Chen Lu.

Was it only death that could bring relief?

Chen Lu really wanted to die that time.

When she was sent to the hospital for examination, the doctor found a large amount of sleeping pills in her stomach. If she had been sent any later, she would have died.

That terrible memory was so vivid that Jiang Zhen Zhen still felt lingering fear when she thought about it now.

Getting closer to you means getting closer to pain, and getting away from you means getting away from happiness.

This sentence in “Strait Gate” seemed to be a true reflection of the relationship between Chen Lu and Gu Wan Jun.

Gu Wan Jun had given up on Chen Lu. If the past were to repeat itself, Jiang Zhen Zhen wouldn’t even have to think about it; Chen Lu wouldn’t be able to bear it a second time.

“Zhen Zhen?” Chen Lu’s clear voice pulled Jiang Zhen Zhen’s thoughts back to reality.

Jiang Zhen Zhen took a deep breath and finally asked the question that had been lingering in her mind: “Lu Lu, have you really thought it through?”

Hearing this, Chen Lu suddenly smiled. She turned to look toward the bathroom, her eyes so gentle that they could drip water: “Yeah.”

A simple monosyllable, but it sounded like a ton. When Chen Lu looked at the camera again, Jiang Zhen Zhen saw the stubbornness and determination of her youth in her friend’s eyes.

“I believe her.”

Clear and sonorous, forceful and resonant.

Perhaps this time, things will really be different.

—-

After the video call ended, Chen Lu had just put down her phone when the bathroom door opened. Gu Wan Jun walked out in couple slippers, her slightly curly hair tips stained with some warm water vapor, exuding a faint magnolia fragrance.

She had been focusing on adjusting the water temperature and was completely unaware that Chen Lu was on the phone with Jiang Zhen Zhen.

“Why did it take so long to get pajamas?” Gu Wan Jun’s peach blossom eyes were filled with a gentle smile as she looked at her little girl with affection: “The water will get cold in a while.”

Chen Lu casually draped her pajamas over her shoulders, took three steps as two and went forward to hug the other’s slender waist. She rested her chin on Gu Wan Jun’s shoulder, her nose lightly brushing against the other’s earlobe:

“Shower together? Hmm?”

“……”

The warm breath sprayed into the sensitive ear, and Gu Wan Jun shuddered all over. Her fair cheeks instantly blushed with a layer of crimson:

“…No, you shower first…”

Chen Lu chuckled, a hint of playfulness flashing in her crescent eyes: “Just a simple relaxing bath, what are you thinking about?”

She deliberately dragged out the end of her sentence, causing Gu Wan Jun to couldn’t help but raise her eyes to glare at her. Her eyes were filled with sparkling water, full of slightly heated annoyance.

Just a simple relaxing bath? She’s still sore from the trouble last night, this person can’t be satisfied at all, she can’t be fooled again.

Stared at by such a soft and charming gaze, Chen Lu couldn’t help but feel a heat in her heart. She wanted to say something more, but Gu Wan Jun, whose face was completely red, had already changed the subject, trying to use the tough momentum she had when she was a homeroom teacher to push her toward the bathroom.

She wasn’t afraid of her back then, is she afraid now?

Chen Lu curved her eyes happily, feeling that the way a certain teacher was flustered was really cute.

Of course, no one noticed that the tips of her ears hidden under her hair were also quietly red.

It wasn’t just Gu Wan Jun who was flustered.

After all, she was still a girl in her early twenties. The teasing words seemed familiar and easy to say, but in reality, Chen Lu’s heart was as chaotic as if grass had grown in it.

No rush, they have a lifetime, they can take it slow.

Watching the bathroom door close, Gu Wan Jun breathed a sigh of relief, her tense shoulders finally relaxed. She sat on the edge of the bed with a hairdryer, waiting for Chen Lu, the fingers that gently rubbed the switch exposed the unease in her heart.

She really had concerns.

The problem with Li Sa hasn’t been resolved, and she always feels uneasy.

Can she and Chen Lu really be like this?

What if Li Sa doesn’t accept her apology?

How should she make up for Li Sa?

What if things get out of hand, will it affect Chen Lu’s future?

……

The hairdryer cord was wrapped around her fingers again and again, like a messy and endless life.

Gu Wan Jun stared at the floor in a daze, her thoughts drifting further and further away, until a pair of arms with a faint magnolia fragrance wrapped around her from behind, and she suddenly came back to her senses.

“What are you thinking about?”

Chen Lu wrapped her arms around her waist, her originally clear voice bubbled extra soft by the steam. Gu Wan Jun’s body stiffened for a moment, and she subconsciously raised a smile:

“I wasn’t thinking about anything, I’m waiting for you. Let me dry your hair.”

Gu Wan Jun said this, but as soon as she turned around, she was held by a pair of cool hands. Chen Lu knelt on the bed, her eyes particularly bright:

“You obviously have something on your mind, don’t lie to me.”

Her small face the size of a palm was simple and beautiful, and at this moment, when she became serious, she looked a little dignified. Gu Wan Jun’s heart trembled, and she subconsciously stroked the slightly frowned eyebrows of the person in front of her.

Don’t frown.

She murmured in her heart.

There’s nothing worth her little girl frowning about.

Being looked at by such a pair of affectionate eyes by Gu Wan Jun, no one could remain unmoved. The expression that had been tense for only two seconds instantly softened. Chen Lu sighed, reached out to grab the other’s hand, and put her palm on her cheek:

“Gu Wan Jun, I don’t like you hiding things from me.”

“You’ll get angry if I say it.”

Chen Lu leaned forward and touched the tip of her nose with hers, her voice muffled: “I’ll be angry if you don’t say it.”

Gu Wan Jun lowered her eyes, her voice so soft that it was almost inaudible: “Did you… make an appointment with Li Sa?”

“……”

Chen Lu’s eyes darkened, and her eyes narrowed into a dangerous arc: “You really want to see her?”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned: “No…”

Chen Lu suddenly let go of her hand, her tone a little jealous: “You mention her more often than you mention me.”

“……”

This little girl is… jealous?

Shouldn’t she be the one who’s jealous…?

Gu Wan Jun blinked, her tone tentative: “…Then I won’t mention her?”

“Too late, you’ve already mentioned her.” Chen Lu turned her face away, acting like a temperamental kitten.

She had already said everything, what else could she say.

Gu Wan Jun’s heart was filled with sourness, she held Chen Lu’s face to kiss her, but the other dodged back.

“You go take a shower.”

Chen Lu’s tone was cold, and her slightly trembling eyelashes made people itch.

Is she really angry?

Gu Wan Jun pursed her lips, her heart pounding.

She knew she shouldn’t mention Li Sa at the wrong time.

But she couldn’t do it.

She couldn’t get over that hurdle in her heart.

When she was emotional, she could indulge herself, but after dawn, those real problems would flood in like a tide, drowning her little by little.

Even in that kind of situation last night, apart from completely surrendering herself, she didn’t dare to do anything to Chen Lu at all.

Li Sa was a real person, Chen Lu’s girlfriend, and she couldn’t be indifferent. Until the problem was resolved, she would never be able to enjoy being with Chen Lu frankly.

Taking a deep look at Chen Lu, whose emotions were not clear, Gu Wan Jun silently got up and walked toward the bathroom. As soon as she stepped into the bathroom, she was hugged from behind.

The sound of the door lock “clicking” was particularly clear in the silent bathroom, and two noisy hearts were tightly dependent on each other.

“Sister, you never even coaxme.”

Chen Lu’s voice was full of grievance, and her soft lips brushed against the earlobe of the person in her arms, which was so red that it was almost dripping blood, and finally landed on the back of her neck, causing a burst of trembling.

The sound of sister made half of Gu Wan Jun’s body weak. She opened her mouth and found that her throat was so dry that it was almost smoking. Before she could speak, the hand around her waist had already unbuttoned the last button of her shirt.

“Sister, let’s take a shower together.”

“……”

The lover’s lips were close to her ear, the hot breath burned Gu Wan Jun like she was facing a great enemy, and her chaotic and trembling voice sounded particularly dry:

“You… weren’t you just…”

“I don’t mind showering again.”

“……”

Moonlight poured down like water, rushing to coat the figures who couldn’t wait to merge into one with a layer of hazy light.

Icy silk layers and shadows, the moon is the neighbor, a moment of fragrance breaks the dawn.

Tonight, Gu Wan Jun is destined to be lost in those eyes that are more beautiful than the moon.