SYLM Chapter 104

Chapter 104 “I can’t sleep without you.”

Chapter 104 “I can’t sleep without you.”

11:00 AM.

Sunlight filtered through the layers of leaves, scattering onto the campus paths. Gu Wan Jun, without a last period class, walked slowly towards the cafeteria with several colleagues.

“Hey, I heard the public class last week was a great success. The higher-ups were very satisfied.”

“How could they not be? Those sent to give lectures were all backbones, with strength and connections. With rich dads and powerful moms, it would be strange if the leaders weren’t satisfied.”

“Tsk, be careful what you say. What nonsense are you spouting?”

“Why are you nudging me? There are plenty of people at our school climbing the ladder. I didn’t name anyone.”

“Alright, alright, say less. We’ll order a bowl of mung bean soup to cool you down later. The autumn heat hasn’t even started, and you’re already on fire.”

One of the colleagues forcibly ended the conversation. After speaking, she inconspicuously turned to observe Gu Wan Jun, walking beside her, fearing she might have overheard something.

In reality, this colleague was worrying needlessly. Some people seem to be listening intently to those around them, but their thoughts have long flown home to a certain little girl.

Despite everything that happened from yesterday to this morning, Gu Wan Jun still felt that Chen Lu moving into her house was unreal.

Is this really right?

Is this really okay?

Could it really be, as Tang Ying said, that Chen Lu is trying to get revenge on her in this way?

Does Li Sha know?

Will this affect the relationship between Chen Lu and Li Sha?

Should she talk to Li Sha?

Gu Wan Jun lowered her head, lost in thought, unable to stop the sighs in her heart. The next moment, a familiar voice interrupted her thoughts.

“Hello, Teacher Gu.”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun looked up at the sound and saw Fu Yi Wen standing not far away, carrying a lunchbox. Clearly, she was here to deliver food to Tang Ying.

Their eyes met, and Fu Yi Wen seemed hesitant, as if she had something to say.

Gu Wan Jun understood and, meeting her colleagues’ probing, gossipy gazes, she smiled and told everyone to go to the cafeteria first, and she would join them shortly.

After the others left, Fu Yi Wen pursed her lips, stepped forward, and said softly, “Teacher Gu, is Lu Lu… alright?”

“……”

The question made Gu Wan Jun’s heart tremble slightly. The smile on her face remained gentle, but a complicated expression flashed uncontrollably in her eyes.

Yes, as a friend, Fu Yi Wen couldn’t possibly not know that Chen Lu had moved.

But Gu Wan Jun didn’t know how much Fu Yi Wen knew, including that night.

“She’s fine.” After a brief silence, Gu Wan Jun nodded gently, giving her answer.

Besides this answer, she didn’t know what else to say.

“I don’t know if Lu Lu told you, but she doesn’t sleep well…”

Fu Yi Wen chose her words carefully, looking somewhat nervous. Thinking that she was worried about Chen Lu, Gu Wan Jun nodded understandingly, her tone gentle:

“I know, she told me. I’ll pay attention. Don’t worry.”

As if thinking of something, Fu Yi Wen sighed and muttered softly, “It’s not just that…”

Gu Wan Jun didn’t hear clearly, “What?”

“……”

Their eyes met, and Fu Yi Wen seemed to want to say something, but in the end, she shook her head:

“It’s nothing. Teacher Gu, Lu Lu’s sleeping problems haven’t been around for just a day or two. Please pay more attention to her condition. Thank you.”

After speaking, Fu Yi Wen turned to leave, but the next moment, Gu Wan Jun, who had thought of something, stopped her: “Fu Yi Wen.”

“What is it? Is there anything else?”

“You…”

Gu Wan Jun hesitated, looking troubled.

She stopped her but didn’t say anything. Did she find out something?

Fu Yi Wen looked at Gu Wan Jun, her gaze filled with a hint of nervousness amidst her confusion, and her heart couldn’t help but beat faster.

After a long silence, seeming to have made a decision, Gu Wan Jun finally spoke: “It’s nothing. It’s not a bother.”

After speaking, she turned and left.

Watching Gu Wan Jun’s back, Fu Yi Wen visibly breathed a sigh of relief. She was very glad that Gu Wan Jun hadn’t taken advantage of the conversation to ask her about Chen Lu’s affairs.

She almost let slip those things that Chen Lu had repeatedly told her not to tell anyone.

However, in addition to being relieved, Fu Yi Wen couldn’t help but sigh.

Gu Wan Jun was the one who should know those things the most, after all, she was the “culprit.”

A person as thoughtful and smart as her shouldn’t be unable to see the flaws, so why didn’t she ask her just now?

Fu Yi Wen couldn’t understand.

But she was right about one thing, Gu Wan Jun was smart and thoughtful.

Under normal circumstances, Gu Wan Jun could of course see her unnaturalness just now, but Gu Wan Jun, whose mind was full of Chen Lu, was worried and was completely blind.

In fact, the moment she turned to leave, Gu Wan Jun couldn’t help but secretly breathe a sigh of relief in her heart.

She had just stopped Fu Yi Wen to ask if she had Li Sha’s contact information, and if so, could she get one, so that she could use it in the future.

However, after a battle between heaven and man, Gu Wan Jun gave up.

Never mind, Chen Lu would definitely be angry if she knew.

Gu Wan Jun shook her head and sighed. At this moment, she didn’t know that she should be glad that she hadn’t impulsively asked for Li Sha’s contact information, otherwise, it wasn’t impossible for Chen Lu to go abroad for another five years in a fit of anger.

She finished lunch absentmindedly.

After the first class in the afternoon, just as she left the classroom, Gu Wan Jun’s phone vibrated, and the screen showed two messages from Chen Lu:

Chen Lu: [I agreed with Duo Duo this morning that I will pick her up after school tonight]

Chen Lu: [I’ll buy groceries on the way back, what do you want to eat]

Gu Wan Jun stared at the screen, the two messages disrupting her thoughts. Her fingertips paused on the keyboard for a moment, and it took a long time before she replied with two words: [Anything is fine.]

After the message was sent, Chen Lu didn’t reply for a long time. After thinking for a moment, Gu Wan Jun, who had walked to the door of the office, pursed her lips and silently added: [Thank you for helping me pick up Duo Duo. I have evening classes tonight. You and Duo Duo should eat dinner first. Don’t wait for me.]

After the message was sent, Gu Wan Jun returned to the office and graded homework for a whole class period. Even when the class bell rang again, she didn’t receive a reply from Chen Lu.

Was the little girl angry because she told them not to wait for her?

Gu Wan Jun stared at the chat box, which was like a stone sinking into the sea, until her eyes were sore. She wanted to explain, but the short sentences were typed and deleted, deleted and typed repeatedly a dozen times, and in the end, she didn’t send anything.

Never mind, that’s it.

She shouldn’t explain.

She has no identity and qualification to explain.

—-

After the evening class, the students’ questions after class plus traffic jams on the road meant that Gu Wan Jun didn’t get home until after 7:00 PM.

The moment she opened the door, Duo Duo’s clear laughter came from the living room. Gu Wan Jun put down her bag and walked into the living room. On the sofa, Chen Lu was playing with building blocks with Duo Duo. Duo Duo’s little hands were frantically fiddling with the building blocks, and Chen Lu was patiently guiding her with the drawings. The two were having a great time.

“Mommy’s back!”

Seeing Gu Wan Jun come back, Duo Duo immediately put down the building blocks in her hand and flew over. Gu Wan Jun subconsciously squatted down and opened her arms to hug her daughter.

“Mommy worked hard!”

“Thank you, baby.”

Gu Wan Jun rubbed her daughter’s little head and looked up at Chen Lu, who was not far away. Their eyes met, and the smile on Chen Lu’s face instantly faded as she got up and went to the kitchen.

Gu Wan Jun hugged her daughter, but her eyes followed Chen Lu’s back into the kitchen. The next moment, Duo Duo suddenly raised her head, blinked her big eyes, and said innocently:

“Mommy, Sister Lu Lu is heating up the food. We’re waiting for you to come back and eat together!”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment, her tone still gentle: “Really? It’s already late, aren’t you hungry? Why didn’t you eat first?”

“Sister Lu Lu said it’s lonely to eat alone. We don’t want Mommy to be lonely.”

Gu Wan Jun’s heart trembled when she heard this, and her eyes became a little hot. She rubbed her daughter’s pink cheeks, her voice a little hoarse:

“Okay, Mommy knows. Thank you.”

Gu Wan Jun stood up and came to the living room. When she looked around, she found that her home seemed to be a little different.

In addition to the positions of some decorations seeming to have changed, the washed sofa cushions and curtains were drying on the balcony. A pot of clivia was placed on the floor, full of vitality and green, it was the pot in Chen Lu’s trunk last time.

A complicated emotion welled up in Gu Wan Jun’s heart, surprise, gratitude, and a trace of indescribable sourness.

At this moment, Duo Duo suddenly took her hand and came to the TV cabinet, looking excited:

“Mommy, look! Sister Lu Lu bought it!”

Following the direction of Duo Duo’s little finger, what caught her eye was a round fish tank, not big or small, which clearly contained two small goldfish.

The same as the small goldfish that Chen Lu gave when Gu Wan Jun moved when she was a sophomore.

In the fish tank, two small goldfish were wagging their tails in the water, swimming leisurely, seeming to have no worries, but making Gu Wan Jun’s eyes sore.

Everything hasn’t changed.

But everything has changed again.

After a while, the food was brought to the table, a home-style four dishes and one soup.

While eating, Duo Duo sat at the dining table, swaying her little feet, and sharing the interesting things that happened in kindergarten today with great interest.

“The teacher praised me for drawing well today!”

Duo Duo’s eyes were bright and she looked proud. Chen Lu gently touched her head, her voice soft:

“Duo Duo is great. Can you draw it for Sister to see next time?”

Duo Duo nodded vigorously: “Okay! I also want to draw Sister Lu Lu and Mommy! The one I drew for Mommy’s birthday last time was too rushed. Next time I will draw Mommy and Sister Lu Lu even more beautifully!”

“Okay, then I’ll wait to see the work of our Duo Duo, the great painter.”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun sat aside, quietly looking at them. Looking at Chen Lu’s gentle expression when treating Duo Duo, her whole heart was like a baked molten lava cake, silently collapsing a piece, flowing out the sweetest and softest filling.

After dinner, Duo Duo sat in the living room watching TV, Chen Lu was cleaning the dishes in the kitchen, and Gu Wan Jun, who had finished wiping the table, hesitated and followed into the kitchen.

Standing at the door of the kitchen, looking at Chen Lu’s busy back, Gu Wan Jun felt a little complicated. Just as she was about to say something, she suddenly noticed a small rabbit refrigerator magnet that she had never seen before stuck on the refrigerator.

“There’s stewed white fungus and pear soup in the refrigerator.” Chen Lu suddenly said, her voice faint, as if she was just mentioning it casually.

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment, and didn’t react for a while: “Huh?”

Chen Lu still had her back to her, busy washing dishes, her tone calm: “It’s the first time I’ve stewed it, just practicing. This thing can’t be left overnight. If no one drinks it, I’ll throw it away tomorrow—”

“I’ll drink it!”

Her mouth finally kept up, and what was in her heart blurted out subconsciously. Gu Wan Jun’s tone was a little anxious, and Chen Lu’s movements paused slightly, but it was just a pause. She continued to wash the dishes without turning her head.

Gu Wan Jun walked to the refrigerator, opened the door, and two small jars of stewed white fungus and pear soup were quietly lying on the fresh-keeping layer.

She took out a jar, opened the lid, and a sweet fragrance wafted over her face. She scooped a spoonful and sent it to her mouth. The white fungus was soft and glutinous, the pear was sweet, and the soup was warm and moist. The moment it slid down her throat, Gu Wan Jun felt a burst of comfort in her throat, and the fatigue from lecturing for days seemed to be smoothed out by the soup.

“It’s especially delicious.” Gu Wan Jun’s voice was very soft, but her tone was filled with the most sincere admiration.

As soon as the words fell, Chen Lu, who still had her back to her, just faintly said “mm”, as if she didn’t care.

Gu Wan Jun drank the soup in small sips. Without thinking, she knew that it took time and effort to make this, so she said quite seriously:

“Chen Lu, thank you.”

“……”

The hand washing the dishes trembled, and the dish soap that had just been squeezed out hadn’t been spread evenly before it was washed away by the ignorant water flow. Chen Lu put down the unfinished bowl in her hand, turned her head and glanced at Gu Wan Jun, her expression a little cold:

“I washed the sofa cushions and curtains.”

“…Ah?”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment, a little unsure of the little girl’s thoughts, and hesitated for a long time before squeezing out a sentence:

“I saw… Thank you—”

“I mopped the floor.”

Chen Lu interrupted Gu Wan Jun’s thank you, her tone even colder:

“I bought the things that were added to the house, I made dinner, I picked up Duo Duo, according to you, should I say thank you to you for everything?”

“……”

Meeting Chen Lu’s cold gaze with a hint of resentment, in a flash, Gu Wan Jun seemed to understand why Chen Lu didn’t reply to her message in the afternoon.

Because of that thank you.

Chen Lu didn’t want her to say these things to her.

Why like this?

Why would it be like this?

—-

The sky outside the window was completely dark, and the light in the study was on, softly shining on the desk.

Same time, same place, same work status.

Gu Wan Jun was drawing on the teaching plan, busy preparing lessons. Chen Lu, who was sitting directly opposite her, was typing quickly on the keyboard, making uninterrupted “da da” sounds.

The pointer pointed to 9:00 sharp.

Gu Wan Jun closed the teaching plan and stood up, her voice gentle: “I’m going to coax Duo Duo to sleep.”

Like last night, Chen Lu, who was concentrating on her work, just glanced at her faintly, nodded, and then her eyes returned to the computer screen.

A few seconds later, Gu Wan Jun left the study.

The moment the door closed gently, the fingers that were typing quickly stopped without any warning, and the silent mouse immediately pressed the save button.

Chen Lu closed the computer, leaned back in the chair, and let out a long breath. She raised her hand and rubbed her sore neck, her eyes falling on the door of the study, as if waiting for something.

After a while, she stood up, tiptoed to the door, put her ear to the door, and after listening to the movement outside and confirming that Gu Wan Jun had gone to Duo Duo’s room, she gently opened the door and quickly walked into the master bedroom.

The same trick can’t be used a second time. Tonight, Chen Lu took her pajamas to the bathroom to hang up herself. She calculated the time, estimating that Duo Duo was about to fall asleep, and then turned on the shower.

The sound of splashing water filled her ears, and the hot water poured down from the top of her head, the warm water flowing over her skin, bringing a comfortable feeling of relaxation. Chen Lu closed her eyes and raised her head, letting the water flow down her long hair.

In less than half an hour, just as she finished washing her hair and was about to press the shower gel, a door opening sound suddenly came from outside the bathroom.

Gu Wan Jun came in.

The shower gel squeezed into her palm sparkled with fine light, and the rich fragrance of white flowers filled the small, humid bathroom, bringing a sweet temptation, as if it could erode people’s sanity bit by bit.

Looking at the foam in her palm, Chen Lu lowered her eyes slightly, and a faint smile appeared on the corner of her mouth.

Just as she was thinking about a certain coward, whether she would burn her hair tonight in order to delay time, another door opening sound came from outside the bathroom.

Opened the door again?

Did Gu Wan Jun go out?

Chen Lu turned off the shower and stopped her movements, her ears keenly capturing the movements outside, but no matter how she listened, no other sounds came from outside the door.

Did this person really leave?

Chen Lu frowned, quickly rinsed the foam off her body, put on her pajamas, and rushed out of the bathroom without even drying her hair.

Only a lamp that she had turned on when she came in was lit in the bedroom. Her eyes swept across the room, and finally fixed on the bed.

The moment she saw something, Chen Lu’s face instantly turned cold.

Next to Gu Wan Jun’s pillow, there was a rabbit doll at some point.

It was clear that it wasn’t there when she came in just now. Now a doll appeared out of thin air. What, she finally didn’t say thank you, and then she planned to let her sleep with the doll?

Chen Lu narrowed her eyes, staring at the poor little rabbit doll, and an uncontrollable anger welled up in her heart.

Very good. Especially good.

Gu Wan Jun, you are really something.

On the other side, in the study.

Gu Wan Jun sat at the table again, turning the pen in her hand back and forth. It was clear that the teaching plan was spread out in front of her, but she couldn’t see a single word.

Did Chen Lu finish taking a bath?

Did Chen Lu see the rabbit doll?

Would Chen Lu be angry?

Chen Lu—

The chaotic thoughts were interrupted by the sound of a door opening. Gu Wan Jun subconsciously picked up the pen and pretended to look at the teaching plan.

In less than three seconds, a wet fragrance came over her face. The fingertips holding the red pen turned white, and Gu Wan Jun’s heartbeat accelerated unconsciously. She squeezed out a smile and braced herself to look up, but before she could open her mouth, she first saw the little girl’s long hair that hadn’t been dried after washing.

Chen Lu stood in front of the desk, her wet, soft hair falling on her shoulders, dripping water droplets, the water droplets sliding down her hair, soaking her light blue pajamas. Her small face was plain and pale, her eyes with a trace of coldness, the figure under her pajamas was thin and slender, as if the wind could blow her away.

With just one glance, Gu Wan Jun felt a burst of heartache in her heart, and the words that had been on the tip of her tongue directly changed direction: “Why don’t you dry your hair?”

Chen Lu didn’t answer, just looked at her coldly, her tone with a trace of questioning: “Why aren’t you sleeping?”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment, and immediately lowered her head, her voice a little weak:

“I… I still have some work to do, you go to sleep first.”

After speaking, she paused, hesitated, and added:

“The rabbit doll on the bed is what I got from Duo Duo. If you can’t sleep, you can sleep with it…”

It would be fine if she didn’t explain, but it’s even worse if she did.

As soon as the words fell, the room fell into an eerie silence.

Chen Lu’s eyes were even colder. She stared at Gu Wan Jun, her voice sinking with a hint of oppression:

“I’ll ask you again, are you going to sleep?”

“……”

The hand holding the pen trembled slightly, Gu Wan Jun knew that Chen Lu was angry.

But they can’t continue to make mistakes.

It’s right to keep a distance like this.

Gu Wan Jun pursed her lips and opened her mouth with a stiff head, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible: “I… I do have work to do…”

This time Chen Lu didn’t speak again, she directly pulled open the chair and sat opposite Gu Wan Jun, this action made Gu Wan Jun’s heart jump:

“You this is…”

“Don’t you have work to do? I’ll wait for you.”

“……”

Gu Wan Jun’s expression stiffened, a little flustered: “No need, you go to sleep first, I don’t know how long I’ll be busy…”

“You do your work, I’ll wait no matter how long.” Chen Lu’s tone was calm but unquestionable, her meaningful eyes staring straight at Gu Wan Jun, “I can’t sleep without you.”

“……”

I can’t sleep without you.

The sentence was like a heavy hammer hitting the already trembling heart, smashing it to pieces. Gu Wan Jun lowered her head, not daring to look into Chen Lu’s eyes, the pen in her hand became extremely heavy, and it was extremely difficult to write each word.

Three minutes passed, no, it may not have even been a minute.

Seeing Chen Lu casually pulling out two tissues to wipe the constantly dripping hair, Gu Wan Jun felt a burst of sourness in her heart.

She surrendered.

Gu Wan Jun closed the teaching plan and stood up, bypassing the desk and standing in front of Chen Lu, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible: “Let’s go.”

The paper towel that had just wiped her hair was completely wet, and the crumpled paper was casually thrown into the trash can. Chen Lu raised her eyes and glanced at the person in front of her, without moving:

“Didn’t you say you have work to do?”

“……”

Obviously, someone is holding a grudge, and this matter is not so easy to settle.

Gu Wan Jun knew she was guilty, so she lowered her head even lower, and after hesitating for a long time, she squeezed out a sentence:

“It’ll give you a headache if you don’t dry your hair, and you already have a migraine…”

“Whether I have a migraine or not, what does it have to do with you.”

Chen Lu sneered, her tone with a hint of questioning.

She is too soft-hearted, if she doesn’t have a temper, she’ll have to sleep with dolls every day in the future.

Gu Wan Jun couldn’t figure out what Chen Lu meant by this, but she knew that the little girl was angry. After hesitating for a long time, she bit her lip, and finally stretched out her slightly trembling hand, gently pulling Chen Lu’s sleeve, her muffled voice with a hint of pleading:

“Let’s go back to sleep, okay?”

Just pulling her sleeve is enough? She’ll do it again next time, right? Gu Wan Jun, you really don’t know how to coax people.

Chen Lu coldly shook off Gu Wan Jun’s hand, which she didn’t dare to use strength, she frowned, just wanted to say something, but the hand that was shaken off silently stretched out again, but this time it was not pulling her sleeve, but directly holding her hand.

“I was wrong, I won’t do this again next time, don’t be angry with me.”

“……”

Originally thinking of gritting her teeth and forcing this person to say something, but when the sentence “I was wrong” came out, Chen Lu realized that she couldn’t resist it at all.

The two hands were holding loosely like this, and Chen Lu could feel that Gu Wan Jun seemed to be shaking all over.

Why is she looking like a little wife who has been wronged, as if she bullied her.

Chen Lu sighed in her heart, and finally “unwillingly” stood up. She immediately held Gu Wan Jun’s hand back, but her tone was still not good:

“I’m tired, go back and help me dry my hair.”

Seeing that Chen Lu was willing to go back with her, Gu Wan Jun blinked her eyes, lowered her head and nodded lightly, and replied softly.

The two walked out of the study one after the other, and until they went back to the bedroom to dry their hair, Chen Lu’s hand was always tightly holding Gu Wan Jun’s hand.

One hand was colder than the other, and they couldn’t warm up for a while, but neither of them let go.