SYLM Chapter 102

Chapter 102: Sleeping Together, Dreaming Different Dreams

Chapter 102: Sleeping Together, Dreaming Different Dreams

Chen Lu’s belongings were neither too many nor too few. After a few hours, the movers completed all the work they could, leaving the remaining unpacking to the owner.

When there were many people, it wasn’t so noticeable, but now that the movers were gone, and Duo Duo, exhausted from waking up early, was taking a nap in her room, only Chen Lu and Gu Wan Jun were left in the living room. A subtle tension suddenly filled the air.

Their eyes met unintentionally several times, and Gu Wan Jun instinctively turned her head away quickly, making Chen Lu worried she’d twist her neck.

So, you won’t look at me, huh? Fine, anyone can play blind.

Chen Lu, holding back her anger, made a lot more noise unpacking, creating a series of clangs and bangs.

With only two people in the living room, Gu Wan Jun couldn’t possibly miss it. She secretly glanced at the person beside her, not understanding why the nice young woman suddenly seemed angry, so she silently sped up her unpacking to match Chen Lu’s pace.

The more Gu Wan Jun acted like this, the angrier Chen Lu became.

Awkward. So awkward.

She’s clearly the person who understands me the most, is it so hard to say something?

Why is Gu Wan Jun only doing things now that are infuriating her?

Chen Lu was full of pent-up anger, so she simply carried out her “pretend to be blind” strategy to the end. Gu Wan Jun, feeling guilty, only dared to steal glances and didn’t dare to speak.

For a while, the living room was filled only with the rustling sounds of unpacking. The two, each with their own thoughts, carried things in and out, with only the pink tulips on the living room table remaining peacefully beautiful.

That afternoon.

Packages containing all sorts of things—food, daily necessities, clothes—were delivered to the door, piling up in the living room until there was almost no space to step, like a temporary express station.

The first delivery was a desk and chair set. Chen Lu usually writes and codes, so a desk was essential.

While moving the desk into the study, whether intentionally or unintentionally, Chen Lu placed the new desk directly opposite Gu Wan Jun’s desk.

Seeing that the two desks were almost touching, Gu Wan Jun’s heart was in turmoil. After hesitating for a long time, she finally spoke, her tone a little nervous:

“Maybe… the desk should go over there. I saved a spot for you.”

Chen Lu didn’t look up, but her attitude was unmoved: “I like it here, the view is good.”

Gu Wan Jun tried to persuade her: “…That side is by the window…”

“I just like it here.”

“…The two desks are a bit crowded together. Maybe I should move my desk–”

Bang!

The two desks suddenly collided, making a loud noise, abruptly interrupting some unfinished words.

Catching a glimpse of Chen Lu’s suddenly cold expression, Gu Wan Jun pursed her lips and didn’t mention moving the desk again.

After the desk was set up, before leaving the study, Gu Wan Jun’s eyes inadvertently scanned the newly moved cabinet by the wall.

This cabinet was moved here by two movers under Chen Lu’s direction. It looked heavy, and the door was locked, so no one knew what was inside.

What could it be?

Gu Wan Jun’s attention was entirely focused on the locked cabinet, not noticing the fleeting guilty look in Chen Lu’s eyes.

Of course, she felt guilty.

She couldn’t possibly let someone know that this entire cabinet was filled with gifts for her, right?

…

After unpacking the larger items, all that was left were clothes and personal belongings.

Chen Lu wiped the wheels of the suitcase by the door and pushed it into the bedroom. Gu Wan Jun stood at the bedroom door, looking at the mountain of packages on the living room floor, and asked softly:

“Which of these packages is the wardrobe? If it needs to be assembled, I can help.”

Chen Lu unlocked the suitcase, not even raising her head, her tone indifferent: “There’s no wardrobe.”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment: “Is it not here yet?”

Chen Lu’s tone remained calm: “I didn’t buy a wardrobe. I’ll just use yours.”

“…”

Gu Wan Jun fell silent, probably thinking random things again.

Chen Lu glanced at her, and the emotions she hadn’t digested earlier surged up again.

What was there to be awkward about? They could sleep in the same bed, couldn’t they share a wardrobe?

Chen Lu coldly remained silent and continued to unpack. Gu Wan Jun bit her lip, as if she had made some kind of decision. She silently walked into the bedroom and opened the wardrobe.

The huge wardrobe had been cleaned up at some point. Half of the space in each compartment was empty, clearly prepared from the beginning.

Chen Lu was stunned for a moment. She stared at Gu Wan Jun’s back, a complex mix of emotions welling up inside her.

Why doesn’t she say anything?

Why doesn’t she say what’s on her mind?

Gu Wan Jun, why are you so good at holding back?

Chen Lu bit her lip secretly, feeling a surge of irritability.

Alright, you’re willing to hold back, are you? I’ll see how long you can endure it.

Chen Lu forced herself to ignore Gu Wan Jun. She opened her suitcase and began to hang her clothes in the wardrobe one by one.

Gu Wan Jun stood beside her, silently watching her, watching her gradually fill her wardrobe with clothes. An unprecedented sense of reality and happiness made Gu Wan Jun’s eyes involuntarily grow hot.

Cowards are even afraid of happiness; they get hurt even when they touch cotton.

Not to mention happiness that doesn’t belong to them.

Chen Lu, who was silently sulking, didn’t notice Gu Wan Jun’s emotions. While putting away her clothes, she asked in a cold tone:

“It’s getting late. What are you and Duo Duo planning to eat later?”

Before she could finish speaking, when she reached for a hanger, she inadvertently saw Gu Wan Jun secretly wiping the corners of her eyes.

The cold mask she had previously put on instantly showed a crack. Chen Lu’s heart tightened, she stopped putting away her clothes, her tone a little anxious:

“What’s wrong?”

“Nothing.”

Gu Wan Jun immediately blinked her eyes, trying hard to force a smile: “What do you want to eat? I can buy it or make it now.”

Chen Lu felt a surge of sadness in her heart. She really wanted to ask Gu Wan Jun why she was crying, but seeing the other person’s red eyes and forced smile, the words that came to her lips ultimately remained unspoken.

The original thought of eating was completely gone. Chen Lu casually said she wanted to eat Zhajiangmian (noodles with savory soybean paste).

Gu Wan Jun nodded and turned to go to the kitchen.

When the bedroom door closed, a trace of sorrow flashed in the eyes of the person who had been pretending to be strong. The action of putting away clothes unconsciously slowed down.

Even though tears were about to fall, why force a smile?

Is it so hard to say what you want to say?

Gu Wan Jun, a twisted coward.

After a flurry of activity, things were almost packed up, and the living room finally returned to its original state. Duo Duo, who had been napping, also woke up. The three of them sat around the dining table eating Zhajiangmian.

While they were eating, Duo Duo suddenly asked, “Sister Chen Lu, are you going to sleep with Mom tonight?”

Hearing this, the hand holding the chopsticks involuntarily trembled. Gu Wan Jun felt so guilty that she didn’t dare to look at her daughter. Chen Lu, on the other hand, looked calm:

“Yes, there aren’t enough rooms at home.”

Duo Duo nodded, like a little adult, and instructed, “Then, Sister Chen Lu, please keep an eye on Mom for Duo Duo.”

“Keep an eye on Mom?” Chen Lu was a little puzzled.

“Yes, Sister Chen Lu, help Duo Duo keep an eye on Mom and don’t let her cry in the middle of the night all the time. It’ll hurt her eyes.”

“…”

Duo Duo’s words silenced both adults.

Chen Lu’s heart was filled with mixed feelings. Just as she was about to respond, the little one, slurping noodles, suddenly smiled happily:

“Oh… Duo Duo almost forgot. Mom shouldn’t cry anymore because Sister Chen Lu is here now!”

“…”

Another moment of silence.

Chen Lu glanced at Gu Wan Jun, and found that the other person’s face was almost buried in her bowl.

Time passed quietly, and day gradually turned into dusk, and dusk quietly turned into evening.

Duo Duo was reading in her own room. Chen Lu and Gu Wan Jun were busy working in the study, one coding and the other preparing lessons. The three of them were busy with their own things, and the atmosphere was quiet and warm.

Gu Wan Jun sat at her desk, holding a red pen, and focused on drawing and marking on her lesson plan. When the tip of the pen lightly touched the paper, she frowned slightly, paused to think, as if she were weighing the accuracy of a certain phrase.

Chen Lu, sitting directly opposite her, was currently staring at the screen of her laptop, her slender fingers typing quickly on the keyboard, her expression showing a sense of concentration. Her crescent-shaped eyes would occasionally narrow slightly, as if she were conceiving a key turning point in a suspenseful plot. Her long, black hair was casually draped over her shoulders, and if a few strands fell beside her cheeks, she would simply brush them aside and continue to immerse herself in her world of words.

When these two get busy, they both have the potential to be workaholics.

After an unknown amount of time, Gu Wan Jun was tired from preparing lessons. She gently put down her pen, raised her hand, and rubbed her sore temples. When her eyes inadvertently scanned Chen Lu, who was directly opposite her, her slightly tired eyes instantly became soft and complex.

Chen Lu’s smooth profile looked particularly cold and clear in the light of the desk lamp, carrying a kind of unspeakable attraction, making Gu Wan Jun’s heart beat faster involuntarily, and a sense of happiness that was difficult to express welled up in her heart.

She had imagined such a scene countless times on countless nights, but now it was actually happening before her eyes.

Chen Lu was by her side.

Chen Lu was really by her side.

A real Chen Lu that she could reach out and touch, not the Chen Lu that would only appear briefly in her midnight dreams.

Gu Wan Jun felt that she was really getting old and her tear ducts were shallow, otherwise why would she always have the urge to cry?

Her fingers unconsciously stroked the edge of the lesson plan, and Gu Wan Jun just looked at Chen Lu like this.

However, in the next second, as if she had thought of something, her peach blossom eyes flickered, and the sense of happiness that had just emerged was instantly replaced by a sour sense of guilt.

She almost let happiness cloud her mind.

She forgot that Chen Lu had a girlfriend.

They shouldn’t be like this.

Gu Wan Jun lowered her head and tried to refocus on the lesson plan, but her thoughts drifted uncontrollably to the person opposite her.

Time passed quietly in the silence, the night outside the window grew darker, and the light in the study seemed warmer.

The hands of the clock stopped at nine o’clock sharp, and the lesson was just finished.

Gu Wan Jun gently closed the lesson plan, stood up, and stretched her stiff body. She looked at Chen Lu, who was still focused on coding, hesitated for a while, and said softly:

“It’s nine o’clock. I’m going to coax Duo Duo to sleep.”

Chen Lu raised her head, glanced at her, nodded, and then continued to focus on coding.

Arriving at Duo Duo’s room, the little one had already washed up and was lying in bed waiting for her mom. When she saw Gu Wan Jun come in, her little feet, exposed outside the blanket, swayed back and forth, and the little one asked in a childish voice:

“Is Mom done being busy? Where’s Sister Chen Lu?”

The daughter’s well-behaved and sensible appearance softened Gu Wan Jun’s heart. She sat down by the bed and gently patted the little one’s head:

“Sister Chen Lu is still busy with work. Mom finished first and came to coax our baby to sleep. What story does baby want to hear today?”

While Gu Wan Jun asked softly, she picked up the fairy tale book from the bedside, but in the next second, Duo Duo pressed her hand down. The little one in the blanket looked at her with big, watery eyes:

“Mom, Duo Duo doesn’t want to hear fairy tales today.”

“Hmm? You don’t want to hear fairy tales? Then what story does baby want to hear?”

When asked this, the little one’s eyes lit up instantly, as if she had discovered a new world: “I want to hear the story of Mom and Sister Chen Lu!”

“…”

Gu Wan Jun’s smile stiffened slightly, but she quickly adjusted her emotions, her tone still gentle:

“Mom already told you the story of Mom and Sister Chen Lu before, didn’t she?”

Duo Duo shook her head, her little head shaking like a rattle:

“No, Mom didn’t finish. There are many stories Duo Duo doesn’t know, like why Sister Chen Lu went abroad to study for so many years and you never contacted each other?”

“…”

Her fingers unconsciously clenched the corner of the blanket. Gu Wan Jun paused for a moment and tried to make her voice sound calm: “Because Sister Chen Lu was very busy with school.”

“Is that so?” Duo Duo tilted her head and thought for a while, obviously not satisfied with this answer. “Then why does Mom always look at Sister Chen Lu’s photos and cry in the middle of the night?”

“…”

Her heart felt like it was being grabbed by something. A sour feeling rose in her throat. Gu Wan Jun tried hard to force a smile, but her voice couldn’t help but tremble:

“Mom already explained this to Duo Duo last time, didn’t she? It’s because the novel Sister Chen Lu wrote was so moving.”

Duo Duo was obviously not buying this answer. She blinked her big eyes and stared straight at Gu Wan Jun, as if she wanted to see through her mind: “Mom.”

“Hmm?”

“Did Mom make Sister Chen Lu angry?”

“…”

“Did Mom say sorry to Sister Chen Lu properly?”

“…”

“Are you reconciled now?”

“…”

“Will Sister Chen Lu always live with us?”

“…”

The room fell into an eerie silence.

Gu Wan Jun opened her mouth, but found that she couldn’t answer a single question. In the end, she could only lower her head and pretend to be calm, avoiding her daughter’s clear and expectant eyes:

“Baby, it’s time to sleep. You have school tomorrow.”

Duo Duo obviously wanted to ask something more, but seeing Gu Wan Jun’s tired expression, she finally nodded obediently. Gu Wan Jun gently patted her back and said softly, “Good night, baby.”

“Good night, Mom.”

Duo Duo closed her eyes and soon fell asleep.

Gu Wan Jun sat by the bed, listening to her daughter’s long and even breathing, but her heart was unable to calm down for a long time because of what the little one had just said.

Her and Chen Lu’s future…

What future could she and Chen Lu have?

Gu Wan Jun shook her head and smiled bitterly. After Duo Duo fell asleep, she tiptoed out of the room.

In the living room, the bright light shone on that slightly tired face. Gu Wan Jun rubbed her temples, but her heart felt like it was weighed down by a stone.

With a heavy heart, she pushed open the door to the master bedroom. As soon as she stepped inside, she heard the sound of water trickling in the bathroom. Gu Wan Jun stopped in her tracks, and her thoughts, which had been drifting to the ends of the earth, were instantly pulled back to reality.

Chen Lu was taking a shower.

Gu Wan Jun’s heart skipped a beat, and she subconsciously turned around to escape the bedroom, but just then, a soft voice, soaked in water vapor, suddenly came from the bathroom, with a bit of hoarseness and casualness:

“Are you in here? Perfect, help me get my pajamas. They should be on the bed. I forgot to bring them.”

“…”

Gu Wan Jun’s breathing stagnated, her steps seemed to be nailed to the spot, and her dry throat felt as if it were being strangled by something invisible, making it difficult to even breathe.

What to do? What to do?

Perhaps seeing that there was no movement for a long time, the sound of the shower in the bathroom stopped, and Chen Lu’s voice came again, with a hint of probing and urging:

“Gu Wan Jun?”

“Mm…”

Gu Wan Jun responded, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible, as if it were squeezed out from the depths of her throat. Her originally fair ears were already burning red, as if it were she who was taking a shower, not Chen Lu.

She should have turned around and left just now.

Now it was too late to leave.

…

“Help me get my pajamas. They’re on the bed.”

In the bathroom, Chen Lu repeated what she had just said in a clear voice. This time, Gu Wan Jun couldn’t pretend not to hear.

Her face flushed red, she took a deep breath and tried to calm down. Then, she walked straight to the bed, her eyes falling on the light blue silk pajamas on the bed.

The pajamas were soft and smooth. When the light shone on them, they looked like flowing water, with a faint sheen. As she got closer, the clean and elegant scent that belonged to Chen Lu went straight into Gu Wan Jun’s nose.

Her already irregular heartbeat became even faster, as if a deer was running wild in her chest. Gu Wan Jun held the pajamas and repeatedly adjusted her breathing. After walking to the bathroom door, her hand, which was suspended in mid-air, hesitated for a long time before finally landing on the door panel.

Dong, dong, dong–

The sound of knocking on the door merged with the sound of her heart beating loudly in her chest, making Gu Wan Jun’s eardrums ache. Just as she was about to suffocate, Chen Lu’s voice came from inside: “Come in.”

“…”

Go in?

Gu Wan Jun’s mind buzzed, as if she had been struck by something.

Chen Lu was taking a shower, how could she go in?

The fingertips holding the pajamas involuntarily tightened. As if sensing her hesitation, Chen Lu’s voice came again, with a hint of helplessness in her tone:

“Your bathroom is designed with a wet and dry separation. Are you saying that if you don’t come in, I should go out?”

“…”

As soon as she finished speaking, the sound of the shower started again, sprinkling on Gu Wan Jun’s heart like rain. She bit her lower lip and pushed open the bathroom door with a stiff face.

Heat and water vapor rushed towards her face, instantly blurring her vision. Gu Wan Jun’s face was flushed, and even breathing became difficult.

After entering, she always faced the door panel, like a schoolchild standing at attention, afraid that if she turned around, she would see something she shouldn’t see.

“Just hang the clothes there.”

Chen Lu’s voice floated out of the bathroom, with the sound of water masking it, making it seem particularly hazy.

Gu Wan Jun nodded like a pecking chicken and said “Okay” in a voice so small that even a mosquito would have trouble hearing it. She moved her feet carefully towards the coat rack, trying not to look at the bathroom behind her.

But just then, there was a sudden “bang” in the bathroom, as if something had fallen on the floor. Gu Wan Jun’s heart jumped, and she subconsciously turned around to look.

Water droplets slid down the glass, drawing streaks of water. The frosted glass vaguely outlined Chen Lu’s slender and hazy figure, causing Gu Wan Jun’s pupils to dilate and her brain to crash instantly. Her eyes seemed to be nailed to the frosted glass, and she actually forgot to look away for a moment!

“It’s okay, it’s just the shower gel bottle that fell.”

“…”

Chen Lu’s casual voice came from the bathroom. Gu Wan Jun finally came back to her senses. As if she had been burned, she quickly looked away. Her face, which was already an abnormal color, was now red enough to drip blood. Even her voice was stammering:

“The… the clothes are hung up. I’m leaving!”

After saying that, Gu Wan Jun almost fled.

The sound of the door slamming shut clearly declared that someone had just experienced a life-and-death catastrophe.

In the bathroom, the sound of water was still trickling. The poor shower gel bottle, which had just been thrown on the floor, was picked up. Chen Lu tossed her wet hair, wiped the water off her face, and her eyes showed a bit of resentment and complexity.

They had already slept together, how could she still be like a mouse seeing a cat?

What was she afraid of?

Was she afraid of facing her or facing herself?

Coward.

—-

Half an hour later, the sides changed.

Gu Wan Jun almost ran into the bathroom.

Seeing that it was almost midnight, the hair dryer, which had been blowing for nearly 20 minutes, hesitated to stop.

Before coming out of the bathroom, Gu Wan Jun first stuck her head out to observe the movement in the bedroom.

Only the dim yellow light of the bedside lamp was left in the bedroom, softly dispelling the darkness around it. Her searching gaze unconsciously fell on the bed. Chen Lu was lying on the bed, facing away from the bathroom, and seemed to be already asleep.

Gu Wan Jun breathed a sigh of relief. After a while, the bathroom light went out. She tiptoed to the bed, carefully lifted the corner of the quilt, and got into bed as lightly as possible.

Turning off the bedside lamp, the room instantly plunged into darkness. The moonlight outside the window shone in through the gaps in the curtains, covering the room with a hazy halo.

Gu Wan Jun had just lain down and hadn’t had time to adjust her position when she suddenly heard a rustling sound behind her. Then, a warm breath naturally wrapped around the back of her neck, like a feather lightly sweeping, with a trace of numbness. Slender but powerful arms directly wrapped around her waist from behind, pulling her whole body into her arms!

Gu Wan Jun’s shoulders shook violently, and her whole body stiffened instantly. She didn’t know where to put her hands and feet, and her heart was pounding wildly in her chest!

So Chen Lu wasn’t asleep yet.

No. This isn’t right.

Gu Wan Jun bit her lip and subconsciously wanted to break free, but in the next second, she heard the girl’s low and hoarse voice behind her ear, with a hint of distressing fatigue:

“Don’t move. Let me hug you. I have sleep disorders. I can’t sleep without holding something.”

“…”

The words “sleep disorders” were like needles, piercing straight into Gu Wan Jun’s heart, causing a sour pain. Her fingers tightly grasped the corner of the quilt, and she stopped moving, just letting the girl hug her, as if this could fill the guilt and regret in her heart that she hadn’t spoken out.

The room was so quiet that only the intertwined breaths of the two people could be heard, like a kind of secret tacit understanding.

After a long while, the person behind her suddenly opened her mouth, her voice inaudible with any emotion: “Did I delay your open class?”

Gu Wan Jun was stunned for a moment, and then realized what Chen Lu was referring to. A burst of heat suddenly surged on her face, and her ears burned red. She bit her lower lip gently, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible:

“No, I… I wore a high collar.”

The warm and long breath paused for a moment behind her ear, and then came a chuckle, seemingly with a bit of teasing:

“Yeah, I saw it. It suits you well.”

“…”

Gu Wan Jun’s face was even hotter.

To be precise, her whole body was hot now.

She didn’t dare to think about the deeper meaning behind Chen Lu’s words, she only felt that she was about to burn up. She tried to calm herself down, but Chen Lu’s breath, Chen Lu’s body temperature, Chen Lu’s softness… everything was like a constant spark that trapped her and could ignite at any time.

The room fell silent again.

Gu Wan Jun’s fingers unconsciously stroked the corner of the quilt, and countless questions she wanted to ask but didn’t dare to ask welled up in her heart. After an unknown amount of time, she finally mustered up the courage and opened her mouth softly:

“Are… are you asleep?”

“What’s wrong?” Chen Lu’s voice came from behind her ear immediately.

Gu Wan Jun clenched the corner of the quilt and asked carefully: “You have sleep disorders… when did they start?”

“…”

As soon as she finished speaking, no one spoke, as if even the air had frozen. Gu Wan Jun could feel Chen Lu’s breath stagnate slightly, followed by a long silence. Her heart sank little by little, as if she was being suffocated by an invisible weight.

Silence is often the answer.

After a long while, Chen Lu finally spoke, her tone very light: “It’s getting late, let’s sleep.”

As if she had been choked by something, Gu Wan Jun’s nose felt sore. She couldn’t bear it anymore and turned around to face Chen Lu.

With the help of the hazy moonlight that sneaked in through the gaps in the curtains, Gu Wan Jun could vaguely see Chen Lu’s outline, her plain face, her slightly furrowed brow, her high nose bridge, and her eyes, which were shining and filled with unknown tenderness.

Why is she frowning?

Please don’t frown.

Gu Wan Jun’s heart trembled. She pinched her wet palms until they hurt so badly that she could barely resist the urge to smooth out the girl’s brows. The words she wanted to ask could no longer be asked. She blinked her eyes, her voice so low that it was almost inaudible:

“I… I should turn back around…”

After saying that, she was about to move, but Chen Lu’s arms tightly circled her waist, not letting her turn around. Her originally gentle tone suddenly turned cold:

“Say what you want to say.”

“…”

Her body was circled, and after struggling for a long time, she still couldn’t move. Gu Wan Jun squeezed her wet palms and finally opened her mouth after a long while, her voice muffled:

“Did you see a doctor? What did the doctor say?”

“…”

Hearing that the person she cared about most was still her health, the originally cold tone in the darkness softened slightly:

“The doctor said that mood is a big part of the reason. The one who tied the knot must untie it.”

“…”

The palms gripping the corner of the quilt had unknowingly become soaked, leaving Chen Lu with only a moment of silence.

As if guessing something, Chen Lu moved her head forward imperceptibly, so close that their noses were almost touching: “Why don’t you ask?”

Accompanied by a breath, Gu Wan Jun tried to make her voice sound calm, but still couldn’t hide the sob in it: “Have you been sleeping badly all these years?”

“Sometimes I can sleep for a few hours after taking the medicine prescribed by the doctor.”

“Then… when you can’t sleep, will Miss Li stay with you?”

It’s not Gu Wan Jun’s fault for asking such a question. Li Sa is Chen Lu’s girlfriend. Chen Lu needs to hold something to sleep at night. Anyone who hears this will associate the two and draw such a conclusion.

But Chen Lu couldn’t help but get angry.

The attitude that had just softened a little instantly dropped to freezing point. Chen Lu said in a bad mood: “Is it any of your business who’s with me? Can’t I sleep with a doll?”

Although she was very angry, Chen Lu still intentionally explained to Gu Wan Jun. However, Gu Wan Jun at this moment was immersed in huge self-blame and guilt, and there was only despair left in her tone:

“So… I shouldn’t appear in your life again.”

“…”

Can this person’s focus be more skewed… She’s still a Chinese teacher, for goodness’ sake.

Chen Lu was almost driven to death, so she simply answered without hesitation: “Yes.”

“…”

The straightforward “Yes” was like a sharp knife, piercing deeply into Gu Wan Jun’s heart.

Chen Lu wasn’t saying such things for the first time, but it was the first time Gu Wan Jun truly felt that she should take it seriously.

Someone like her shouldn’t appear in Chen Lu’s life at all.

She was a hurt, a mistake, an unnecessary interlude.

Would Chen Lu be happier than she is now if she hadn’t met her?

She should disappear.

As soon as this thought came out, Gu Wan Jun trembled in pain, and a heart full of holes instantly fell to the bottom, as if it had been swallowed by endless darkness.

But almost only a second passed, maybe not even a second, Chen Lu’s voice sounded again, with a hint of unquestionable firmness:

“But now you owe me a lot of debt to make up for. Before I agree, don’t think about not admitting the debt and disappearing, did you hear?”

“…”

She had already drawn a prison for herself, where else could she escape to?

But wouldn’t this really affect Chen Lu and Li Sa?

Her thoughts were in a mess. Gu Wan Jun felt a lump in her throat and couldn’t say a word, so she could only nod silently.

The slender arms were still tightly circling the waist of the person in her arms. As Gu Wan Jun hesitated to turn around, Chen Lu suddenly burrowed into her arms and rubbed her head against the thin, bony hollow of her neck for a long time, finally finding a comfortable position.

“Don’t move around, I want to sleep.”

The thought of turning over was completely hopeless. Gu Wan Jun bit her lip, her nowhere-to-go hands hung in the air for a long time, and finally she loosely dropped them behind her back, trying not to touch Chen Lu.

Closing her eyes, listening to the steady breathing of the person in her arms, the emotions she had been suppressing welled up in her heart, and finally turned into a low sigh, suppressed in the long night.

The room was so quiet that only two intertwined breaths could be heard, clearly the two were skin-to-skin, close at hand, but there seemed to be a cliff between the two hearts that could not be crossed, unable to get closer.

Who fell asleep? Who could fall asleep?

The hazy moonlight quietly shone on the ground, silently witnessing all of this.