SYLM Chapter 95

“Gu Wan Jun, remember what you said.”

Chapter 95 “Gu Wan Jun, remember what you said.”

The summer night at the end of July was filled with a humid and sticky heat, and the few night breezes seemed to be evaporated and melted by the heat. Occasionally, a wisp of coolness that could barely be felt was not enough to dispel the restlessness in the heart.

Chen Lu almost fled in panic.

The scalding temperature on her cheeks seemed to be burning, and the warmth and breath of another person seemed to linger on her rosy lips. Knowing that the person would not chase after her, Chen Lu still quickened her pace in trepidation after leaving the unit door.

She had been drinking and couldn’t drive, so she called a designated driver. About 20 minutes later, the white Benz parked at the gate of the residential complex finally started its engine, carrying Chen Lu away from this damn place.

Chen Lu sat in the back seat of the car, the car window half open. The scenery outside the window receded rapidly, and bizarre light and shadows flashed across her face, just like her mood at the moment, sometimes bright and sometimes dark, a chaotic mess.

After the car sped up, the night wind caressed her face, bringing a little coolness. The scalding temperature on Chen Lu’s cheeks dropped a little, but the waves in her heart could not be calmed.

She unconsciously rubbed the edge of the car window with her fingertips, the icy temperature transmitted through her fingertips, but the heart pounding wildly in her chest was like being roasted by a ball of fire, burning her so she could hardly breathe.

Chen Lu closed her eyes, trying to calm herself down, but Gu Wan Jun’s face seemed to be engraved in her mind, lingering.

Those peach blossom eyes, dignified yet charming, carried a hint of elusive smile, as if mocking her panic.

“Gazing is the prelude to a kiss, Lu Lu, you keep looking at me, who can resist not kissing you.”

The gentle and seductive voice echoed in her ears, with a trace of lazy smile, like some kind of bewitchment. Chen Lu’s brow twitched, and her fingertips almost pinched into her palm.

She didn’t expect Gu Wan Jun to kiss her.

How could Gu Wan Jun kiss her?

Chen Lu bit her back molars.

She should be angry.

And she was indeed angry.

But she wasn’t angry at Gu Wan Jun, but at herself for not pushing Gu Wan Jun away the first time.

Why didn’t she push her away?

“Besides, you also wanted to kiss me.”

Gu Wan Jun’s voice rang in Chen Lu’s ears again, the smile in those beautiful peach blossom eyes this time seemed to have turned into provocation.

Chen Lu’s heart trembled, her fingers clenched the edge of the car window tightly, hurting her fingertips. Her heart pounding wildly was like being pulled by two forces, one side being rational resistance, and the other side being emotional indulgence.

She bit her lip, forcing herself to calm down, but in her mind, she couldn’t help but conjure up Gu Wan Jun’s gentle and beautiful face. Those peach blossom eyes full of smiles and tenderness seemed to be silently inviting her to come closer…

Chen Lu felt her heart beat faster and faster, and her breathing became rapid, like some kind of uncontrollable physiological reaction.

“Isn’t it? You clearly responded to me just now.”

Gu Wan Jun’s voice rang in her ears once again.

Struggling in vain, Chen Lu’s shoulder couldn’t help but tremble. She closed her eyes and declared her defeat in her heart.

She didn’t want to admit it, but Gu Wan Jun was right, she did respond.

In that instant, her few remaining traces of reason were almost drowned by emotion. She couldn’t control herself and could only let herself sink.

She had desire for Gu Wan Jun.

She yearned for Gu Wan Jun.

That kind of yearning was like some kind of flame buried deep in her heart. Once ignited, it could never be extinguished again.

She had to admit that she had never stopped loving Gu Wan Jun for a moment.

But how could she just forgive her like this?

The rainy night five years ago was like a sharp knife hitting her heart. At that time, Gu Wan Jun, like others, gave her up arbitrarily because of the so-called “for your own good” and “future.” This decision caused her to still have nightmares every night, waking up with tears on her face, and never daring to fall asleep again. How could she forgive her so easily?

She couldn’t forgive her, but she couldn’t let her go either.

No matter what relationship the two of them had, the moment Gu Wan Jun reappeared in her life, the chain of fate silently controlled the dagger stuck in her heart, sometimes going in and out, sometimes stirring back and forth, hurting her to the point of wishing she were dead.

Let it go.

Is it difficult to let it go?

Isn’t it good to let it go?

Chen Lu had asked herself this question more than once, and in fact, she had already had the answer in her heart.

If she could really let it go, why would she have come to this day?

About twenty minutes later, the car slowly stopped at the entrance of the residential complex. The designated driver’s voice came from the front: “Miss, we’re here.”

Chen Lu came back to her senses, nodded, opened the car door and got out of the car.

Standing by the roadside, Chen Lu looked up at the night sky. There was fog tonight, and a few stars were faintly visible in the mist, not clearly visible to the naked eye, but they were truly there, just like the relationship between her and Gu Wan Jun.

Chen Lu knew that she couldn’t escape and could only let herself sink.

Even if there was an abyss ahead, she couldn’t turn back.

—-

On the other side.

They watched a movie in the morning, had lunch at noon, and shopped all afternoon. When the car stopped downstairs at Tang Ying’s apartment, it was already dark.

After the two got out of the car, Tang Ying took the key to open the door to the apartment, while Fu Yi Wen opened the trunk to take out the pile of large and small packages she bought in the afternoon.

Looking at the things in the trunk that were almost all bought for herself, Fu Yi Wen was happy, but she couldn’t help but feel sorry for Tang Ying’s wallet:

“I said, let’s buy less next time, okay? I haven’t finished using the perfume you bought me yet, and you’re buying so much again, when will I have to use it all—”

Before Fu Yi Wen could finish her sentence, Tang Ying, who was originally going to open the door, suddenly appeared beside her. Fu Yi Wen was startled, thinking that she had said something wrong and made this person unhappy. Fu Yi Wen immediately opened her mouth to explain:

“What, I’m especially happy when you buy me things. I was just saying it casually, don’t be angry!”

“I’m a little tired after shopping all day, you should go back.”

“Ah… ah?”

The topic changed suddenly, and Fu Yi Wen didn’t react for a moment. She carefully looked at Tang Ying’s expression, but found that she looked as usual, as cold as ever, and couldn’t tell what had happened at all.

Before Fu Yi Wen could figure it out, Tang Ying had already stuffed the car key into her hand:

“It just so happens that the car is full of things bought for you, you can drive my car away, I have other cars in my garage.”

“No, but I—”

“Don’t ‘but’, send me a message when you get home.”

After saying that, Tang Ying turned around and left.

How could Fu Yi Wen obediently listen in this situation? She immediately grabbed Tang Ying’s wrist and asked in a somewhat urgent tone, “What’s wrong? What happened?”

After a moment of silence, Tang Ying looked into Fu Yi Wen’s eyes and said directly, “Tang Lan called me, I have to call back in a while, I’m really not in the mood now.”

“……”

So it was Tang Ying’s mother.

Fu Yi Wen was silent, not knowing what to do. After hesitating for a long time, she tentatively asked, “What’s your mother calling about?”

Tang Ying frowned: “I don’t know.”

“Then… is there anything I can do to help?”

“Going home now is helping me.”

“……”

This was said directly, but it was also an indisputable fact.

Fu Yi Wen couldn’t say anything. She knew that she couldn’t really help, so she obediently listened and drove away. Before leaving, she didn’t forget to tell Tang Ying to call her if anything happened, and she would definitely arrive as soon as possible.

Watching the car disappear into the night, an unspeakable complex emotion flashed in her cold eyes. Tang Ying turned around and returned to the door of the apartment. She didn’t use the key, she just pressed the handle and the door opened.

As soon as the door opened, the light in the entrance was a bit dazzling. The lights in the living room were on, and a woman in a business suit with her long hair neatly tied behind her head was sitting on the sofa.

Who else could it be but her mother, Tang Lan.

Tang Ying closed the door behind her back and vigilantly scanned her home, until—

“Don’t look, the bodyguards and driver are all in the car, it’s just me here.”

Tang Lan’s steady and powerful voice came from the living room, but Tang Ying didn’t relax. She frowned and casually threw the key on the shoe cabinet, her tone quite cold:

“How did you get in?”

Tang Lan didn’t look at her, but instead asked, “You’re already at the door, why didn’t you bring that little girl to meet me?”

Tang Ying’s face turned cold. She ignored her mother’s words and questioned her instead, “This is called trespassing, Director Tang.”

Tang Lan frowned slightly at this sentence “Director Tang”. Those phoenix eyes, similar to Tang Ying’s but with a few more ambitions and dominance, turned to look over, with almost no warmth:

“What’s trespassing about me coming to my daughter’s house?”

“You didn’t even get my permission.”

“Do I need to get your permission?”

“……”

The mother and daughter had the same strong personalities, and neither was willing to bow their heads and give in, which also destined them not to be able to chat together.

Tang Lan didn’t intend to entangle with Tang Ying on this issue. She put the focus of the topic on the girl named Fu Yi Wen again:

“You went out with that little girl again today.”

It wasn’t a question, but a statement.

Tang Ying’s face became even more ugly, and even her eyes became a bit sharper: “Are you following me?”

“Do I even need to follow you? You brazenly took people to your dad’s restaurant for dinner. Even if you warned them not to reveal a word, do you think they wouldn’t dare to tell me?”

“Sure enough, they are all things that can’t control their tongues.”

Tang Ying sneered, with undisguised disdain and anger in her eyes.

Seeming to see her younger self in Tang Ying at this moment, Tang Lan was a little dazed. She twitched the corner of her mouth and picked up another topic:

“We went to several restaurants and shops near the schools in the city today to conduct on-the-spot inspections. SWEET HOME, that little girl’s restaurant is called this, right.”

“……”

Her mother’s words immediately hit the point that Tang Ying cared about the most. She walked straight to the living room and faced her mother, her tone cold and hard:

“What do you mean? I warn you, don’t touch her.”

“Warn me?”

Tang Lan leaned back on the sofa and put on the posture of a superior when she was in a meeting. She raised her eyes, and her tone suddenly turned cold:

“Tang Ying, do you know who you’re talking to right now? Do you still have me as your mother in your eyes?”

The woman in front of her was imposing without being angry. At this moment, her eyes were full of sharpness and indifference. Tang Ying moved her lips. She didn’t want to anger the other party, so she controlled her emotions and changed the subject:

“It shouldn’t be a small matter to get Director Tang to come here in person, right.”

Hearing this, Tang Lan raised her lips with interest, her tone faint:

“You’re right, I didn’t come for her today. I said, as long as it doesn’t affect me, I won’t care about your cats and dogs.”

“Then why are you here today?”

Tang Lan unbuttoned her suit jacket, and her originally strong tone became a little gentler: “I was dizzy from the car ride and wanted to find a place to rest, so I just happened to pass by your place.”

“……”

Tang Ying laughed at this full of loopholes reason. When did they become the kind of mother and daughter who could meet at any time?

Tang Ying subconsciously wanted to retort, but the next second she suddenly found that her mother Tang Lan was pressing her temples with her hands with her eyes closed, and she seemed to have drunk a lot of wine. Tang Ying walked forward two steps and vaguely smelled the mixture of smoke and alcohol on Tang Lan’s body.

Tang Lan herself doesn’t smoke. Except for necessary occasions and dinners, she doesn’t even drink alcohol in private.

But sitting in this position, this position watched by thousands of eyes, what occasions and dinners could lack alcohol?

The words of retort were stuck in her throat, but in the end she didn’t say them. Tang Ying went straight to the kitchen. She took a bottle of iced mineral water from the refrigerator and handed it to Tang Lan. A trace of unnaturalness flashed across Tang Lan’s expression, but in the end she took the bottle of mineral water.

“I thought you only had alcohol in your house.”

“The things in the refrigerator were all bought by Fu Yi Wen.”

“Is that why you like her?”

“……”

The topic went back to Fu Yi Wen again. Tang Ying stared at her mother without saying anything.

After drinking the iced mineral water, the burning sensation in her stomach was relieved. Tang Lan looked up at Tang Ying:

“Did you pay for that SWEET HOME restaurant?”

“No.” Tang Ying shook her head decisively: “At first, I wanted to pay, but Fu Yi Wen didn’t agree. She rented the store with the money she earned from working part-time in college.”

Tang Lan nodded, her tone unclear whether it was disdain or some other emotion: “I knew that such a small restaurant wasn’t your style.”

Tang Ying didn’t speak. After a moment of silence, Tang Lan put the mineral water on the table, raised her eyes and continued to ask:

“What do you like about that kid? Young? Pretty? Good figure? Or is it because she’s willing to revolve around you alone?”

Tang Ying frowned. She didn’t want to discuss any issues about Fu Yi Wen with her mother and skipped the topic directly:

“Do you feel better? If you feel better, go back. I’m tired and want to rest.”

As soon as the words fell, the face that had looked a bit kind suddenly sank.

Tang Lan didn’t like others talking to her like this, especially her daughter Tang Ying.

In fact, sitting in her current position, almost no one dared to talk to her like this. The only person who dared to confront her head-on every time was Tang Ying.

As they say, mother and daughter, their personalities are like they were carved from the same mold.

Tang Lan got up from the sofa, picked up the half-bottle of mineral water, and before leaving, she didn’t forget to drop a cold sentence:

“No matter how you play, remember what I said, take care of the cats and dogs around you.”

A few seconds later, the door opened and locked again, leaving only Tang Ying alone in the living room.

A faint smell of alcohol lingered in the air. Tang Ying frowned slightly and got up to come to the French window.

The city lights outside the window were brilliant, but Tang Ying’s eyes were cold and lonely. She looked out the window with a Deepgaze, watching her mother’s car leave.

The night was as dark as ink, so thick that it seemed to swallow everything.

The car sped along the intricate streets, and the hand holding the steering wheel was slightly tight. Fu Yi Wen’s eyes were fixed on the road ahead, but her thoughts had long drifted away.

What did Tang Ying’s mother want to talk to Tang Ying about?

Was it to ask Tang Ying to attend some dinner again?

Would she make things difficult for Tang Ying?

Hundreds of questions flashed through her mind, and Fu Yi Wen felt her head was about to explode, but she had no way to help. She couldn’t help Tang Ying at all.

She knew that Tang Ying’s mother Tang Lan was a strong woman. She had been in politics for many years and had strong wrists. Even Tang Ying was afraid of her. Every time Tang Lan appeared, Tang Ying’s emotions would become unusually low, even a little irritable.

Fu Yi Wen recalled the first time she saw Tang Lan, which was at Tang Ying’s wedding five years ago. Tang Lan was wearing a neat suit, imposing without being angry, and unsmiling. Anyone who saw her strong aura would be intimidated.

At that time, Fu Yi Wen was just a high school graduate. When she was at the wedding, she heard that she was Tang Ying’s student. Tang Lan only said a faint “Young people, study hard” and then didn’t look at her again.

The memories stopped and returned to the present. Tang Ying’s sentence “Going home now is helping me” kept echoing in Fu Yi Wen’s mind, making her head ache.

Could she really not help her…

A sense of powerlessness surged in Fu Yi Wen’s heart. She knew that the gap between herself and Tang Ying was not only age, but also family background, social status, and even the world they were in. Tang Ying’s world was complicated, full of interests and threats, and she, Fu Yi Wen, was just an ordinary person. Besides sending Tang Ying food and accompanying Tang Ying to go shopping every day, she seemed to be unable to do anything.

The car drove through a prosperous street, and the neon lights flickered, reflecting on Fu Yi Wen’s face, but her eyes became even more dim.

She couldn’t help but wonder, what could she do for Tang Ying? Could she support Tang Ying like Tang Lan, or would she always have to stand behind Tang Ying, watching Tang Ying face those storms alone? Or even if there was a worse situation, she might need Tang Ying to protect her?

Thinking of this, a burst of panic surged in Fu Yi Wen’s heart. She subconsciously drove the car very fast, wanting to get rid of all the powerlessness, helplessness, frustration, and panic, but no matter what she did, she was trapped in a cage called reality, and there was nowhere to escape.

If the night makes people breed fear, can dawn bring courage?

No one can answer this question.

The next day. Sunday.

Grandma Gu came to Gu Wan Jun’s house early in the morning to pick up her granddaughter Duo Duo to play at her house.

After seeing off her daughter and mother, Gu Wan Jun prepared to change the sheets and clean the house as usual.

Perhaps because of the kiss last night, she didn’t close her eyes all night, but she was particularly energetic at the moment.

Just as the four-piece bedding set was put into the washing machine, the phone on the living room table suddenly vibrated twice. Gu Wan Jun put down the laundry detergent in her hand and walked over to unlock it. A look of disbelief flashed in her eyes instantly.

Two WeChat messages, both from the blue solid color avatar that was pinned to the top.

Lu Lu: [Are you at home now? Do you have time?]

Lu Lu: [I want to talk to you.]

These two short messages made Gu Wan Jun, who suspected she was hallucinating, read them over and over again many times.

Chen Lu wanted to talk to her.

If there were no accidents, it should be because of the kiss yesterday.

No matter what, being willing to talk was a good sign.

The corners of Gu Wan Jun’s mouth couldn’t help but rise. She typed a reply: [Okay, Duo Duo went to her grandma’s house anyway, I’m at home, come here.]

After sending the message, Gu Wan Jun calmed her excited mood and went straight to the kitchen, opened the refrigerator, and thought about making soup for Chen Lu with the leftover ingredients from yesterday.

About forty minutes later, the kitchen was filled with the aroma of thick soup. At the same time, there was a knock on the door.

Before opening the door, Gu Wan Jun looked at her lightly made-up face in the mirror and, after confirming that everything was okay, walked to the door and opened it.

“Lu Lu, you’re here.”

“Gu Wan Jun, what exactly do you want?”

Chen Lu didn’t waste any words and went straight to the topic. There were faint dark circles under her eyes, obviously she didn’t sleep well last night.

Anticipating this result, Gu Wan Jun wasn’t too surprised. She smiled, grabbed Chen Lu’s wrist and led her into the kitchen:

“You came at the right time. I cooked your favorite soup, come and try it.”

“……”

Chen Lu bit her back molars, not buying it. She shook off Gu Wan Jun’s hand with a cold face, her tone cold and firm, beyond doubt: “I’ve made it very clear to you, I don’t like you anymore.”

“The soup should be drunk while it’s hot, I’ll give you—”

“Gu Wan Jun, I’ve had enough!”

Her beautiful eyebrows twisted together, and the emotions that had been suppressed in Chen Lu’s heart finally broke out:

“How long are you going to pester me like this?”

Seeing that Chen Lu was serious, Gu Wan Jun stopped dwelling on the soup issue. Seeming to have made some kind of decision, she pursed her lips, took a step forward, looked into Chen Lu’s eyes, and said seriously, word by word:

“Pester you until you say you love me again.”

“I’ve said it, I don’t like you anymore, I don’t love you anymore.”

“I can wait, I can work hard, I can fight for it, I can make you fall in love with me again.”

“I won’t repeat the same mistakes.”

“I won’t let you repeat the same mistakes.”

Gu Wan Jun carefully took Chen Lu’s hand and promised seriously: “Lu Lu, please give me another chance, I… I really love you, I can’t live without you, I won’t mess it up this time, really, please believe me.”

These words had been hidden in her heart for many years. The moment they came out, Gu Wan Jun couldn’t control her trembling voice, and even couldn’t restrain her eyes from souring and turning red.

Eye to eye, Chen Lu was obviously stunned. Her lips moved slightly, and her eyes were filled with something that Gu Wan Jun couldn’t see clearly.

One second, two seconds, three seconds… so long that Gu Wan Jun thought several centuries had passed, Chen Lu suddenly stared into her eyes and spoke, her tone incomprehensible: “Gu Wan Jun, remember what you said.”

After saying that, Chen Lu gently broke free from Gu Wan Jun’s hand and turned to leave.

Remember what you said? What did Lu Lu mean by that?

Chen Lu’s ambiguous answer left Gu Wan Jun a little confused. She blinked her eyes and was about to chase after her when Chen Lu turned around, her tone cold:

“Don’t follow me, before we meet next time, I hope you can figure out what I just said.”

“……”

What she just said? That sentence “Remember what you said?”

What exactly does this mean?

Could it be that Lu Lu is willing to give her another chance?

Gu Wan Jun’s thoughts were flying, but she couldn’t figure it out for a while, so she could only watch Chen Lu leave.

In the next few hours, Gu Wan Jun still couldn’t figure out what this sentence meant, even after she had no idea when the thick soup in the pot had been boiled dry.

Gu Wan Jun, remember what you said.

Gu Wan Jun carefully recalled what Chen Lu had said. She couldn’t wait to break this sentence apart and experience the tone and emotion of each word. As she thought about it later, she even almost forgot what Chen Lu’s emotions and expressions were when she said this.

It wasn’t until the phone on the cabinet rang continuously that Gu Wan Jun pulled herself out of her messy thoughts and picked up the phone to see that it was Tang Ying’s call.

“Gu Wan Jun, come to Fu Yi Wen’s restaurant right now.”

In the phone, Tang Ying’s tone was urgent, with a hint of undeniable strength.

Chen Lu’s answer a few hours ago made Gu Wan Jun feel like grass was growing in her heart. How could she be in the mood to eat now?

“Tang Ying, Lu Lu came a few hours ago, I’m a little confused right now, you—”

“I don’t have time to care about your confusion right now!”

In the receiver, Tang Ying’s tone was quite serious: “If you don’t come, your girlfriend is going to have a new girlfriend.”

“……”