TTOA Chapter 54

#54

Kwon Jae-jin placed his palm on Seo Eui-woo’s face. He gently brushed his fingertips across it.

It was a contact that felt unbelievably long overdue.

It felt like an eternity.

“Ah.”

Seo Eui-woo, taken aback to the point of being flustered, widened his eyes. Kwon Jae-jin voluntarily Guiding him felt like a miracle.

For a moment, his ability wavered.

The invisible force pressing down on Jae-jin’s face dissipated, and the heavy, oppressive air thinned. Taking advantage of the gap, Kwon Jae-jin rose to his feet.

“Memories, please… Seo Eui-woo, my memories, please. Even a small part is fine. I don’t care how little, just bring them back.”

With an unpleasant frown and panting breath, Kwon Jae-jin approached Seo Eui-woo. He cupped and stroked his cheeks desperately, voluntarily embracing him. But this was far from enough.

Jae-jin’s chin trembled as he pushed his head against Seo Eui-woo. So that his lips overlapped with his.

Perhaps missing slightly, Kwon Jae-jin kissed the corner of Seo Eui-woo’s mouth. But it didn’t matter. Wherever he kissed, he was beside himself.

“Don’t you want to Guide? You want it, don’t you? I’ll give it to you.”

Jae-jin breathlessly spoke, rubbing his lips haphazardly against any part of his face.

“I’ll just give it to you, so let’s try to restore my memories just once, okay? Or even just try. Look into my head again, just once more. Maybe there’s something you didn’t find last time. Maybe there’s a clue to restore it…”

Jae-jin kissed Seo Eui-woo repeatedly. Seo Eui-woo remained stiff as a lightning-struck tree before contorting his face fiercely.

He couldn’t refuse Kwon Jae-jin’s touch. Yet, the situation, where he had to refuse, was more than terrible; it was atrocious.

“Kugh, uh… Are you telling me to gamble now? With Kwon Jae-jin’s life on the line?”

Seo Eui-woo stiffly turned his head away, avoiding his lips.

Kwon Jae-jin grabbed Seo Eui-woo by the collar and pulled him back, clinging to him. He adjusted the angle so that their mucous membranes properly connected and mixed his tongue with his.

“Eui-woo. Eui-woo. Seo Eui-woo…”

It had been so long that he even felt overwhelmed with emotion. He felt like he might burst into tears any moment.

Kwon Jae-jin forcibly pushed Seo Eui-woo onto the bed and straddled him. Seo Eui-woo glared up at Kwon Jae-jin with ferocious eyes, grinding his teeth, and Kwon Jae-jin hastily pushed away the blanket covering his body.

“I’ll Guide you. Let’s do it, Guiding! Just, stop already…! Seo Eui-woo, you step back too. Each of us, one step.”

Jae-jin crossed his arms and desperately ripped off the T-shirt he was wearing. He threw the clothes to the floor and clung to him again. He was desperate to take off the turtleneck Seo Eui-woo was wearing.

Seo Eui-woo forcefully grabbed and held Kwon Jae-jin’s arm as he tried to push his hand inside his clothes. Seo Eui-woo, unable to control his strength, rejected Kwon Jae-jin violently.

“Shut up. Don’t say nonsense! If I was going to agree to that kind of offer, I wouldn’t have held back until now.”

Seo Eui-woo slammed Jae-jin’s grabbed wrist onto the head of the bed. Then, with his other hand, he frantically grabbed the blanket.

He needed to quickly, right now, cover and hide Kwon Jae-jin’s bare skin.

Kwon Jae-jin resisted as much as he could to prevent Seo Eui-woo from doing so.

“Ha, when it’s you using me to masturbate however you please, it’s fine! Now you’re backing out! Don’t pretend to be rational all alone with those crazy eyes.”

He knew how he looked at Kwon Jae-jin with those gleaming gray eyes.

Acting as if he would commit murder if he couldn’t touch, lick, and penetrate him right away.

Why was he pointlessly resisting even when he was offering to Guide him!

Kwon Jae-jin struggled and pressed his knees into the inside of Seo Eui-woo’s thighs. Even though this was contact through clothes, Seo Eui-woo reacted with a noticeably contorted expression. Besides, he was already erect even before he touched him.

“Euk!”

Seo Eui-woo gasped roughly and bent his back. He instinctively reached out to touch Kwon Jae-jin, but clenched his fist and barely suppressed his desires.

But Seo Eui-woo’s ability couldn’t be controlled. The power he released tore the blanket to shreds, and Kwon Jae-jin stretched out his arm through the gaps in the pieces of fabric that no longer functioned as a shield.

He grabbed Seo Eui-woo by the collar, pulled him close, and attacked his haggard face before he could stop him.

Their lips met passionately, separated, and met again.

“Just, give up! How long are you going to do this? I’m sick of it! Guide me. I want to. Let’s do it!”

“Jae-jin, you’re the one who should give up! Memories, that crap! You don’t need them. It doesn’t hinder your life, it doesn’t hinder your life, you can just forget it and live, why are you making such a fuss!”

Kissing as if fighting, the two completely lost their reason.

“A fuss? Did you just say a fuss…? You’re just an Esper so you don’t know anything about it, but for ordinary people living in ordinary society, family is as important as anything. That’s common sense!”

“Yeah, I don’t know, that kind of common sense! What is family, I don’t know that crap, I just need Kwon Jae-jin. Look, it’s simple… Can’t Jae-jin just think about it as easily as I do?”

“Family isn’t disposable trash that you can use and throw away as you please! It’s something that can’t be exchanged for anything else, one and only… It’s defined as such a unique existence, you bastard…!”

Jae-jin grabbed and tugged at Seo Eui-woo’s clothes. He tried to take off his clothes several times but was pushed away, and Seo Eui-woo’s actions became increasingly violent.

He pushed Kwon Jae-jin away violently, causing Jae-jin to hit his head hard on the headboard of the bed. His skull rang numbly. Kwon Jae-jin, feeling dizzy, staggered, unable to maintain his balance.

“Keuheuk!”

“So, are you going to live with your family forever, Kwon Jae-jin? No, you’re going to live with me.”

In the meantime, Seo Eui-woo subdued Kwon Jae-jin. He pressed his shoulders against the wall and twisted his wrist joints so he couldn’t reach out his arm again.

Stopping at a point where he wouldn’t get hurt, but just couldn’t move, was not an easy task for Seo Eui-woo right now.

“You won’t be able to meet those people anyway, and even if you remember them, it’s useless… So just remember me in this stubborn and picky head! Just me!”

“Ha, so…! Is that what you really wanted all along? A Kwon Jae-jin who only remembers Seo Eui-woo, who only knows Seo Eui-woo?”

Jae-jin, his arm twisted, wiggled his fingers and shook his head violently.

He didn’t know what to do at all. He was shocked because he honestly hadn’t expected Seo Eui-woo to refuse to this extent. Kwon Jae-jin thought that if he reached out his hand to Guide first, Seo Eui-woo would naturally say yes.

But so vehemently…

He didn’t expect this…

“Seo Eui-woo, are you perhaps scared? In the unlikely event that the restoration succeeds, and I regain my memories, are you terrified that I’ll try to return to my family, and that’s why you’re doing this now?”

Kwon Jae-jin’s black eyes trembled without focus. He couldn’t figure out what to do or how to do it. And of course, Seo Eui-woo’s eyes were just as gone.

Seo Eui-woo was thrashing around like someone who was experiencing being so angry and conflicted for the first time in his life.

“I’ll kill you. I’ll kill you! And, if that’s true, if the restoration succeeds, and you regain your memories, will you abandon me? Will you go back? Do you want to? If that’s the case, I really can’t do it. Am I crazy enough to do that for you? Are you going to go! Huh? Answer me directly with that mouth!”

“I’m not going back! Goddamn it, I’m not going back…! I’m a Mutant anyway, and I’ll be killed if I go back, so what am I going there for? I’m not going! I told you I’d live with you, you bastard, have you forgotten already?”

“So, what I’m saying now is that! If you die if something goes wrong while trying to restore your memories, why are you trying to bring back past memories? Just live with me, you bastard!”

“I don’t know! You crazy bastard, just Guide me quickly. Hurry… Guiding, let’s Guide! I feel like I’m going to die right now before my head melts. Guiding, I want to.”

“D-, goddamn it… Don’t say you’re going to die…”

The storm of conversation stopped at that moment.

Seo Eui-woo took a deep breath and glanced down at Kwon Jae-jin, who was subdued by his hand. His cold gray eyes were fixated on Kwon Jae-jin’s half-naked state, unable to break away. He compulsively scanned Jae-jin’s body, which seemed a little thinner than before, like a possessed person.

Feeling his gaze, Jae-jin babbled incoherently.

“Seo Eui-woo, suck my tongue. And, inside, stick your dick in my belly.”

“……”

“You can tear my hole now. I don’t care! Hurry, hurry… Eui-woo. Keueuk.”

The surroundings around the two of them shook greatly.

As ripples spread when a water droplet falls on a calm surface, rough waves spread around Kwon Jae-jin and Seo Eui-woo.

Seo Eui-woo sharply raised his fierce eyes. Then, he trembled his long, thin, beautiful eyelashes and reaffirmed Kwon Jae-jin’s intention.