TSBIR Chapter 58

Chapter 58: Ji Yan’s Confession

“Where’s my brother?”

Shen Xingyang saw Ji Yan return and looked behind him, but Shen Jinjue wasn’t there.

“The Major General said that if you want him to come, you should go and invite him yourself, and show some sincerity.”

Shen Xingyang scratched his ear. Okay.

This time, his brother was truly angry and wasn’t easy to coax.

Ji Yan looked at Shen Xingyang, seemingly lost in thought, his face full of hesitation.

“Brother Ji Yan, I’m the one who made my brother angry. His not coming is my fault, it has nothing to do with you.”

Shen Xingyang assumed Ji Yan was blaming himself for not bringing Shen Jinjue back.

“Young Master.”

Ji Yan “thumped” and knelt down in front of Shen Xingyang. Shen Xingyang didn’t know what was happening and subconsciously went to help him up.

“Brother Ji Yan, what are you doing?”

“Young Master, I was the one who did the thing with Song Yichen. The Major General only asked me to bring Miss Yun back to Mu City and make her bring up the engagement. As for the subsequent drugging, that was all my own doing.”

Shen Xingyang looked at Ji Yan in disbelief. For a moment, he didn’t know where to put his hand that was resting on Ji Yan’s shoulder.

“Brother Ji Yan, do you know what you’re saying?”

How could Ji Yan have done this? He didn’t have any grudges against Song Yichen.

If he did it for Shen Jinjue, that was even less likely. Ji Yan couldn’t not know how much harm it would cause his brother to hurt Song Yichen.

“I know, Young Master. In the past, when you were with Yin Yan, the Major General agreed, and I couldn’t do anything. But now, the Major General doesn’t approve of you being with Song Yichen, so I thought this would separate you. I regretted it after doing it, but it was too late.”

“Young Master, you can punish me however you want, I’ll accept it.”

Ji Yan looked at Shen Xingyang, finally saying these words. It turned out it wasn’t that difficult.

Actually, when he went to see Shen Jinjue, Shen Jinjue knew he hadn’t told Shen Xingyang the truth as soon as he opened his mouth.

So he was forced to tell him to say it, and only then did he come back and explain it to Shen Xingyang clearly. But at the moment he said it, he felt an unprecedented sense of relief.

Shen Xingyang looked at Ji Yan, as if he suddenly understood the look in Ji Yan’s eyes. Usually, Ji Yan cared about him a lot, even more indulgent than Shen Jinjue.

Over the years, when he made mistakes, Ji Yan had shielded him more than once. He only thought that Ji Yan was genuinely good to him, which was why he was like this, but he didn’t expect that he harbored such thoughts.

In his previous life, he never returned after going to the training camp, and he never saw him even when the Shen family was in trouble. But in this life, Ji Yan came back as soon as he broke up with Yin Yan.

So everything had a pattern. In his previous life, was it because he wasn’t with Ji Yan that he chose to stand by and watch everything happen to the Shen family, to his brother, to himself?

He smiled bitterly and helped Ji Yan up: “The punishments that should be given have already been given, what else is there to punish? That matter is already in the past. Brother Ji Yan, I remember that you always wanted to make a career in the military camp. If that’s the case, then go back to my brother’s side.”

Hearing this, Ji Yan looked at Shen Xingyang with hurt in his eyes.

“Young Master, I don’t want to leave, I just want to stay with you.”

“Ji Yan, then tell me, during the time you’ve liked me, you’ve watched me every day, watching me have no secrets in front of you, helping me bathe and change clothes when I’m sick, what were you thinking then?”

Shen Xingyang was on the verge of collapse. He imagined those past events, and he really had no secrets in front of Ji Yan, holding nothing back.

He had just been putting on a brave face of composure, but no one could accept that someone they regarded as a brother had such thoughts about them, including him.

Ji Yan was silent. He had nothing to say, and he didn’t dare to say his dirty thoughts.

Shen Xingyang squatted down: “Ji Yan, when you saw the marks Song Yichen left on me, did you ever think about replacing him?”

Ji Yan’s face became paler and paler in Shen Xingyang’s blunt words. His lips moved, but he couldn’t deny it.

“Brother Ji Yan, you make me feel like an idiot.”

Shen Xingyang’s eyes were red. Why did he have to do this to him? What had he done wrong? How long had Ji Yan liked him?

He had acted spoiled towards someone who liked him, confided in him, and told him about his emotional experiences. Ji Yan had helped him solve problems and analyze things like a family member.

But what were Ji Yan’s true thoughts in his heart?

He still remembered that the first time he wanted to give himself to Song Yichen, he was afraid that it would hurt like Yin Yan had done to him in his previous life, so he deliberately asked Ji Yan.

He asked Ji Yan how to make it not hurt, and Ji Yan seriously looked for methods for him, analyzed things with him, and told him what to prepare.

Ji Yan had spoken so logically, and he only thought that Ji Yan just wanted to help him, but now it seemed, when he helped him find those materials, was he really without any desire?

Thinking of this, Shen Xingyang actually felt a little disgusted and wanted to throw up.

“Young Master.”

Ji Yan looked at Shen Xingyang like this and felt a little uncomfortable, wanting to go forward to comfort him, but he had no position to do so.

Wasn’t he the one who made Shen Xingyang like this?

“Ji Yan, go to my brother’s place. I don’t have any right to make you tell me everything, and Song Yichen’s matter is also in the past. But there’s no place for you here.”

Even for Song Yichen’s sake, Shen Xingyang couldn’t keep someone who liked him by his side.

Shen Xingyang didn’t say too much to Ji Yan, turning around to give Ji Yan time to consider, and went to Shen Manor himself. If he stayed any longer, he was really afraid that he would say some unbearable words.

So he had misunderstood Shen Jinjue. No wonder he was so angry.

Shen Xingyang didn’t go anywhere else, and went straight to the floor where Shen Jinjue lived.

Shen Jinjue wasn’t surprised by his arrival and didn’t even bother to look up at him.

“Who’s this? A rare guest.”

Hearing this sarcastic tone, Shen Xingyang only felt guilty.

“Brother, I’m sorry.”

Shen Jinjue snorted coldly: “Don’t, how could you be sorry?”

Shen Xingyang walked forward, put his arms around Shen Jinjue’s neck, and leaned his whole body against Shen Jinjue.

“Brother, I was really wrong, can you forgive me, please?”

Shen Xingyang apologized to Shen Jinjue like he did when he was a child. The soft voice made Shen Jinjue couldn’t help but glance at him.

But he hardened his heart and forcibly pulled Shen Xingyang, who was clinging to him, away.

“How old are you, still like this? Weren’t you quite impressive before, even threatening me.”

Shen Jinjue turned his head, pretending not to want to see Shen Xingyang.

“Brother, wasn’t I just anxious at the time? Song Yichen was so uncomfortable, as his boyfriend, how could I just watch?”

“Yes, you only have that boyfriend, Song Yichen, in your eyes, not your brother, you heartless thing.”