TSBIR Chapter 31

Chapter 31: Confession

Shen Xingyang had just arrived at Song Manor when he discovered that photos of him meeting with Yin Yan had been posted online.

Instantly, various speculations arose. The photos were rather blurry, making it difficult to discern their faces, but it was clear that the two were embracing, and it could be recognized that one of them was Yin Yan.

Many people were also guessing who was with Yin Yan.

Now, everyone knew about Yin Yan’s relationship. Shen Xingyang knew that since Yin Yan hadn’t tried to hide anything today, he would inevitably be discovered.

He didn’t really care; it was all unsubstantiated rumors. But if his brother found out, he’d probably ask a barrage of questions again.

Song Yichen was working overtime today. He was about to leave work when he saw a message from Gu Ze.

He deliberately zoomed in on the photo. Without a doubt, the photo was real, and Shen Xingyang hadn’t resisted, obediently allowing Yin Yan to hug him.

He was immediately furious. Why didn’t Shen Xingyang learn his lesson? Did he still want to be with Yin Yan?

Shen Jinjue might still be biased towards Yin Yan and wouldn’t do anything to him, but that didn’t mean he would continue to allow such a dangerous person to remain by Shen Xingyang’s side.

“Brother, it’s nothing. Don’t believe those news reports; they’re all based on speculation and have no real basis.”

Shen Xingyang hung up the phone, turning around in annoyance. He had finally managed to appease his brother.

But as he turned, he saw Song Yichen standing by the door, looking at him with a puzzled expression.

“What’s wrong, Doctor Song?”

Song Yichen didn’t say anything, but walked towards him, showing no particular expression, but giving Shen Xingyang the feeling that Song Yichen was in a very bad mood.

“Shen Xingyang.”

Shen Xingyang tilted his head in confusion, just as Song Yichen lowered his head.

Shen Xingyang retreated in a panic, but at some point, Song Yichen had wrapped his arm around his waist, preventing him from backing away.

Only then did Shen Xingyang realize that it hadn’t been an accident; Song Yichen had done it on purpose.

Shen Xingyang couldn’t push Song Yichen away, so he stopped moving and simply closed his eyes.

Song Yichen was very careful and gentle, completely different from Yin Yan. Song Yichen was truly considerate of his feelings.

After a long time, Song Yichen finally released him, but his hand remained on Shen Xingyang’s waist.

Shen Xingyang then realized what had just happened and pushed Song Yichen away abruptly.

“Um… haven’t you eaten yet? Go eat quickly.”

Shen Xingyang said, trying to escape.

Song Yichen grabbed his hand and pulled him back.

“Shen Xingyang, I just kissed you. Do you understand what I mean?”

Song Yichen looked at Shen Xingyang, holding his hand tightly, not wanting him to run away.

Shen Xingyang lowered his head, not daring to look at Song Yichen. The medical wristband on his hand lit up at some point, the numbers on it constantly jumping and changing.

“Shen Xingyang, your heart is beating fast.”

Song Yichen glanced at Shen Xingyang’s wristband, leaned down, and got close to Shen Xingyang’s ear.

Shen Xingyang’s face looked quite calm, but his ears were red and hot. As soon as Song Yichen got close to his ear, he felt the heat.

At that moment, Shen Xingyang only wished he couldn’t hear anything. If Song Yichen hadn’t been holding him, he probably would have run away.

“Shen Xingyang, look up, look at me.”

But Shen Xingyang kept his head down, wanting to hide himself.

Song Yichen gently placed his hand on the back of Shen Xingyang’s neck, smoothing over his hot earlobe.

“Really not going to look up?”

Song Yichen said softly, about to kiss him again.

“Song Yichen… Enough!”

Shen Xingyang raised his head, but turned to the other side.

Song Yichen forcibly turned Shen Xingyang’s head, looking directly at him.

“Shen Xingyang, I like you.”

Shen Xingyang looked at Song Yichen in shock. He couldn’t believe what he had heard, but when he saw the look in Song Yichen’s eyes, Shen Xingyang was stunned. Did Song Yichen usually look at him with such eyes?

It was an undisguised affection, a possessive gaze.

“Shen Xingyang, I want to be with you. You can choose to reject me, but you must face your own inner feelings. You can think about your state of mind right now. Is it different from usual? Or ask yourself, why is your heart beating so fast?”

Song Yichen’s voice was incredibly gentle, a completely different kind of gentleness from usual.

But Shen Xingyang was in turmoil. He only felt hot all over, his heart was beating fast, a kind of inexplicable nervousness. He couldn’t explain what it felt like, but he didn’t want to reject Song Yichen.

“I don’t know.”

Song Yichen released Shen Xingyang’s neck and took his hand, interlacing their fingers.

“You can choose to let go of my hand now, but do you want to?”

Shen Xingyang shook his head without hesitation. He liked Song Yichen holding his hand; it felt very safe.

“Have you thought it through? If you don’t let go now, I won’t let you let go in the future.”

Song Yichen smiled gently, completely giving the choice to Shen Xingyang, not rushing him for an answer.

Shen Xingyang looked at their intertwined hands. For some reason, the thought of letting go made him feel a little uncomfortable.

“Then I won’t let go.”

Song Yichen smiled happily, tightening his grip on Shen Xingyang’s hand.

“Shen Xingyang, look down at your heart rate.”

Shen Xingyang looked at it questioningly. His heart rate was indeed much faster, but why did Song Yichen want him to look at it?

Song Yichen continued to wrap his arm around Shen Xingyang’s waist, bringing him even closer.

“Remember, this feeling of accelerated heartbeat is called liking. Your relationship with Yin Yan doesn’t count.”

Shen Xingyang’s face flushed red. Liking? When did he start liking Song Yichen? So this feeling was liking?

“When did you know I liked you?”

Shen Xingyang raised his head and asked softly.

Song Yichen smiled. “Just now.”

He had been quite angry, thinking that Shen Xingyang was still entangled with Yin Yan. He had kissed Shen Xingyang out of anger and irrationality. It wasn’t until he saw Shen Xingyang’s changing heart rate that he realized Shen Xingyang liked him.

That’s why he dared to say those words later. Otherwise, he didn’t know when he would have the courage to say them.

Shen Xingyang suddenly thought of the kiss just now. So that’s how he found out?

“You feel a little nervous when you see them, you hope they pay attention to you, talk to you, treat you differently from others, you also pay attention to their likes and dislikes, want to know your position in their heart, you are happy when they are happy, and you are even more sad when they are sad, and you will also have some desires that you cannot control.”

Song Yichen patiently explained to Shen Xingyang, his eyes fixed on Shen Xingyang.

Shen Xingyang listened quietly to Song Yichen’s description, thinking about his past with Song Yichen. It seemed that what Song Yichen said was true.

But he no longer knew when he had started to like him, was it from the night Song Yichen told him that he didn’t have to wrong himself, or was it the day when he was wronged by Shen Jinjue, and Song Yichen comforted him.

Or maybe it was when Song Yichen helped him see a doctor every day, gave him various checkups, or bought him a cake every week, watching him eat it with a smile. Shen Xingyang himself didn’t know.

“Shen Xingyang, I want to know, what was your initial thought when I kissed you just now? Disgust? Or some other feeling?”

Shen Xingyang shook his head violently. “No disgust.”

Shen Xingyang was just a little incredulous at first, and his later struggles were due to surprise, but because he couldn’t break free, he accepted it, and unexpectedly found that it was not bad.

Song Yichen looked at him, his lips moved, but he didn’t speak, as if thinking about the truthfulness of Shen Xingyang’s words.

Shen Xingyang was worried that he had other ideas, so he looked at Song Yichen and said again.

“I liked it very much.”

After Shen Xingyang finished saying this, Song Yichen pinched the back of his neck and kissed him hard.

This time it was not just a tentative touch, but a constant deepening.

Shen Xingyang had some difficulty breathing, wanting to back away, but Song Yichen made it impossible for him to avoid, so he could only raise his head and accept it.

“That was called a test just now, this is called a kiss.”

Song Yichen looked at Shen Xingyang’s face turning red, and then reluctantly let go of him, then hugged the limp Shen Xingyang and whispered in his ear.